Thought Art

Do you.

I will like what I like and you will not tell me it's wrong or project your fears one me. What I find beautiful, or naturally attractive is what I find naturally attractive. Some women like tall men, are they fetishizing?

Isn't the entire show stage red nonsense ahha It is fun to watch I've seen clips

Recently I've been looking back at my spiritual journey. I realize that maybe 4 years ago after a mushroom trip my openness went through the roof. However, at this time I really didn't know how reality worked at all. So I went out searching, searching, searching. I am still searching. I think I have worked through a lot of my deeper self deceptions, and am still working through more self deceptions. I think I've learned that when opening the mind that we need to be able to give ourselves the room to make epistemological/ metaphysical errors and to be compassionate with ourselves when we make these errors. Chances are when we begin our foundation database of reality we are starting with is already so full of unquestioned errors that foundation of our world view is fragmented, largely developed unconsciously, etc. When we step out into the dark we are likely to occasionally pick up some crappy ideologies, ideas, habits, actions etc. Mistakes are bound to happen in this work. I think one of the biggest risks in open mindedness would be opening the mind only to cling on to something that is neurotic. A large part of my journey I would describe as turning over every stone, or stumbling around in the dark. Trying to light my lantern. Our ego wants reality to be a certain way. I think this has been one of my biggest challenges. My ego wanting to manipulate reality, that somehow awakening would be me REALLY awakening from the dream. As if, I was really imagining Leo, and everyone around me and somehow awakening would be a massive change internally and externally. I had to treat this as a possibility because I was being radically open minded. But, I was also 100% prepared to find whatever I found. My idea of awakening strangely is becoming more and more secular and practical. I think some important ideas or questions that I have learned when working through the open mindedness of exploring the spiritual landscape are: 1. What does it mean to have clarity? 2. How can I explore new possibilities in reality while remaining grounded in secular survival? 3. How do I weed out wishful thinking vs reality when exploring spiritual ideas like New age, manifesting, awakening, imagining others and reality etc.. 4. How do I listen to as many perspectives as possible without clinging to any particular one? 5. How do I allow myself the forgiveness and compassion to make mistakes with ideas, world views, perceptions, wishful thinking, self deception, ideology, stupid questions, false insights from psychedelics, false mystical experiences, etc 6. How do I find time to take inventory on the self deceptions I have had in the past? 7. How do I take the free spirit approach to reality. This means opening your mind to ideas, taking them in, putting them into your bag as possible but not clinging or becoming idealogical about them 8. How do I know when I have reached a point of maturity, clarity, sobriety, self honesty, and understanding of reality that I can trust my mind not to be deceiving me that I can operate in life and the world in a powerful, meaningful and healthy way? 9. How can I use the obvious self deception of others (Connor Murphy, Donald Trump, Maga Shaman, etc) to ground myself 10. Realize that mistakes, errors, wishful thinking etc will happen along your path. When you are studying accounting you will get some questions wrong. It's going to happen. Let yourself make error for sake of learning. Just keep going. Eventually you will reach the shore.

@SaltyMeatballs Snort softer, you can get technique down where it doesn't burn.. Try different head placements.

Sometimes the path to creating something amazing is just literally brute forcing it. Keep putting the hours in, keep using your artistic compass and don't let some bad art, or songs or drawing whatever stop you. It's like running the water... It is cold for bid before the warmth comes. My best songs came from 3 hours sessions of garbage. By then end the water is warm. Then soon you can build up a lot of momentum that carries day after day. Also, drop the perfectionist expectations and simply enjoy the process. Become a craftsman, let go of ideals. They will come in time. Focus on developing your craft and enjoy the process.

I rarely feel lonely I like being alone It's totally possible... Don't create limiting beliefs..

Super gentle. No deep trips yet, but it's nice.

Where do you see yourself in 10, 20, 30 years with all the work you are doing now?

Really I find it the opposite. Mushrooms are really unpredictable to me LSD has been some of the most stable beautiful experiences of my life

@Loba Building one. I feel grounded. I just rant... I have my thoughts.. Had negative ones for years. But, I don't identify with them.

I think he is just being investigated actually. He has taught for many years, has kids, is a overall good guy well respected. I don't have any details other than that. You know how so many people complain about not having a personal finance class in highschool? Well he went and created one for us and got it passed so he could teach it.

It seems everything we build in life is so fragile: Business, relationships, networks, friendships, health, routines, financial health, spiritual health, mental health, civilizations, etc It seems like we are all one bad mistake away from losing so much. Just one sexual misconduct, or just one bad twitter post, or just one wrong turn. One of my favourite teachers from my highschool just got fired from his job for sexual misconduct with female students. He was an inspiration to a lot of people and lead the student council. What is wrong with us? Something here isn't adding up. How could he be so self deceived as to act in that way? And what is sex??? I've recently lost some friends that mattered to me. How do I handle this fragility and temporality of all things? Do we just surrender and do our best? I think that is all we can do.

@Loba Hm, yeah I have plenty going. Which was why I was stressed the other few days finishing up some exams. All part of my larger vision. So is learning to handle adversity and uncertainty, and dealing with expectation vs reality. I share pretty openly my thoughts on the form because I have nothing to hide. I am processing for a long term powerful life. I just have some negative motivation aspects and fears to transcend.

Paradox

Total lack of bias

You and me we got Chemistry!

@lmfao

I guess you gotta actually let go you mean ahaha

5meodmt is the Crown. It's total victory. Namaste The Holy Grail. For awhile anyway.

Happier, safer, more grounded, more loving. More of a connecter rather than a destroyer or separator.

I mean: 1. I love you 2. I forgive you 3. I want you to feel safe, comfortable, happy, loved, understood, accepted 4. I want to live in healthy, stable communities where people feel safe, protected, understood and have enough. 5. I mean the way I feel when I see children play, animals play, people laugh 6. I mean blue skies, sunsets, sushi, Days at the beach 7. I mean healing, health, wellbeing 8. I mean music, art, dance, theatre, film 9. The reason I keep going despite my challenges 10. I mean Truth 11. I mean healthy relationships, good sex, good communication 12. I mean access to adequate mental health services, psychedelics, etc 13. I mean brothers waging war with each other to protect their countries 14. I mean supply chains, governments, laws, school systems 15. I mean you. 16. I mean willing to go ALL the way.

I seem to mention is a lot. I think about it a lot. I call the hotline when the thoughts start up again now... until I can afford therapy. I feel a lot of fear and I see a lot. I sometimes feel trapped existententially in an experience I can't control and don't enjoy. I see my failures and fear I will never find my way to lasting love, joy, success, and peace. I am working on it.

@BipolarGrowth " Well, I met you at the blood bank We were looking at the bags Wondering if any of the colours Matched any of the names we knew on the tags You said, "See look there, that's yours Stacked on top with your brother's See how they resemble one another Even in their plastic little covers" And I said I know it well"

"Who cares in a hundred years from now Who'll remember all the players Who'll remember all the clowns"