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She's not sexually attracted to you. But, wants sexual gratification. Sort of a 180 from a match Leave

@universe Yet, may people struggle to support themselves

@Asayake Could be? It just doesn't sound like the makings for a healthy relationship.

@acidgoofy Ahaha, really.. my biggest problem is financial struggles from being laid off and how that is affecting my mind. I really don't like insecurity. But, it's my fault for not doing proper financial savings over the years. I was pretty well paycheck to paycheck for as long I can remember. Trying to get out of that.

Sounds like you two aren't a sexual Match. It's really up to you what you do. Idk, if a girl calls my dick small, wont touch it, wont have sex with me, but only wants sexual favours from me. Maybe, theres more going on there. For me sex is important. It honestly sounds like she doesn't respect you as a man. Maybe she is gay? You want a woman who respects you as a man, and a woman who wants you sexually. I wouldn't waste my time.

I met a girl recently who was raised by skinheads after becoming homeless at 13. She seems like one of the most loving and open minded people as I meet her. I wonder what her journey was like. Sounds like she just clung onto them for survival as she had no one else. Often times people are just surviving.

@puporing I now recognize the reality of your experience. I'm sorry I'm not always the best at communicating my ideas. It was not my intent to deny your experience. I will work to improve my ability to communicate my thoughts respectfully

https://psychonautwiki.org/wiki/5-MeO-DMT Those are reported symptoms if you look at the physical symptoms reported.

@puporing Understood.

@puporing I understand. I can see how it was triggering in retrospect. My initial interpretation was dismissive of it being a near death experience. It very well could have been. It sounded very similar to my own direct experience when it comes on strong and is very scary and can trigger an anxiety attack because your ego is REALLY dying. I apologize.

I posted this. Then I started reading posts from you saying I was trashing your thread. So, Idk where the drama started but I don't feel like it was me. I posted a matter of fact opinion based on my outsider interpretation and my OWN direct experience. My later posts noted your perspective, and that maybe it was indeed dangerous. But, that took some time for me to understand. I understand that what happened to you was very scary, and you felt threatened by it. It may have been dangerous. I apologize for not validating your experience right away.

@puporing I've left my first post the same, then added an elaboration. What you described has multiple interpretations from outsiders. Get over it. I don't know what you experienced. My first interpretation was: "wow she probably just got scared because 5meodmt is a fucking sledge hammer and really scary" But, then I opened up, expanded and allowed more interpretations to unfold. Like "maybe it was too much, and it was a dangerous situation. I have seen that before as well" But, You seemed triggered. Which wasn't my intention. I feel like I can feel your energy right now. I contain multitudes.

You guys are projecting. I meant to say, if you are doing mushrooms, the degree of ego death is less than 5meodmt. I don't really think thats arguable. I haven't encouraged her to do more, or any higher doses. Your mind assumed things I haven't said. Do I know if she actually had a bad reaction or it was just scary? NO! So, I have done nothing wrong. Your an adult. Take care of yourself. I've very clearly laid out that: 1. I agree with her 2. 5meodmt is dangerous 3. She did the right thing. I can't say anymore. Ya'll can enjoy demonizing me though. Lol what do I have to be aggressive about ahaha

Love is the most powerful force

Thank you everyone for supporting with my recent trigger and negative thought pattern self deception. I found that a small mushroom dose, and hanging out with friends was enough to lift my spirits and change my patterns. I am enjoying myself, though I don't know what the future holds. I think I am trying to succeed with Force, but I need to embody Power.

How is she doing?

@mrPixel It's not like Cocaine at all. It's a mixture of random drugs. Don't think you need to lock the thread as people may have more to add. Seems this stuff is spreading to America and Europe. Please people on the forum, don't take random street drugs. Be safe!

@halfknots Yeah, But I didn't snort it yet. I also haven't had much success with plugging. Maybe I have a dirty bung hole. I'll try again.

@puporing I've never tried to argue it wasn't just an ego death. In fact, I am going through a process of understanding, contemplating and recontextualizing and allow multiple interpretations. People generally don't. I didn't assume you were trying to commit suicide. I have taken it to experience a total ego death. Which, can feel like I am dying. I know you are upset with me given your interpretations of my post. But, I don't like being called a weirdo of people assuming I am coming here with a bad intention. I am someone who has done many trips, and I think I would like to be spoken to in a respectful way. I consider myself relatively loving and have peoples best interests at heart... Glad you are okay. I've seen people have really bad reactions to these substances. People can totally lose function, not know where they are, have trouble breathing, spit everywhere, puke.... ego death can be totally disorienting and cause panic, heart rate, puking, etc... I don't know what aspect is the chemical and what aspect is ego death. It's hard because we all have different genetics. I can see someone dying potentially if they are not careful. 5Meodmt is dangerous. Sometimes I need time to expand my thoughts and reference experiences. I think you know your own direct experience. --- Will not respond. I actually really like Puporing and feel sad she is speaking to me like this... Best. Consider reading what I wrote when you are less triggered and times gives you a chance to recontextualize. I believe you.

@puporing Okay, I respect your experience. I was just sharing mine. I think you did the right thing. Safety first. I won't respond to this thread again.

@puporing I am glad you are okay. I've seen all kinds of reactions to the substance. People really do need to be careful. But, also. It's 100% ego death and a radically different state of being. The Ego death is not that of mushrooms or anything else. I personally like the dying feeling.

@puporing Hmm, Perhaps that is what it was. I can't deny it. I think, reframe my post as... I've experienced similar things and I Personally surrendered to it. I found by letting go of my ego I was able to break through. Though, I felt like I was dying during the trip. Glad you are okay. Perhaps you'll read what I wrote on a different day and see I wasn't trashing it from my perspective. The Ego death of 5meodmt is not like shrooms. The amount you took was not a lethal amount for most people.. or anyone... from my research. Regardless, hope you are recovering and are okay. I appreciated the post and the warning as I have had similar experiences. I don't really know what happened to you. It just sounds weird because the amount you took isn't known to be a lethal dose for most people. And, the fear you speak about and the feeling of dying is something I have experienced. I have fought it, and I have surrendered to it. No trashing of threads intended.

@halfknots huh, I tried vaping and plugging with no results. It may not work for me. Like I really tried.

Yeah, it can feel like your dying. Best thing to do in that situation is… bye bye ? (Surrender) then ♾❤️♾ Just breath and let go. What you thought was ego death… likely wasn’t ego death. Even after many trips I have really scary experiences as well. It’s a freaky thing to realize but, when it lands properly and you accept it. It’s sort of like… well of course that exists. Edit: I am speaking from my own direct experience. It should be said that people can have dangerous reactions to these substances and you may be in danger. You are better off coming out of a trip alive and doing what you need to do to feel safe. 5meo is really really fucking powerful. It's not a mushroom trip. It can leave you puking, disoriented, passed out etc. And, if can feel terrifying. You can also do weird things like yelling, or hurting others if you are moving around disoriented. So, do proper preparation and take full responsibility. Safety first. However, it can also feel ike you are dying and you resist it and get scared... in those circumstances you are better off surrendering and enjoy it.

@bambi I suspect it’s poor practice to treat all strains of mushrooms the same. Always start with a low dose. It’s likely to more faaaar more enjoyable than a large dose. Look up the name of the mushroom you have a treat it with respect. It will be enjoyable likely regardless of your hedonistic choices. Ive realized how much I enjoy low dose mushrooms recently and I’ve discovered where I can find 6 or 7 different kinds so I’m interested in exploring what they do.