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I might just print it off and sell it as my own jk jk I like when I read in a Vernon Howard book he said "It's good to see the bad in yourself" another good one is - 1. Being fooled by peoples ‘spiritual’ outward appearance 2. not realizing people are splintered

@universe It's all good. I wasn't saying its the most expensive in Canada or that this year is the most expensive. Just that, a lot of young people find it difficult. It's not just My city but a lot of young people in Canada in general. Rent isn't the only factor. https://globalnews.ca/news/8898654/canadian-cities-unaffordable-young-residents/ The fact that young people have an average deficit, regardless of province is problematic. Which was my point. Which, seems almost unrealistic to me. This is why education and getting a good paying job, planning long term is crucial. But if you haven't done that. You can still figure it out. You just will have to make sacrifices. It's hard too. Like, are that stats correct and up to date? Quotes aren't great info.

@universe Thats fine. https://atlantic.ctvnews.ca/young-halifax-residents-say-they-are-being-priced-out-of-the-city-they-love-1.5917501 Maybe you are rich. But, us with average jobs struggle with the ever increasing rent, food and gas prices, and electricity. Obviously roommates and being extremely stingy makes it livable. Renovictions. Regardless this is not related to thread. I am not really sure I appreciate your responses by the way in this regard. Doubting what I know FROM WHERE I LIVE.

@universe Yeah, I get his position. I am just saying. The statement "You shouldn't have any financial struggles at 29" unfortunately isn't a reality even for people with stable jobs. Also, everyone journey is different. Let him figure out his stuff. When rent, foot, electricity, consume all your income. It's a struggle. This is normal for most people in my city aged 25-35 as it's the most expensive place to live in my country. Not related but an example. Yes, becoming a sage isn't likely his main focus right now. Get the basic down. But don't age guilt yourself or let anyone else. Start where you are.

She's not sexually attracted to you. But, wants sexual gratification. Sort of a 180 from a match Leave

@universe Yet, may people struggle to support themselves

@Asayake Could be? It just doesn't sound like the makings for a healthy relationship.

@acidgoofy Ahaha, really.. my biggest problem is financial struggles from being laid off and how that is affecting my mind. I really don't like insecurity. But, it's my fault for not doing proper financial savings over the years. I was pretty well paycheck to paycheck for as long I can remember. Trying to get out of that.

Sounds like you two aren't a sexual Match. It's really up to you what you do. Idk, if a girl calls my dick small, wont touch it, wont have sex with me, but only wants sexual favours from me. Maybe, theres more going on there. For me sex is important. It honestly sounds like she doesn't respect you as a man. Maybe she is gay? You want a woman who respects you as a man, and a woman who wants you sexually. I wouldn't waste my time.

I met a girl recently who was raised by skinheads after becoming homeless at 13. She seems like one of the most loving and open minded people as I meet her. I wonder what her journey was like. Sounds like she just clung onto them for survival as she had no one else. Often times people are just surviving.

@puporing I now recognize the reality of your experience. I'm sorry I'm not always the best at communicating my ideas. It was not my intent to deny your experience. I will work to improve my ability to communicate my thoughts respectfully

https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/5-MeO-DMT Those are reported symptoms if you look at the physical symptoms reported.

@puporing Understood.

@puporing I understand. I can see how it was triggering in retrospect. My initial interpretation was dismissive of it being a near death experience. It very well could have been. It sounded very similar to my own direct experience when it comes on strong and is very scary and can trigger an anxiety attack because your ego is REALLY dying. I apologize.

I posted this. Then I started reading posts from you saying I was trashing your thread. So, Idk where the drama started but I don't feel like it was me. I posted a matter of fact opinion based on my outsider interpretation and my OWN direct experience. My later posts noted your perspective, and that maybe it was indeed dangerous. But, that took some time for me to understand. I understand that what happened to you was very scary, and you felt threatened by it. It may have been dangerous. I apologize for not validating your experience right away.

@puporing I've left my first post the same, then added an elaboration. What you described has multiple interpretations from outsiders. Get over it. I don't know what you experienced. My first interpretation was: "wow she probably just got scared because 5meodmt is a fucking sledge hammer and really scary" But, then I opened up, expanded and allowed more interpretations to unfold. Like "maybe it was too much, and it was a dangerous situation. I have seen that before as well" But, You seemed triggered. Which wasn't my intention. I feel like I can feel your energy right now. I contain multitudes.

You guys are projecting. I meant to say, if you are doing mushrooms, the degree of ego death is less than 5meodmt. I don't really think thats arguable. I haven't encouraged her to do more, or any higher doses. Your mind assumed things I haven't said. Do I know if she actually had a bad reaction or it was just scary? NO! So, I have done nothing wrong. Your an adult. Take care of yourself. I've very clearly laid out that: 1. I agree with her 2. 5meodmt is dangerous 3. She did the right thing. I can't say anymore. Ya'll can enjoy demonizing me though. Lol what do I have to be aggressive about ahaha

Love is the most powerful force

Thank you everyone for supporting with my recent trigger and negative thought pattern self deception. I found that a small mushroom dose, and hanging out with friends was enough to lift my spirits and change my patterns. I am enjoying myself, though I don't know what the future holds. I think I am trying to succeed with Force, but I need to embody Power.

How is she doing?

@mrPixel It's not like Cocaine at all. It's a mixture of random drugs. Don't think you need to lock the thread as people may have more to add. Seems this stuff is spreading to America and Europe. Please people on the forum, don't take random street drugs. Be safe!

@halfknots Yeah, But I didn't snort it yet. I also haven't had much success with plugging. Maybe I have a dirty bung hole. I'll try again.

@puporing I've never tried to argue it wasn't just an ego death. In fact, I am going through a process of understanding, contemplating and recontextualizing and allow multiple interpretations. People generally don't. I didn't assume you were trying to commit suicide. I have taken it to experience a total ego death. Which, can feel like I am dying. I know you are upset with me given your interpretations of my post. But, I don't like being called a weirdo of people assuming I am coming here with a bad intention. I am someone who has done many trips, and I think I would like to be spoken to in a respectful way. I consider myself relatively loving and have peoples best interests at heart... Glad you are okay. I've seen people have really bad reactions to these substances. People can totally lose function, not know where they are, have trouble breathing, spit everywhere, puke.... ego death can be totally disorienting and cause panic, heart rate, puking, etc... I don't know what aspect is the chemical and what aspect is ego death. It's hard because we all have different genetics. I can see someone dying potentially if they are not careful. 5Meodmt is dangerous. Sometimes I need time to expand my thoughts and reference experiences. I think you know your own direct experience. --- Will not respond. I actually really like Puporing and feel sad she is speaking to me like this... Best. Consider reading what I wrote when you are less triggered and times gives you a chance to recontextualize. I believe you.

@puporing Okay, I respect your experience. I was just sharing mine. I think you did the right thing. Safety first. I won't respond to this thread again.

@puporing I am glad you are okay. I've seen all kinds of reactions to the substance. People really do need to be careful. But, also. It's 100% ego death and a radically different state of being. The Ego death is not that of mushrooms or anything else. I personally like the dying feeling.