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I heard he was rehired

My current understanding of crypto is that it’s just Hype. So it’s worthless for the most part aside from bitcoin.

@Sincerity Thanks. It’s my life at the end of the day. It’s been very challenging to say the least. Having all this feeling of ambition but just being weighed down is demoralizing. But, if maturity and mastery pay the dividends I suspect they will as I work through all my setbacks and shortcomings I can become a man people look up to. It’s gonna take time. But, I believe in myself. I don’t know what’s possible. But, at the very least fixing my finances and basic career/ income is definitely fixable. I feel a bit vulnerable. However, I know others here struggle too and by having this conversation I think it will help others as well. I am who I am and I am where I am. I’ve shared a lot here about my feelings of helplessness and depression from this debt I have. But, I’ve grown stronger because of it and it’s maturing me deeply. I am strong, patient and will persist until I succeed. — I am deeply ambitious. I have though been immature, and full of cognitive and character flaws. But, each of my mistakes in my 20s (of which there have been so so soooo many… but at least I have experience). I will keep practicing Qigong as my main spiritual/ physical/ mind body practice and posting free videos each week. People seem to really enjoy them and watch them regularly. I also enjoy making them. I have about 423 subscribers and get about 200 views every 48 hrs which is pretty cool. I’ll build my mastery of Qigong slowly and maturely. I will also teach locally at community and fitness centres for side cash and the joy of teaching. It’s easy to forget that people get a lot of value from my Qigong videos because it doesn’t earn my money yet. I have no online products, or subscriptions yet… but, I plan to in a few years time as I grow the brand slowly. I need patience and to remember that I’ve only been teaching for a couple years. Patience. I have a vision for this. Music? I think if I could do anything I would do this. But, I just don’t believe it’s possible… at least right now it’s worth letting go. Cybersecurity, I am really enjoying the google certificate so far and could really enjoy a career in it. It also pays very well which is of main concern for me. I’m exciting to learn Python and SQL as well. In the end… I have to meet life on its terms. My life will be enriched by growing and overcoming this current chapter in my life with all its challenges. I will continue to see myself grow in maturity, financial health, employable skill, mental health, and spiritual growth. These are worthwhile projects which will bring a lot of joy, and sustained value to my life. I struggled a lot with immaturity, desperation and mental health issues, such as anxiety, impulsiveness, wishful thinking, depression and marijuana addiction throughout my 20s. These things have held me back. It was also hard to navigate because I was exposing myself to so many spiritual/ epistemological schools. But, after having done this I feel very grounded. But, despite my setbacks and failures I’ve continued to invest in my education, learning, self reflection and self correction. I will overcome this challenge. My bookshelf overflows with books, I have lots of resources at my disposal, I have time to get into a rewarding high paying career like cyber security. I don’t know yet, how I provide massive value to escape wage slavery. My path will be my own and I won’t compare myself to anyone else. I share my journey here because, I want to face the truth of where I am. I’m not gonna pretend I’m something I’m not.

I am not right now

Put more effort into your posts. Building resilience can be a worthwhile endeavour. Reality can be challenging and harsh at times. Consider asking chatGPT for book recommendations on building resilience and adversity quotient. See yourself as you are. And, go from there. Do you want to build resilience? You can.

People gotta actually study spiral dynamics instead of making these claims.

@Rishabh R Yeah, I'd say instead of panicking and feeling helpless... Re-evaluate your study habits, ask for more help from peers and teachers, and take proactive steps to improve your grades.

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I want to see looking back 5 years from now that I've had 5 years a solid decision making, execution and results.

I have begun the Google Cybersecurity Certification. So far, I’m enjoying it.

@Rishabh R I don’t know.

@Rishabh R Are you doing your best? Is there ways you can improve your study habits? I think in school you sort of have to do your best and face the truth. When it comes to getting a job I don't think GPA matters at all.

@koops Okay I reviewed his chapter and examples and his are broad as well. I will try out my mission statement as it is for now and continue to make changes to it over time. For me this addresses the things in my life as a whole. A lot of the things are done simply by their interaction with those areas in my life. I don't see where Steven says that in the chapter that you shared. My mission statement is a draft. It'll need to be honed and clarified. It’s not meant to be a life purpose statement which would be more focused.

@Rishabh R I think so. Grades don’t matter that much, and having intégrant work ethic matters Moore over long term. Imo

@koops Thanks I’m still working through the chapter. First time writing it out loosely based on his examples.

@CARDOZZO who is that?

All of us lonely, it ain't a sin To want something better, then the shape your in The rain came at the break of day Your light in the windowpane, said come on in It's a broken heart babe, I know the sound Feels like your hands, are nailed to the ground It'll pass just like everything else You won't let it get to me, the next time around It's a hard earn victory The life that come from you to me Can never be wrong Grown from a moment and a million miles Here lies the stardust and it slowly dies Borrowed from nothing come back half alive And the stars the whisper blessings as you walk by

It’s funny I had been thinking about cyber security career for past few months. Then, at an open mic last night I was chatting to a guy who happened to be a cybersecurity manager here in my city. He mentioned once I had a certificate or two to reach out to him and he’d help me find/ get a job.That was lucky.

I think I just need to find a way to drastically increase my income and to hell with everything else. Money is all that matters short term/mid term. No more thinking about being an artist, no more thinking about spirituality, no more Qigong as a business I just can wrap my head around that working out at all. I need to go into a field like cybersecurity and focus on finding ways of just earning more money. I don’t think I’ll ever make money from things I like. At least, not unless I already have an Abundance of money in the first place. It’s also probably true there is more joy in being a craftsman and following a passion anyway. It’s disheartening but, I’m in this social matrix meatsuit nightmare drama. So🙃, gotta meet it on its terms. God dangled a lot of fruit in front of me and slapped me down hard. I get to see artists like Arcadefire and Bon Iver but, not taste success unfortunately. Instead I get bald lonely , debt riddled tinnitus. Focus on the process, building higher earning skills, being a craftsman in a higher earning field than accounting and payroll like cybersecurity. I know hope is important to keep me alive and going. I just don’t want tjj oh be fooling myself. I suffer enough as it is. I never want my fridge empty again as it is right now. Is embarrassing.

@LSD-Rumi Thank you Rumi, that is a good mindset you share. I’m re-evaluating it. I sense I need to allow myself to focus on this survival stuff right now. I have a life purpose statement but, I think it need adjusting now. @Leo Gura Thank you Leo. It means a lot to me.

I’ve been working on crafting a personal mission statement inspired by reading “The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People”. I thought I’d share it here too. I’ll be refining it as I growth and mature until I have a solid foundational document. My Personal Mission Statement.pdf

Imagine how massive his pursuit is for one guy haha

If you are a young entrepreneur, or you are interested in spirituality make sure you watch this. This is what happens when you are so lost in new age bullshit you can’t think straight. Money doesn’t care about your feelings, your spirituality or your identity. It’s a skill, and it’s important you understand debt, earnings, taxes, interest rates, budgets, numbers, etc. Do not skip your financial education. It’s really the most fundamental skill set for a self actualizing persons. Chances are you do want some degree of wealth, shelter, peace of mind, etc. Having good financial habits, psychology, and just brute understanding of how our economic system works will save you years of paying the idiot taxes that is loans, credits, etc. Your ability to endure understanding boring and technical fields like personal finance is a worthwhile sacrifice and investment into yourself. If you are a teenager or in your 20s this is number one!! Understand first the brutal nature of finance and money and then, understanding this harsh reality build your life. Not the other way around.