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I sense I am making progress on it over the past few weeks. I've been journaling about it, speaking to my therapist and some friends. I also bought a book by called Total Forgiveness by a priest named R.T. Kendall which has been really good. I don't normally read christian material but there was a lot of really great ideas in there that have helped as well. I haven't felt resentment in really throughout august. It tends to come up without warning, because I haven't fully forgiven. But I am learning about the grace and power of forgiveness with this book really well. I am developing a stronger psychology to deal with these things, more robust and increasing my AQ. When it happened and I felt wronged, it's reach seemed to destroy everything I loved. Which, was more my own paper thin psyche than her actions. Also, when all my mental walls close in on my I feel trapped. Part of me also noticed that on the other side of my resentment/ anger was more power and stability. Like, with David Hawkins map of consciousness I had to go through the anger, to reach the higher levels when I was feeling apathetic before. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. - Colossians 3:13 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us - 1 John 1:8 We all sin. Forgive, and be forgiven. Take your time.

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Well, it appears it's do or die. So, who is going to take the lead? "Where are you going who did you ask?

Remember we are thinking long term life long learning for a reason! As a fool myself becoming wise, reality keeps humbling me.

Contemplate it. What happens if you don't brush your teeth? Sleep properly? Trip on psychedelics in an improper setting? Burn fossil fuels and raise cattle in factory farms? Reality may be ammoral, but morals have a strong survival basis.

This and so much more. Let the experience be what it is. You are going to learn so much. Our mental models tend to project how the future will be, but we really have no idea.

Up to you, your probably phsyically safe. But, they are trying to hook you.

Exactly, as you are becoming a sovereign, mature adult every has an opinion, and an asshole. Keep going! This is part of the journey.

There are many facets of awakening, insights and spiritual progress. The awakenings from psychedelics vs Kundalini yoga will be different I think. Yes, I will do a video explaining a "Breath of Fire" techninque that I did for 2 weeks and felt the energy rise up the spine. Very different than psychedelic awakening, or Qigong. They imo, all aid each other. I would say practicing Kundalini Yoga, Krya Yoga, Hatha Yoga, Ashtanga Yoga, Qigong, Thai Qi and various types of meditation throughout your life (maybe just pick one for awhile, or pick some that are complimentary) are ideal for increasing your baseline state. Especially Qigong and taoist practice. There are many mountains, paths, and peaks on the spiritual path. They can be very different, or similar. Everything is connected.

No. If you say, take business you are building the basic infrastructure for you long term success. But, if you are serving coffee 8 hours a day.... good luck... in college you have flexibility, time, you can build skills like: 1. Planning 2. Time management 3. Deadlines 4. All the actual skills you are learning 5. team work 6. Being a leader 7. There are clubs you can join 8. Develping soft skills Lets say you spend 4 years doing engineering, and you spend 30 minutes to and hour each day thinking about life purpose and what you want to create. You would be developing such a strong agile mind capable of heavy lifting that someone stuck in wage slavery just cant. etc There are many dangers with Leo's work. For example, when we are too foolish to implement it wisely. Especially young people. So, like Idk. Instead of impulsively deciding something, plan, and like have these discussions with the forum and your parents first. Make a plan first. Why drop out of school if you don't even have an actual plan? When we are young, imo most of us lack the ability to make sound decisions, think long term, be mature, etc which is why school is there.

Hey, I made a video talking about the importance of clarity and groundedness in our spiritual pursuits. Let me know if it is okay to share here, and it not I will remove the thread. I love to see your thoughts on this as well!

Just to be clear again, this book has nothing to do with Sun gazing.. I've been reading deeper into the Book here Cosmic Nutrition. From what I can read so far I think this thing is a bible for superb health. They really paint a strong picture of what health looks like and how it's achieved. It lines up perfectly with my studies over the past 5 years. Highly recommend it if you are looking on developing to super human potential.

Just bought this book, wondering if anyone else is knowledgable about taoist nutrition. It seems pretty holistic so far. I am thinking it's a great mindset... Working on maintaining health simply through really taking care of your vehicle. It might be a little to harsh on western medicine but, I enjoy it the book so far overall. I think this holistic approach to health and preventing diseases caused by living out of alignment is pretty interesting. https://www.amazon.ca/Cosmic-Nutrition-Taoist-Approach-Longevity/dp/1594774706/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=cosmic+nutrition&qid=1628119572&sr=8-1

@Matthew85 Thank you for your feedback. I will check him out! I think I may recognize him from other videos I have seen.

Go do it. Bout to set a pomodoro right now actually. Then I am reading, planning, small stretch then bed ahah

Not sure if healing yourself with Qi is a siddhi, but you can easily begin to tap into energy healing with qigong practices. People have been doing it for 4500+ years. So, we can all developing healing powers because we are made of it. I have been developing so much Qi lately, it's really amazing how it feel and how obvious it is. I totally believe patanjali that by mastering your body and mind that siddhis are possible. I think psychedelics can point the way but it also takes a lot of physical practice and emotional labour. https://superhumanexperience.io/

You mean like, a mosque?

You have to make your own decisions, but finding anyway to avoid wage slavery and putting all your time into gaining experience, education etc I say is the best investment. But, you can still find a job you enjoy that teaches you about reality. Every moment is a chance to learn. If you already know what you want to teach yourself, and you've proven you can make your own modules, projects, etc then go ahead. But, school is really great. Life is long, this is a great learning experience if you use it properly regardless. Just, really put the work in.

I would say go to school, but It's really up to you. You will have time at school to work on yourself and be creative. You'll grow so much. If you are working some shit job your just wasting all that time.

Thank you! I have up days and and down days however, I am improving. I feel like I am cracking through my pain body more and more with Qigong.

I think with the progress I am making with Qigong, yoga, running, journaling etc and the recent energetic changes in my place I've discovered a new level of relaxation I didn't think was possible. I am noticing while sleeping on my grounding pad, or on my acupressure pad that I am sleeping so much deeper and better than before. I feel bright, relaxed and clear minded in the morning. My school is going well and a bunch of new relationships just opened up to me. This has been my most relaxed last few (despite a weird beginning of the week, but I let shit go). I think I am getting better at letting things go, relaxing into the present moment and that my nervous system is becoming more robust and relaxed. The deeper I can relax, the more I can overcome my addictions (which seem to be by the wayside now). I no longer crave smoking weed or hiding from myself. Things just seem okay. I am developing more self trust, and enough self love to be honest with myself when I act out of integrity because I know I take the steps to self correct. My posture has improved and I feel a greater connection to my heart and sexual energy. It's also a lot of fun to share Qigong with friends and family. Seeing their reactions and results warms my heart up. I think that being able to pull in insights of unitary states and embodying them practically in duality and the mundane day to day living is an art and beautiful I am now taking spiritual energy very seriously and I will become increasingly choosy of who I allow in my space. I think living alone in a bachelor will be ideal, Or I want to put out and Ad to live with people that are yoga teachers, massage therapists etc because I think that would be a really interesting environment.. For me being around sober, clear minded, open and respectful people is the best thing I can do. That, or simply be alone. I think you can totally pick up other peoples toxic energy. I am studying for to create a more protective energetic field using Qigong and how to purge unwanted energy and store and tonify the energy I do want. My mornings consist of Qigong, a dance party, a great breakfast and planning my day/ week/ journaling. I love it! I also took more steps this week to buy personal finance books and I realize that in a few short months I will have my Accounting Diploma and Qigong Certification! My life is coming together! I think I will set up a simple and relaxed life, based on healing others and intentional living. I've gotten back into Bullet journaling too, which I find is my prefer way to plan out my weeks and days! For me, planning is a spiritual practice. For me, this is the real spiritual path. To unify my mind, create inner clarity and heal myself and others. To be relaxed, at ease and in flow with my work and to develop healthy relationships. Peace of mind to me, is the greatest spiritual achievement. Total self acceptance! I am learning to be a Real Person, instead of a good person. To face myself more. Here's to greater relaxation, peace and clarity going forward. It's so surprising how other peoples energies can alter a space and you only notice how much stress they emit once you are free of them. I am also learning not to judge events as good or bad, but simply to observe them over a longer period of time. Sometimes bad events are actually a gift from God. Thank you God. I am convinced now that all the hard work, suffering, confusion, mistakes, lessons, experiences, adventures and habits I have installed etc of the past few years are going to turn me into a mature, stable and happy adult. I love myself more and more everyday and I am accepting reality.

I would say, surrender to the experience go through it consciously and be realistic about what it will take to get back on your feet. Use all the tools at your disposal, but if nothing is budging... don't get lost in stress. Just, relax. But persist. Learn from this, and make a promise that in 5 years your life will be set up, you'll have 6 month of expenses saved up etc.

This is great.

I am not sure if you understand psychedelics, the science surrounding them, enlightenment, or liberation by your post. What I actually read in your post is that you are upset, scared and going through a lot of suffering. Seems you've had a pretty tricky diagnoses. You don't need to use these tools, especially with such a diagnoses. Take time to heal. Theres plenty of tools.