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Notice how fear based this is

@EugeneTheSage I mean, placebo isn’t bad. It’s actually not understood by western

You trip so hard you go full circle

What does respecting money mean to you? In the past I was very foolish with money. I didn’t really respect it, I sort of hated it in a sense. I was sort of a pie in the sky hippy at times. When I had money, I spent it on things I needed for my life purpose like courses, books, gear, etc i also spent a lot of weed when I was in my early 20’s. For example one time I wasted money on expensive pillows and bedsheets because I had a vision of the importance of sleep and the quality of your sleeping supplies (which I stand by… but I spent too much honestly). I’ve had opportunities looking back to save like 70% of my income and I didn’t do that. Honestly in the past my careless, disrespectful, foolish, reckless spending makes me ashamed of myself. I mean, I never really earned that much money before and when I had it I always had something I wanted. Sometimes I even get hit by waves of shame about how I treated money in the past. This year I have been reading lots of books on finance and about a year ago I graduated from college as an accountant. I realized that my lack of financial intelligence, understanding, systems and behaviour really fucked me in my life purpose. I love that I work with money everyday and I love reading about wealth, personal finance and financial psychology because I realize now how foundational it is. I even took a finance class when I was in highschool, but unfortunately I didn’t apply what I learned because of these unconscious limiting beliefs I had around money, and honesty even my ability to succeed in life. Looking back this was very foolish. I have learned a lot this year about the importance of being skillful with your money and respecting it deeply. My goal now is to really value HAVING money and not the things it can buy you. I still have so many courses I want to buy online, and things for my house, and a motorcycle and etc etc…. But, what I really want now… is a fat bag of gold coins. I am wondering what your journey with money has been like, and if you ha e grown at all what has been your process and where are you now? I’ll make a list of the books I’ve been reading here shortly as others may find them interesting. I love myself and because of this I am taking hard looks at all the areas of my life. I have been foolish, reckless, ignorant and too stoned at times to really respect myself as God, and as a powerful creator of my life. All my foolish mistakes of the past will be alchemized into pure Gold of my future self.

@Holykael Why are you imagining a difference between God and you?

@Tyler Robinson I don’t know. Sounds like everyone is judging each other here. Not every psychologist is for you! That’s okay. I’ve read enough books by psychologists talking about stories of their practice. Having a psychologist who ain’t gonna play games is good. But, also one that listens. Keep trying.

@Carl-Richard Yeah, Punching a guy to death with a brass ring isn’t it though. Totally good to be angry Healthy anger is a rather nuanced thing, can’t get into here

Listen to this audiobook

Keep looking for a good psychologist. Ideally one that listens, that helps you grow, challenges you a bit. A psychologist can push and challenge you. Sometimes someone calling you on your shit is healing. But, sounds like she was a bit too forward. I actually don’t fully believe it. Shop around…. Decide you will get well. Not all psychologists are the same. Not all are psychoanalytic who just listen to your story, try to u cover past traumas etc. Though, her behaviour is strange for a first session. Some of the quotes you provide seem a bit odd.

Healthy anger is the ideal here, as opposed to unhealthy, toxic anger or repression or suppression.

@EugeneTheSage Interesting. I don’t fully understand these things, how much is placebo, how much is energetic. I know that Sadhguru is very energetically powerful. I used to do his consecrated singing at one point and felt things I never had. It’s hard to remove placebo from things. But, we are the placebo Having certain materials on the body is likely to affect your Qi as Sadhguru says in other words. The Ring finger is the liver meridian, may be worth reading here. https://sage-answers.com/what-meridian-is-the-ring-finger/ And this https://www.yogapedia.com/definition/11621/ring-finger-energy anyway just glancing over this

Here is a great talk about addiction, low integrity and then becoming a person of integrity. Where ever you are right now, keep walking your path.

Always take safety precautions

Idk, I don’t think you’ll die from a trip permanently. That fear may hold you back from your deepest experiences.

@KH2 Man of your word

Waiting

Yes

Smoke a gram of DMT over the next 12 months. Obviously dosing safely.

Do you keep a commonplace book?

Read the richest man in babylon

There are interviews where he admits a lot of this, or at least suggests a lot of this. He talks about how the girls aren't allowed to leave, how he had to hide his phone and delete things last time he was raded etc... I think he will go to jail.

It's cool to wear brass rings in theory until you kill someone then spend the rest of your life behind bars.

One rejection at one school says nothing of what is to come next. Keep trying.

I thought that this was one of the best episodes in a long time. I think that Leos' videos: 1. Understanding the Exquisite Balance of Life 2. High Conscious Politics Series 3. What is Wisdom? 4. What is Integrity? 5. as well as many others That there is a great synergy becoming apparent in my mind of how these videos come together to be greater than the sum of their parts. One of my biggest take aways was really seeing the importance of conservative principles in a balanced life. Seeing the pro's and cons between Liberal and Conservative ideas I found really grounding. I think hearing Leo talk about real, 'healthy' conservatism and its appeal and power to be comforting and true given my own liberalism and the suffering and cons that came with it. I am seeing a bigger picture here which I am going to be making more explicit to myself over the coming years that comes down to a 'divine' balance in life. I am beginning to see a... what is it called.. Transcendent perspective on Politics that is above being on the left or the right, or heavily driven politics based on pop cultural issues. Really, both Conservatism and Liberalism are Yin and Yang, important dualities that are divinely inspired within societies that allow them to survive and yet evolve. The tug of war between liberals and conservatives is actually at it's pure form healthy. As it is in ourselves as individuals we want to balance our liberalism and conservatism in a healthy way. Depending on our upbringing and survival needs this shapes in what ways we are likely to be on either end of this duality. To what degree should we open gates, try new things and allow ourselves freedom with finance, sexuality, identity, art, drugs etc? And to what degree should we stick to what works? We simply don't know. But, each human is a bit different in this regard and each strategy comes with it's own pros and cons. Conservatism is actually in a lot of ways.. if what works works... more safe. Yet, at the same times somethings changing a way can be safer in than old ways. But, that can't be known. There is always the "fog of war" as we go about new ways of science, new ways of living, new ways of politics, new ways of identity, new ways of etc. The problems exist in society when each side doesn't understand each other. As well when our societies poor epistemology and state of mental health, and education etc being affecting how our society operates... Essentially what we see in a lot of Conservative politics in the US is corruption unfortunately and doesn't portray what healthy conservatism is and what role it plays in a healthy society but also in a healthy personal development. There is also a lot of corruption in left politics as well. Many people who are mentally ill begin playing identity politics which I think is very dangerous and part of my own conservatism around trans ideas. I am pro trans etc, and yet I do think there is a lot of mental health problems in that particular community as well as low levels of personal development that leads them to care so much about how others think of them. But, I am open to the realities and importance of feeling accepted, safe, seen etc as a human. It's complicated. Some people, both on the left and right are conservatism in that they want to conserve their identities. The duality between left and right does collapse as all dualities do. The healthy/ unhealthy of society too is it's own ying and yang. The balance of healthy and unhealthy. Though, this duality is asymmetrical in quality to the conservative/ liberal duality. It would require much more contemplation to explain that idea here. Liberal vs conservative also need to be held to the light with: Spiral development, ego development, mental health, education, spiritual develop etc. I have been learning over the past few years the importance of conservatism for life long growth. That, for me personally my liberalism needs to be rooted in a healthy conservatism to keep my healthy, sustained and evolving over time. Being too liberal can be very dangerous because what so much that exists in the social matrix works. However, when we are exploring reality and doing deep philosophy there is the importance of the willingness to take risks. I have seen myself with regards to certain ideas in reality gone way way way outside of society in terms of my openness, triviality, etc go too liberal to be even safe to share those ideas with the most progressive people. In some ways my ideas would make liberals relatively conservative. So, I have been actually working to make myself more conservative over the past 2 years. This talk on Liberals and Conservatism can give you a greater respect for everyone in society as you begin to see the value in their different perspectives. It can also show you how you can begin to balance out your own life. When you apply spiral dynamics, Susan C's models with balancing a healthy conservative/ liberal approach to your life there is something deeply powerful in that. As well as developing a other healthy personality traits not measured by these models. Balance, consciousness and love.

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