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What are some tips for getting better at socializing at social events or loud places where groups of people drink and laugh and dance. I was at a staff party tonight and it was a lot of fun, fancy etc... I work in a pretty upper class environment. I did dance, and I socialized with my table but I would have liked to walk up to other tables and just start talking to people but I felt like that was too awkward and scary. That I wanted to sit down, but also deeply wanted to just sit by myself. The server was super cute... I felt like I could have made more eye contact with her. I could tell she was attracted to me. I was with her as well aha. I have long noticed that at the end of a social party I can often feel a deep loneliness, awkwardness and out of placeness. It's a total illusion I think if I just let go and flowed. I am fun, likeable and attractive but... This has long been a sticking point. Tips or questions? (edited)

I think, maybe you feel so much fear around this subject because you struggle to understand social norms? These interactions should be pleasant for everyone involved. The first video he even sounds intoxicated. it makes sense to want to be cautious.

@JayFueel God forgives all as does jesus because he is the son of God. As a human you must be intelligent. Forgiving, and allowing yourself to be in danger is different. You can forgive a serial killer (they are often heavily traumatized as children...) But, you are not a fool are you? Why would you allow him near you. Keep him behind bars. You can forgive intelligently.

Stop feeding your head with fear and instead learn what works.

Inspiring and a little combative

Looking for recommendations for books that will help me build a more solid understand of science, definitions, and its history and application.

Lol, we probably agree on more than we think Permission to fully feel the feelies

We are all finite, so we just gotta be ourselves. @Nahm Yes, Pharrell is right It's the only worth thing. But, so is Fully feeling instead of deciding one emotion is better than others as life is complex. Yeah, I think I value fully feeling and being what what is rather than being happy. To me, personally that is Love. I love you folks. Keep doing you. Om

It's all good. I mean, Mastery by Robert Greene is sort of a science book in many of it's chapters. Great for the right mindset. Just bought one of those "very short intros" on philosophy of science.

Same to you? if thats what you feel like you gotta do? Don't play the game you judge the other for play? what? You want me to be like someone else? That's a little weird. I am just saying, she misinterpreted me. Your not gonna tell me other wise. I don't give you any authority in this context. This whole thing is full of hypocrasy Nahm... which is fine it you gotta do that.

I wasn't describing the absolute nor the God head. Simply a list of 10 things I personally discovered through my own interpretive process and mystical experiences.

Lol your not gonna tell me what to do. Judy is wrong. And so are you.

Alright water everything down. wrong is a belief, as is your interpretation of the situation, as is hers, as are mine. water it all down… until it’s meaningless. She misunderstood my post. I’m learning to just let other people’s interpretations go. I was listing metaphysical insights gained from mystical experience… not projections or whatever she said. she also said descriptions are not part of the absolute… which is true but also false and dualistic. On Judy being present tense - actually she’s not. She’s sitting at a computer somewhere imagining she’s interpreting symbols on a forum properly projecting she understood my points. That was not truly being or grocking anything. nothing about the forum is really accurate, or present tense. It’s all mostly projection to a certain extent. So what she’s saying is obvious. your implicitly (I think) calling my direct experiences and my memories of those direct experience more false than her reading text on a forum. That makes no sense to me.

Are those really science books? ive read the entire mastery by Robert Greene, I guess it’s a science book. trying to keep thread focused on books surrounding philosophy of science. Maybe even books not on Leo’s list.

with regards to what? My own direct experiences? She is flat out wrong in her interpretation of my post… I’ve had mystrical experiences and listed them and then she told me they aren’t direct experiences which is wrong. She misunderstood the context of what I’m saying. Then told me they were just concepts and projections without understanding or asking me to clarify anything. don’t go patting people on the back like that giving one person the all good when you yourself might even be wrong.

Congrats by the sounds of it.

@Gregory1 yeah, I know what you mean but. God isn't big. Big is a duality. God is One. Will read trip report later.. just replied to title.

God ain't big bro you just small

Yeah, I was having a conversation in a youtube comment section and I realized that a lot of my understanding of words is implicit, intuitive and colloquial which doesn't hold up when speaking to more rational, scientific types. I mean, for example when I studied accounting if those concepts and words weren't clearly defined entire nations couldn't operate. In order to actualize on my LP of course creation and when I get to my Thought Art project ( which will take time and needs to be built off the foundation of my other projects... (like the Effortless Work Week)) I need to have a much more solid foundation of definition in each field I partake in, and of science, psychology, and existential vocabulary. Reading books isn't enough, I need to be defining these terms in my own words.

I realize I have never really done this. New OneNote project has now started... I think it's also important to define words in any categories in which you work.

Ultimately, you are responsible for you. Also, there is risk to everything. Statistically the condition you have is pretty rare. It's also a side effect of covid itself right?

@Judy2 Lol, dang! Just kidding.

Please take a break. These ideas have nothing to do with your life. Go, relax, take a break from all this stuff. Go talk to friends and family. Take a break from all things Actualized.org for awhile. Infinity doesn't mean you will end up here again and again... It means things can be new and interesting and fun for ever. Not the same thing again and again. You are misapplying the ideas which is stressing you out. These ideas should make life more fun and enjoyable. Your doing it wrong. So, go relax and be normal. Chill, enjoy some nice tea etc. Your just a guy or girl... You are living your life, just like the rest of us. Relax, chill, go play some video games, read a book. This phase you are in will end in time. It's alright.

I took it and I am fine.

Well, they clearly exist so that is false on some level. Description is part of the Absolute itself. But, they aren't the same as Grokking it in its totality. But, what you are saying is obvious to me. I think I explain this in my response. Well, we do. 5meodmt and others... I mean, that at least sky rockets you if used properly. However, yeah. I got my Qigong 'grind' still, and meditation. So, you aren't wrong imo. But, we have technologies that can allows us to grow much faster than in the past.