Thought Art

@Yousif Demonizing me that I think killing innocent people is okay. But, just not my people. That’s how I interpret that. If I was going to take an objective, selfless view on it… my results should be the same regardless of whether I’m at risk or not. However, if I was at risk I couldn’t contemplate it in the way I do. That should be obvious. And like I said, doesn’t change how OTHER PEOPLE justify their actions. When I try to understand OTHER peoples perspectives, it doesn’t mean I agree with them. I would prefer no war at all anyway. Whether it’s here or not. But, the thing is what are OTHERS those actually involved thinking and doing. Make that distinction.

No, they get different speaking to people who misinterpret and demonize you. Like you did. If there is no “Us” and no “them” Why are you demonizing me for trying to see the perspectives of all of us? Then, you moralize to me about my personal biases, which I wasn’t sharing to begin with. That’s no a fair or conscious way to communicate in the way I have tried to do. No one likes when bad things happen to them. That is essentially universal. So, when you ask me “what if a bad thing happened to you how would YOU feel?!” You miss the whole point of what I’m trying to do. Which, is scary to me and I realize it’s not worth it. Because we aren’t running the same operating system. What you say changes nothing, because I already understand that. Speaking to you reminds me of how hard it is to communicate with other humans who twist your words. Whether on purpose or not. My goal is to understand this conflict, and all conflicts in general. I want to understand human bias, and selfishness. To do this I have to try to see the perspectives of everyone involved. I have learned that trying to share my understanding of other peoples perspectives leads people to accuse me of justifying their actions. To see how someone else justifies their actions, not me justifying their actions. I will continue to contemplate and try to see clearly what is happening, admitting when I’m wrong, allowing my mind to deepen. But, I’ve realized to do it in private. Because of people who act like you.

I will learn, and embody a mouth which does not speak. But, eyes that see. An open heart, and seeing eyes. A stranger who passes you by on the street. Like any other.

I have decided to no longer comment on such things on public forums. Anything I say will be misinterpreted. My ignorance here, is too great. The risk of speaking about it too high.

Concepts without direct experience. Focus maybe, in what awakening you can have and so it actually instead of making up ideas about what awakening isn’t .

Haha, yeah it’s scary. I think having healthy fear is a good thing.

The best book would be his lightest in most likelihood.

I’d be upfront with people. People are going to ask questions maturely. Doesn’t sound like it’s hurting your sales. It’s likely the cost of not having a shop is people will ask you those questions.

I think this is healthy. Why not choose a high quality program and save up for it. Invest in building skills perhaps in affordable ways and then get a good program. Take time with this and make sure you put the money you have to good use.

Where I work they burn sage each morning which is nice

@Zigzag Idiot think it is a pulled groin on left leg. Have trouble lifting it. Seems to be healing.

Truth and usefulness don’t always go together. It’s not a measure if truthfulness. “I don’t think it’s true because it devalues my life” isn’t a truth seeking stance. Life is real, hard, relatively long. Your whole life including stoic ideas are aspects of the “dream”. But, you still have to live. The finite self dies. But, BEING, your eternal being is forever.

Something feels wrong in my body and my left leg. I don’t know what it is.

My left hip/ leg is acting up. Pain for no reason. Maybe a pulled muscle? But it feels almost energetic in nature. Not sure.