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Okay Leo. When I get it, we got it. It just being me imagining the forum, you, all your videos, all my life experiences and just imaging that a bubble of experience exists out side of this. Then, all my suffering, mistakes, confusion, success, love, adventures etc were all me imagining this adventure I've been on. That is hilarious to me. So, I created Leo and Arcadefire to lead me to awakening.

Alright alright. You already know I get it. You just aren't sure yet because you're having fun in the process of awakening. You are just talking to yourself right? You are me waking up me. If that was true, you would already know exactly why I am unsure, and haven't awakened because YOU are God too. Don't forget we are inseparable. Don't forget who made you I can stomach it. I just don't wanna be self deceived. So, it's in my bag of possibilities. If it's true, it's true. I look forward to an awakening that lasts.

Um, I think you may need to read up a bit more on the Buddha... The fable is that he literally sat under the bodhi tree until and wouldn't move until he became enlightened.

It makes me feel a bit stressed at time, but also conscious. Like, if you are trying to do a 90 day video challenge posting a video everyday.. and you miss a day you failed the challenge. So it exists. You can fail a quiz a relationship can fail business can fail etc... It's just how do you relate and contextualize those failures. However, its only finite and not a that big of a problem.

How does one reconcile you are telling that to someone else. The only way I can do that, given what I think you are pointing to, assuming it is correct... Is that God is Imagining you exist somewhere and are telling another person some where else that their consciousness is absolute... From my perspective I am imaging you two talking about something. Mu can't have his own bubble nor can you if what you are saying is true. So, I am imagining everything and I created Leo and even my own 'ignorance'. The problem here is that the language is just too sloppy. Either your playing some fucked up mind games with people, or It's just me. This infinite bubble.

Hey man, take some time.. or a lot of time away from God, non-duality etc and just focus on getting mentally healthy. Worrying about all these ideas can be dangerous. Just chill and get healthy. I don't know what you are going through. But, ground yourself. I see you posting these one sentence threads and stuff. People are worried about you. Don't let this stuff screw up your life. Just be a real person. Solipsism isn't true. These ideas can damage you if you are not mentally stable. So, focus on building that foundation first. Sounds like you may have some things going on that need to be addressed. Consider talking to a professional.

A deep trip can bring you into some paradoxical realizations that you imagine vipassana. deep trips blow vipassana out of the water but I’m sure they have synergy

@Girzo it just sounds like stupidity

I don’t see it that way. If everything is your imagination… enjoy it. It’s all alone and the only thing that exists… so take care of it. It’s special. Self love. I also wonder if what you are saying is really a correct interpretation of Buddhism.

@Jacob Morres I think mindfulness is a piece of the puzzle. But, stress and anxiety come from many different aspects of the human accumulation. for example with Qigong, meditation and journaling I’m able to calm down 70-80%. However, my cognitive behavioural problems, transference, trauma AQ, emotional mastery etc… all these things are related. I think mental/ physical health is really a holistic endeavour. I still feel fear and worry myself. I’m making a lot of progress but I myself still have work to do. Even if you want to change to put your partner through your trauma is just unfair. IMO. I still don’t deal with certain fears, traumas, setbacks, etc in a high quality high AQ way. But, because I understand the building blocks of AQ I get better and stronger, resilient with each adversity. to me mindfulness is the Meta skill that allows you to use other skills, frameworks and practices to achieve the desired emotional, physical and cognitive states/ processes that allow you to live a life that is in congruence with your goals and well being. mindfulness can even be more challenging when you start to feel all the strong emotions, fears, traumas and shadows you have long covered up with drugs and distractions .

It’s unlimited

I think failure is a concept. Some failures are good others screw you if you wanna play in the social matrix. Your life can totally be ruined if you end up in jail or get socially ostracized. But, good list.

It’s one thread. I see plenty of people out there who never think of bad stuff and it happens to them. I agree with you on the law of attraction stuff but… it’s also a healthy technique to take inventory of what you don’t want to do… I also admit I have long had anxiety since I can remember. There literally are mistakes to avoid in life. Like assaulting people, or overdosing or killing someone with your car. some mistakes come out of no where, while many of them can be avoided by simply noting them. I’m not intending to dwell on any of the items here or worry. I’m building of list of dangers… because they are real. To me a limited life is a ruined life. I wanna take this thing as far as I can take it. I’m not interested in just sitting around at a 9-5… I wanna create an impact. I want to express myself in the highest possible way. I don’t want anything getting in my way. So, while I’m not well known and I’m young I gotta make a list of what not to do. Especially as you are awakening you can easily misapply spiritual teachings and jump off a bridge or something. 10 + year time horizon. Daily effort.

I like it

Hm, I would consider listening to other people or even getting used to being in silence. I also listen to a clip before bed or when I get home from work. I feel like I am still trying to digest and recontextualize what Leo is saying with my own contemplation and direct experience. im sure I’ll out grow it soon. It’s sort of like eating candy sometimes.

Because there is only ever eternity shape shifting into different stuff

So, their being a planet, other people, etc is just a back story for the present moment?

That’s your projection. who said I don’t know what I want? I’m literally achieving things everyday here… lots of other people share my fears. The point of this thread is to get feedback from others on the things to look out for. In order to build something stable I will take note of the dangers ahead. if I am dealing with psychological problems I’ll post it in the part of the forum specifically chosen for that. If you don’t wanna read that I’m struggling don’t. And I honestly don’t care if my posts bother you because you have the freedom to not read them. i may feel stuck at times as I work on developing my Adversity Quotient. But, I’m working everyday to improve my life. I don’t need people like you judging me for having fears and doubts. I’m improving everyday. I’m just gonna keep posting how I want to. Glad to see how judgmental you are of other peoples journeys. Your not helping right now. And I’m not suffering right now. Your just being rude. If you don’t like my threads don’t read them.

It’s me, but appears to be us. isn’t it unity through division? Leo, I don’t yet fully believe it’s just one bubble in a void. But… trips seem to point there. I’ll grasp it in time. Right now things seem to be possibilities to me and nothing definitive. not sure how you are using the word ‘you’. there is nothing outside of God, ‘you’ But there appears to be a world outside this avatars skull “you” and “you” inner outer you.

No, it’s not to only let go of fears but to avoid catastrophe. The last year has been a building/ limbo phase after a catastrophic failure. I’m working through a lot of fear. Not gonna take judgment from you. not gonna feel bad for having fears in a world and reality as harsh as this. I make threads sharing my fears so I’m not alone in them. You can take your judgments elsewhere. Maybe you don’t have fears and that’s cool bro. Not gonna be shamed for my fears or trauma. we all have unique fears and survival needs. I express this stuff… because I’m literally processing a lot of pain, fear, and uncertainty because that’s where I am in my journey. Which, is totally fine. I’m not into spiritual bypassing or building some false spiritual identity that everything is okay when… frankly I’m still working through fears that seem very real to me given what I desire in life. the fact that I’m trying to build something in my life and hold myself to higher standards, for me at my current level of development means fears. People literally screw up their entire lives… so, I’m gonna share my fears and process them and work to avoid those mistakes. There are more ways to screw up life than to make it work. Frankly, I won’t be happy with some half assed life of just accepting what is. I need some success. if you lived my life experience you’d be here too. soon I will have worked through and integrated my fears. But I’m not competing to put spiritual anyone. it’s my own path. All my emotions are worthy. They are a part of me and… I’m embracing the Tao of fully feeling and developing myself. don’t make it out that I only share threads about worry. That’s false.

I have a tattoo of a rose on my ribs and underneath it says "this is not rose"

Sushi sounds like a great date idea tbh

Take some time away from Leo, social media, videos, distractions and just sit, feel, journal maybe read a bit about shame and self love in a good book. Just disconnect from external stuff and just feel deeply and process. Do some yoga, journal, read, meditate, go for walks. Try some Qigong. Talk to a therapist, or try a new one. Just keep going. You deserve love underneath all the mental movies and transference. This deserving of love can't be taken away. It's the true nature. Leave the lofty metaphysical shit aside for the time being. It's like being way to zoomed in when you need just your bare eyes to see whats around you.

Sounds like old guilts and toxic shames are surfacing... Fully feel them and meet them with love. Love the version of you in all those situations. Don't talk about non-duality with your therapist. I made the same mistake. Though, it did help me to vent to someone because I can be pretty introverted and talking to someone who knew nothing about it was sort of grounding. I was pretty deep in infinity and absolute truth territory really just going fucking balls to the wall at the time trying to understand absolute love and goodness and she was like.. yeah hey? Our psychology and experience as humans is really complex... Just focus on your problems. When non-duality and enlightenment... though part of a similar vein are not the same thing as mental health, self love, healthy cognitive behaviour, breaking free from our shame etc. Just be a real person. Don't let your therapist diagnose you though. However, listen you their concerns and be honest with yourself about where you are at. You may need to start fresh from a new one and just talk to them in the realm they understand. Non-duality etc and all these ideas are not the same thing as being mentally stable and healthy and free of shame. Spiritual stuff is great, but theres more basic inner work that needs to be addressed first. We need to consciously explore the territory of what it means to be living a human experience and address this basic shame, guilt, trauma, self esteem stuff I think before these deeper spiritual things can really flourish.