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@Mz Hyde Thank you, that is actually on my reading list. I tend to be hard on myself. I want to be successful. I have strengths but I am also a fucking idiot and a fool. On Monday I will do my adversity quotient and guide to rational living work. However, I also just got temporally terminated from work until I hand in some paperwork that will wake like 2-3 weeks to receive, and I am not doing well financially. So, my foolish karma is butt fucking me. I will improve... Or kill myself Idk which one is better option. I HATE how foolish I am.

Exactly, But, it's useful to steer the ship and have an idea of the destination or else, it's sort of.. not a journey? if you know what I mean. Personally I want to be very skilled at something and recognized for it socially and financially. But, apparently that is years away.

Leo has some good books on his reading list about this

This is all there is to do The fear is bullshit

Lol, noooo Use all the tools are they are to be used

Do your you stuff first thing in the morning before work, and rest after work. Rise earlier, sleep earlier This way also you start each day with something you love, and go to sleep knowing. you will do it first thing in the morning. Also it lets you just rest after it all when you get home. Hmm, You could lunch with them for like 20 minutes, and then go do your own thing. It's what I normally do. I read or journal on my breaks and lunch. Just, actually do it and then see how it goes.

Also the smallest heh It's true

Sounds like you have an hour during that break in the middle of the day to use wisely, and a morning routine to master. You also have weekends. You can may surprise yourself as to how much you can enjoy your job. Then, on weekends you work on a passion project until that becomes your main thing. You are young and have time. This is my plan. I happen to have a plan etc... I've done this grindy grind before. About to re-enter the work force as a payroll clerk or accountant, and launching my Qigong + business after work and on weekends. Why not Meditate/Gym/ Qigong/ Yoga/ Journal in the morning and use the lunch break to work on your project, and then rest and relax, read at night? Sounds like you have a good situation and ideas to play with. You Got this.

I am gonna have to digest this

@Nahm I think I am refering more to Maslow's idea of self actualization. So like, building your pyramid, life purpose, habits, knowledge, and it includes things like self realization, enlightenment, inner work, shadow work, financial health, mental health, unification of splintered ego, good posture, meaningful work, actualization of life purpose. To me that all fits underneath. I find the response you give in this way interesting, but it seems also difficult when we are using different definitions for Self Actualization, or letting it be a floating and personal definition, or not knowing what we mean when we share that symbol... a common definition for the context of the thread I feel can been determined through a socratic method. When it comes to enlightenment, etc I am still in my early process of all of this. Um, I am. I am being. Thats great, now I want to self actualize on my life purpose and get some juice out of this experience. I've built a vision of the life I want within the limited framework of being a human and life on earth. To me self actualization also include the actualization of this vision. To make the vision actual. To actualized myself from the unconsciously contructed false self into a conciously constructed false self, but also to be aware of the true self. To work to embody a higher frequency. To be clear minded, stable, sober, aware, liberated and functional. To be financial, spiritually and cosmically RICH! To me that is being actualized. To spread my wings and fly. Hey, let me approach this with a beginners mind as well. Maybe I am using the wrong words.

@Nahm How do you define self actualization? I thought it meant to make actual yourself, Is self actualization not simply reaching your highest potential as a human being? Whichever that means to you personally? It's not the same for me as enlightenment or liberation , or some non-dual no self realization. Not the same as self realization.

So would you say you are wondering without aim?

Also, you have more than one ego, so becoming aware of that and unifying them is important to avoid self deception, corruption, abuse, lying, confusion, bad habits, cheating, lack of self trust, etc

It sounds like your intuition is moving you towards this exact thing. The guilt is a feedback mechanism to move you toward living a high quality life. So listen to it, but don't feed into it in a toxic way. There is really nothing you HAVE to do. But, maybe using your privilege to lift others up through your creativity over the next 20 30 years and building a powerful vision for yourself, and working hard on that every day is worthwhile. Remember too, if you aren't making mistakes you aren't trying.

I think you can create a pretty robust definition and application of the term ego... On some level it's just your accumulated transference, memories habits etc So, some things are negative, trivial or pathological/ neurotic or devilish and other aspects are important for survival. Others are positive. Then Ego is just the false self, which you can't full get rid of... You want to use the spiritual insights of no self imo, to develop a healthier, selfless, loving ego. Ego is here to stay imo. Just, what quality of ego is it? As long as you want to be a human, your ego will be here.

Take it easy, but take it Yeah, I haven't found like my ideal therapist... but just being able to rant and talk to people helps. Nice to talk to someone who you don't have a relationship with.

Okay, I will assume he means in the social sphere and social matrix or your habits, actions, relationships, the type of media, industry, health of people and planet etc Or, he is talking about something else or a delusion Idk

What do you mean open mindedness will change physical reality?

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@FlyingLotus Very nice! I could have used the integration advice 2 years ago. I think this is probably useful here too I was contemplating Proper use, vs miss use and abuse and will share that list/ contemplation here in a week or so.

@Leo Gura You mean how you contextualize physical reality. Not me changing the way i see it, and it changing actually. Same same, but different right... Or, how you contextualize reality at all. Seeing past it's physical appearance as Mind. Or, would it be if I change my world views, how I interact with the world changes thus changing physical reality. So, these views have an impact on reality. I feel like these types of statements... my world view will change physical reality open people up to wishful woo woo thinking that is impractical and misleading. So, what do you actually mean and can you provide an example?

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He's pretty awake ahah He has been through so much 5meo and weed really helped him mello out I really like his humility at this stage of his life

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