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Playing guitar is a spiritual practice for me

I am building a sober life. Not that I will never do drugs but I don’t wanna be craving/ addicted. I admit have never really solved my maraijauna use addiction. I find myself using it when I get off work, and using it on weekends. It has held me back. It’s not a hardcore addiction. But, I easily crave it, which means I’m addicted. I stopped smoking, but vape it. I enjoy it, but want to use it sparingly. I am limiting myself to buying CBD vape, because it enjoy the vaping and very slight high. I feel embarrassed about how long I’ve used marijuana. But, I can move forward. Other than that, I live a pretty sober and increasing conscious loving, constructive life. The marijuana does help also. It’s not all bad, but I know seeing red eyes in the mirror it’s lowering my self esteem. Plus, makes me socially awkward. It has to stop. cbd seems a nice change and then using nothing . There isn’t many things I do that I don’t like. But, being high after work… I know my values are higher than that haha. Marijuana is an easy, lazy way to deal with stress. I know better. But, I also enjoy the act of vaping. Not sure.

I am building a solid life

Pu’erh in a mandarine 🍊

I stand by this song, and I will continue to write more.

I wrote a song called Mountain Tops. I think it’s one of my best songs. It’s very chill and simple. here are the lyrics. (“I’ve Walked on mountain tops Seen clouds fallen for each other Ive walked on mountain tops, been looking for a lover been looking for love and I’ve seen people go people goin’ round the mountain now ain’t that something and I’ve got a big surprise!!! All these tears of love in my eyes! They won’t stay dry! wo oh oh oh oohhhhh”) x2 I will record this, and release it as a single as a way of fulfilling my artistic desires instead of suppressing them all the time. The guitar melody is just awesome too. It’s laid back but ecstatic. Will share recording soon. The lyrics are good, they fit nicely together.

How do I become super intelligent?

Glad you are okay. Remember that states of mind change and suicidal thoughts are just that. Remember it will pass.

Problem with clubs is I hate staying up past 930

Going to push myself to go to a club tonight. I don’t live in a huge city but I can at least begin some approaches. I know if I don’t I will settle for some girl and feel like I limited myself.

Wonder what I will discover. I dunno about all of Taoist cosmology. I don’t claim to believe it all, and I have direct experience of little. However, as I practice Qigong more and more the energy claims are very true. Had a very powerful Qi ball going today. And the results of my qigong practice are great. I teach and practice Qigong on a regular basis. But, it’s a very deep subject that has a lot of challenges to understand it as a westerner.

I dunno

@Leo Gura I’ve looked into that guy too. Wild.

Super impressed by this one. Couldn’t believe how clever this guy was! Also this guy is a world class story teller.

“Wow”

We live in an era in the west where there are so many unconscious political retards, conspiracy theorists, uneducated, emotionally reactive, brain dead social media warriors and their moronic emotionally reactive followers that… Great leaders will struggle greatly but conman will prevail Unfortunately to be lead by a great leader you can’t be a retard Great men will be seen as conman and conman as great leaders In this storm can you make out what is clear? Can you trust your own mind and the bullshit you swim in?

Keto is bad

@docs20 Leo has shared more expansive definitions in the past man is like the wind

You can’t really trust human knowledge exactly but, you can cross the bridge on your way to work, trust expiry dates, and take your chances sky diving. but, can you trust Harvard/ Stanford research? Nah

You get paid for what you are good at. There is plenty of mediocre people, but if you wanna get paid a lot and be highly valuable you gotta choose one thing. Also, it is to be noted that some industry are winner take all, so in those industry you need to be the best so focus on one thing. Other jobs/ professions may be more suited to people who are more shallow in their ability but they also tend to earn less.

Find your flower and song