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Guys, enough with the mind games. Whether you like it or not, Thursday is coming. Sure, Thursday is technically a fiction. But the reality is still the same that this human experience, dream, or whatever you wanna call it is going to end. The words on this post you are reading right now is going to end. If I start my exercise, it is going to end. If you start breathing, it is going to end. Death is a simple law of nature. Everything is always changing. There will be a point where your body will vanish. Direct experience is your evidence. Your problem is that you are not getting in touch with the actuality of death. Go lay yourself down on a railroad track and meditate on death being imaginary. Sure, it is imaginary like tomorrow is, but it is also as real as a kick in the balls. It is moronic to say that death is imaginary because that is like saying the pain is imaginary. If you can feel pain, you admit that it has a reality of you experiencing it vs you just conceptualizing it. Of course, death doesn’t exist while you are living and living doesn’t exist while you are dead. Death is like sleep. You are going to sleep tonight whether you like it or not. You might say, no R0ckyreed I am awake right now and sleep is imaginary. Well, you being awake right now is also imaginary from the standpoint of being asleep. But the fact is that if imagination is reality, then sleep and death are realities that you will experience. Sleep goes by in a blink of an eye, and so does death and life, and all your alleged past lives and future lives if you believe in such things. I don’t see any reason to believe that I am somehow different from other humans around me who will also perish. It is foolish to believe you are different from the laws of consciousness. What evidence do you have that your human form won’t change and eventually perish. If you argue that death is imaginary, then you are essentially arguing that change doesn’t exist. And this view is not in alignment with reality.

Because Leo is an ego and not Infinity

So, I do not know about Leo Gura nor Jed Mckenna's current position on meditation, so I am stating this based off of what they have said in the past. It is my understanding right now that Leo and Jed McKenna think that meditation is a Buddhist game and will not lead to awakening nor enlightenment. I even wrote an old post about how Jed Mckenna is against the idea of meditation but then advocates for it through his Spiritual Autolysis method for madness. I remember Leo making an old blog post about saying that meditation will not awaken you. But then I was thinking that meditation is not about the end result but about the process of increasing consciousness throughout the day towards the present moment. It is about witnessing and being aware of the God/Divine within and all around. It just seemed from Leo and Jed that meditation will not lead to awakening. But what is awakening if you take psychedelics once a week and then the rest of the week, you are scrolling on TikTok, going to bars, and drinking beer? It seems unrealistic to take psychedelics every day to remain awake in the God-State. It is just another dopamine spike chase. Therefore, I really do not think it matters whether meditation will lead you to the highest peak of all AWAKENING. I think meditation is about bringing more awareness and mindfulness throughout the day. To me personally, I have changed my definition of meditation. I still think that sitting down and counting breaths is a waste of time. I am reading Osho's book on meditation, and he talks about how there are right and wrong ways to meditate. He states that at the end of the day, meditation is about increasing awareness and is not about concentration. With concentration we focus on 1% of reality and dismiss 99% of it. I think meditation is important even if it doesn't produce any AWAKENING because what is the alternative? You are going to dissociate and scroll on TikTok after you reach God-Realization on a psychedelic. But I would actually challenge that if you did reach Truth-Realization, you would meditate and remain aware of all the beauty and intelligence around you. Meditation to me is all about increasing one's consciousness to be aware of God. In fact, my personal meditation practice is this: 1. I sit down and just focus on quieting my mind and becoming deeply satisfied and aware of the beauty of this present moment. I do this for about a couple minutes. 2. I invoke awe by engaging my mind and becoming deeply existentially curious about the present moment and deeply questioning and contemplating it. - (one of my main criticisms of Buddhist meditation is that they tell you to keep returning your awareness to the breath even if you are deeply curious and have creative thoughts but this teaches you to dull your mind and not to engage with creativity/curiosity). 3. I write down any insights I have from the contemplation in my journal. That's it! I start with quieting my mind to focus on creating an awareness of quietude of thought and end it with quietude of thought. In the middle of my meditation practice is when I engage my mind in-between the quietudes and use my mind to contemplate and explore my curiosity. If your meditation practice is not increasing your curiosity and connecting you to awe of existence, then you are doing it wrong and are making it monotonous. In this case, Leo and Jed are right that no amount of meditation can awaken you because your practice is making you more dull to existence than awake. Just counting your breaths is not going to help you awaken. You have to have a deep understanding that this is true. If all you do is count your breaths and listen to sounds, you are going to miss 90% of reality. You have to learn how to use your mind rather than suppress it. My practice helps me to connect my mind to awe. And I believe my practice will help me awaken even deeper than your average person who uses 5-me0 DMT while counting their breaths the whole time. I am just spewing my thoughts out here. What do you all think?

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They didn’t realize no-self. They created an identity out of no-self. If what you are saying is true, then I am already enlightened/awakened. But I do not consider myself to be awakened because my lifestyle is not centered around that understanding. Understanding is more than just an insight, it is an entire change to your life. If you don’t live from your own wisdom, then I would suggest that you don’t have it.

Gosh. I feel bad for anyone named Andrew now.

Thats where I differ. To me, a realization is not really a realization if it doesn’t change your life. If you say you realize God but then go about being a Devil, then I would argue that you didn’t really realize God. Awakening and lifestyle go together. Awakening isn’t about chasing a dopamine pike experience, it is about deep understanding of what truth is. And a deep understanding will change your life. It is not just chopping wood and carrying water, it is about changing your way of life, which starts with a change in your perspective and understanding.

Think about it. Leo states that First-Person Subjectivity is all that exists and is all that can be known to exist. Consciousness is Absolute. Qualia is Absolute. Our perceptions/senses/experience is Absolute. From this follows that free will is a first-hand subjective experience. I experience myself being able to think of whatever I want to imagine and since I am God, what would stop me from doing so. Determinism assumes that you aren't God, but Leo claims that Consciousness is God and is Absolute and Infinitely Intelligent with no limits. If this is true, then Consciousness has free will within the limits of the human experience. I experience free will; therefore free will exists. It is determinism that is concept and imagination because you are imagining all these brains, neurons, and synapses. But free will is what is ACTUAL. Too many people straw man free will. Free will doesn't mean you can do whatever you want. Free will means that you are able to do whatever you want within the confines of the human body and laws of physics (which of course are part your unconscious creation/will). Of course, free will is compatible with determinism because you wouldn't say that you have total freedom over how fast your heart beats, but saying that there is total free will or total determinism is a flaw in your logic because that implies a duality. Free will and determinism are one and non dual. From a first-hand experience free will and determinism are both actual and imaginary. You are imagining the neurons firing and you are imagining that there is a self that has an ability to choose. Free will and determinism are both part of the dream. Compatibilism is true. What do you all think of this argument?

I respectfully disagree. Dissociation is not meditation. There are proper and improper ways to meditate. You can be deeply connected and aware of truth or you are not. Meditation is about open awareness, and I know for a fact that I do not have a meditative awareness throughout my day. You have to create distinctions; otherwise, you are left standing where you are pissing.

First hand experience can also show you that from another vantage point (outer space) that the earth goes around the sun. But I have not confirmed that. With the Donkey, there is no first person experience. A donkey’s point of view is always inferred through your own experience. But just to go with the train of thought, calculus does not exist to a donkey in the same way that we can say that alien mathematics (let’s call it alienalegbraculus) does not exist for humans. It is all relative to first person subjective. First person subjective is absolute.

I think many of you are still missing the point. Determinism implies that time exists that past and future are real but past and future are imaginary, so therefore, determinism is imaginary. Free will assumes the self exists and it does, it is consciousness. Determinism cannot exist without imagining a past or future. Free will is all the infinite ways you can act in this very present moment. Free will is a paradox and still exists. It’s like the ego. The ego exists but also doesn’t. If the ego didn’t exist, then you couldn’t be alive and function.

You didn't read/understand my post. You have a headache, you have 2 arms and 2 legs. You cannot control that, but you still have free will for what you are gonna do about that. Free will doesn't mean absolute control of reality.

Funny enough, the free will video and what is consciousness videos were the first two videos of Leo that I watched. You are missing that you will also experience all the pleasure as well. Leo’s solipsism video was already apparent to me. If you do the work and read Leo’s booklist, then solipsism shouldn’t surprise you. I was reading Jed McKenna and he basically said solipsism is true because you can’t know anything except that you exist.

PS4/PS3 is the best console ever. You can play PS live for free on PS3 and you get amazing games. PC always gets viruses on them. I have never got any viruses on PlayStation. My Xbox One on the other hand will update constantly. I just wanna come home for work and play a game, but nope, I gotta wait for half an hour for the console and games to update. PlayStation is the way to go.

I just had an insight into what I think is the universal deepest fear and that is Eternity. I got this idea from watching Sartre’s No Exit play and the Good Place. Eternity robs life of all meaning. Death in a way is our salvation and escape from eternal boredom. I think there comes a point when our soul reaches the “I’m done” moment and wants to experience reality from a different perspective. Imagine that if your consciousness was locked into the human form forever, you as God would get tired of that. God cannot be omniscient if it blocks itself off from experiencing everything that isn’t human. This is why I think reincarnation might be true. Reincarnation is like beating one video game to play another. But eternity goes deeper than boredom. One of the reasons why people kill themselves is because they believe their depression will last forever, which of course is a self-deception. You born and die in self-deception. What do you think? Do you think eternity is our greatest fear? Of course a counter argument is that we wouldn’t fear everlasting, eternal happiness. But I would argue that even happiness would lose meaning without the experience of other contrasting emotions.

So I guess it seems like I made a genuine insight into the nature of our ultimate fear. Nobody seems to disagree, so I take that as my assessment of eternity being our ultimate as being 100% accurate.

I wanted to remind everyone of a trap I have observed in this work, and that is the importance of cultivating the Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind. I have been following Actualized.org since 2017. I have noticed that Leo has once stated the importance of arrogance and how it has helped him to go through BS. But I also see that it has made him locked into a certain awakening paradigm that he is the absolute expert and awakening can only be THIS way. I have personally noticed myself being more arrogant and thinking of myself as an expert in my field. But I read a Buddhism book, and I reconnected with some of the reasons for why I love philosophy. Beginner’s Mind is a Buddhist concept that has been so helpful for me in being able to have mystical insights. I just wanted to make a post to remind people that it doesn’t matter how many awakenings you have had or whether you think you are a master/expert. That is the time where the ego and self-deception come in to stop you from growing and learning. Awakening is infinite. There is no such thing as a final awakening. It is still vital to have an openness. In fact, that is a paradox/contradiction that I notice in Buddhism is that while they have the concept of Beginner’s Mind, they seem to be convinced that there is a “FINAL”Awakening. But this would contradict the concept of Zen Mind. Because learning is a life-long process and so is awakening. You are never done, and you are never an expert. If you think that you can be done and that you can be an expert, then you will not have a beginners mind and you will stunt your growth. On the ideas of Solipsism and an external world, I apply the beginners mindset and keep the possibility open. Even though, I know that I can only know my experience absolutely, I keep myself open to the possibility of learning something new. I want to keep myself open to experiencing awe. I have found that I cannot do that if I think I know everything and that I am awake. I just wanted to point out this trap that I have noticed in myself. The further you progress in something, the more likely you are to close your mind down. I recommend reading this article on beginners mind. https://psyche.co/guides/how-to-cultivate-shoshin-or-a-beginners-mind

This post seems more like an argument for solipsism than a debunk. Lol! If you claim that appearance is all that exists, then you admit that solipsism is true. The whole view of solipsism is that the only thing that can be known or that exists is you, and you are consciousness. Anything that you are conscious of is you because you are consciousness itself. This Post just affirms solipsism. You haven’t proven that “other” isn’t anything more than a concept. Until you do that, you haven’t disproven anything.

Starstruck already made a post about this.

When you “awaken,” your ego never dies. Awakening isn’t the killing or dissolving of the ego but the integration of it with the rest of the universe. The desire to kill your ego or have an ego death is just more ego. Ego is all about acquiring (an enlightened state) and killing whatever obstacle is in its path (itself). But the act of trying to kill your self is an act of ego and will only breed more ego, more suffering, and more illusion. When you awaken, your ego goes to sleep temporarily. When your ego wakes up (as it naturally will), your awakening will go back to sleep. Notice how you can have a deep profound awakening and then lose all of that in an instance with ego and self-deception. There is really nothing we can do about ego but to integrate it and become aware of it and love it. You cannot live without an ego because your human character is the ego. If you no longer desire to breathe, have sex, and make money, you will die. Ego is important. There is no God-Realization without ego; otherwise, you would just be God without the realization. The game of life is so beautiful that we start will an illusory character to play the game to realize that it is all a hallucination. The issue is that the hallucination never goes away because that is what life is. That is why I say Absolute/Complete Awakening is impossible unless you do a mahasamadhi. But there is no point in doing that either. There is nothing to understand or realize when you are dead. That is why I say that understanding is relative. You first have to exist as a finite, ego in order to have the ability to understand. The key is figuring out the best ways that you can develop your ego rather than ways to kill it. The former is higher consciousness and the latter is more ego. Just writing out my daily insight for the day. The main insight that I had today is that ego death is an illusion. Maybe someday I will realize what physical death is.

It’s a paradox I call the ego paradox. The more you develop your ego, the less ego you will have. By that, I don’t mean to develop your identities/attachments. I mean to be able to sit and face a wall and effortlessly contemplate for 1 hour straight. I have done it, but am not developed enough to do that consistently.

I was contemplating time and self. Realized I was Infinite and so is time. I fell in love with just existing. I cried of joy and hugged a tree for no reason.

You are forgetting the space that allows those lines to exist. There is only one space and one consciousness. You can imagine however many lines and consciousnesses you want. But they will always be occurring within that one space/consciousness. And, the 2 infinite parallel lines really aren’t infinite because they are going only in directions. God is infinite in all directions and all dimensions. That would only leave you with ONE. It’s like space. There isn’t a separate space, it is all one even though the atmospheres may be distinct. Post closed. The question has been answered.

This is the 10% of Leo’s false teachings guys. If Leo is a cartoon wolf, then I am Mickey Mouse! ?

There is nothing wrong with relativism and nihilism. To say nihilism is wrong or right is to also assume an objective fact. The only thing I would say is "wrong" with nihilism is if you just sit in meaninglessness. Reality/life is meaningless, but that doesn't mean that you cannot create any meaning for yourself. Reality is meaningless so that you can create whatever meaning that you want. It would be much worse if reality had a goal/purpose but it was a purpose that you didn't find meaningful or worthwhile. Meaning is subjective but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Meaning is what you find worthwhile and fulfilling. It is a human emotion. But everything we do is based off of emotions, and there is nothing wrong with that. Again, wrongness doesn't exist right? So, if you are a true nihilist, then even the notion that "Life is meaningless" becomes meaningless, and the things that bother you are a subjective matter and not an objective one.