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No, it’s not to only let go of fears but to avoid catastrophe. The last year has been a building/ limbo phase after a catastrophic failure. I’m working through a lot of fear. Not gonna take judgment from you. not gonna feel bad for having fears in a world and reality as harsh as this. I make threads sharing my fears so I’m not alone in them. You can take your judgments elsewhere. Maybe you don’t have fears and that’s cool bro. Not gonna be shamed for my fears or trauma. we all have unique fears and survival needs. I express this stuff… because I’m literally processing a lot of pain, fear, and uncertainty because that’s where I am in my journey. Which, is totally fine. I’m not into spiritual bypassing or building some false spiritual identity that everything is okay when… frankly I’m still working through fears that seem very real to me given what I desire in life. the fact that I’m trying to build something in my life and hold myself to higher standards, for me at my current level of development means fears. People literally screw up their entire lives… so, I’m gonna share my fears and process them and work to avoid those mistakes. There are more ways to screw up life than to make it work. Frankly, I won’t be happy with some half assed life of just accepting what is. I need some success. if you lived my life experience you’d be here too. soon I will have worked through and integrated my fears. But I’m not competing to put spiritual anyone. it’s my own path. All my emotions are worthy. They are a part of me and… I’m embracing the Tao of fully feeling and developing myself. don’t make it out that I only share threads about worry. That’s false.

I have a tattoo of a rose on my ribs and underneath it says "this is not rose"

Sushi sounds like a great date idea tbh

Take some time away from Leo, social media, videos, distractions and just sit, feel, journal maybe read a bit about shame and self love in a good book. Just disconnect from external stuff and just feel deeply and process. Do some yoga, journal, read, meditate, go for walks. Try some Qigong. Talk to a therapist, or try a new one. Just keep going. You deserve love underneath all the mental movies and transference. This deserving of love can't be taken away. It's the true nature. Leave the lofty metaphysical shit aside for the time being. It's like being way to zoomed in when you need just your bare eyes to see whats around you.

Sounds like old guilts and toxic shames are surfacing... Fully feel them and meet them with love. Love the version of you in all those situations. Don't talk about non-duality with your therapist. I made the same mistake. Though, it did help me to vent to someone because I can be pretty introverted and talking to someone who knew nothing about it was sort of grounding. I was pretty deep in infinity and absolute truth territory really just going fucking balls to the wall at the time trying to understand absolute love and goodness and she was like.. yeah hey? Our psychology and experience as humans is really complex... Just focus on your problems. When non-duality and enlightenment... though part of a similar vein are not the same thing as mental health, self love, healthy cognitive behaviour, breaking free from our shame etc. Just be a real person. Don't let your therapist diagnose you though. However, listen you their concerns and be honest with yourself about where you are at. You may need to start fresh from a new one and just talk to them in the realm they understand. Non-duality etc and all these ideas are not the same thing as being mentally stable and healthy and free of shame. Spiritual stuff is great, but theres more basic inner work that needs to be addressed first. We need to consciously explore the territory of what it means to be living a human experience and address this basic shame, guilt, trauma, self esteem stuff I think before these deeper spiritual things can really flourish.

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I'd say go sober.... I don't think doing anything high is smart. Maybe a light drink or two spread throughout. Maybe something to help keep you alert if you are up late... I have no idea why Leo would think using DMT while gaming would be wise given what I know about it. Sober is better I think. Focus on having fun, respecting women and meeting new people. Growth, joy and love. And, take some healthy risks.

Which kind of DMT

I personally don't think so. You gotta be intelligent to get what you want in life. It doesn't give you anything.

It's up to you. I personally found it distracting and made my analyze myself in a neurotic way and took away from my work. But it may work for you.

It's actually a stoic technique. But that is true on one hand. If we don't look out for dangers we can easily fall into traps. Millions of people do...

I personally no longer date people who have extreme anxiety disorders. They have to want to get help and it wont change over night. I don't wanna change my partners the need to bring a relatively high amount of mental health to the relationship. It's fine and I expect to work through some stuff together. But, I am not dealing with a neurotic partner at this time in my life. Been there.

And if there are two infinities.. That is a duality and all dualities collapse. So there must be an infinity of infinities ad infinitum.

Nothing is outside of God. Because whatever is... must be God. God Imagines forever, and it even sort of transcends forever and contains infinite possible forevers within it. It also imagines 'why' and 'how' and exists prior to those things.

@Emotionalmosquito There are more bars

@Emotionalmosquito Try low dose and slowly work up

That goes against my tripping protocol… I’m too huggy… have a strict no moving or touching protocol now with any trips… unless it’s like some low dose fun with a loved one. whether is 5meo or nn… or any psych… I recommend doing it alone or only around people who are willing and aware of what you are doing and the protocols for safety.

@Leo Gura games on DMT? That makes no sense to me when I think of a DMT trip..

@bloomer no. Jamie Griffith was jumping out of bushes grabbing women’s boobs and asses and then running away with a smirk on his face then he played the victim card. Just be calibrated and go slow. Smile and have fun. you have the intent on having a good night with these women it will come through. just don’t assault people like Jamie.

Lol, shouldn't be an issue.

How goes human to prove anyone can become god like.

"When Love is Gone... Where does it go? and where do we go?" -

This is probably true. I can understand you feeling some shame or hurt about it. Keep working toward mental health instead of taking pride in your illness and blaming others. If you want. It's a path you may take which has many rewards.

@Bazooka Jesus I don't think so. "Frostyyy the snow man" It's not clear. The is definitely saying that "true love will find you in the end" Truth=Love