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True... I want success and a good life. But, I don't deserve one just because I am me. Taking a break for awhile from this place while I focus more on what is actual for me. Stay well everyone. If I don't make it, live a good life for me.

@Yimpa Haha, maybe.

I feel like, if most people born in North America could be taught the principles of living well... for most of us it would be easy. The problem is when we are like 20-30 years old, trying to figure out how to live and it's too late.

It's hard to love humanity when you see it's dark underbelly. It's hard to love coworkers, bosses, and people you know who can be mean, unfriendly and do you harm. It's hard to love the brutal nature of human existence... How time works... How opportunity and risk works... It's hard to love a social matrix that doesn't care about you but the functioning of the social Matrix. Life is difficult, brutal and hard to love. Truly, one must gain mastery over the beast. Doing so takes years. Ideally, you get as much straightened out in your teens and early 20s. Life isn't easy for anyone. But, just because it isn't easy, and isn't easy to love... Doesn't mean it doesn't deserve love. Because at the end of the day the human experience is all that exists. Humans are all over the place and they can be the best and worst thing. I'm getting a feel more and more just how brutal and unfriendly survival is. It's really brutal. Everyone is a slave to some degree. Freedom is relative. I'm going to escape wage slavery one day. It's going to take a long time. I've got this human life that is hard to love. But I know loving it and honouring it is the best thing to do. People are wasteful, they waste all the food People are hateful, and people are rude But God, I love some people sometimes Because people are very, very special And people are impatient, and they don't know how to wait People are selfish, and people are prone to hate But God, I love some people sometimes Because people are the greatest thing to happen I said God, I love some people sometimes Because people are the greatest thing to happen And people are people regardless of skin People are people regardless of creed People are people regardless of gender People are people regardless of anything I said people are people regardless of gender People are people regardless of anything And people are my religion because I believe in them People are my enemies and people are my friends I have faith in my fellow man And I only hope that he has faith in me I said I have faith in my fellow man And I only hope that he has faith in me I said I have faith in my fellow man And I only hope that he has faith in me!

@Yimpa great minds think alike

Thought this was a cool insight into the logic of game design

Me? Zero

Trying

Probably take a year working day job plus 3 shifts side job. So, my life is pretty much on hold until I pay this thing off.

@Princess Arabia well, I’m a brutal mf

My diploma was a great investment. I can get very nice paying jobs, considering…. It was the marketing course. Ruined my life. I’m working on steeling my mind to overcome the mess my life seems to be in right now. I think… I think I can make my life better.

Ahah… I’m ready for heaven…. Music, tea, healthy relationships, lots of money, Qigong, psychedelics, nature, peace…. Riding my bike…. But, I’m living the life of an unskilled young man. Doing my best to survive… to make art… being best down by life. I think I can grow stronger… my heart colder. I want to make something meaningful. I want to master living, my habits… my mind… my finances… but, it’s such a slow process. Sometimes I wonder if I can do it. When I see how brutal work is… how cold HR is… how it’s the bottom line before humanity and I don’t matter. I’m this unimportant gorilla in a large social matrix that doesn’t care about me. Reality doesn’t care about my dreams, my preferences, my feelings, my desires. Though, it seems to have given me these things. It’s a very strange creation.

Try not to make the title of posts so edgy

@CARDOZZO Harder especially if you lack the maturity to handle the consciousness.

@integral Yeah, maybe. They are dangerous though. I’m still not really mature enough for them. Obviously more than the average normie. But, yeah.

Life is like a mind field You never know what your gonna get

Most of society consists of dumbed, numbed down apes who are selfish and simple minded. Their role is to act as cogs in the larger social matrix... Basically to keep their organizations and economies running. Psychedelics make people too sensitive, ask to many questions, feel their pain, want to enjoy life in a more open minded and liberal way. It's really dangerous for society that people do this in a way that is isn't slow and properly monitored. We don't have the systems in place for them yet. Overall, it's a very complicated topic with far more than I say here.

Focus on improving your habits and schooling more consciously. You are smart enough. Just really do the work and contemplate what a good student does. and do that. I think it's important you do whatever it takes to build your foundation in life.

@Leo Gura Life has a lot of ugliness to it for me. Lots of beauty too. It's very hard. Me being the fool I am I have made it harder than it really needed to be. Ideally my suffering will make me into a man who is wise and avoids a lot of this stuff for most of my life. I am reading Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. I've got it easy.

@Leo Gura

@integral Make it illegal for these marketing programs to sell overpriced courses who lie in their marketing how good their program is. Make money back Guarantees that require course completion illegal.

I am taking radical action to try to pay if off it less than 2 years. A lot of work for nothing. You don't need to spend $10,000 on a marketing course. SCAM! Almost no one in the program was getting the results as advertised. I found myself starting to come up with my own solutions because their advice didn't work. Why the hell was the paying them anything? What they sell for 10k can be found in a book for 20. The only thing I liked was the support but it wasn't worth $400 a month. If I can pay it down to 5k in a few months that would be great. I am going ham on the effing debt BS. NEVER AGAIN! NOT MY LIFE! My life isn't a game for some asshole marketers scalping new wanna be entrepreneurs.

Almost no human is mature enough