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@integral yeah a lot actually im pretty bubbly in person

@happyhappy ego backlash… sometimes I get nervous about what we talk about here. At this point I’ve learned enough about ego that I’m allowed to say one thing and then change my mind… I’m not nice .

@mandyjw true but… still… it’s gonna take time to meet people. im not looking for my soul mate tonight lol and most girls where I live don’t like spirituality

Man, am I ever working through these fucking fairy tales

@Chakra Lion Yes, this is true. Working through some ego backlash from last night. I don’t know enough of these women and simply need to get experience.

@Hulk Some form of logical reasoning is important for survival, making decisions, etc and I also think reason is important when it comes to spirituality and spirituality for reason.... They are both connected obviously and they aren't as dualistic as it seems on the surface. However these words "Reason" or "Spirituality" are both deep nebulous things that you will need to explore through your own experience and contemplation for years to come. If you are doing Accounting, use reason and logic with some level of emotional intelligence if you are doing therapy or leading a Qigong class, use your spiritual and emotional development.

Very interesting. Looking to start doing pickup in the next 12 months once I set up my new place and my online Qigong teaching... I think that we will all have fears and limiting beliefs to work through... the shit my mind has made up for why I am unlovable or unable to attract a partner has been one of my biggest challenges this year. I was picking up other peoples mistakes and shit and feeling them as my own. I just need more experience.

Lol, depends on your spirituality. You might weird a lot of basic girls out..

Gonna ride the sting and the limiting thoughts… I’d like to be in a relationship.. truth sags atm

It’s probably about finding the sweet spot

@johnlocke18 all possibilities. Who knows. moving on to next one. I normally am pretty successful with dates so… doubt I was creepy but I am not a mind reader.

Damn your funny man ahaha thanks for that... Alright nightio fellas I'm also contemplating the intelligence in this situation inspired by tonights Clip video. It's really a beautiful thing God does with these emotions. The Yin and the Yang and the space in between. Nothing wrong though, getting to talk to a beautiful women and enjoy some good food. Rejection is just part of the privilege.

@QandC Ahaha, I am sure that is possible... But, she seemed really sweet and we definitely had chemistry. But, I think she felt I was too into traditional Chinese culture and maybe it made her feel weird. I am very international and I don't really look at things that way. Idk. She was nice. We made a lot of eye contact, I felt like I could have gotten to know her. I've had dates with white women who argued with me the whole time. Anyway, she was pretty attractive. I am gonna move on to the next one.. theres plenty out there. In the past I've done pretty well for myself so, its nothing.

@StarStruck I'd say, simply use this as a chance to shop around for the next 5-10 sessions and don't settle right away. Once you have tried a few out, then maybe select the one you resonate both with. You want a high level therapist for sure. Not exactly sure how to find them, but I am sure they exist out there. Most of my therapists I've worked with was basically just someone to talk to and get things off my chest. Like talking to dry wall but more helpful.

@Leo Gura Lol, happened 2 years ago. Finally healing and feeling over it... She taught me about Qi and Krya yoga... She was a reiki/ kyra yoga master.... We ran a little business doing a lot of cool stuff.... I was too needy and broken to really be dating and it just became clear. I knew who I was becoming but, honestly was not at that time. I still had years of immaturity ahead of me. I probably obviously still do in a lot of ways but, your videos on wisdom and integrity have been pretty grounding. So, good came from it. The pain led me to Qigong which is how I was able to learn to regulate my emotions in a higher way. Destruction and creation. Hot witch ex girlfriend... Still like her... But, I not longer feel the petty emotional mess I was. Had a wicked dream about her last night. So metaphorical and archetypal It honestly blows my mind how creative my capacity is. Like, more creative than I am... I wanna get so much experience and have my cup so full, and be so okay we the temporal nature of things I just am able to move on. I know I am gonna be a really high value guy. I am already feeling over it. I am sure it's a feeling I must get used to. I used to feel this way after so many open mics as a musician. So, I am used to it.. or after a bad whatever sport competition I did growing up. Just, no clinging and no oneitius. Just get the fucking experience and get on with you life for fucks sake and LIVE!

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Learning to stay still during a trip is super important... It's hard I know because it's such a radical state but that is something I would suggest working on to keep yourself and others safe. Anyway, Namaste. I can't exactly tell what you took from the trip but it seems to had some ego dissolving and a nice experience.

Just gonna feel these emotions, and be conscious of the stories that come up in my mind. I am a person of Value. I am a very attractive man. The right girl will be lucky to be with me. This girl I went on a date was lucky to be able to meet me. However, sometimes things simply don't work out. It isn't personal. I don't think I really liked her, but it definitely feels better to reject than be rejected lol I actually feel quite a bit of emotional pain and discomfort. It will make me stronger.

@Leo Gura Yeah. It was the Qigong lol. Feeling ambivalent emotions The right ones will see my value as a man. I also felt a little tense throughout and, It wouldn't have worked anyway. She eats meat, wasn't that conscious etc... I think she felt like I was too into traditional chinese culture. I don't do Qigong for that reason, I just like the practice I don't give a shit where it comes from...anyway.

Taoist Sexual Practices - Read the Multi-orgasmic Man by Mantak Chia. There are some good self sexual energy cultivation practices that I am really enjoying. I am actually thinking about making a course in the future. Don't listen to this guy. Just learn to jerk off in a way that cultivates your sexual life force energy instead of deplete it. Most men in the west were not taught how to masturbate because of idiotic religious dogmas. The Taoist believed that cultivating this sexual energy and learning to masturbate was important not only for an amazing sex life, but joy and health in general. Enough of sex or sexual organs being dirty. They aren't. They are sacred.

5meo wont fix any of these problems so, you are using the wrong tool. It can show you infinite love, presence, forgiveness of self and others, and how you totally absolutely deserve and are love. Hey, it showed me Qigong and infinite forgiveness and Unity. But, it didn't fix my problems. Its a lens you can look through to do some deep existential contemplation and to feel and experience truth and love. But, your orgasms could be fixed through taoist sex practices (look up mantak Chi), your physical problems need a doctor, your social anxieties and fears require going and facing those fears and getting direct experience, your motivation problem is complex and you need to work on it it may be related to these other problems. Don't just sit alone all day. Go meet people, try new things and experience life. Take direct action and a break from the substances. They can be a dead end. Well, they are if the clearly aren't doing the job. They are not a cure all.

Have you tried just like, regular therapy?

@Average Investor I mean, for a countertop unit its basically a water filter that you would put under the sink but with a pump and vessel.

The company got back to me: They claim the Aquatru filters out mercury but didn't give me much detail.

Leo's been talkin about how he casually smokes DMT But, I always saw DMT as the breakthrough trippy infinite fractals. Anyone else have experience using this in a way that doesn't involve powerful breakthroughs?