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Engramn is the name of my music, but I like the idea of building a fictional character out of it. I like the idea of writing poetry and music through this character. Engramn is an artistic project. I’ve played shows and festivals under this name. I felt there was real potential there. Sadly, I hit a really hard wall when my girlfriend and business partner was cheating on me and I lost my footing with spiritual foolishness, anger, trying to heal/ hide from the pain. This lead me to Qigong which I think has really been a life saver for me. The biggest reason this project is on hold is I’m focusing on grounding and building solid life skills and systems for living. I went back to school for 8 months and got a higher paying job and I’m about to be certified in Qigong ideally by the end of this week. I am starting an online business called the Effortless workweek to teach Qigong, breathwork and relaxation skills to office employees. The goal is to use this to break free from wage slavery. Then, maybe by the time I’m 30 I can work on my dream music project.

I saw it coming a month before it all went down when he was commenting a lot on the forum. What went wrong was he was using psychedelics without proper grounding and he over used them. He wouldn’t listen to anyone around him. He fell into the trap of grandiose purpose and prophecy combined with child like self deception and game playing. I like Connor. Hope he builds something better in the future. Hope he matures. I like how to doesn’t address in the video how he went way off the deep end. He says it was all an act but I think he is lying?

@RMQualtrough Yet here I am as if the consequences of past actions led me to this point…. ? Whether or not that is metaphysically truth which I think it is… I’m still stuck in the physical existence having to survive. So, even if on the highest level it just being me is true. It’s relatively false, and the relative plain I am in is mundane physical reality therefore that is what is absolutely true.

If it was just me I would be successful already. ?‍♂️ I don’t believe it’s just my own bubble of experience and no one else exists. I think that’s foolishness. If I was all alone and infinite I would make my life a great life because there’s nothing else to do. But, my life has been very hard. There’s been good too. But, If it was just me I’d just be singing and performing full time. It’s simple. But, that’s not the case. I’m stuck in what’s obviously a social matrix of other animals and it’s hard. Not complaining just saying. It makes little sense it’s just me. But, if it is… then I’m imagining Leo has had insights into how it’s just me. But… he tripped which makes no sense. how can someone else trip and realize it’s just me unless it’s just me imaging Leo tripped.

There is only one thing to really do. I’m stuck in this reality as it is. I’m nothing special and it’s incredibly complex, difficult, painful and confusing. There’s no knowing if I am on the right track or self deceived as I am always rationalizing to a certain extent my own opinions and decisions. I simply need to be disciplined, realistic , intentional, willing to face the truth of whatever weaknesses I have etc So many weaknesses… everyday I get older and closer to being useless… but, also more useful as long as I am developing skills. maybe music is simply a pipe dream. It’s things like this that make me questions God… why have all this beautiful stuff but make me have to work a wage slave job or have me make all my decisions since I’ve was young that could have been more strategic? Feeling a bit sad today. That’s okay, full feel.

Mastery and success are deeply important to me. I am 26, I feel like I was often very close to success in my life but there have been many internal and external obstacles. I need to face truth more often and let that be my rock solid power. I don’t know what life has in store for me. I’m trying to make something beautiful. Music is my passion, God gave me that. God gave me tinnitus. 1. I shouldn’t be identified as a skilful person in any area of life until I’ve received a lot of feedback and put hundreds of thousands of hours into a thing. 2. my personal finances are not ideal and need to be dealt with. I’ve been pushing to hard to build something and I’m concerned I’ve over stretched myself. It’s doable, I just upgraded from my personal finance spread sheet to using Mint to track it. I’m investing in education mostly. But am I trying to do to much to fast? Maybe it’s my fear of aging. I have to build powerful life systems, skills, mastery, higher self esteem and balance, forethought, integrity, mastery, adeptness

I’d like to write more, record more and play more shows. But, I don’t know how long it will take for me to have the time to do that again. I feel like I have a lot I am working on. sometimes I feel confident but at the same time, I’m Getting older and there’s no denying master takes thousands of hours of practice. I’m not sure if I will make my dreams a reality. Plus, I feel often encumbered by fears.

It's sort of a ridiculous paradox. Seems I have to decide not to believe.

@Nadosa Sorry, I still haven't fully grasped what you are telling me. (meta-kidding don't spam it)

@Leo Gura What did you say?

Okay so here is an example of a deductive inference from the book: philosophy of science a very short introduction by Samir Okasha All Frenchmen like red wine Pierre is a Frenchman Therefore, Pierre likes red wine This is deductive reasoning, says the author because if the premise is true, then the conclusion is true… an example of an inductive inference given by the author is: The first five eggs in the box were good. All the eggs have the same best-before date stamped on them Therefore, the sixth egg will be good too This is inductive reasoning because the premise may be true, but could also be false…. However, I think that deductive reasoning is full of the problem of question begging. Where in reality do you start with a 100% true premise? You don’t. Is the stamp not a partial premise? As is a sentence stating all Frenchman like wine? Both are statements that carry plenty of assumptions. also, even the example given in the book for deductive reasoning is actually an inductive inference because if the premise is true is begging the question. A true deductive inference can only really take place in philosophical abstraction and not in day to day life. I am sure there are contexts in wife when we can treat things with deductive reasoning like in programming or in our business procedures. It can be a totally useful survival tool. But, In truth this is only actually inductive reasoning. However, contemplate the famous painting “This is not a pipe”. There is a blurring and problem with thinking that things are either deductive or inductive when in reality these are not clear distinctions when it comes to most reasoning in reality. When you go meta on reading the actual book, and then think about how inductive and deductive reasoning is done in reality. It’s almost like deductive reasoning doesn’t even exist. In fact, the ego mind can misuse and abuse a false sense of deductive reasoning in science, politics, business, morality, etc This is not a pipe the map is not the territory the limits of symbolic reasoning… The only deductive this in reality is Being and Absolute Truth.

A crucial insight into all of our suffering and worries is… if you are in a room laying down…. There’s nothing there… stop all the dreaming and just be. Perfection.

Extrapolate this into all domains of life

The trick is to find the Truly Good Stuff and to Yoke.

When you are a newbie, the state and it's implications can be so confusing, especially with Leo's teachings. Your ego mind will try to use it, create false stories and all your neurosis, ignorance, wishful thinkings etc can create a storm for you if you do it too often. Er of the side of caution for the first few years of tripping. There is plenty of sober work to do (Qigong, journaling, reading, life purpose, education, upgrading systems for living, Yoga, Meditation, breathwork, etc). "Take the poison of your age Don't lick your fingers when you turn the page It was wrong but you said it was right In the future I will read at night..."

Some people recommend more than one trip in a session as they change in quality as you grow into the state. 5meo is unique in that way because it lasts rather short. Just don't abuse psychedelics. If you do, realize it and change. Take a break. Take your lessons and teach others. Don't hurt yourself or others. Be a good role model for these tools.

I've been healing a broken heart, grounding myself, feeling and working through fear and limiting beliefs.

Wei Chi

Qigong, Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, Nylon string guitars and Song writing. I've been focused on creating inner clarity, unity, foundations, self love, balance and health. Song writing has been delayed but I will return soon.

Engram: a hypothetical change in neural tissue postulated in order to account for persistence of memory : MEMORY TRACE https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/engram