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There is also another mediation method that may work better for you than mindfulness. You might want to try this for 3 days. It's more personal But remember, the less pleasant from of meditation will bring you to the shadows which are part of you so you probably need both. You have to meet the shadows sometimes and say "yes you are my fears, I see you. I see your form" . When you tear up the paper. You are not tearing them up. You are tearing your attachment to them

So does kindness and love exist only in the mind or do they exist out of the mind?

. Since God is everything being a rapist is one it's many hats . source: page 2

"God is infinite, so it cannot not love all parts of itself," you are sure that's what you intended to write?

First take a piece of paper and write down the scariest dark night thoughts you can think of each with a number. Then rip it up into tiny piece and put it in the garbage. Keep doing the meditation everyday at least once a day, Before your first mediation it will be morning immediately when you wake up and sitting. As soon as you wake up on a piece of paper use this self hypnosis technique and timer ready to go. Mark 30 places on a piece of paper. Then write this question and command statement down 30 times and say it out load each time, "Can I handle dark thoughts? When dark and nice thoughts and feelings come I will note each one it will pass and may come up again and pass. I will not cling to them as they come and go" So you write statement above this 30 times and say it out load. Your subconscious will only accept it after a few days by going through this repetition over and over, it will take several minutes Then with timer set for 30 minutes with an alarm that that sounds and then stops so you don't have to manually shut if off and if you feel like continuing beyond the time. Mentally say in in your mind 3 times like this "orange juice, orange juice, orange juice" " fear , fear , fear" "brother, brother, brother" "death thought" , "death thought" "death thought" "breast, breast breast" "back pain" "back Pain" , "back pain" It doesn't matter what it is. You don't force anything. And there will be a lot of peaceful gaps in between where you don't have a thought. This mindful noting. If problems come up you will deal with them if you feel like after the meditation. While you are meditating you will be just be noting and becoming aware of anything that pops up, dark or nice thoughts, it doesn't matter. Thoughts may come up that you ripped up earlier. It doesn't matter. The mind likes to produce thoughts and feelings. You let it do that and while you are meditating note each one and won't get involved in analyzing them When meditating you feel the dark night at any point, if you feel like quitting just quit and be committed to doing the same process each day. If you have such a thought write it down, then tear the paper up. After 4 days you will have the ability to sit and have a dark thought come into your head and it will pass like chatter coming and going. It may come again and then it will pass again but not bother you. This may not solve issues you may have, you may need therapy. But it will give you mental strength to be able to meditate and it will reduce the power of the dark thoughts so they cannot stop you.

WATCH, this is new video https://vp.nyt.com/video/2020/06/14/87042_1_14-brooks-vid4_wg_720p.mp4 ______________________________________ more from same article, NY Times https://www.nytimes.com/2020/06/14/us/videos-rayshard-brooks-shooting-atlanta-police.html .

Solipsism I. Definition the belief that there is nothing outside one’s own mind.

psychedelics are a visionary trance state They are an additive state like shamanic rituals involving repetitive music and dancing , it involves sensory/perceptive stimulus. In this case a chemical stimulus The chemical has a physical effect on the brain which triggers a mental state (this is not to diminish the value of the experience) but it's an additive state, adding something physical It could be sound (drums etc) and body movements, sensory input that induces a trance state of visionary and perception changes But it is antithetical to some forms of mediation (not all) which are often reductive, doing the opposite, removing stimulation to approach stillness, nothingness, focusing on one point , or observing our distracting thoughts in removed way . These forms of meditation are clearly not a visionary trance state although that occasionally may be experienced. There are additive and reductive states. These are very different and if you look at various meditative states and visionary trance states within them they are different. Each psychedelic is different and mediation has many variations not all with the same outcome. The other worldly experiences and perception changes under psychedelics are clearly not like the stillness of certain mediation states but they may be similar to other types of meditation that are more mystical (sometimes oriented toward focus on a deity). There is also a tendency in all of these things to bring into them ones already had beliefs and experiences and cultural background. Enlightenment might be inspired by a mental state but it is considered to be permanent condition usually resulting in clarity and wisdom. However what enlightenment is is very subjective and one person's "absolute truth" may be different than another's "absolute truth" . In fact truth can't be properly expressed in words

this is your point?

The officer in the body cam video, lower page 6 does not say he was tazed. He says "he got the other officers taser and started firing at me". No you can't make this blanket statement "drunk prople have to be tazed" (even though we are dealing with people not prople)

see bodycam video on page 6 of this thread, time 2:50 . A breathalyzer is shown and Rayshard Brooks agrees to take it. (Serotoninluv Body cam video, posted lower on the page). He is not shown taking it but he did. Later in the video when he is running away with the cops taser he turns his arm behind him and points the taser at the Officer Rolfe who said he was firing it but did not say he got hit) . After that Officer Rolfe shoots him 3 times striking him twice in the back. Had he not done that he might not have gotten shot although I think he should have let him run ahead further and fire a warning shot. Police would not have been trained for this rare situation were a taser is being pointed at them. They are trained to shoot to kill if someone points a gun at them not to wound. This is done to protect themselves instead of having to risk trying to shoot them in some non lethal hard to hit zone like the leg. It was a unique situation. The adrenaline was pumping because they had been wrestling him trying to make the arrest and situation had escalated. If it was me I would have slowed down and made two shot in the air to see if that would have stopped him but that is sitting here calmly at a computer. This is quite different from the case of George Floyd where they had him clearly subdued on the ground and kept him pressed down unnecessarily, brutally for several minutes which disgusts me even writing it. wikipedia Killing of Rayshard Brooks https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Killing_of_Rayshard_Brooks Rolfe administered a field sobriety test; a breathalyzer test measured Brooks' blood alcohol level as 0.108; Georgia's legal limit for driving is 0.080.[10] Rolfe told Brooks that he was too impaired to operate a vehicle, and ordered him to put his hands behind his back preparatory to handcuffing him. Brooks broke away, wrestled on the ground with the two officers, and punched one of them.[13] During the struggle an officer said, "You're going to get tased! Stop fighting ... hands off the taser."[10][12] According to the Georgia Bureau of Investigation (GBI), witnesses reported (and video shows) that Brooks wrested away one officer's taser and ran away as the officers chased him. Video footage then shows Brooks turn toward Rolfe while running, point the taser in Rolfe's direction and fire it.[13][14] (The New York Times, in an analysis of several videos of the encounter, reported that "flash of the Taser suggests that Mr. Brooks did not fire it with any real accuracy.")[13] Rolfe drew his firearm and fired three times at Brooks, striking him twice in the back. Neither officer provided medical attention to Brooks until two minutes later when Rolfe unrolled a bandage. Five minutes after the shots were fired an ambulance arrived and Brooks was taken to the hospital, where he died following surgery. One officer was treated for an injury.[12]

I'm God and you're not. I created you. ha ha, ha ha ha

only if you are doing something extremely macho to compensate just kidding, I was moved by the video. It's just a bit militaristic

Here's the quote: __________________________________________ Leo Gura: What maintains your place on that periphery is precisely your inability to handle love it's your fear of love, so this axis right here of this radial model that we're creating, the center of it is pure infinite love and the very edge of it is complete utter terror and horror and fear the stuff of nightmares and most humans are somewhere in the middle you're somewhere in the middle so right now you are not able to access the love of God because you're too afraid and you're too attached and you're too selfish and you'd have to give all that up you'd have to surrender your games your lies your manipulation your cheating your stealing your sexual cravings you're selectively sexual cravings for various partners you would literally have to become so conscious that you cease seeing distinctions between people who you could have sex with you see because to understand God's love you'd have to be completely indiscriminate in your love that means you couldn't look at this woman over here and say oh well she's beautiful and this person with all she's ugly and old you couldn't do that you see if you want to maintain that kind of judgment and that kind of discrimination that is precisely what keeps you somewhere here on the periphery so you see God is caught in a catch-22 because as the singularity is the Godhead God's only desire is to share its love with all of its beings in fact the reason that there are these fragmented parts of consciousness around the singularity ______________________________________________________________________ let me translate as I understand what he's saying : _________________________________________________ What maintains my place on this periphery is precisely my inability to handle love it's my fear of love, so this axis right here of this radial model that I'm creating, the center of it is pure infinite love and the very edge of it is complete utter terror and horror and fear the stuff of nightmares and most humans are somewhere in the middle. I'm somewhere in the middle so right now I am not able to access the love of God because I'm too afraid and I'm too attached and too selfish and I'd have to give all that up. I'd have to surrender all my games and lies, my manipulation and cheating, my sexual cravings. I would have to become so conscious that I would cease seeing distinctions between people. So you see I'm caught in a catch-22 because as I am trying to realize God and God's only desire is to share its love with all of its beings but there are these fragmented parts of my consciousness it's so hard to do that. ________________________________________________________ ^^ This is what I think he's trying to say. He's afraid of being loved and loving people directly, it's overwhelming so he's trying to not have to deal with it and make love this super pure thing that has to be total selfless. So since it is so hard to do right and you would have to give up all attachments then it's better just to say home and talk about love to a video camera. I can understand this I'm going nuts too cooped up in my house under quarantine. This situation is conducive to being hermit-like and becoming further removed from social interaction. I'm not saying doing videos is bad, we appreciate these things but they are limited. We can get caught up in strange ideas about not being selective with sexual partners and discuss that intellectually but that is not the point. Monks and many gurus give up sex altogether and the rest of the cravings (to the best of their ability, the have few slips sometimes) . But sexual cravings and other attachments are a separate issue. The default of doing that is peace of mind not love.Love is something you have to go out and do. You don't need to give up everything to experience love and we don't need to come up with this special exclusive form of love "infinite love" completely selfless and pure to make it impossible to achieve. That just becomes an excuse to stay reclusive. Just love, leave the house and start doing it. Help and be nice to your fellow person. That is the highest form of love. Don't worry about higher and lower forms of love. You start out small and it grows. That is the only way. You go out and make some person to person human contact and just do whatever form of love you have at the moment. You have to start with direct human to human contact, every day to build your love. Sometimes if you been depriving yourself and someone out of the blue comes and loves you it can come as a shock, almost frightening. It melts you and your right there in front of the person breaking down. I could be talking to myself as well here.

Disregard flaming picture, peaceful protest, NY Live feed

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noJEPO5BzgE Live Feed from Chaz , now

January 17, 1991 by Arthur Janov ^^^ top this

I'm getting these messages from my city about blood donation needed. that is starting to tug at me

gimmicks are not needed, just go out and spread some love, let's see it so we can be it

Nice video Leo but now you will have go out and do it, lead by example not just talking about it in a dark room. It's that time