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Man, if I have forever to exist as eternal unity, I might as well play games.. have ups and downs etc There is no rush here. And, only a fool thinks they can transcend what is here. Being a human is all these things.

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How Loss Can Mean Gain A man discovered a new region in which to live. A few days after settling himself, a violent storm swept over the land. He trembled in fear over what he believed to be a great loss. However, to his surprise, the storm swept away only the unrooted and useless. He was grateful for the storm which has revealed and removed the useless. That is how psychic storms can work for our benefit. To observe conflicts and contradictions within ourselves is no cause for dismay. They are present only because there are things you do not yet understand. This lack of knowledge is no problem. All you need to do is achieve understanding. Then, the psychic storm is over. One woman told me that while she did not as yet grasp the esoteric principle of self-observation, she sensed its importance. That is how necessary knowledge comes to us: by a faint whispering, which eventually turns into clear hearing. Let me ask a question of those who have entered the esoteric way, even a short distance: do you hear that faint whispering that here at last is something real? How To Be Humiliated and Appreciate It Whoever can find positive value in a seemingly negative condition is a truly wise individual. It can be done with every negative condition, but let's select those times when you feel shamed or humiliated. Wha is humiliation? Follow closely. It is the puncturing by reality of some imaginary picture we have of ourselves. We hold a secret positive imaginary picture we have of ourselves. We hold a secret picture of being noble, or honest or kindly, or of possessing other virtues. Something happens that proves that we have deceived ourselves, and down we fall into humiliation. Because the shame is painful to the ego, it creates other self-defeating emotions, including anger, envy and despair. Now, we can find positive value in humiliation by accepting it, that is, by voluntarily permitting the humiliation to run it's full course. We neither resist nor resent it. The pain in humiliation exist in the gap between the fact and the fancy about ourselves. By allowing humiliation to have it's own way, the gap disappears, and so does pain. "Then faults turn to good, because they humiliate without discouraging." (Francois Fenelon)

The Importance Of Gourd-Crafting (NSFW) There was a maid servant who had cleverly trained a donkey to perform the services of a man From a gourd she had carved a flanged device to fit on the donkey's penis, to keep him from going too far into her. She had fashioned it just to the point of her pleasure, and she greatly enjoyed the arrangement, as often as she could! She thrived, but the donkey was getting a little thin and tired looking. The mistress began to investigate. One day she peeked through a crack in the door and saw the animal's marvellous member and the delight of the girl stretched under the donkey She said nothing. Later, she knocked on the door and called the maid out on an errand, a long and complicated errand I won't go into details The servant knew what was happening, though. "Ah, my mistress," she thought to herself, "You should not send away the expert. When you begin working without full knowledge, you risk your life. Your shame keeps you from asking me about the gourd, but you must have that to join with this donkey. There is a trick you don't know!" But the woman was to fascinated with her idea to consider any danger. She led the donkey in and closed the door, thinking, "with no one around I can shout in my pleasure." She was dizzy with anticipation, her vagina glowing and singing like a nightingale. She arranged the chair under the donkey, as she had seen the girl do. She raised her legs and pulled him into her. Her fire kindled more, and the donkey politely pushed as she urged him to, pushed through and into her intestines, and without a word she died. The chair fell one way, and she the other. The room was smeared with blood. Reader, have you ever seen anyone martyred for a donkey? Remember what the Qur'an says about the torment of disgracing yourself. Don't sacrifice your life to your animal soul! If you die of what that leads you to do, you are just like this woman on the floor. She is an image of immoderation. Remember her, and keep your balance. The maidservant returns and says, "Yes, you saw my pleasure, but you didn't see the gourd that put a limit on it. You opened your shop before a master taught you the craft." -Rumi ---------- After some recent experiences this poem continued to pop up into my head. I can think of all the times in my life which I did not take into account the craft of gourd-making in my own way, which has lead to trouble and risks. I think we can learn a lot from this rather crude poem... That we can have the pleasures and the goods from out spiritual, professional, sexual, strategic etc endeavours. But, have we made sure the donkey is wearing the gourd? Are we in balance? Are we open to asking questions to ensure we are going about our practice in the right and balanced way? This I think it true of many Leo's teachings! Much love.

I do not. God, though I am sure it is love at it's core is not to be 'trusted' imo... You can only develop a level of relationship to God, or this reality we are in as humans on this physical place of mundane systemic survival.. Sure, there are layers to this thing. I think God is love at it's core. I just think all this suffering and my own stupidity makes me question in some ways why God would allow me to do those things... I also think about climate change, social inequality, rape, war, 400 years of slavery etc... God just allows that shit. I mean, Trust is God but do not trust in Men. I can't quite reconcile that yet as God and Men are one. It seems God as man is only good as man is in it's relationship to God. I trust God in that I trust myself... But, I do not trust myself because of the nature of self deception and having to operate via impartial information, my ADHD and my past 5 years of foolish self discovery. I think god is Good with a captial G. But, that does not guarantee my ego will have its fantasies and needs met. God is a trust worthy as I am. As integrated and evolved as I am. That is all. I trust in God that there are certain principles that if we live by them and embody them wisely, and the fact that anything exists at and and what we experience here as humans is so beautiful suggests that God is good. I think God IS Trust with a captial T.

@Onecirrus I have been here many times. I think it was this sort of toxic drive that was feeding my psychedelic use. I was trying to kill myself so I could be reborn, or be 'selfless'... Well, It didn't happen. In fact I want to live a great life now more than ever. I have been were you are. Again, as I have been telling people please seek and talk to a professional. You'd be amazed how much just knowing you have someone to talk to and are taking the proper steps towards a healthy mind can do for you. For me booking a therapist on better help was like a 180c change from a month ago because I was feeling suicidal over the difficulty of life, my family situation, shadow aspects I was having trouble accepting, climate change, the state the worlds mental health and social crises... IT all seems so much sometimes. Do not rest in your current psychic location.

It's this whole language... imaginary vs real thing I think can be metaphysically and epistemology misleading. Not because it's wrong, but because it's so open to interpretation and the consequences of these types of thoughts on your decision making when you have not grocked what is really being understood by Leo.

Martin is an interesting guy. I have to observe him more closely. I can't tell where he is cold and where he is warm. ... Nor myself for that matter.

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I think it's important to realize that you are doing the right things. You are: 1. Seeking professional help 2. Trying out different techniques 3. Noting the limitations of the current tools you have at your disposal and groping along the edges of your awareness... I also am struggling with this problem. I am thinking that a major part is to really just accept and feel the pain instead of hiding from it. It might take some kind of radical reconextualization of your constructs and body awareness... Last night I was speaking to my sister who is a social working and we were talking about the integration of things like Rational emotive behavioural therapy, mindfulness meditation and noting technique and things like Yoga and Qigong to thickening the vagus nerve. This is one of the reasons I really think guided body scans from the Fabulous app, or similar are usefull because they allow us to develop these soft skills of feeling inward. We need to gain a level of self understanding that I don't think even a lot of western therapist understand about themselves. I think that with the right tool sets, guidance, mistakes and practices we can change ourselves for the better. Don't give up. We live in the information age you as you mature you will master your own being.

Self love I think when practiced at a high level is really nuanced, robust and can be expressed in seemingly paradoxical ways. Self Love can mean cutting off a relationship, moving out, going to war, admitting painful truths to yourself and suffering through them. It can also mean the opposite stuff too, like eating well, meeting people you love and creating meaningful relationships, self forgiveness and self-compassion. Self Love when fleshed out is the most powerful teaching in the universe.

Hey, I can relate to this. I too say and do dumb things in my life which has consequences. It is through these lessons though that we get better. We need to get over this idea that to try is to be perfect or we are better off not doing anything at all. I do think that speaking to a professional, for example over at Betterhelp.com to have someone guide you through this would be beneficial. Like Vernon Howard says... Do not rest in your current psychic location. Take action.

What are you opinions on this? He makes a lot of sense to me. I am still struggling with all the information I am learning about what reality really is. I can say that, his point of view makes a lot more sense for surviving reality and this seems to be a mature and grounded way to approach reality. My personal understanding is that reality is infinite intelligence and the manifestation of this intelligence. It's all connected and a weird strangeloop. It's nothing. But, it exists.

From what I understand, and I can be wrong... Leo's videos are wide and sprawling and cover a full 'spectrum' of personal development advice. With the internet today there is no reason as far as I can tell that a creative individual can't make a lot of money and free themselves from wage slavery by creating a lot of value in a field they are passionate about. I know many people who are doing this. For example my ex girlfriend does Kundalini and reiki work with people and she makes at least 6 figures if not 7. Be mindful of the distinctions you make. The higher spiritual values can be embodied by anyone. Hmm, for example if you look at the Susan C's ego developmental models you see that the ego goes through phases of maturity. The lower stages such as the achiever stages are really important I think. I don't think spirituality and massive success are at odds with each other. In fact, we need highly integrous and awakened leaders who are in business in all sectors.

@Preety_India Hey, given my current circumstances and foolishness I am having a similar inner dialogue. Best thing you can do is love yourself.

I always recommend the App Fabulous. The app has helped me in so many ways to be more productive. I think in the end really, you just need to work through it.

Well, It isn't actually the case for reality. Just for you.

This bubble right here, I can guarantee you exists. It just doesn't for you, because you are looking out your own eyes. At least, I imagine that. Leo's exercise for realizing you are God video needs to be taken carefully. What is the case for you... Is not the case for me. I exist here, I talk here. The only reason I am alive is because I am apart of an economy of people just like you and me.

Yeah, hey... You know most people in my life thought I was crazy when I talked about this stuff. Very little of Actualized.org or deep enlightenment work is what I am willing to share with my family or friends. They just don't care and they don't get it. I myself still can't tell what aspect or insights are 'true' other than the things that improve my well being and the well being of those around me. I sense that I am still very immature. If you can talk about this stuff, but it requires the right context and the right container. Don't underestimate the time required to properly integrate this stuff. I am working towards teaching people aspects of enlightenment but my focus is very different now from 'god realization' to developing self knowledge and the skills and tools for de-armouring their bodies and developing longevity and a calm relaxed, and healthily energized body.

Yeah, this isn't something I understand. Does anything at all outside my direct experience exist? It seems very bazar and impractical to assume such things given the nature of reality as I see it. I admit anything outside of my direct experience is imaginary. But, for survival it's important to live as if others exist. Because, for all I know they do... I still have to live in a socially acceptable way or there is consequences. You have your bubble of experience right? Well, believe it or not I have my own bubble of experience. But, I can't prove yours. This also doesn't negate the fear of missing out. I only have so much time, money, and years left in me!

Oh man,FOMO is huge for me. I think that has been one of my biggest sufferings because I realize with every decision, loss, there are an infinite amount of things I wont be able to experience, Gonna contemplate this later.

@Preety_India These are great insights. But, it's also important we ground ourselves in secular mental health. Consider speaking to a professional as well. Spirituality is best practiced I think when built of a foundation of a healthy psyche and rational thinking. Of course, we can go through spiritual crises but it's important we use all the tools at our disposal including the advice of trained specialists. I'ved learned this the hard way that to create a high quality and integral psychology we must really focus on grounding, grounding, grounding. The past 2 years for me I think the combination of spiritual teachings, family issues, global crises and my own immaturity has gotten me in trouble. Hoping others can avoid my mistakes. Wishing you well.

Antisocial doesn't mean we aren't out socializing. It means the behaviour exhibited goes against healthy social cohesion and the well being of others in social environments.

For me working through this in my own relationships will be huge. There are so many unconsciousness manipulations mechanisms going on within me through my life and relationships... this is what scarred my relationships in my late teens and early 20s. I picked up a lot of these tactics to get the love my parents never gave me, and to cover my self esteem issues.