Thought Art

This song… this band…. I think if I was God, which apparently I am, If I could create anything I would make profound music like this. But, here I am a fucking wage slave who is getting older. Just turned 30. Reality is a mystery. Why am I too stupid? Or confused? Why would God imagine my life? Why am I not up on that stage like, every night? Also, what’s with the rucking tinnitus?! I feel like reality should have been designed differently. Anyway, I’m gonna keep trying to get this this low I feel and this victim complex. I am making progress on my next music project.

“Don’t wish life was easier. Wish you were better” - ?

@cistanche_enjoyer That is better than 5g….

Hmm, I don’t think I want to be a Qigong teacher in this phase of my life. I am considering letting it go and just doing it as my spiritual practice for the next decade. Not sure on this. I’ve put a lot of time and effort into this. The traction is small, which doesn’t mean it isn’t working but sometimes I think it’s not. I want to be a musician. But, that’s feels impossible to make a living in. This has me going back in forth in a feeling of hopelessness, doom and gloom and frustration. I don’t know. A problem I am having is that I work all day and I’m getting back and eating and sleeping. My ability to work on my dreams seems impossible. This makes me wonder why I even am alive if I can’t make my dreams a reality. I either decide I’m gonna figure out a way or I kill myself. It’s my hearts largest desire.

So, is there a take away here on good gear to get?

@kieranperez Are you saying unconditioned experiences only happen under the right conditions? 5meodmt not being one of them? Trying it once isn’t enough! Meditating once isn’t enough!

This is an interesting documentary because it was filmed with those who committed the genocide re-enacting how they did it.

@Av2521 Confusion is part of the toxicity.

@Magnanimous Hubspot has good intro courses to help you understand the industry. That could help you. There are a lot of different approaches depending on the type of sales and your position.

@max duewel Hey that’s good man

This motivates me! My life makes it hard to socialize right now between my life purpose goals and travelling for work. But, I’ll figure it out!

Not sure I understand how this sentence is contexted

It’s very sad. The genocide and then the guilt and shame of those who committed it. Very eye opening film.

@Hojo There has been reports of this for years

@LastThursday That’s my new language not even I understand I am so non-conformist.

@Ishanga Do you think if you were kept awake for 48 hours chained into a stress position in a CIA torture camp with no sense of time that you wouldn’t suffer unless you chose to?

I’d focus on cultivating non-dependent relationships. It sounds like a mess waiting to happen and something that could be very dangerous and toxic down the road to be honest. Her neediness, her already having a family etc. It’s odd and high risk. You guys clearly have chemistry. I dont know how for you to navigate this but… you are seeing signs that something is up.

I heard it was anal rape too… Billionaire, soccer player, rapist… man of many things.

@LastThursday 9$$$24 saslekf

Yes, sure. But, notice how you are alive. You haven’t died, and even with some consciousness of it… you are here alive. Death, would mean you aren’t here alive. So that is what is explored here.

@Someone here I’ve never once had fun looking at soccer but I get people do.

Imagine making billions running around and kicking a ball.

I don’t think that is truth though. You’re biased against suffering. God is not.

I’m not convinced spiral dynamics really works here anymore. What is happening is far more nuanced than what spiral dynamics can predict. Spiral dynamics isn’t that good I think when it comes to lying, corruption, and lack of understanding of political science among all stages. I think people are so splintered and the administration is doing things so fast that it’s too late. I can’t see trump and his team failing, unless they mess things up so badly the conflict within the country becomes untenable. Extreme levels of conflict are coming for the United States within the country due to the vision, values and survival strategy of Trump and his party vs the constitution, rule of law, moral standards, policy of the United States up to this point. This is going to be the biggest change the United States has ever gone through since its creation. Not just domestically within the US, but I think globally things are about to change radically.

@Hardkill I think the US is under a deep threat beyond what it can imagine of becoming a country like Russia or North Korea in that it is ruled by a dictator. I think it could happen faster than you think with the new administration. What is happening is unprecedented and happening at breakneck speed. Corruption is happening so fast, and it’s so well coordinated I don’t think democracy has a chance. I hope it does, but I doubt it.