Freedomesong

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  1. I say this about reading. It is new, for a long ass time it was unheard of. Humans for nearly all of our existence have been speaking and hearing to learn and express ideas, not reading. Reading for me is the least way I learn something. It takes for ever and seems so boring I just cannot keep awake doing it for long at all. I am bright, have a stupid degree in Computer Science bla bla bla. I still have a hard time digesting things from words on a page. I use 2 methods. I download audio from youtube videos as MP3's and load them on my phone so I can listen any time including offline. I listen to many things over and over. Almost all books can be found as audio these days and most for free. I have "read" thousands of hours of data, hundreds of texts that I could never have actually found the time to read. I walk around with my bluetooth in my ear literally all day and most nights. I own 3 bluetooth devices because I burn up the batteries so fast. I always am listening to something that helps me grow. Free sites to download youtube as MP3, large ones like full books. popups but no virus's, i have been using these for years. https://y2mate.com/youtube/1AjaFoErcN4 https://mp3fy.com/ Secondly I found some free apps on my phone that will read text. A few things I could only find in text, no audio. So I use an app to read those darn things to me on my phone. I have just shy of 100 youtube channels I follow, all spiritual in nature like Leo's channel. I follow chanellers to mystics and more logical ideas like Leo's method, and I absorb them all and find my truth within their teachings. I prescribe to no one idea, no single thoughts or other peoples concepts. I use them to create my own truth, and it has worked well for me. There are so many great people putting out incredible content. There are only 24 hours in a day. If I could not listen to stuff all day and had to try to get all this from books at night after work. I would die trying, never getting to what I have become, God incarnated to experience other than God. For me, reading is very over rated. Another lie from our school systems. It is the slow way to learn, at best. Books were just data holders, like modern hard drives, of their day. There is nothing special about the written word today, that tech is passing quickly.
  2. There are some really bright, well thought out people here. Thank you!
  3. Survive what? That implies you die, I don't believe in that.
  4. It has also become difficult for me around family much of the time. The relationships seemed forced and fake as hell to me now. I no longer believe in blood lines and all that crap. If they are not even willing to allow you to grow, then you have to distance yourself. Many people never wake up, never. It might suck but it is real that most stay asleep until death, then stay asleep in death, so be it. Having someone close to you, spouse or that kind of close, is hard man. Waking up has caused a lot of break ups, perhaps it should be that way but it is still a kick in the balls when it is you going through it. It is in places like this that I find the kinship of family now. I have nothing to speak about around the sleepers. I don't know one awake person in real life, not one. Until I ran into Leo's stuff i had not even heard one person as awake as I am, and I was looking hard for at least one other like me. I don't mean I am so fucking awake and all that BS, I mean I was lonely, for a while desperately looking for another very awake human. I had gotten over it, gave up really, but when I ran into Leo i thought "I am not alone" "he gets it" and that is a nice feeling. I understand Leo, he is correct in his beliefs. We are God, his concept is exactly what God told me years ago. We are God, experiencing the psychical so God can be all that God can be. God knows what it can be, now it wants to be it. You are that IT that God has become to realize what is Godliness. I am one of the freaks that God speaks back too. I know all about what happens after you die. At least as much as God thinks I can comprehend, which is a good sized book of data on the topic. I know how it all started, why it started, I know it ends and restarts too. I know it is your ultimate goal to become God, and create. That is where your path is taking you, to God-hood. Try telling someone you are God. It don't go over very well. Then try to tell them they are God too! That don't go over very well either. You can quote Jesus all day but even Christians look at you like you are a leper, I don't recommend telling very many people God talks back to you, that did not go over very well so far for me. Don't say or even act like you have anything figured out in life, it don't go over very well in a crowd. Like Leo spoke about, there are problems with being awake. I wouldn't trade it for anything, but there are issues to deal with and other people are a big one. Play well my friend David
  5. Duality gives you a chance to define what you are, by noticing what you are not. Imagine that you are in a white room with white walls and a white ceiling with no corners. Imagine you were suspended in the middle of this room by some invisible force. You are dangling there in mid air, you cannot touch anything nor hear anything and all you see is whiteness. How long do you think you will exist in your own experience? Pretty soon you would literally leave your mind. Your mind is the part of you that is concerned with making sense of all incoming data. Without any data incoming your mind has nothing to do. The moment you go out of your mind you cease to exist in your own experience, you don’t know anything in particular about yourself. Are you big? Are you small? You cannot know because there is nothing outside of yourself with which to compare yourself. Are you good, are you evil, you cannot know. Are you even here? You cannot know because there is nothing over there. You cannot know anything about yourself in your own experience. You can conceptualize it all you want, but you cannot experience it. Then something happens to change all this. Their appears a tiny dot on the wall. It’s as if someone has come along and squirted the wall with a tiny dot of ink. The dot has saved you. Now there is something else, there is you and the dot on the wall. Suddenly you can make some decisions again, you can have some experiences again. The dot is over there, that means you must be over here. The dot is smaller than you so you are bigger than it. You are starting to define yourself again in relationship to the dot on the wall. Your relationship with the dot soon becomes sacred because it has given you back a sense of yourself. Now a kitten comes in the room. You don’t know who is doing all this but you are grateful. Because now some more decisions can be made. The kitten appears softer, but you appear smarter. It is faster but you are stronger. More things begin appearing in the room and you begin to expand your definition of self. Then it dawns on you….. only in the presence of something else can you know yourself, this something else is that which you are not. Thus in the absence of what you are not, that which you are, is not. You have remembered an enormous truth, and you vow never to forget it again. You welcome every other person place and thing in your life with open arms. You reject none of it because you see now that all that appears in your life is a blessing. Presenting you with a greater opportunity to define who you are and to know yourself as that. Get it? Play well my friends David
  6. It is really awesome to hear people your age speaking so intelligently. Self awareness is the key to life, it keeps expanding forever. There is no goal to it, it just is. And yes, I agree fear is the enemy. I would give my 20 year old self this advice. Look into Buddhism. That would have been enough to get me started I think. Play well my friends David
  7. Yes, I am a trained IT engineer, and it does seem pointless. Of course it is so why wouldn't I notice. I only find any real satisfaction from helping others now. You could learn QHHT in a weekend and start a whole new life. I started to volunteer a lot and in general I help those around me see through issues to solutions. Screw IT, move to India, find a reason to live that excites you. Go work on a cruise ship, see the world. There are many options that don't require decades to do. I learned to be a Reiki master in 2 months and I could have done it in a week if needed. You control your desires. Follow one somewhere, you can always come back to this. Play well my friend David
  8. Everything is bullshit on some level. It is all fake, illusion, no one is out there, just you. If by some magic everyone lost their ego, we would all become very robotic, it would be boring as it gets. I think God is looking for more than boring robots to incarnate as. God loves all the BS, it defines who God is. Duality; "Imagine that you are in a white room with white walls and a white ceiling with no corners. Imagine you were suspended in the middle of this room by some invisible force. You are dangling there in mid air, you cannot touch anything nor hear anything and all you see is whiteness. How long do you think you will exist in your own experience? Pretty soon you would literally leave your mind. Your mind is the part of you that is concerned with making sense of all incoming data. Without any data incoming your mind has nothing to do. The moment you go out of your mind you cease to exist in your own experience, you don’t know anything in particular about yourself. Are you big? Are you small? You cannot know because there is nothing outside of yourself with which to compare yourself. Are you good, are you evil, you cannot know. Are you even here? You cannot know because there is nothing over there. You cannot know anything about yourself in your own experience. You can conceptualize it all you want, but you cannot experience it. Then something happens to change all this. Their appears a tiny dot on the wall. It’s as if someone has come along and squirted the wall with a tiny dot of ink. The dot has saved you. Now there is something else, there is you and the dot on the wall. Suddenly you can make some decisions again, you can have some experiences again. The dot is over there, that means you must be over here. The dot is smaller than you so you are bigger than it. You are starting to define yourself again in relationship to the dot on the wall. Your relationship with the dot soon becomes sacred because it has given you back a sense of yourself. Now a kitten comes in the room. You don’t know who is doing all this but you are grateful. Because now some more decisions can be made. The kitten appears softer, but you appear smarter. It is faster but you are stronger. More things begin appearing in the room and you begin to expand your definition of self. Then it dawns on you….. only in the presence of something else can you know yourself, this something else is that which you are not. Thus in the absence of what you are not, that which you are, is not. You have remembered an enormous truth, and you vow never to forget it again. You welcome every other person place and thing in your life with open arms. You reject none of it because you see now that all that appears in your life is a blessing. Presenting you with a greater opportunity to define who you are and to know yourself as that." Play well my friends David
  9. Deity has no needs. If you wish to keep looking, you may need a sword and lamp If you wish to find, you can discard the tools of fear and simply walk regardless of it being dark or light. Sword is a tool of the seeker, not the finder. It is a tool of fear. Lamp is a tool of the blind, not the visionaries. It is a tool of fear. It is your path, walk it any way you see fit. One should become God, as it is what you are. Deity has no needs. Play well my friend David
  10. What exactly is the spirit, soul, and god, or conscience, super-conscience and supra-conscience? and how do they integrate and when? What becomes of my existing persona? Does it survive this process?
  11. It is a wonderful trap to love others enough to want them to be better, your version of better of course. Pain is a great persuader of others. I am willing to allow others to suffer as much as they want. The more the better for those who are not awake. It will eventually get to a boiling point within them and force a change from within. I try to be a positive influence by just being happy. My life is full of joy and it shows. People, after a while, wonder why I am always so fucking happy when they are always so confused and pissy. They come around, eventually. We all compare our lives to others, if you are living life in a way that shows some joy, and positive direction, people will notice and some will eventually get up the courage to ask you about it. When others ask for my advice, I always say this "what would love do now?" If love was a human and sitting here, what would it do? and offer them a path that follows that idea. It is easy to make people believe that nothing comes from fear thinking, nothing good at least. And everything in their life that is good came from thoughts of love. Redirect them down this path. When they start up with ego ideas that come from fear, I just point it out, "you are thinking from a position of fear, how do you think that can help you?" "What would love do instead if it was sitting here now?" Play well my friend David
  12. Unless you plan to move into a cave, this is life. I deal with most of them with compassion as best I can. But in general, move away from too much fear coming your way. There are some people I avoid as best I can, but at work and other places there is just no way "all the time" to avoid the ego's out there. I say things like "we just don't think the same way" rather than argue my point. If they were ready we would not argue so they are not ready if they want to argue, let them go. It is their path and they can walk it any way they wish. Additionally I try to learn from them. I find most people who annoy me are reflecting something back that I need to look at within myself, perhaps all people who annoy me are doing this. Use all experiences as a tool, it takes away their power and allows you to be mindful when dealing with them. The experience is there to evolve you. Not to annoy you as it seems. I also know when I am annoyed, it is my ego not my real awareness I am dealing with. The idea that "others" even exist is my ego talking to me, "they" become "us" when I get out of the ego. You can get more out of someone who seems against you, than anyone who seems with you. By more I mean growth, expansion, become who you really are. Not some petty ego who allows others to control him. Duality has its purpose. It is in the figuring out what you are not that you will become what you are. You cannot be tall unless you know short, at least as an idea. You are not this or that, you are in truth defining yourself as what you are not. So now you noticed more things you are not, you are not the person who stops others from growing...right? You are defining yourself all the time, it is part of what you are here to do. Don't miss a chance to notice what you are not, it is in these concepts you will figure out what you are. The real growth in me was when I started to release all that I thought I was, the "I" death. When others damage you, it is your ego that is doing all the damage. The more you think you are a you, you have this persona to keep safe and take care of. The less you believe in the you, you have built up, the less this will happen in general. Play well my friends David
  13. While rare, I do believe as a percentage of the all, self awareness is growing. I consider us all teachers, as we move about the world our actions and reactions speak loudly about our path. More of us are speaking about this stuff and more people are sick of materialism as they get older and figure out there is no real joy in it, no end to that game, and no joy in that game leaves people wanting a new way. As an idea, I look at this way. Is the boy in second grade less than the kid in sixth grade? I am not better, no one is less. We are all on the same basic path. Some have noticed it, some have not. The second grader has no idea what algebra is, yet, though both are on the same path. Never begrudge anyone who is on the path, guide them as best you can, but don't judge them in anyway. You are judging yourself....were you not them at one time in your life? Was there a time when you were on the path and did not know it yet? Of course you were, or you wouldn't even be here. So in a way, we are in sixth grade, perhaps in front of the line. That does not make you better, it makes "offers you a responsibility" to help them that are behind you, following you up the path even if they don't know it yet. I have brought some up the path, it feels good when someone gets it on their own and diverges from my path onto their own within the same awareness concept. Perhaps the point of Leo saying things they way he does is to get you here? Or to make you think about it and make your own path about it. I don't think it is pure ego like it might sound. These things are often very hard to speak about. The ideas are so big that words fall very short and sometimes don't even exist. So we do the best with what we have to explain things to each other. Within the greater concepts the truth is found, not within one persons conceptual idea about the idea. Which is all any one of us really has to offer. Play well my friends David
  14. Freewill can be tricky. It very much depends on your view. I break it up like this, soul, spirit, body. Your soul has freewill, your spirit is controlled by your soul, your body is controlled by you. So when I am in my higher space, looking through the eyes of the soul, I have freewill. When I am in my ego, or body, not so much as I once believed. This is the explanation I was given by spirit while meditating. Fist off I ride motorcycles, raced them for years both street and dirt. So I was given this message about this topic. What you think of as you....the I, is the motorcycle what you think of as spirit, is the rider What you think of as soul, is the driver This applied to a "walk in" I noticed happen to me also, I was told when I asked about it. "Have you ever let one of your friends ride your motorcycle?" " Don't worry about it, it is normal and fine." There is a lot more going on then any of us are aware of. Don't let anything shock you, or scare you, tell it all you love it when it arrives in your life and it will move well. Freewill for the ego; simply the idea that you can change any thought on the spot, think again a new thought, a new way, a new path. You have to be practicing mindfulness, stay on top of your thoughts, change them when they don't serve you. Personally I change all thoughts of fear too thoughts of love as best I can, all damn day long I watch what I am thinking about. When I notice crap, I change my thoughts, I force a new thought to emerge, one of love. It might seem a bit like fake it till you make it, but it works. I no longer think very many negative thoughts, some times I go most of the day without any annoying thoughts about anything. Play well my friends David
  15. The drug is just a quickening of an organic process. It will not make anything stick. You have to integrate these experiences on your own, how you perceive it, is what it becomes. That is why "how you do it" matters, if you are not in the correct head space it can be just a lost adventure. I have had hundreds of lost adventures in my life time, nothing wrong with just having the experience just to have it for fun. If you want to integrate it better then start with meditation, perhaps 2 days for at least an hour each, morning and night. During these meditations tell yourself what you expect to happen during your future trip, map it into a direction you wish it to become for you. Then when you take it, again, meditation should be happening as you start to get high and continued through out the high as best you can. The down side of the high can be used to integrate your trip, sit and think, contemplate what has happened to you in a quiet space as you come down. Then for the next 2 days again you meditate twice a day for an hour each and you sit and remember your feelings, what you became aware of and who you wish to re-present yourself as now. The integration is intentional, not some by-product that happens by chance. Often what is integrated seems backwards, you will be releasing old beliefs more then starting new ones. There needs to be room in you for some new stuff to grow, release all you can and make room for new ideas and concepts to form in you. The drug is just speeding this up, use it with wisdom and it will serve you as a tool, not just a trip. You can do this with THC, I have taken 500MG's of liquid tincture and it also had a quickening effect on me for this process. Warning, you will trip hard on that much THC, best to work your way up slowly. Keep in mind when you trip, you are God, tripping on God, looking to realize who you are, God. The circle is intentional, most things circle when you are on the path long enough you come back to your starting point, with a new view of life. Play well my friends David
  16. I am a Reiki master. The healing you speak of is done with intention. A quieting of your mind, ego, and an allowing of energy to move from you to others or back to you in a circle. Try some kriya yoga, and or Kundalini yoga, the kind that move energy around. Play with Chakra's and see if you can while meditating spin them faster with your mind. Be slightly careful or at least ready for something to happen to you, you will feel it clearly when it starts up and won't have to question its validity any longer. This might take you a month of practice, be patient. I use Qi-Gong to "warm up" and I speak a light language now that helps power me up to heal others. To heal myself I do the same thing but I visually, in my mind with my eyes closed, pull in energy from above, it comes to me from the top of my head into my body like smoke, slowly it comes and fills me until I am ready to use it. I then direct the energy to a specific spot on my body, say my lower back, with the intent that it caries the healing power of love in it. Like a bong hit caries the thc, this energy caries love, healing love. Additionally, there is a place in the astral realm that is called the "Healing Temple," while falling asleep ask your soul to take you there tonight. I go often, perhaps once a week. If you learn to lucid dream you can control and even remember being there. If you can astral project, and you can learn how if you want, you can go at will and heal yourself. I hope I am not breaking any rules, I did read them, by posting this video. I have no connection to this guy, but he does it correctly so I used it as an example. There are many teachers on line who you can groc some process from until you find one that works for you. Play well my friends David
  17. Fear is the great distraction from truth. Confidence is a version of over coming fear with logic. I would propose it is temporary as change will not allow the same confidence to apply to all, or even many, different situations that life will present us. I replaced confidence with a knowing. Confidence implies "I" have to work it all out. Knowing is the feeling it is all worked out already, I just have to play my part. If you accept that this world is perfect just as it is, then you can move through it without fear, rather than with confidence. I am not taking a shot at confidence, and for many it is a large step in the right direction, but there is more to become than just confident, there is knowing. Additionally the more you let go of your persona, the "I", the more confidence goes with it. I found some times I felt very vulnerable going through this process, but on the other side I felt stronger. Confusion , which used to drive me crazy, now is an indicator of clarity, understanding, and forward evolution of the individual incarnation. From the no-thing came the every-thing, from confusion is born knowing-ness. In accepting the confusion, removing resistance from it and just allowing it to flow in me, came a quickening of the process that leads to understanding, or clarity or just a simple knowing that everything is in its place and I don't really need to do anything to keep it there. Play well my friends. David