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I realize how important money is when pursuing a life purpose. I feel a little frustrated by my current financial situation. There are some mentoring programs and courses I want to take to help me to escape wage slavery but can barely afford. I am considering taking a risk here, but when I do the math I am cutting it so damn close. Wage slavery is not easy to escape. I am doing the math even with my new jobs I am applying for. You don't make any money. You get paid to work basically so you can keep working. I might be able to pull something off here. I will be working 8 hours and then 3 or 4 hours when I get home. But, I am making a push to start my own online business. I just wish I had 10k dollars more than I currently do. But, I am where I am and must take responsibility. Had I had this vision 10 years ago and knew what I know now... That is one thing about God I don't understand. How in it's infinite wisdom would it get me into this seemingly pickle? You couldn't of seen this coming? Guess it must be part of Gods plan. Let's see how I pull this off. There are options I can play with. It just may take longer than I want it too. I think more accurately than reality being a love simulator, on a practical level it's an investment simulator.

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Yeah, the life purpose course is great. It gives you a powerful vision and mindset. Completing it will change your life. Then, for maintaining momentum I use productivity apps, and coaches, or training that the specific areas the LP course help you to see. The LP course is like an amazing set of glasses.

Are you saying there can be violent breakdowns on shrooms?

@SQAAD I just know you can do silly things in trips that can't be undone even on normal psychedelics. The point is, I think in Vitaly's case he is a pretty wild guy who was on track for this type of thing... But, still, whether it's 5meo, lsd, or mushrooms there is still a risk and precautions need to be taken. I don't doubt he was mixing other drugs or even what he was on..., he also takes body building substances. That is one of the worse feelings. Doing stupid stupid on a trip you can't undo. Mushrooms for me are pretty lazy, warm, sometimes really heavy. But I can't see myself beating someone up on a psychedelic alone.

@SQAAD Yeah he beat up a lady, but there was a report saying he also fought with others afterward.

@SQAAD Yeah? I personally find the idea of really beating someone up on a mushroom trip hard to believe. He is pretty unstable and likely could have been on other substances... People really should be careful about these substances though. You can misread others and startle, hurt, concern or annoy others if people are not informed with what you are doing. Always take proper protocol and be prepared for the consequences.

I read a bit more. Seems he beat up a bunch of people... But looking at his content he wasn't exactly a great guy sober... Honestly, ruining your life with this kind of thing is totally possible even with psychedelics. That is why you need proper trip protocol.

@universe It would depend on the income and expenses and the courses and workshops price tags. The funds I have make this process a lot slower which is the point of the post. There are obviously work arounds, but life is was easier when you plant the seeds years ago to be well off today.

I find I tend to feel a lot of fear throughout my life. I think we all do. I am making a promise to myself to not live in fear and to continue to develop my life purpose and to be a person of integrity. I recognize I am rather hard on myself and that I expect a lot from myself. I realize that my mind is capable of deep self deception and that many of my fears have no proof or evidence of being real. As afraid as I feel I will continue to overcome fear with love and become the best version of myself I can. I surrender to the not knowing. Sharing my thoughts, maybe you could use them as well.

@Nahm I don't know what everyone experiences. Never will. If I make a grand sweeping statement I expect it to break down. I don't feel fear all the time. But, I have fears which come and I am using my awareness of them to grow and transcend them. I think most of my fears are self deception. Probably all of them. Except the ones which are caution and reasonable and are directly with what I am working on.

Wage slave is most jobs where you need to work to survive. But, they aren't all bad especially if you put yourself in jobs where you develop skills that can be applied to your eventual escape.

@Bob Seeker Don't compare yourself to others. Just be as strategic as you can and focus on gaining experiences and vision for your self.

I would definitely say focus on money and health first. That is actually what I am doing though I wish I had done so at 20. I was pretty depressed and confused in my early 20s. Though, I have been working on myself and did a lot of interesting things. I was always generally health oriented. I've been an athlete my whole life. Anyway, I am basically setting up my life in a way that will be constant skill development and life mastery. I don't like that I am getting older, I wish I was 20 not 26 but, I am where I am and must surrender to it.

@Vrubel I am not going to quit. I am a person of honesty and integrity and I am here to serve others. If I fail, I will try again.

@Vrubel Good recommendations. That isn't the problem. The problem is being socially ostracized and having my career ruined over something. I don't think this will happen but I feel it as a deep fear. It's just a fear I have. I love myself, but I am also not willing to stick around being some hated person. I don't need to waste time in this life doing crappy things. I am here to love and spread love. But, I am still early and overcoming the fears of becoming successful. This fear isn't just around sex, but anything people cancel people for.

This world really scares me People will make sexual mistakes with one another. Not everything needs to be considered assault. Isn't inviting someone in for Coffee sexual innuendo? I understand he didn't ask for consent and everything. It's a difficult situation.

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Stay sober, exercise and eat well, sleep well, study hard. Meditate as well daily, it has shown to help the brain to be more healthy. Qigong and yoga as well.

Is the company stalling? We had what we wanted: your eyes (When we leave this room it's gone) With no word from the former I'd be happy as hell if you stayed for tea (I know so well that this is all there is) This is how we grow now, woman A child ignored These will just be places to me now The foreman is down (When we leave this room it's gone) We're rising the stairs Staying at the Ace Hotel, if the calm would allow Then I would just be floating to you now It would make me pass to let it pass on I'm climbing the dash, that skin Well we walked up on that bolt in the street After you tied me in in the driveway of the apartment of his bede Sent your sister home in a cab Said I would've walked across any thousand lands (No, not really if you can't) I didn't need you that night Not gonna need you anytime Was gonna take it as it goes I could go forward in the light Well I better fold my clothes

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Are you sleeping enough?

I think psychedelics can heal you, show you beauty, maybe something you can call God. But, in the end they should only be less than 1% of your psychological and spiritual work. I think Leo giving them so much attention is important in some way to teach people about them. But, I think because I personally saw the channel as a school for self actualizing... It perhaps side tracked my focus as I came to think they were more powerful, or important than they are. Don't get me wrong. Take it easy, but take it. They are powerful tools. But, they don't change reality that much. They are maybe 1% of your actually spiritual and personal development work. The insights are not actually True. I've had many insights that were accurate, but just as many they were not. And, I still don't consider a 5meodmt trip God. It's really just an experience. I still don't really understand reality, or that I am constructing it, or what God is. 5meodmt is great for love, forgiveness, some sort of infinity like experience, ego death, presence, etc. But God? I mean it's God already. I've known I was God since like grade 4 but no one around me confirmed this... So I was confused. Also, be-careful taking psychedelics and while watching to much Leo. When he says things like others don't exist, he doesn't have his own consciousness, you are God constructing all of reality, etc. I've tried 5meo-MALT... There was no grand God realization as of yet. None of that changes anything even if it is true. You are having a limited, human experience. You may be God, but you are God being a limited finite human. So, in some ways it's really just mental masterbation and drug taking. The drug will show you amazing things! It made me realize the importance of Qigong. But, I don't think it's worth the hype or focus. I am not sold on the metaphysical claims of psychedelics not being an experience in the brain. Even if the brain is imagined by Mind, what makes taking one substance over another making it special? It's not. 5meo-dmt, or 5meo-malt are just the same Cosmic Mind as weed or coffee. They may change your life forever.... But, realize it's not gonna take you far if you want to go really far in life. It may even be a distraction. Take it easy, but take it. By all means, explore psyches, get the benefits, the healing, the love, the insights, the recontextualization. But realize its dead end after awhile. It's not more important than yoga It's not more important than meditation, breathwork, journaling, reading self help, Qigong etc Leo saying somehow that taking a drug is more important than these things, and that God realization is more powerful than these habits I just don't buy. I still don't really grok God. None of the insights I had while tripping I take back into regular life and trust that they were 'absolute Truth'. Which, i understand conceptually. Anyway. Do you, this is just my thoughts today.

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@OBEler Yes, learning to be assertive is worth it even if she makes mistakes. The more she practices standing up for herself, setting healthy boundaries she will realize its actually much easier and rewarding than she thinks. Again I really don't know her situation. But, even though my initial take on assertiveness was actually aggression. I am glad I did it as I am learning to stand up for myself skillfully. She can do it, whatever she needs to do if she tries.