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What do these words mean to you? Exoteric means information taught to the masses, while esoteric is specialized information for a small ground of people. I think teaching, or religion may have either exoteric or esoteric aspects to their teachings. I own the book 'esoteric encyclopedia of eternal knowledge' which I like to read. I had internalized my own meaning of esoteric, which mean wisdom known by a few or wisdom developed through personal introspection as many of Vernon Howards teachings teach that we must first focus on the inner working of our minds instead of following blindly exoteric teachings of the masses. I had been reading some of the paragraphs after my Qigong sessions but today someone pointed out to me their interpretation of esoteric. It seemed to rub them the wrong way and brought up many religious meanings for them. That this book could not contain real esoteric knowledge because it was written down, and that esoteric is an open meaningless word. As, even a satanist group can have esoteric teachings. This made sense to me but made me second guess whether or not I should share these wisdom nuggets after my classes. Personally, I think Vernon Howards teachings line up nicely with Taoist philosophy so I personally know there isn't a problem... But, everyone has their own defenses etc. It made me recontextualize and my initial idea of these readings I thought the tasty wisdom nuggets. I thought they were fun and refreshing and would go along with the Qigong nicely. However, after this morning I am leaving the book at home and am just going to stick to the Qigong. I think I am still learning the subtlties of how people have developed their operating systems. Best to focus on just teaching relaxation, and find a more specific group who wants to discuss other things. I will however consider making a study group of philosophy, spirituality, esoteric etc in the future.

Slowly the western world is realizing it's been treating substances the wrong way.

I have tried to listen but don't resonate yet.

We are not lions. Completely difference teeth and digestive systems. High quality meats are probably fine it eaten irregularly. But, farmed meat and processed meat make you smell weird and are carcinogenic.

Plus it's like, you have actualized teachings, you are going into engineering, you are young the future it still open... You life is going to be amazing. My biggest trap at that age was not seeing how much will happen in a course of 5 years.

Oh man, give me like 50,000 and I would do a little jig for a month. I live pretty simply, if I have a million dollars my life purpose would happen 100x speed

Do you mean billionaire? You should be tell me ahah It's possible maybe, but you need to create a lot of value.

Are the lights out?

What did I just watch? This grossly over simplifies everything. I don't know. I find all these idealogical systems too limited. The law of one is interesting but I wouldn't go balls deep.

I feel a lot of anger and resentment towards my ex. When we started dating I introduced her to my idea for showcasing artists. She started helping me with my vision and project. We did a lot of great work and it was a lot of fun to create. We were able to help a lot of young artists showcase their talents. But, then she ended up moving back in with her ex boyfriend. So, I backed out of the relationship, and then what seems like a week later she was back with her exboyfriend. I felt like she strong armed me, and was likely cheating the whole time. I was so hurt and devastated I couldn't focus on the project. She continued to finish the showcase without me. My resentment boiled because this really messed me up emotionally and hurt my entire vision. I needed time to process and heal but she just kept going. Now she is still running it, with basically the exact same design that I came up with. I feel so much anger and resentment toward her and my ego keeps telling me that she stole my idea, and how evil she is and how 'bad' and 'awful' this is because it should be me, or me AND her running it because its my idea. Everytime I see her or the showcase, which is actually having a lot of success... thats right my life purpose is working but some girl stole it. Anyway, that's how my ego feels. But, I think if I don't reframe this, which I am working on doing today. It's just gonna eat me up. I can't change her. And I am glad artists are benefiting from my creativity. You can change the world, ahaha. Also, I need to remember why I did it in the first place. For the artists. I should be glad someone is doing that work. But, it should be me I am so passionate about that... Anyway, sharing this because others might be dealing with resentment too. Wondering how people process it, or what books are out there.

What is the best method to protect passwords, documents etc from people? How to best protect your privacy and information online?

Totally see this in myself

Accurate. For me though, with breath of fire it filled my whole body.

People like to dance! to share, to get likes. It's human. Maybe it says something about a shadow you are suppressing? Would you like to dance?

Have you tried fabulous? https://www.thefabulous.co/ I was diagnosed with ADD as a kid... So I have been learning to overcome it as an adult and I found this app helped me install the habit infrastructure I now use. Also, check out Bullet Journaling by Ryder Carrol. He has ADD and invented this journaling system to organize and plan

I too am learning the power of active inactivity

@Alysssa Thank you

I sense I am making progress on it over the past few weeks. I've been journaling about it, speaking to my therapist and some friends. I also bought a book by called Total Forgiveness by a priest named R.T. Kendall which has been really good. I don't normally read christian material but there was a lot of really great ideas in there that have helped as well. I haven't felt resentment in really throughout august. It tends to come up without warning, because I haven't fully forgiven. But I am learning about the grace and power of forgiveness with this book really well. I am developing a stronger psychology to deal with these things, more robust and increasing my AQ. When it happened and I felt wronged, it's reach seemed to destroy everything I loved. Which, was more my own paper thin psyche than her actions. Also, when all my mental walls close in on my I feel trapped. Part of me also noticed that on the other side of my resentment/ anger was more power and stability. Like, with David Hawkins map of consciousness I had to go through the anger, to reach the higher levels when I was feeling apathetic before. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. - Colossians 3:13 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us - 1 John 1:8 We all sin. Forgive, and be forgiven. Take your time.

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Well, it appears it's do or die. So, who is going to take the lead? "Where are you going who did you ask?

Remember we are thinking long term life long learning for a reason! As a fool myself becoming wise, reality keeps humbling me.

Contemplate it. What happens if you don't brush your teeth? Sleep properly? Trip on psychedelics in an improper setting? Burn fossil fuels and raise cattle in factory farms? Reality may be ammoral, but morals have a strong survival basis.

This and so much more. Let the experience be what it is. You are going to learn so much. Our mental models tend to project how the future will be, but we really have no idea.

Up to you, your probably phsyically safe. But, they are trying to hook you.

Exactly, as you are becoming a sovereign, mature adult every has an opinion, and an asshole. Keep going! This is part of the journey.