Thought Art

I am still thinking way to much. I’ve seen glimpses though of what’s possible. But, too much thinking, not enough risk taking, not enough approaching tonight. But, I did have fun and did talk to girls. That is good. Yeah, I like girls. They were fun to talk to and to see. I can see how deep illusion the fear of speaking to them is.

I can do better to approach more. I also have

I’ve been mostly trying to acclimatize myself. Been having fun, talked to a few girls, some guys. Got approached by two girls who were hitting in my very hard but weren’t my type. I can see myself becoming good at this. Been taking small wins of just observing how people actually act. Women are attracted to me which is something I can see in their eyes. I didn’t realize how playful girls are. Um, but I still get nerves which is funny and I’ll get over them.

I feel a much more fun and relaxed state. The girls helped. Happen to run into my cousin as well and we chatted. Now I’m sort of standing in the club people watching. I’m surprised how short many girls are. Many girls here are like 20, which I have little interest in. But, it’s still healthy to be out. I will work on my approaches, and eye contact

Back in the club, talking to the girls in the line was a lot of fun. They were like 21ish, but didn’t mind me being 28 it seemed

the line has been pretty fun, speaking to a group of girls meow, when you see a 10 approaching an 11

I’ve caught a second wind second tallest guy in line girls tend to smile at me

Should I drink a beer? I don’t drink as a general rule…

I don’t even know what that is? What does a club girl find valuable? Ugh. I really hate this.

So, this happens every time. I go out, I feel weird, I go home. I KNOW now I want to speak to more women. But, when I see them wearing these outfits, drinking alcohol I just think “this is so dumb”… maybe clubs aren’t for me? I don’t know what to say, I even got some eye contact from some girls but I get too scared. This is such a dumb way to be. Is the club dumb or me? Hah I don’t know what to do. I need to find a way to meet more girls that is authentic to me. But, also… maybe I need to grow through discomfort? Like, it’s confusing. There is no getting around if I want to meet more girls… I have to approach and talk to them. When I look in the mirror I think “I look old and intimidating”. What? Maybe, I hear back tonight and rest. And, tomorrow try some day game approaches?

Okay so, I’m on the fence about this whole thing. I’m too afraid to approach. So… what now?

Retreated to a pizza shop. These girls look too young. I feel tired.

I hate waiting in lines

Honestly, I’m already losing interest I feel scared, uncomfortable and weird. These don’t look like girls I am interested in either…

Might hide this. This may be more of a journal thing. But, I’ve wanted to go out for a long time. So far I feel awkward, nervous, a little creepy. However, the longer I’ve been out can sense some subtle confidence building. I know I can develop a more playful state but it will take time. People seem to be around 25 years old. That is interesting.

What are you talking about

Going going out to talk to girls tonight! 10 minimum

There is an afterglow for 5meo trip dependant 10mg for me is way too small. I need snort 30-40

@r0ckyreed inch by inch

Explain to me why links are logical

Enjoyed meditation in woods and by ocean in this beautiful springlike sunny day with friend.

I see destiny is leaking back onto the forum. Don’t you have another thread for this?

Recently I have really been noticing how beautiful many women are. One of the highlights of life.

People have their kinks haha it’s not a logical process I mean who doesn’t like when their step sister “gets stuck in the dryer”? Joking