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Pretty sure many women... when they aren't repressed can have more pleasure during sex than men.

Arcade Fire's impact on me has been massive, right up there with Leo I would say. A human life is built on many industries and experts all contributing meaningfully.

If you have that time... Personally I meditate 45 minutes to 1 hr a day, plus about the same in Qigong. I have books to read, finances to account for, a business to build. I will do some retreats in coming years when I can afford it.

Which is why it's responsible to get therapy, coaching and to read about healthy relationships prior to and in conjunction with dating and pickup.

My awakenings and the contrast of my survival needs create a vision which actually increases my curiosity for understanding and manipulating reality because I see how beautiful I could make my life. I think if I was in Leo's position of financial abundance it may be different but... anyway. For me, It's call connected. The states, awakenings and the intellectual systems. All part of this .... I mean, learning for learning sake is something I value. But, I also value one day being very financial rich, and taking the achiever stage of development as far as I can.

@puporing I think that is solid advice. I am still trying to balance my financial life, but I will see if I can manage to afford it.

I’ve been speaking to some women, and I notice myself projecting, feeling defensive and cutting ties before I can really feel vulnerable. For example; 1. A girl texts ‘Ok’ and my mind says “she’s not interested in you, she thinks your weird, etc” so I say “I don’t think this will work out, good luck” out of defense. 2. another girl told me she wanted to hangout and do a naked meditation. I didn’t really believe her but she brought it up. I asked her to hang out today, she said she had plans. So I asked her to hangout tomorrow…. She said she had plans, and afterward was tentative so I unmatched her on tinder. I don’t wanna feel dicked around. I think I feel very excited and almost impatient with women. I don’t want to feel excited only to be let down so, it’s safer just to say no to you before you can say no to me. I also find as my heart comes online as I feel the potential for intimacy… then the heart rubs up against the thorns and barbed wire of past pain, and trauma and thought patterns and energies I haven’t yet healed. I did an attachment style survey Leo posted and I know my current style is Avoidant/ disorganized. So… for all I know I have years of work to do before I can really date. However, I know I need experience even if it is painful. I didn’t really have a lot of good role models around trust, relationships, boundaries, emotional intelligence, etc so… I feel a very retarded. Most of my past relationships became toxic and ended badly. I think this attachment style problem has also affected my ability to do business and be successful with my art. I have a pretty decent reading list, and I will be finding a coach to help me through this process. I don’t think I can reach my full spiritual potential, or my actualize my full purpose until I heal these attachment style wounds. It feels like an uphill battle. This deep festering wound is healing slowly. There’s a lot of pain, shame, guilt, distrust, etc in the way of my business and relationships. I no longer have wifi in my apartment so I spend more time meditating, reading, contemplating and feeling. I think this is useful. I am also trying to get all my financials etc I When I am in the grips of the emotional pain/ vulnerability/ cognitive distortion/ impatience/ projection/ attraction: it’s so painful and overwhelming I feel like I am dying. It feels impossible and I feel like I’ll never be able to love…. I feel like I am a deeply loving, compassionate human being… but I also feel deeply wounded and cut off from my ability to relate deeply with women and it’s greatly limiting my quality of life. Not just women, but probably men too.

Peter Pan syndrome? lol, that’s such a weak and untenable criticism

Seems like it. But, my opinion is the only thing that will punish you is other humans or yourself. God will do no such thing. Eternal forgiveness is your divine right… Eternal damnation shouldn’t be why you act good. That would make you pseudo good… only a finite selfish ego would need to punish. Welcome to transcendent morality

God is so absolute the only thing it could ever punish is itself. Hell simply doesn’t fit into my experience… I don’t think God believes in evil people or the need to punish. I think that is very human. God understands infinite relativity Thought I’ve had recently: why would you punish a dead body or a new born baby?

Hope this helps

@Leo Gura video Recommendation: Building your toolbox

@Someone here I didn’t claim to. But, why does the OP assume in a heaven or hell when he hasn’t died yet. Mostly, my view is due to the nature of my realizations into infinity and infinite consciousness. You can realize that “life” is a construction and that “death” would just be another construction of your own mind. Heaven and hell is a construction of a modern Christian ego mind. You believe in good or bad people, but how do you know God does? How do you know god isn’t infinitely forgiving, infinitely loving, infinitely understand of our sins? why would god judge you based on 1 tiny baby little life when you are an infinite being who has all of eternity to learn to love? 1 human life is 0% of the universe. why the heckwould God doom itself to an eternal hell fire when it’s completely unlimited, total and perfect? God would have to be a moron. Especially if something like solipsism is the case why would God create or do anything? Gods all alone, dreaming that sins exist. The only sin is the one you imagine

No dont believe in fate other than I’m here for some rando nihilistic reason

Pretty sure there is no end

Yes, so you were deluded by the end? Your mental state thought the physical state would disappear?

Yeah, but a meditation retreat does something different to your overall cognitive process I think. Better for brain training, mindfulness and knowing thyself than 5meo. Maybe they should be used in conjunction. there are meditation retreats that work with iboga and 5meodmt…

@thisintegrated Horny bad

Be safe, contemplate. Sometimes you just gotta do one thing: Trip.

Books could help, have you started by defining them using google in your commonplace book and then contemplating the differences?

innnnteresting Difference between 2-CB and 5meo?

Some well known incels are attractive they just have poor self image

How do you think society should go about helping incels realize their self deceptions and become the healthy, lovable and attractive men they are meant to be? Ive seen some violent videos recently and worry this may get worse as more and more people feel alienated from one another.