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Survival and fear about what may happen. Not accepting reality as it is.

@Terell Kirby Each day I improve my ability to manage stress. However, I have some cognitive blocks or self image issues that seem to be more stubborn. Also, simply dealing with the uncertainty of fame. There is a lot for me to contemplate here. I don't really trust the universe and the way the world works enough that if I become famous musician it wouldn't be a net negative for my life experience. However, it is my highest calling and fantasy and I am actually really good at it. I am focusing on Qigong for now as it it less fame oriented and helps me to develop my stress management and to help others do the same. That makes me happy too. I cry tears of joy after teaching a good Qigong lesson.

@mandyjw I think so. I think my main reason for avoiding fame is to maintain more privacy and control in my life.

@Flowerfaeiry I mean, I will do both. But, I am not gonna master music for no reason. It's fun to play, but if I am not doing it full time I'd rather do something else. @Max8 You are right. But, there is a way to do it. I've played festivals, and had tonnes of opportunity and have lots of great connections. It's something I consider in reach in my life if I want to do it. The biggest problem I have is fear. @Terell Kirby You are right. It's strange, being a real musician, or professional artist was my dream. It may still work out I just need to clear up my mind and limiting beliefs. But, fame? Fame isn't worth much. What I really want is a life of love, serving others, happiness, creativity, and a sense I am contributing to the world in a positive way. I want to limit stress out of my life, and live a beautiful existence. Music is on the back burner. Any job that requires fame is just too stressful because of all this cancel culture and stuff. I am a pretty liberal/ stage green/ pro love person. But, It's just too risky.

@mandyjw Lol there is part of my point It's honestly a good song though lol she was a kid

I don't drink Dairy personally. Nutrition science is full of devilry and culture, ego, and bla...

I used to like Ralph for a few months. He used to be more positive back then ,less conspiracy.. But then I found Leo and others and now I am off doing my own thing

Those are great insights and match up with a lot of the ones I have had. I find myself doubting my experiences with the days that come after a trip. Reading your trip reports shows me I was not alone in these realizations. Or, I imagine I am not lol. Thanks for the report. I can have these insights say, during a trip. But then I am trying to survive and create things. Plus I am still maturing.

I needed to hear this. I admit this is one of my biggest struggles when it comes to relationships. You can't control what someone wants to do with other people. As long as you area a great high quality guy you shouldn't need to worry to much about cheating. and if it does happen, what does that even mean?

We got this! It is possible.

I agree here. I think too much Leo made me expecting to much from the trips. Had I just heard about them a little bit I may have been more grounded. I agree though. Precede with extreme caution, care, maturity and balance. Start low, go slow. The experiences if you start slow go low and surprisingly benign in my experience. But, anything can happen. Enter at your own risk.

@Carl-Richard Interesting. I am increasingly wary of these tools though I respect their healing benefits.

I realize how important money is when pursuing a life purpose. I feel a little frustrated by my current financial situation. There are some mentoring programs and courses I want to take to help me to escape wage slavery but can barely afford. I am considering taking a risk here, but when I do the math I am cutting it so damn close. Wage slavery is not easy to escape. I am doing the math even with my new jobs I am applying for. You don't make any money. You get paid to work basically so you can keep working. I might be able to pull something off here. I will be working 8 hours and then 3 or 4 hours when I get home. But, I am making a push to start my own online business. I just wish I had 10k dollars more than I currently do. But, I am where I am and must take responsibility. Had I had this vision 10 years ago and knew what I know now... That is one thing about God I don't understand. How in it's infinite wisdom would it get me into this seemingly pickle? You couldn't of seen this coming? Guess it must be part of Gods plan. Let's see how I pull this off. There are options I can play with. It just may take longer than I want it too. I think more accurately than reality being a love simulator, on a practical level it's an investment simulator.

Is this considered promotional?

Yeah, the life purpose course is great. It gives you a powerful vision and mindset. Completing it will change your life. Then, for maintaining momentum I use productivity apps, and coaches, or training that the specific areas the LP course help you to see. The LP course is like an amazing set of glasses.

Are you saying there can be violent breakdowns on shrooms?

@SQAAD I just know you can do silly things in trips that can't be undone even on normal psychedelics. The point is, I think in Vitaly's case he is a pretty wild guy who was on track for this type of thing... But, still, whether it's 5meo, lsd, or mushrooms there is still a risk and precautions need to be taken. I don't doubt he was mixing other drugs or even what he was on..., he also takes body building substances. That is one of the worse feelings. Doing stupid stupid on a trip you can't undo. Mushrooms for me are pretty lazy, warm, sometimes really heavy. But I can't see myself beating someone up on a psychedelic alone.

@SQAAD Yeah he beat up a lady, but there was a report saying he also fought with others afterward.

@SQAAD Yeah? I personally find the idea of really beating someone up on a mushroom trip hard to believe. He is pretty unstable and likely could have been on other substances... People really should be careful about these substances though. You can misread others and startle, hurt, concern or annoy others if people are not informed with what you are doing. Always take proper protocol and be prepared for the consequences.

I read a bit more. Seems he beat up a bunch of people... But looking at his content he wasn't exactly a great guy sober... Honestly, ruining your life with this kind of thing is totally possible even with psychedelics. That is why you need proper trip protocol.

@universe It would depend on the income and expenses and the courses and workshops price tags. The funds I have make this process a lot slower which is the point of the post. There are obviously work arounds, but life is was easier when you plant the seeds years ago to be well off today.

I find I tend to feel a lot of fear throughout my life. I think we all do. I am making a promise to myself to not live in fear and to continue to develop my life purpose and to be a person of integrity. I recognize I am rather hard on myself and that I expect a lot from myself. I realize that my mind is capable of deep self deception and that many of my fears have no proof or evidence of being real. As afraid as I feel I will continue to overcome fear with love and become the best version of myself I can. I surrender to the not knowing. Sharing my thoughts, maybe you could use them as well.

@Nahm I don't know what everyone experiences. Never will. If I make a grand sweeping statement I expect it to break down. I don't feel fear all the time. But, I have fears which come and I am using my awareness of them to grow and transcend them. I think most of my fears are self deception. Probably all of them. Except the ones which are caution and reasonable and are directly with what I am working on.

Wage slave is most jobs where you need to work to survive. But, they aren't all bad especially if you put yourself in jobs where you develop skills that can be applied to your eventual escape.

@Bob Seeker Don't compare yourself to others. Just be as strategic as you can and focus on gaining experiences and vision for your self.