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@hyruga stahp

Met a girl on facebook dating - She actually looked better in person. I think we had a lot of fun... She was chinese and there was a bit of a language barrier. Things seemed to be going well but when I got back from the bathroom she had her jacket on, said her phone battery was dying and took off... I took that as her not enjoying it and wanting to leave. Which was fine. Maybe it was because I showed her Qigong. I have a feeling a lot of women will not like that I do that for a living ahaha. People will think it's weird. Anyway, I feel pretty hurt. I don't think she was really my type exactly, but I definitly felt attracted to her. I have suffered from oneitus in the past. The heart hurts... I unmatched her on the app as a defence mechanism and I will simply use it as an experience. There are more women out there. I will keep meeting people, and actually do some in person pickup in the future. Yes, rejection sucks. But, It's how we get strong, and it through rejection we eventually get results.

Have you tried it? There are chemical and physical differences in these two… one is second hand (listening to a guru) the other is a direct experience …

@Lyubov totally agree. I’m am working on just feeling, and observing my cognitive behaviour. im looking forward to the next one. im just gonna be myself for the most part… take me or leave me.

@Nahm I think that’s exactly it Nahm ol’ boy. I think this is why I need more experience. thank you

@mandyjw lol you are to me

No dude. I mean, I tell them I do Qigong and they think it’s weird. it’s not everyone, but probably the majority as it’s not as well known as yoga. i don’t identify in any particular way… I’m pointing toward life style and interests… also.. if your inherently spiritual… what you said makes no sense. It’s like saying people are ‘already enlightened’ which is just bullshit. I really don’t need you telling me how to be spiritual. Teaching me how spiritual you are not. Anyway, the point is I’m in need or more experience to develop more healthy mental models of my situation.

@integral yeah a lot actually im pretty bubbly in person

@happyhappy ego backlash… sometimes I get nervous about what we talk about here. At this point I’ve learned enough about ego that I’m allowed to say one thing and then change my mind… I’m not nice .

@mandyjw true but… still… it’s gonna take time to meet people. im not looking for my soul mate tonight lol and most girls where I live don’t like spirituality

Man, am I ever working through these fucking fairy tales

@Chakra Lion Yes, this is true. Working through some ego backlash from last night. I don’t know enough of these women and simply need to get experience.

@Hulk Some form of logical reasoning is important for survival, making decisions, etc and I also think reason is important when it comes to spirituality and spirituality for reason.... They are both connected obviously and they aren't as dualistic as it seems on the surface. However these words "Reason" or "Spirituality" are both deep nebulous things that you will need to explore through your own experience and contemplation for years to come. If you are doing Accounting, use reason and logic with some level of emotional intelligence if you are doing therapy or leading a Qigong class, use your spiritual and emotional development.

Very interesting. Looking to start doing pickup in the next 12 months once I set up my new place and my online Qigong teaching... I think that we will all have fears and limiting beliefs to work through... the shit my mind has made up for why I am unlovable or unable to attract a partner has been one of my biggest challenges this year. I was picking up other peoples mistakes and shit and feeling them as my own. I just need more experience.

Lol, depends on your spirituality. You might weird a lot of basic girls out..

Gonna ride the sting and the limiting thoughts… I’d like to be in a relationship.. truth sags atm

It’s probably about finding the sweet spot

@johnlocke18 all possibilities. Who knows. moving on to next one. I normally am pretty successful with dates so… doubt I was creepy but I am not a mind reader.

Damn your funny man ahaha thanks for that... Alright nightio fellas I'm also contemplating the intelligence in this situation inspired by tonights Clip video. It's really a beautiful thing God does with these emotions. The Yin and the Yang and the space in between. Nothing wrong though, getting to talk to a beautiful women and enjoy some good food. Rejection is just part of the privilege.

@QandC Ahaha, I am sure that is possible... But, she seemed really sweet and we definitely had chemistry. But, I think she felt I was too into traditional Chinese culture and maybe it made her feel weird. I am very international and I don't really look at things that way. Idk. She was nice. We made a lot of eye contact, I felt like I could have gotten to know her. I've had dates with white women who argued with me the whole time. Anyway, she was pretty attractive. I am gonna move on to the next one.. theres plenty out there. In the past I've done pretty well for myself so, its nothing.

@StarStruck I'd say, simply use this as a chance to shop around for the next 5-10 sessions and don't settle right away. Once you have tried a few out, then maybe select the one you resonate both with. You want a high level therapist for sure. Not exactly sure how to find them, but I am sure they exist out there. Most of my therapists I've worked with was basically just someone to talk to and get things off my chest. Like talking to dry wall but more helpful.

@Leo Gura Lol, happened 2 years ago. Finally healing and feeling over it... She taught me about Qi and Krya yoga... She was a reiki/ kyra yoga master.... We ran a little business doing a lot of cool stuff.... I was too needy and broken to really be dating and it just became clear. I knew who I was becoming but, honestly was not at that time. I still had years of immaturity ahead of me. I probably obviously still do in a lot of ways but, your videos on wisdom and integrity have been pretty grounding. So, good came from it. The pain led me to Qigong which is how I was able to learn to regulate my emotions in a higher way. Destruction and creation. Hot witch ex girlfriend... Still like her... But, I not longer feel the petty emotional mess I was. Had a wicked dream about her last night. So metaphorical and archetypal It honestly blows my mind how creative my capacity is. Like, more creative than I am... I wanna get so much experience and have my cup so full, and be so okay we the temporal nature of things I just am able to move on. I know I am gonna be a really high value guy. I am already feeling over it. I am sure it's a feeling I must get used to. I used to feel this way after so many open mics as a musician. So, I am used to it.. or after a bad whatever sport competition I did growing up. Just, no clinging and no oneitius. Just get the fucking experience and get on with you life for fucks sake and LIVE!

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Learning to stay still during a trip is super important... It's hard I know because it's such a radical state but that is something I would suggest working on to keep yourself and others safe. Anyway, Namaste. I can't exactly tell what you took from the trip but it seems to had some ego dissolving and a nice experience.