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@Bobby_2021 Leo has a great book on his reading list that discusses this

Laziness makes a lot of sense if you think about it though.

@Tboy Thanks. I have taken his course. It was a few years ago. I will retake it once I get my finances stabilized. I suspect I have grown a lot since I took it originally. I am also going to study happiness by reading the books on happiness on his reading list and contemplating what that is for me. I may actually be able to be happy just by meeting my needs, building healthy relationships, and being a craftsman in my career. Let's start there I think.

Humans are not rational

Be like Snoop Dog and quit the smoke.

Hell, I regret not giving them a try when I was living in Amsterdam. But, I can understand how you feel. Don’t worry too much about it. Ive had lots of sex. You don’t need to worry about it. When you do it and have the emotional connection it will be great.

Ask her is she thinks doja cat is mid

It can be okay. Not every day though. The problem is I find it so easy to get into a habit. Best to treat it with respect and use it sparingly. In Canada it’s very easy, maybe even too easy to get.

@UnbornTao Thanks. I find sharing helps me process. I got time to get things going. In the end, I think i'd rather create meaning and be happy instead of clinging to something like music, which won't ever work out.

@UnbornTao I’m currently working on this cybersecurity certification through google. It pays well and I think will be rewarding. I’ll continue to cultivate my Qigong practice and YouTube channel as a hobby in the mean time. I need to focus on drastically increasing my income which cybersecurity seems to promise when I look at the labour statistics.

@LSD-Rumi haha, didn’t come off that way. Hope your feeling well.

You want to finish your degree in Canada? That’s gonna be expensive. You’re gonna need to google. There’s a bunch of Indians all over the place here. I’m sure someone knows what to do. But, also know many of them are struggling to pay rent, buy food and pay for school.

This is a low quality post. Going to lock. It's twitter, the place is a cess pool as most places are on the internet. Nothing new there.

There have been periods of human history in certain parts of the world these things were okay. I would say, we actually have advanced by saying these things shouldn't happen and that they are not okay. Because they aren't. I would say there are risks to homosexuality becoming mainstream, as well as things like Trans. These do pose risks and dangers and it's worth talking about. It's also okay to be confused about it, to ask questions etc. As long as we aren't hating and attacking people. That being said, I do think that Homosexuality, where it's between two consenting adults is fundamentally different than pedophelia and cannibalism. Consent, and how it affects peoples minds and development is important. Being a gay man engaged to another gay man is probably healthier than them trying to pretend they are straight and being in some kinda fake marriage. Is is a defect or deviation? It's probably more of a defect hiding and demonizing your homosexuality than accepting it. That I don't know. There are apes that exist that have lots of sex. It's not just use for procreation but for fun, socializing and even making up after fights. These apes are a good example that sex isn't as simple as "To has babes" Gay men exist, so I'd say it's natural. Our ideal about procreation etc is only one paradigm. Human sexuality is much more complex than just procreation. We exist for like 60-100 years and are consciousness. Not just drones to procreate. We experience reality and enjoy playing Xbox.

I feel the same way about the Xbox

@Hardkill nope, that’s dumb in my opinion

He seems like a good guy. I personally find him boring but may get into him.

@Yimpa A well grounded, mature person who takes care of themselves, their career, and their family is an unsung hero you know. Someone who does the work to develop maturity, integrity and a sober mind. Someone who their family and community can depend on. That’s a valuable thing. Becoming rock solid is a worthy goal. I am not sure if I want a kid. But, if I did I would be the dad I never had. My dad was always drunk and angry about work. He did a lot for us as his job was hard but supported us. he was uneducated and had no real coping strategy other than drinking. But, being scared of Dad everyday definitely fucked up my nervous system and ability to relate with people. Mom and dad always fighting. They also have lines they say over and over again like bad NPCs which is strange. I picked up so much limiting beliefs from them… it’s hard to over come that stuff. Never being hugged growing up. It was all hard. My parents loved me but because of their own upbringings could not show it to us. Me and my sister talk a lot about the traumas we have growing up. I know she still struggles. She’s a social worker/ life coach. But, struggles so the depression and anxiety as well. My parents inability to socialize and trust people shaped my perceptions of things and I’m still working on unlearning their nonsense. But, my parents did a lot for me as well. Supported me in doing sports, fed me, clothed me, got me tutored so I can read because I struggled to learn in elementary school. That tutor and learning phonetics was probably the best thing to happen to me. I had at least grade 12 reading level since grade 5. I ended up looking for love in the wrong places. My attachment style is all fucked up too. But, improving slowly. It’s all gonna take time. Lots of truth facing. The vast majority of people will never be able to have a large impact. But, that shouldn’t disqualify their success, nor the challenges of achieving that. I just need to persist.

@Yimpa I think it’s a common thing. A large foundational part of personal growth is that healing of the scars left by our upbringing. Trauma is a real thing and so, healing it, gaining experience and learning new ways of being and behaving is a process that does often take years. We live in a traumatized society. This actually makes it hard see what real success is as many successful business people are doing it out of some kind a trauma. Also, many people who could have done well otherwise get left behind in the wake of parents who themselves were traumatized. I think, I want a deep meaningful and deeply rooted and balanced form of success. Which, who knows may look mediocre on the outside at the end of the day but if people knew what I went through to get to this place of deep health, and wealth… It’s hard to see how your upbringing affects you holistically as well. To develop a solid character and… to develop a healthy Integrated centre takes time. I may be behind in some ways but… I know my investment will pay off.

My trauma from growing up in a home with alcoholism and mental health issues in my parents I think set me back years as an adult. I’m also not neurotypical and working to mature into my brain is a thing. My parents are not educated. In life you have to work with the cards you are dealt.

I heard he was rehired

My current understanding of crypto is that it’s just Hype. So it’s worthless for the most part aside from bitcoin.

@Sincerity Thanks. It’s my life at the end of the day. It’s been very challenging to say the least. Having all this feeling of ambition but just being weighed down is demoralizing. But, if maturity and mastery pay the dividends I suspect they will as I work through all my setbacks and shortcomings I can become a man people look up to. It’s gonna take time. But, I believe in myself. I don’t know what’s possible. But, at the very least fixing my finances and basic career/ income is definitely fixable. I feel a bit vulnerable. However, I know others here struggle too and by having this conversation I think it will help others as well. I am who I am and I am where I am. I’ve shared a lot here about my feelings of helplessness and depression from this debt I have. But, I’ve grown stronger because of it and it’s maturing me deeply. I am strong, patient and will persist until I succeed. — I am deeply ambitious. I have though been immature, and full of cognitive and character flaws. But, each of my mistakes in my 20s (of which there have been so so soooo many… but at least I have experience). I will keep practicing Qigong as my main spiritual/ physical/ mind body practice and posting free videos each week. People seem to really enjoy them and watch them regularly. I also enjoy making them. I have about 423 subscribers and get about 200 views every 48 hrs which is pretty cool. I’ll build my mastery of Qigong slowly and maturely. I will also teach locally at community and fitness centres for side cash and the joy of teaching. It’s easy to forget that people get a lot of value from my Qigong videos because it doesn’t earn my money yet. I have no online products, or subscriptions yet… but, I plan to in a few years time as I grow the brand slowly. I need patience and to remember that I’ve only been teaching for a couple years. Patience. I have a vision for this. Music? I think if I could do anything I would do this. But, I just don’t believe it’s possible… at least right now it’s worth letting go. Cybersecurity, I am really enjoying the google certificate so far and could really enjoy a career in it. It also pays very well which is of main concern for me. I’m exciting to learn Python and SQL as well. In the end… I have to meet life on its terms. My life will be enriched by growing and overcoming this current chapter in my life with all its challenges. I will continue to see myself grow in maturity, financial health, employable skill, mental health, and spiritual growth. These are worthwhile projects which will bring a lot of joy, and sustained value to my life. I struggled a lot with immaturity, desperation and mental health issues, such as anxiety, impulsiveness, wishful thinking, depression and marijuana addiction throughout my 20s. These things have held me back. It was also hard to navigate because I was exposing myself to so many spiritual/ epistemological schools. But, after having done this I feel very grounded. But, despite my setbacks and failures I’ve continued to invest in my education, learning, self reflection and self correction. I will overcome this challenge. My bookshelf overflows with books, I have lots of resources at my disposal, I have time to get into a rewarding high paying career like cyber security. I don’t know yet, how I provide massive value to escape wage slavery. My path will be my own and I won’t compare myself to anyone else. I share my journey here because, I want to face the truth of where I am. I’m not gonna pretend I’m something I’m not.

I am not right now

Put more effort into your posts. Building resilience can be a worthwhile endeavour. Reality can be challenging and harsh at times. Consider asking chatGPT for book recommendations on building resilience and adversity quotient. See yourself as you are. And, go from there. Do you want to build resilience? You can.