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Primary: 1.5 - Higher than 19.6 % of people who took test Secondary 1.9 - Higher than 20.5% of people who took test I sense this tells me very little but was fun, I am pretty sure I am 100% not a psychopath. If anything, I am too empathetic or sympathetic. Also, selfish in certain contexts.

22g? jeez ahha Truffles are great though

1. Developing a clear mind. 2. Deliberate practice in the areas of your life done strategically to build foundation after foundation as you build up your basic life skillset. ie, Personal finance, self soothing, Qigong, meditation, yoga, good posture, sleep habits, nutrition, inner dialoque work, dating, sex, etc 2.5 Frequently updating your mental models to be more powerful and accurate. ie, lectures, online courses, books etc 3. Frequently updating your systems for living (your habits) to better match you vision for your healthy and ideal life. systems for living are our habits and routines and tools we use. 4. Developing a mature look on reality, developing our adveristy quotient, and capacity to deal with difficulties of life and to be able to forgive ourselves and others 5. Learning to use math, procedures, administrative tasks, software, personal finance, accounting equations, etc

I really don't buy the Bashar thing, I can feel his ego oozing out I have channeled spirits before. So, even though I don't buy him in particular I don't doubt channeling is a possibility.

@Rilles Yeah, the old lady thought she was doing what was right. She didn't mean to attack, hurt or offend I don't think. I think she was protecting how she saw herself, ladies and the sacredness of church. Imo, she thought that because she was chubby, and the lady was chubby they were on common ground to have the conversation. She grew up in a time when women were told how to dress right for church. Yes, it is body shaming. But, I wouldn't hate and attack the old woman. She has her perspective of what is right and it's different from the young lady or most people here on the forum I think. Everybody is acting from the best of intentions considering their own perspective. It was an unfortunate mix up. I grew up with a grandmother who shamed me for many things like piercing my ears as a young man. People just see reality differently. I love my grandparents but, I tend to keep to myself these days. I can't take too much old people stage blue etc. Like me doing Qigong and my artistic pursuits I think confuse them. To my grandmother psychology is Dr. Phil. There's not much I can do. It's funny when I see her transference her Dr. Phil attitude.

Lol, reminds me of my grandmother. IMO, the old lady treated the women given her standards and morals that she imposes on herself. She was saying, dress like me to be polite and respectful. I don't agree with her, but I understand this old women's views. I understand as well and would like be just as offended as the young women was.

I think the purpose of this thread is to talk about and share links with regards to men and raising our awareness around consent and being better partners, and lover makers. I sense that a of men did not learn about consent as young people and I think it is a very important conversation. I personally think that it's important we take a hard look at ourselves and our abilities to control sexual energy and to make sex safe and enjoyable for everyone.

Meta Don't identify or create stories Simply be

Safety first, It's worth using light doses and pysches first. Do lots of research and try to fool proof it as much as possible. Once you trip as long you took proper protocol and precautions (which will be developed through tripping over time as you learn the realities of the substances which are different than you thought from listening to mixed opinions of others) just relax. 5meo is different for everyone I think. It's really not bad you don't need to take a huge hit. I don't recommend it early on, but also its pretty tame for the most part, thought extremely radical as you dissolve into infinite love.. AL-Lad is a good starter. Though, I have had one or two strange and unfortunate experiences/ reactions over my past two years that I would rather not have experienced and still don't fully understand. I think as I started to go DEEPER AND DEEPER I was unconsciously fighting it during the trips which results in walking around and holding onto others. Psychedelic headspace and trips is a deep area of mastery that I think can take a life time. There is not need to rush as their results are rather intense. I think the stronger you life foundation, metaphysics, epistemology, life maturity, less addiction based you are the better. Study deeply what you are getting yourself into. It's safe if done slowly and deliberately, with the right setting and intentions. It should be done seriously, with a journal log to take notes of your protocol. Safety, safety, safety.

"Look for day of the lanterns and you are the light"

Don't shit where you eat I don't recommend dating colleagues but using it as an opportunity to understand your sexual energy. This will be up to you to decide.

This is a great clip!

Yeah, you wont escape that. I wrote a poem that said "The intellect sits down, on the seat of emotion, begin to question.. everything you know babe..."

Different for everyone

I would exercise even if you are tired for at least 10 minutes when you get home. You have the energy. The more you do this despite emotional labour you will grow you capacity to do more after work. Bit by bit.

Impulsiveness is when you are acting based on emotion, craving, or a trigger. You are not conscious of your actions when you act impulsively. These decisions are not being processed in the pre-frontal cortex. I think impulsiveness has its place like in sports, and it can be okay when paired with a calm state and high quality intuition. However, it poses a lot of risks and I would say as someone with ADHD it's gotten me in a lot of trouble in my life. Impulsiveness can be useful in some survival situations like escaping a burning building or protecting a child. The range from impulsiveness to deep analytical planning, different life contexts and scenerios call for varying degrees of these. Both can be used constructively or neurotically. Impulsiveness is a problem when you are trying to scale a business, take charge of your personal finance, doing psychedelics or making life decisions that will impact you for many years. Impulsiveness is something I am working on. A good solid life is built on a foundation of integrity, long term thinking, balance, wisdom, intentional living and consciousness. The road to a crappy life is build on addiction, fear, blaming others, projection, impulsiveness, etc. When we judge others, don't have difficult conversations, demonize others, etc often time this is impulsive and not coming from a place of consciousness. All the crap or mistakes in my life boil down to impulsiveness, craving, avoiding pain and fear and my own short sightedness. Which, has been pretty big. Yet, I wont give up on myself. In fact, despite whatever challenges I have had, mistakes I have made I know I am on the right path.

I think the interview was good. I really enjoyed seeing Leo speaking to someone about his ideas. I have more questions after having watched it. I am more skeptical than ever. Which is a good thing. Good interview so far anyway. Still haven't finished it. You two seem to get along well. It reminds me of myself speaking to my skeptical friends ahaha It's interesting the limitations of language and you two have different operating systems and reference experiences.

I thought there were some good essays in this https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/646175.Modern_Man_in_Search_of_a_Soul

So, as I have been processing along my spiritual and self actualizing journey a common thread that has come up is: Self deception. I think when we begin this journey we are so thoroughly self deceived, selfish, ignorant, desperate, confused, etc that wrapping our head around ideas like nihilism, freedom, life purpose, God realization/ spiritual awakening is a risky and challenging endeavour. I have been and will continue to put my mental models of reality to the test as I continue to clear up my mind, become wise, integrated, sane and balanced. Sometimes a common occurrence for me is a sense of guilt or shame about a past believe, action, thought, idea etc that was based in self deception. This is often met with a fear of how deceived I am right now in this present moment. If I have been deceived in the past why not be deceived right now? HoweverI realized that self deception is so powerful and deep that there is really nothing to be ashamed of. Self deception is the norm on planet earth. So, be easy on yourself and make small efforts every single day to aligned more and more with truth. We are all foolish, make mistakes and have elements in our past which are less than ideal and we must accept that our pasts are how they had to be to get us to where we are now.

Maybe pick a few that seem relavant. I think we should just be collected courses, teachers etc for our 10-20 year plan of life long learning.

What are you even asking?

Okay, so at 3:43 in the interview, Leo has just talked prior about going to fortune tellers/ reiki healers. He goes to 5 different healers, each who give him different explanation as to why he is having the problems he is having. Then he spent four hours with a dark energy healer. He went to these 6 individuals with no results and yet he doesn't consider them delusional, only that they are in different realities. Sure they live in different realities. Leo also went to many doctors in the western model to heal his stomach issues and none of that works. Yet, we don't consider doctors delusional. If I went to 5 western medical specialist about my stomach issue and they all have me different reasons I would consider them to have different expert opinions, or some to be wrong or some to be right. But, I wouldn't consider them delusional as I would if I went to different mystics and had different opinions. This whole truth thing is very challenging. I am personally of the opinion that healing energy work and things like reiki, Qigong, yoga, breath work, chanting, listening to music, tuning forks etc have a positive affect on aspects of the body. These practices promote health, relaxation and the spiritual aesthetic needs of humans. Yet, they are not the same of getting a vaccine or something like that. I guess, whether its western medicine, traditional Chinese medicine, mysticism, science etc that we as humans embody so many aspects of reality that each of these schools of thought address different aspects of the human experience. But, we need to be honest and clear with ourselves about the validity or intent behind using these professionals. There should be no bias given to one or the other, except in that we are being intelligent in our approach and usage of these schools. It's not black and white as far as I can tell. Its not like, western science good mysticism bad. There is truth and falsehood and varying degrees of effectiveness strung out through all domains of human existence. I have had deep mystical experiences under the care of a tantric priestess while at a sexual shamanic online festival. But, I would like more to confirm it. For example, I know first hand that Qigong is real as I practice it everyday and have first hand experience of Qi energy and am intuiting my abilities in the next 20 years. Yet, someone else could just be some asshole who took too many mushrooms and now thinks he is an alien who is a light worker who has to tell heal the world. He may think he can cure cancer, while all I am doing as a Qigong teacher is helping people to stretch and circulate their life for energy better. Two seemingly woo woo things to most people yet I think Qigong has validity, while the alien light-worker is smoking something. Like, the field of nutrition: So many different opinions. Are most nutritionist completely deluded in the same way, or similar ways as a dark energy healer who sees demons and energies that don't exist? I am really only interested in what is true so I can build a business that helps people and is based in truth. Listening to Leo's explainations about his energy healing and that he doesn't consider them delusional I felt like he was in self deception territory. If I went to a doctor who was a quake, not follower professional protocol which was leading to chronic deaths and spreading of disease we wouldn't say he was just living in a different reality. People may live in different realities in their mind, which in some context is fine imo when it comes to aesthetic and spiritual experience. But, when it comes to healing and domains of life that pertain to healing we need the tool to actually address and fix the problem. An artist's cognition may be allow for more aesthetic loosey goosie ness, but surely healing must actually work or it's a scam and self deception, or simply not the right tool for the job. If I went to an energy healer who made bold claims about the results I would be upset if I didn't have results. I remember someone on the forum a few weeks ago who was claiming to have healing powers and was 'healing people' on the forum. Which he wasn't he was full of shit and Leo banned him. So, is this medicine actually poison and snake oil? Is this spiritual healer actually a quake and self confused? What are their motivations? Proof? Reasons? Results? I am just noting here that every single external authority I come across has varying degrees of accuracy. I need to be able to take actualized.orgs model as a subset of a larger model I am creating. There is too much risk for Leos self deceptions here. I don't think he is wrong about infinity, and I love his passion and am very grateful for the immense amount of wisdom. But, I just need to always realized I can be self deceived and that I likely am. And, therefore, I cannot gauge accurately the self deception of another. So he question is: When it comes to healing, is it not important that the act of healing actually creates a tangible result in person. If not, what are the implications of the method? Was it the wrong method for the problem? was it a pseudo claim and the person was a scam artists or a self deceived hack? How do I reconcile that some modern medical practices are limited and problematic, while many work.... The same seems true of spiritual practices such as journaling, meditation, body scans, visualization, some energy work practices, Qigong, yoga, breathwork, pschedelics etc What is the difference between Aesthetic cause-play and science? or, Art and science? They both exist, but have different relative applications and are not mutually exclusive. Honestly, Arcadefire is right in their song "Powerout" -"Growing up in some strange storm... Nobodies Cold nobodies Warm.. So I went out into the night... I went out to find some light (to pick a fight with anyone)" I will absorb all this material and I will transcend falsehood and delusion more and more. I sense Leo may have a high degree of accuracy. But, I am making sure I continue to go meta beyond him and ground myself in something that is both spiritually aesthetic, practical and that is true and works.

@hyruga It was one of the first I watched. I must have watched it a few times.

I don't think people should eat it or use MAOI