Thought Art

I sense I am both a bit wise, but also rather foolish in my life... I am wise in that I am embracing life long learning and I realize the importance of developing my wisdom during my 20's and over the rest of my life. I think in some levels I am wise beyond my years, or culture. Yet, in other ways I am still a child. I read everyday I realize the importance of life long learning I realize the importance of infinite love and understanding I realize the Goodness of Gods grace I realize the importance of integrity, wisdom, self love and holism I realize the importance of psychedelics, yoga, qigong, journaling and contemplation I realize the importance of a clear mind, sharp intellect and strong grasp of mathmatical concepts, I realize the importance of developing hard and soft skills I realize the importance of developing my own soverneigty I realize that I am God and I am pure consciousness. I realize that the only thing to do in the universe is to increase your consciousness, to love more and serve more and more selflessly to others I realize the importance of taking full responsibility for my actions, my state, my decisions and any consequences that arrise I realize that aspects of life, including certain success or harm cannot be undone I am beginning to accept death as I no long think it is possible I invest in education, mental health, spiritual development I am learning to be kind to myself, to forgive myself for my mistakes and to let go of the past I am learning to have proper priorities I am realize how I construct meaning around me and how mechanical I have lived up until now I am realizing that my biggest enemy in life is a lack of wisdom, integrity and maturity. This is the cause of all my suffering and the harm I have caused to others in my life. I realize that I am absolutely nothing and that I am immortal. But, maybe I am playing this weird game with myself in this dualistic domain. I realize the different between implicit and explicit understanding of reality I have a strong taste for infinity. I am foolish in that I am Impulsive Short sighted Addicted Fearful Assume too much I don't have a strong enough grasp on metaphysics and epistemology I lie to myself and others I sometimes do dangerous and reckless things I have a weak financial psychology I don't always do what I say I am going to do and I often pay the price for this I don't plan well enough yet I often neglect my sleeping routine though I am seeing improvement I don't have self trust because I often break my own word I can be jealous, selfish, petty, paranoid, angry, toxic, fearful, unconscious I think over the next 5-10 years a lot of growth will be happening. I feel like I am now just beginning to wrap my head around Leo's work and my recent enlightenment experiences are slowly but surely being integrated into practicality and survival. I don't fully trust myself. My biggest fears are hurting others or myself because I over look something, or act foolishly ( I think a large percentage of my life has been this foolishness. God gave me so potential at birth. A beatuiful olympian quality body, a safe beautiful place to life, privilege... Yet, I couldn't see the gift I was given . I really don't want to fuck this up, so please God. Allow me to become wise and self actualize without totally fucking this up. I fully realize that I can fuck this up, end up in jail or harm others if I am not careful. There is nothing special about Jared. He is just a human, ignorant and prone to impulsive decision making. He also has a deep profound love for all beings. I would like to be peace, love, forgiveness, understanding and health. I would like to become a reflector of Gods highest joy and love and to lead others. However, I am not leader. Not yet. I am still a fucking fool. But, I love myself more and more and I know I have the capacity to be wise. How many years will it take to become more wise? How many more mistakes will I have to make? How many more times will I potentially hurt myself or others? Or lose out on promising opportunities? How much longer will I be a child of illusion, lost in my own mind not being able to see reality as it is? How can I make higher quality distinctions? How can I rest in infinite love regardless of external circumstances? How many blind spots and areas of ignorance do I have? How can I ACTUALLY become wise. I can sense I am bit by bit. I also know the future it unknown and anything could happen in the next second.

I watched a lot of Oprah as a kid when at my grandmothers. I think she is a good woman! Her booklist shares books with Leo's

Lol, stop being a pussy and stop labeling things like that

Did you run the numbers? If you got a lot for education maybe you can do both.

@john1 In my opinion I think it's really important. The long term health benefits are huge. It has both practical health benefits and spiritual benefits. It will be up to you to decide. If you practice regularly you will be developing a healthier spine, clearer mind, develop you Qi and life force energy and really from my research it's one of the best investments into longevity. I find it balances perfectly with my yoga, meditation and psychedelic routine. I have mystical experiences quite often on Qigong such especially in my energy body and heart. Also, its great because you open up the energy flow in the body for a higher enlightened baseline state. Qi circulation is a crucial aspect for health and spiritual integrity. In Qigong we say, add years to your life and life to your years. It's a powerful ancient Art and I would like to hear from more people their experiences on the forum. I think you will be surprised how when you activate you life force energy the things you will discover. I will be offering 1 on 1 sessions and weekly classes here in the coming months.

Parents helped him at first?

I am wondering if one of the biggest dangers of 5meodmt is actually the feeling of infinity! or being invincible when you aren't.

https://www.holdenqigong.com/ 2 weeks free no card required

Honestly, psychedelics like 5meodmt require a lot of maturity. People going slow is best. There is nothing to prove here, other than being safe and happy with people you love. The thing is, 5meodmt show you infinity and goodness. But, to bring that back into our dualistic reality is a challenge. I think anyone pursuing this deserves a lot of respect. I give my hat to those who take that plunge. Don't under estimate it, stay grounded and be careful. Don't get cocky, take proper protocol! And, I personally don't think tripping alone is wise. Though, some people may find that useful.

Damn, I've had this! I will contemplate my experiences more.

What is that? Can you define it?

Yeah, It's jarring at first. But, if you can get comfortable at accepting the love and the infinity it's great.

1. Infinite forgiveness 2. Infinite wellbeing 3. Truth 4. Infinite self love 5. Infinite creativity 6. Absolute understanding 7. Perfect body alignment 8. Healthy communities 9. Freedom from guilt, shame or resentment 10. Becoming Godlike 11. Mature application of spiritual insights 12. Being a spiritually mature adult 13. Being a candle in the darkness 14. The value of this mysterious experience of life 15. What reality looks like without your trauma, or crappy limited fear based programming 16. What is invincibility? 17. What is fearlessness? 18. What is real power? 19. The perfect day everyday 20. Perfect mental health 21. To be one with everything 22. Goodness 23. Perfection 24. Infinite Happiness 25. Self trust 26. Awakening 27. The Holy Grail 28. The Hero's Journey 29. Selflessness 30. Total Acceptance of what is the case 31. Transcending relative toxic taboos

@RMQualtrough Really? DMT is great for me ahah Damn, you weren't ready I guess. Yeah, no need to rush.

I think people can have preferences. I love people, but I have preferences I prefer and I will follow those. If you aren't attracted to Jerry or Grace, are you a Jerry or Grace phobe or do you just have what you like and you go with that and it isn't jerry or grace?

Those are all relative moments within bio-centrism and human experience At the core of Reality, What is that?

"Love is Excepting All" = "Love is Accepting all" I feel like they both work in some way

@unborn_chicken Lol, then whose?

Why not finish you psychology degree while working, and then go into permaculture studies full time in a year or so

5meo to me is king. It's a little scary a first, but soon once you wrap your head around it with a ground epistomology and metaphysics its like. Well, of course I would design this into my game.

Man, I have a desire to fully surrender to dance and song completely one with God. I feel like I am a live wire but I am trapped in a concrete jungle for now.

"I got blisters on these fingaaas!"