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Rieki, Qigong, De-armouring, yoga, massage therapy, talk therapy, etc

I want children

Unless I need to study for my account exam lol

in the book the God molecule the author said the mushrooms told him to become a doctor and then he went and became one.

oh, I use the podcast app an it works fine

let it gooo

That is stupidity imo What a waste of consciousness

Yeah, but not in your experience.

Yes, I can acknowledge this. I've been in these states, but here in my ego I feel a lot of fear and anger with reality sometimes. A video game, except it's life and death and you have no idea what lay outside of this life. It's not really like a video game imo. Maybe it is, but life is sooooo long and brutal and absolute. and if God is infinite you theoretically could have a meaningful developer mode..

@Someone here But, you just typed that sentence. Not me. and if it's just me imagining things I wouldn't create this world. It's ego... sure. Reality is how it is. I don't really get it exactly. I feel petty so I will stay away lol!

It's a useless notion. I mean, its infinite but it's still pretty finite for the REST of our lives which is all we ever know.

This does not add up. If there is just me, then why roads? Why countries? Why jobs? Why schools? Why space? why time? Why other people? Why boring ass parking lots and stores? Nah, it aint just me. Just GOD which is me but not just me.. No, if reality was perfect it would be. That's it. I think reality is perfect, but my life has been full of suffering and loss. So, is god a sadistic kink? What is going on? But, then again I am imagining all these things right now.

This statement is clearly false. Not lack of desire. We both know the amount of variables in peoples lives. Talk to me in 10 years..

I've read "Trust God, but also ensured your horse is tied up correctly" I am really saying, Okay if you are infinitely creative you don't need to even allow ME, to be able to make poor decisions or etc. So God only forgives us because it created a reality with no one around to judge it that includes a lot of evil and suffering. It's not really forgiving. This doesn't fully add up for me yet, though I see what you mean in other states I've been in. God let me shit in the pool. Why? It's not really forgiving God just gets a get out of jail free card despite allowing all the suffering. Why create me with these thoughts, parents, experiences etc. I have more work to do.

I am ready to embody these truths. I find the embodiment of this challenging.

(: I am more than half way through my 200hr teacher training!

Leo Gura and Jordan Peterson on the carnivore diet! Very interesting you both suffer from a similar gut condition.

It depends if you want to also have a dream career you are working toward.

Follow your intuition! journal about it

Maybe she just feels introverted sometimes

data problem lost 2 days of posts.

I remember as a kid the thought of both death and eternal life seem impossible to reconcile due the the sense of fear they both inspired in me at the time.

Very cool

What happens when you die exactly? I have listen to Leo talk about death, and read a few things but nothing seems satisfying because I have only memories and experiences of being this one human. No one around me seems to have experience being other people. The universe is so harsh and cruel, why would death be anything different? Why would it be infinite love? Why is this reality I am living so harsh, long, cruel, scary and miserable? Yet, it also contains so much beauty and possibility. Is death anything to worry about in your opinion? I now I fear getting older, I fear missed opportunities, I fear my present dealing with poor judgements of my past. I have lived life so foolishly I wish I could just start over. This is sort of a cruel existential bind I find myself in. What is death? How can I use death to make life more livable? I feel a lot of fear, a lack of trust and fear of uncertainty with the universe these days. It doesn't seem like a friendly love. It's so, brute. In order to learn anything in this universe we must give so much time to things. But, its not for anything. I find myself suffering so much lately, and for what? Just to die one day? So, what is it?

This is true! Humans live a long as time. We change slowly. The more this dawns on me the more it makes me realize just how lucky I am and how profound balance and clear thinking is in life. I feel sad for the man or women who abuses others, or those who throw their lives away. I want everyone to have the chance to experience healthy relationships and self love. I think everyone deserves this, but it appears some of us simply cannot do that anymore and transcending this life may be the best thing. This reality is so absolute and it seems harsh. Harsh for us all here in eternity ahah. Do you think that God really wanted to do those harmful things? That is was the spiritual agreement? Or, is that just something that happens given our freedom as humans? Both maybe.