Thought Art

@Leo Gura But what about Solipsism? Under this paradigm most of reality is myself.

@integral I’d say there’s a few different styles. But, I wear a western style. Comfy.

Enjoy this Qigong practice!

Who here really knows anything?

I hope death is awesome all I can say. Pretty sure death is safe.

You are the Martyr, show us de wayyyy

@LostSoul It’s cuz life is long and you have to live as a human in the mean time. Life can really fucking suck if you fuck it up. So suck it up, and live wisely. Personally, I wish I was more materialistic in my youth and less spiritual. But, hey.

I think so, but don’t you come back whining after you watch it.

Personally, Elkhart Tolle, in my opinion still probably suffers. He looks a little uncomfortable.

Lol Don’t watch that hahaha

“Afterlife, oh my God, what an awe full word.. after all the hangers on are done hanging on in the dead light of the after glow… I’ve gotta know! Can we work it out? Scream and shout? Till we work it out?…. When love is gone where do we go?”

Welcome to your finite doomed existence isn’t it heaven? ?

I always had a dream of being a musician. However, here I am at 27 and it seems that the realities of life are pulling me away from it. Or… they have. I feel as I am aging… though, I do enjoy the fruits of experience and the potential of being more wise and living life more wisely… I feel a deep sadness about not being a musician like Arcadefire, Bon Iver or whoever. I do enjoy the songs I’ve written and am grateful for my memories performing at festivals etc. I sense I’m not going to make the art that was in my heart. I don’t want to get too down in the dumps about it. I know life has a lot to offer outside of music. But, I had a dream. Sometimes I wonder if life is worth living if I can’t do this. My tinnitus I think really fucked me. Made me lose trust in God, music as a job. By the time I started pursuing music I was in my 20’s. Unfortunately I also had so much trauma and immaturity it often got in the way. I failed I think because of trauma and immaturity. So, becoming wise and mature seems to be the main focus. But, if im wise and mature but not being this artist I imagined.. I just find that hard to accept. I sometimes want to die simply because my direct experience is so far removed from this… fantasy. I question gods love, I question gods creation in these moments. Why give me such a deep love for music but make the actualizing of that love impossible? It seems like an odd thing for a perfect God to do. I admit, I wish I was 17 or 20. The fate of being a human is that we get old, we move through phases and are not guaranteed success. I am enjoying working on my Qigong but it’s likely to take years before it can pay all my bills It seems I may easily end up being a wage slave my whole life. This seems like a strange hell to me. I don’t wanna love a strange hellish existence of mediocrity or worse. I want to be wealthy, artistic, creative, healthy, etc. But, I’m getting old! It sucks. I notice all these old balding men… I feel as if I am already 70. I want to honour my life. Not that it matters in the end. I just… I just wanted to make music and do it professionally and really make something special. Oh well. Idk what’s point in solipsism or being God, or any of this if it’s so worthless to the dream. What kind of sick God created this? I know from experience God is infinite love. But , why me?

My experience

@integral No, I try not to self promote here. This is me:

Course is too advanced for me personally. I’m just not there right now for that I think. Personally would love a course on mastering psychology and thinking process.

Some great thoughts here everyone. Thank you. I will return to this thread regularly.

You might as well live life

Plus bad examples and parenting

Nope, still fear death. Psychedelics and spirituality have shown me things. But, in honesty none of that is DYING. So, I have no idea what it is.

Hello existence are you there

I’ve seen some wild shit when people trip. Don’t share with others…

@Michael569 The reality is, it takes years and decades to make a beautiful life. Especially when you try to do it and you are already 20+ years old. It'll take years to live off it. But, you can make a start now with learning, etcc. Many people will fail and live miserable shitty lives. But, you can succeed.

@Michael569 what’s hard about 6-12 months in savings is that… if you are broke chances are that will take years of decades to save up if you don’t have a high income.