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@Loba Hm, yeah I have plenty going. Which was why I was stressed the other few days finishing up some exams. All part of my larger vision. So is learning to handle adversity and uncertainty, and dealing with expectation vs reality. I share pretty openly my thoughts on the form because I have nothing to hide. I am processing for a long term powerful life. I just have some negative motivation aspects and fears to transcend.

Paradox

Total lack of bias

You and me we got Chemistry!

@lmfao

I guess you gotta actually let go you mean ahaha

5meodmt is the Crown. It's total victory. Namaste The Holy Grail. For awhile anyway.

Happier, safer, more grounded, more loving. More of a connecter rather than a destroyer or separator.

I mean: 1. I love you 2. I forgive you 3. I want you to feel safe, comfortable, happy, loved, understood, accepted 4. I want to live in healthy, stable communities where people feel safe, protected, understood and have enough. 5. I mean the way I feel when I see children play, animals play, people laugh 6. I mean blue skies, sunsets, sushi, Days at the beach 7. I mean healing, health, wellbeing 8. I mean music, art, dance, theatre, film 9. The reason I keep going despite my challenges 10. I mean Truth 11. I mean healthy relationships, good sex, good communication 12. I mean access to adequate mental health services, psychedelics, etc 13. I mean brothers waging war with each other to protect their countries 14. I mean supply chains, governments, laws, school systems 15. I mean you. 16. I mean willing to go ALL the way.

I seem to mention is a lot. I think about it a lot. I call the hotline when the thoughts start up again now... until I can afford therapy. I feel a lot of fear and I see a lot. I sometimes feel trapped existententially in an experience I can't control and don't enjoy. I see my failures and fear I will never find my way to lasting love, joy, success, and peace. I am working on it.

@BipolarGrowth " Well, I met you at the blood bank We were looking at the bags Wondering if any of the colours Matched any of the names we knew on the tags You said, "See look there, that's yours Stacked on top with your brother's See how they resemble one another Even in their plastic little covers" And I said I know it well"

"Who cares in a hundred years from now Who'll remember all the players Who'll remember all the clowns"

@BipolarGrowth I am very grateful for the above video. Gonna take me years to fully grasp it, to embrace and love it. Though slowly, the teachings of this video and others all combine together.

@Leo Gura Yeah.. The amount of... "Thank you Leo"s I have had on trips. I forgot about those... Thank you Leo ahahhah

@Ineedanswers Wouldn't that be a bias?

@kamwalker What a liberating idea... For me I'd like to do that more. But first.. escape wage slavery and do it in a kickass way.

A year is a mysterious thing

@Leo Gura Dangerous pedos should be killed too. Specifically child molesters. Pedos are like born that way or something. differences.

Death penalty, if you believe death is infinite love and a new beginning.. let the life of a murderer go.

Maybe that is the challenge. Like, I am not in the state right now. It's hard to contain and remember it. I've seen beyond.. I've realized "Between the click of the light and the start of the dream" The nothingness that is actually what this is. I am thinking about it right now... But, not when I was in these particular states. Who knows, I have more tripping to do. You would think I would "Know" if I found the truth. But, I don't really know. I don't know my own mind well enough. It seemed like it was true. But, I've been wrong before. I think I am still immature, thinking the Truth is something I can use. Ps... Loving the irony of this thread.

@Moksha I just... I don't know if what I experienced was absolute truth. Also, life is more than some realizations is what I am saying. I am also young. It seemed like it was the truth. I will have deeper awakenings, and I will develop myself more. I realized I was God, that It's just this appearance in a void pretending. That I have no beginning or end. But, I still don't know how to reconcile what I think is the Truth, with relative truth and how little I know about our universe. So, do I really know the truth? I don't know. Clearly, I am the truth. But, how I work I don't know. I also had a trip where I hugged my friend and got into his personal space while on 5meodmt. I think this has left a stain on psychedelics for me until I can reconcile it. The day before he told me we were brothers, and then he just disappeared. He completely changed. After I tripped I thought he was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. We were brothers, we were growing together. Leo also said other don't really exist... So I because I had no boundaries in that state I like hugged him, touched his face, was doing Qigong knocking on his back and feeling into his skin deeply. I was also tensing up a lot... thinking about a lot at once... He is very fragile and I think it scared him. He hit me, and I playfully hit him back thinking everything was okay and we were just playing. But, he was upset but it. Maybe other things to. Anyway. That experience really made me doubt the validity of other peoples experiences. I thought he was gaslighting me after the trip. So, then I was like.. Thinking maybe he was having some kind of backlash or flash back or something. He seemed to have a break down after that. I still don't know what to make of it. So, I've had mostly good experiences... one very confusing one. Leo also was mad at me for it. But, It happened to me. I've had total collapses of every distinction into a perfect unity, I've experience infinite love and peace, total perfection. I've forgiven everyone and everything in those states. I've experienced deep existential fear, confusion.. Ego death... Was it God? Was it God? What is God?

Rape and murder have different outcomes. When a murderer is put down, it keeps people safe. However, perhaps a child grows up without a father, and looking for that love he rapes. Who knows...

They are very powerful. I think they actually helped me my pot addiction too. And admittedly I am learning how to use them still. Developing my protocols, mental models of what they are. I just know there is soooooo much spirituality outside of them too. Still learning... I am a seedling. They showed me so much love, beauty, grace and even my current life purpose. But, I had to take action on those insights.