Nightwise

So apparantly 5-MeO-MALT isn't available in my country, but 5-MeO-DALT is. Whilst there are perhaps tryptamines that potentially would better fit my purposes, I am simply quite curious about 5-MeO-DALT. ChatGPT says this when comparing MALT with DALT Let me clarify: I have tried psychedelic truffles before, and even low doses can really affect me quite intensely (mostly in a negative way), so proceeding with great caution is very important to me. For that reason, 5-MeO-DALT at this moment sounds actually more appropriate to me thatn 5-MeO-MALT anyway Are some people here experienced with DALT?

I think so. But I think setting a clear intention for yourself to live life consciously and in alignment with Truth, Love and God will certainly also raise your base level of consciousness with or without meditation

Here's your heavy metal urine test 🤣 Sorry I'm a bit of a troll sometimes 😜

Hi everybody. I want to share with all of you "The book of Secrets" by Osho which contain 112 meditation techniques. According to Osho himself, every person that reads this book (or any person at all for that matter) must have at least one technique that works really well for them. Ordinarily, we don't really think so much about all the different ways we could engage with what we call "meditation". Usually, people just think of sitting still and focusing on the breath as the thing that would define "meditation". Whilst obviously that is one form of meditation, one might argue that perhaps that technique isn't suitable or at least not optimal for everybody. If that doesn't work for you, there are literally 111 different choices that Osho offers in this book that you can choose from. You might be surprised about what the technique is that works best for you. Personally I'm contemplating trying out one of these techniques every day for 112 days in a row. Then I might even try to do all 112 again because sometimes a first impression can be misleading due to a variety of possible reasons. I'd also like to randomize the order in which I do the meditations in by randomizing a list of 112 numbers to keep it more interesting for me. I'm also considering if I want to use AI to speak to me whatever is being written in the book because I often prefer something to listen to than something to read. But I haven't really made my decision just yet if I really want to commit to all of the meditations. Osho has also said that it is possible that some people may have so much 'garbage' and restlessness within them that none of these meditation techniques would work. in that case, he recommends people try his "Dynamic Meditation" (which interestingly isn't part of these 112 meditations). I'm sure you can find out how that works by just googling it. Where can you find the book? Well, you can of course try to buy a copy of it online, but you can also download an EPUB file I found the following link where you can download the full book (it's an extremely long book): https://dokumen.pub/the-book-of-secrets-112-meditations-to-discover-the-mystery-within-9780312650605-9780880507707-0880507705-0312650604.html I believe Osho himself wanted content like this to be free to access to anyone, so in no way am I crossing an ethical (and probably not even lawful) boundary of any sorts by directing you to a page where you can download it for free. I would recommend reading the Introduction and Preface of this book, as this gives some context as to how the contents of this book should be understood and applied. Below is the exhaustive list of all the 112 meditation techniques. Maybe just looking at the single-sentence description you already see one that resonates with you. You can find this list at page 1573-1577 (and you can find in which chapters these meditations belong at page 6-13)

Okay, so I've had an interesting idea some time ago, where I figured that instead of writing everything that I want to communicate, I simply record a voice message instead, and then I use transcription software in order to get it from speech to text. Then I use ChatGPT to make whatever has been transcribed look professional (because it tends to look every messy with paragraphs and punctuations all being wrong), and then I simply post it here 😊. It's a bit scary because the word count went from almost 3000 words to just over a 1000 words, but I suppose most of the shortening is removing repetition and unnecessary filler words, as I did very explicitly ask it not to remove any details. As I'm quite sure it will retain at least the most important details, I am just going to trust it and let go of my attachment to have everything explained with such verbosity. So without further a due, here is the final output. The first part (without headers) s actually the part that I had written myself, before I chose to go over to spoken word. Monday, October 14, 2024 Alright. Let’s talk about what happened last Sunday. I think I want to keep my writings relatively short this time around. So two weeks ago on Sunday, I went to this sex club that I had talked about twice before. As should’ve been expected, there were some delays (felt very drawn to take a nap in the early afternoon). I also felt tired even just cycling there, so I took a small nap at a a beach there in the area and also took a dip in the fairly cold river afterwards to refresh my system. But I still arrived at that sex club just being short of 3 hours until closing time, which felt like that should be enough time for me to not feel hurried and just to easily settle into my environment. I could do that more or less. I first went into the Jacuzzi, but in the Jacuzzi I noticed that I STILL felt tired! So what to do about it? Well, after taking that Jacuzzi I went to the kitchen in which they told me I could ask for some fries and a snack. Buffet was included, after all (but this didn’t feel like buffet. Perhaps they did have that option but I just didn’t inquire enough). Anyway, one of the sex workers was there who I actually had sex with last time I was at the club, and I decided to be a little bit brave and just sit opposite to her at the small table she was sitting at (there was just room for just two people at that table) whilst she was eating her fries, and we had a little chat. I noticed she was drinking tea, and that gave me an idea: Some black tea (which should contain a good amount of caffeine) could help me with the fatigue. So I went over to the bar and ordered a tea and went back to the dining area to sit back at the little table with the sex worker. But now, everybody else in the dining area was suddenly gone (oh yeah, haven’t told you yet there were other people present before that). Honestly, nothing too special came from the conversation with the sex worker. It was just casual chat. I did ask her if she was still available later on, and she said “maybe” because first there was another client she was going to accompany. After that, I finished my tea, went to the bar area and got myself another cup op tea, and also ordered a beer. The first time I was at the sex club ordering three beer got me in a sweet spot of feeling relaxed but not impotent, so the idea was to drink three beer once again, but now also with the two tea. Once eventually one of the sex workers did become available (not the one I just talked about), it turned out that I had made a mistake. Not only did the beer not have the same effects for me as it did the first time around, but as I had drank 5 drinks in a relatively short time span, I also had to take a piss right before, right after and... here it comes... DURING the session with the sex worker. Okay, slightly misleading 😁. I did not piss whilst I was having sex with her, but I did feel like I have to mention to her that I had to go to the toilet. So our session got interrupted. It was once again a new sex worker. I estimate her to be in her 50’s, but she was a really kind and sexually supportive kind of woman. Initial Plan: Jacuzzi and Extra Time Before my visit, I had already planned to go into a jacuzzi with her, intending to pay a little extra for additional time. My idea was to spend half an hour in the jacuzzi and then half an hour in the bedroom. Normally, the default is just half an hour, but you can pay for more time. However, the staff told me that it wasn’t possible, even though there was more than an hour left before the place would close, and my last half hour was supposed to be in the bedroom anyway. This really threw a wrench in my plan, but I decided to go with it. Starting the Evening: Energy and Alcohol As I had mentioned earlier, one of the problems was that I drank too much. I’ll talk about this a bit later. So, the evening started with me needing to use the bathroom first. Then we went into the bedroom, and I liked her energy. She was kind, positive, and compassionate. It’s been over two weeks now, so I’m trying to remember the details. The Experience: Lack of Arousal and Reflection I think we kissed a little, and she gave me a blowjob, but to be honest, I don’t really enjoy blowjobs—they don’t get me hard. I’ll explain what does get me aroused shortly. At this point, I don’t remember every detail of the session. I was more passive compared to the previous couple of times, and the alcohol didn’t seem to be helping. In fact, it might have made it harder for me to get an erection. I also didn’t drink a cup of the special tea I had during previous visits, which was supposed to be an aphrodisiac. So far, though, I haven’t really felt like the tea worked, but maybe it did, because this time I didn’t take it, and I couldn’t get hard as easily. Struggles with Erection: Realizations and Embarrassment It’s a little embarrassing. I’m 29 years old and struggling with getting an erection in many situations. When I compare real sex to watching porn and masturbating, there’s maybe a bit of fear with actual sex because you’re connecting with another person. Many men can get hard without needing that connection, but for me, the thrill and excitement of it have faded. I used to find it easier to get an erection because the excitement was there, but now that thrill is gone, and it affects my arousal. The setting also matters, I suppose. Fluctuations in Libido It’s a bit embarrassing, and I think how aroused I am beforehand plays a role. I go through phases where I’m not very interested in sex, content with just porn and masturbation, and don’t feel a desire to pursue sex with women. Sometimes, I’m not even interested in women I see on the street. But other times, I’m quite distracted by women everywhere and feel much more sexually charged. So, my libido fluctuates. The Role of Desire in Sexual Performance When I’m not already in a sexually excited phase, it’s hard to get into the mood, and that makes it difficult to get an erection. I remember a contrast where, in May or June, I was quite horny, and I called a sex worker the same day. The sex was great—probably one of the best I’ve ever had. I was really acting out of my lust, and it worked well. I think part of the reason it was so good was because I was already horny before even making the call. Masturbation as a Functional Tool By the way, I’ll dive deeper into the topic of masturbation in another message, but quickly, masturbation helps me relax and reset. It’s functional for me because it allows me to rest properly, whereas without it, I’d feel ungrounded for a while. Returning to the Recent Experience Returning to the experience with the woman from two weeks ago, at one point, I had to use the bathroom. It wasn’t great, but it wasn’t too awkward. I remember coming back and realizing I wasn’t hard anymore. She tried to help by giving me a blowjob, but blowjobs don’t do much for me. What did get me going was when I invited her to lie on top of me, and we made out a little. I really enjoyed the full-body contact, with our bellies pressed against each other, and my hands were free to roam. I liked that, and it got me aroused enough to have sex again. Eventually, I came. Shifting Desires: Intimacy Over Sex At this point, I’m reflecting on what I actually desire in terms of sexual intimacy. I’m not as excited about meeting a sex worker just for the sake of having sex anymore. Right now, I feel like I want to connect with a woman first, to vibe with her, before having sex. For the first time, sex feels optional to me when meeting a woman. If the connection is there, sex can happen, but it doesn’t feel necessary for me to be satisfied. New Feelings: Connection Over Physicality This is a new feeling for me because it used to feel like sex was essential. I think I still want a woman to be open to the possibility of sex, but I’m realizing that the connection itself is more important. Even with a sex worker, I’d prefer to have a conversation and maybe relax in a jacuzzi or bathtub first, without the need to rush into sex. Where Do I Go From Here? This shift is new and quite interesting. It’s making me reconsider my approach to sex and relationships. Do I continue with sex workers or start focusing on dating? And if I choose dating, should I start now or work on myself first? For the past eight months, I’ve felt like I’ve lost some of my strength, grounding, and power. I feel almost more like a woman now, wanting to connect emotionally before feeling ready for sex. In some ways, this has always been true for me, but it’s more pronounced now. Sex feels optional, and the focus is on connection. What’s Next? Psychedelics and Sexuality on Pause I’m still unsure about where to go from here. I’m considering taking a pause from all of this while I dive deeper into psychedelics, which could put the dating and sexuality exploration on hold for a while. There are still desires here, but I don’t know if my next step will be paid sex, dating, or something else. Time will tell.

Do you feel that changing yourself or things about yourself is the way forward, or do you feel perhaps a strong need to just fully embrace yourself as you are? Or maybe you feel like you want to strike some sort of balance? What is your initial hunch about what you feel may need to happen?

Haha I'm SO pinning this bot in the sidebar😁

I talked about it in my question but I haven't made some official trip-report if that is what you're asking. Not sure if I'm really eager to share what I experienced then with the world, nor do I remember all that much more than the tiny bit I've shared here anyway, as it was back in 2020, so quite some years ago.

NOTE: This is an answer from ChatGPT answering a long comment of mine, where I talked in detail about an psilocybin experience I've had about feeling like I was the only point of consciousness in the universe, but not as some kind of 'universal oneness' idea, but that no other human being (or nothing else for that matter) had consciousness except for me. As if living in some kind of matrix created just for me, and everyone else was just a program. This was terrifying at the time, especially because it seemed to be so overwhelmingly undeniable. What's very interesting about this idea though, is that you are able to say with certainty that this is absolute bullshit from my perspective if you yourself are conscious. So you can confirm that from my perspective this isn't true, but I myself have no way to confirm it (at least not philosophically). Here it is:

Just a little bit of playful banter. Please don't get mad at me, Leo 😁

Saturday, September 28, 2024 Let’s finally write about something I should have been writing about many weeks ago. But I got distracted by (amongst other things) ChatGPT. I’ve made a new journal topic in regards to my conversations with AI/ChatGPT, which you can find here (although I’m considering stopping posting there and just posting an IMGUR link to the relevant conversation in my other journals). But okay. Let’s talk about this one thing that happened about a month ago now. I have been putting it off for too long, and I feel like I need to talk about to process some things mentally. But for some reason I experience a psychological obstacle to writing something like this which is much greater than going on ChatGPT and chatting a bunch. So about a month ago, I visited a sex worker that was connected to something that is literally translated to a 'private house', which basically (as I've explained before) is a place that has no bar or anything but there are just women present which will accompany you whilst you are already in a room where one can have sex. In that sense it isn't really a 'social place'. And honestly, it wasn’t the greatest of experiences. I went there during the afternoon whilst trying to stretch my waking period (trying to stay awake longer because my sleep schedule frequently gets out of whack) so I could get myself a little bit more of an ‘ordinary’ sleep schedule again. I didn’t come there feeling all too great (although definitely could be worse too). I had hoped that I could take a cold shower there to reset my nervous system a little bit (something that works quite well for me), but there wasn’t really a realistic option for that. There was not separate bathroom somewhere. Rather, I was meant to take a shower whilst standing in the bath tub that was in the same room that this sex worker was also present in. The water didn’t even get particularly cold. Long story short, it didn’t really do all that much for me. I also expected when I got there that I would have the choice out of multiple women that would be present there. As it turned out: There were actually none available at the moment I got there because they already were preoccupied with other clients. Seemed that I needed to wait for one to be available again. I took a walk whilst waiting for the moment for that to happen. The woman who was going to accompany me was —I would estimate— in her mid 40's. That wasn't overly much of an issue for me because I still found her to be quite sexy (I'm not overly picky when it comes to age (but obviously there is a limit )). As far as how she was as a person: She was... Okay. But she didn't really want to kiss, and I felt like she was less receptive, open and emotionally engaged than for instance the sex worker I met in that sex club the last time I went there. It felt more like she was 'just doing her job' rather than to be happy to be there with and for me. This I found somewhat unpleasant. I had really hoped that I could meet someone who I could have a really good connection and conversation with. Whilst that may sound delusional to many of you, I think that in the Netherlands people in general seem to just be more chill and relaxed, and I'm quite sure (also because of the sex worker I met at that sex club the last time) there are some women out there who actually really (for the most part) enjoy their job as being a sex worker and genuinely feel like they can put their heart in their work. But she wasn't necessarily that woman that I was looking for. Again, she wasn't... bad by any means. But she also wasn't good. And I really felt that for myself I needed a woman who would really be willing to open themselves up emotionally whom I could have a really good conversation with whilst chilling in the bath tub. I know I've said some moment ago that age isn't a big deal to me, but still I would for now have preferred a woman that was around my age or even somewhat younger; Not because of the way she would look per se, but because I feel that younger women generally tend to be more innocent, receptive and open in their energy, and also because someone who is my age it feels naturally easier to connect to because we are from the same generation. I would've liked to just meet a woman/girl who is just a 'sweetheart' and generally just a really chill kind of person. Let's talk about that bath tub again: I actually had the idea to take a bath together with the sex worker to kind of relax and ground myself and have a little conversation with her, all of which I reckoned would help me feeling connected and at ease with the sex worker in question. Turned out that the bath was to be filled up WHILST we were already in that room and WHILST the session of the hour that I paid for had already started. I didn't really like that. This meant that there didn't really seem to be any alternative other than to just kind of... dabble around with that woman when I didn't feel so much at ease with doing that just yet whilst waiting for the bath tub to be filled. Something I really noticed during that period is that I really liked how me touching her butt felt. The sensation of touching that felt absolutely wonderful and aroused me. I wanted just to kind of... absorb that ass into my being in all kinds of different ways (like kissing it or pushing my face into it and things like that). I suppose I didn't feel quite comfortable enough to really go for that, but I tried to do it a bit. I must say I do feel more comfortable taking initiative and not just being super passive then what it used to be in the past. In the past, I would feel so stifled that I barely would feel the capacity to do anything else than just lay down there. It wasn't nearly as much to that degree anymore now than it used to be in the past. Yeah, I took some initiative here and there, and I've definitely improved on that. Ultimately though, I'd like to go to the level of expressing my arousal and horniness in such an unrestricted way that I really just go for what I want almost regardless of how big I would estimate the chance is of her not liking it (and then I could always still dial it back if I notice that she's resisting it and not liking it). If you've ever heard of the male p0rnstar Rocco Siffredi (if you haven't maybe search him up on your favorite p0rn website 😉): I like the way he does it. The guy is completely unashamed in expressing his arousal and lust, and he just goes for what he wants to do without fear or restraint. There is something very alluring to that from both the perspective of men and women. There's dangers in that because you could overwhelm the woman in question, but as he showed me, more often than not it leads to really hot and passionate sex (but I suppose it makes a lot of difference that this is pornography we're talking about and the women in question are mentally prepared for what's about to come (but they can still genuinely enjoy it)). Yeah, there is something in that unhinged, unrestricted way of just going for what you want in a sexual act and not worry too much about how she responds to it, because you trust yourself that if she is overwhelmed or too uncomfortable by something you're trying to do, that you yourself have the sensitivity to dial back the intensity (and if necessary to just take a moment to stop altogether and talk through the situation with her). That's a very different approach than what is being emphasized in the media nowadays, in which you as a man are pressured to always be careful and always make sure that there's consent in whatever you're trying to do before you do it. That approach has advantages and disadvantaged, but it is very... woman-centric, and it does not pay enough attention to the desires of what a man might be in my personal opinion. Actually, It's not even right to say it is woman-centric. Let me rephrase what I just said because it isn't quite on-point. I believe that whatever desire that a man may have, there is (in potential) a correlative desire for the same thing that a woman might have; Except it is (in most cases) to be the recipient of that desire rather than to be the initiator of it. So effectively the desire in her is both the same as yours as it is opposite to yours. I believe there are many women who have an aspect within them that absolutely DREAMS of a man taking full ownership of her in the bedroom, effectively making her his possession and calling every shot. Simultaneously, I also believe there's a lot of women who fear such situation (often whilst they also have the desire for it) because they are afraid that the man in question can not be trusted in respecting her boundaries when her boundaries to get crossed way too intensely. So I think for many (if not most) women they want a man who can help her push her beyond the boundaries in which she at her own does not have the strength to push herself beyond, but she also doesn't want her boundaries to be pushed so far that it becomes acutely overwhelming or even traumatizing. So it's like... She wants a man to help her go somewhat beyond the boundaries of her comfort zone, but not go so far that it becomes too overwhelming and traumatizing. And she wants him to be able to sense into her deeply enough that he knows exactly how far that he needs to go that he maintains a proper balance between pushing her beyond her comfort zone, but not pushing her into complete overwhelm and shutdown/trauma mode. But for that, it requires the man to 1) be bold, audacious and willing to be intense during sex, and potentially risking overwhelming her but 2) if he does overwhelm her that he is capable of sensing that and dialling it back and potentially restore whatever damage may have been done and not proceed before he gets green light again. That's why I don't like the current discourse in our society today in which men are supposed to be extremely cautious, and that when a man has gone too far he should be cancelled and publicly shamed for it. And this isn't helpful, because this is just repression. With repression, you do not remove desires; You just make those desires more perverted. Because of all the tension that now surrounds these desires, you now start to associate a lot of fear relative to these desires, and because of the fear the man in question starts to lose the capacity to express the desire in an intelligent and sensitive manner. Because that's what fear does; It makes you behave more unconsciously. Now, when there is a desire in a man to have sex in a way that involves a dominant and submissive dynamic, it becomes more and more likely for that the repressed nature of the desire becomes so intense that the person in question loses its ability to make reasonable decisions and now the risks of actual sexual abuse and even rape become all the more likely. And even with something like rape I feel like there's fantasies in many women who have an aspect in them that likes being the recipient of such acts, but at the same time there is also an aspect within them that wants to feel safe, which actual rape certainly doesn't tend to be all that much. Life is complex like that. But it's a vastly misleading and oversimplified premise when society paints men as these creatures that are something like 'sexual predators by default if we don't teach them through repression and judgement that their desires for sexual domination are not okay'. It's just not as simple as that. Men can own up to their desires to be dominant in a sexual encounter (even if that was not being explicitly consented to beforehand), but they at the same time bear the responsibility to attune to and be sensitive towards the woman they are having sexual intercourse with. Likewise, women can own up to the aspect that desires her to be sexually submissive, but they also need to be willing to clearly and explicitly state and draw their boundaries and express clearly when they don't want to do something. They need to be able to create that sense of safety for themselves by learning to be vocal when it is time to express their boundaries. With women of course there is the risk that the man in question simply won't listen, but all in all in I think the chance of that happening is pretty low (although the more we as a society become repressive towards the desire of sexual dominance by men, the higher the risk becomes). If he were to actually 'rape' her however, I think the best thing a woman can do in that scenario if she simply doesn't have the physical strength to overpower him or get away from him, is to be very expressive emotionally so that there's an emotional outlet for them so that the event doesn't have to become overly traumatic. Expression =/= release. I like what I heard David Deida said once: "Women do not have the strength to stop a man from dominating her sexually, but she can always out-emote him, and she can always out-fuck him (be more sexually expressive than him)." (This is not an exact quote by the way but an approximation of it). By the way, I am talking about "men" and "women" here. Note that this doesn't always have to be the case like this. A woman can be dominant over a man, one man can be dominant over another man, or one woman can be dominant over another woman. But I think a man being dominant over a woman is just the most common over all over the other options. Anyway, that was quite a detour. let's get back on track. So there were some things I tried to practice with this sex worker by trying to take initiative here and there. I remember one specific moment where were sitting in bath and she was just kind of sitting on top of me bending somewhat forwards (her back facing me) and I just pulled her upper body toward my body. She didn't seem to mind I think. Also another moment that I found really interesting was that we were having sex at one point before we went into the bath, I had asked her if she was okay with being spanked. She told me it's okay if I only do it lightly. But when we were having sex at one point I felt like she was really getting into it and I started spanking her, and I started spanking her harder. And instead of her saying that I shouldn't be doing that, I felt it only aroused her more and got her even more into it. I believe it was also a moment where I felt like I was able to cum but didn't because it was still early in the session. I noticed that afterwards it was just hard for me to still get to the same point of arousal or even to keep my cock fully erect. So I feel like it may be better going forward into the future to search out more situations in which it is just totally okay to just come within like 15 minutes and not be too worried about the length. This is because I still feel like I need to practice with just 'fully letting myself go for it' and not having any reservations. If I try to sort of time the moment I ejaculate, I over time start getting in my head too much and out of the arousal of the moment, and then it may be hard to still get back into it. Obviously that is something I want to fix later down the line, but for now it may the most valuable thing to just allow myself to fully go for it and to ejaculate very quickly in a setting where it is perfectly fine for it to be just a short encounter. I also tried to have anal sex with her later during the session (for which I had to pay 50€ extra), but I couldn't really keep my cock erect so that was pretty awkward and a waste of money... I didn't leave that place feeling good. I felt quite a bit of shame coming out of it actually (but there have definitely been situations in the past where the shame was 10x more, so things are heading in the right direction I think). I think I just need more exposure and more time to become more at ease with my sexuality to make sure I will start feeling less and less shame. It also matters of course what the setting is and who the woman is (which wasn't all that ideal this time), so I'll try to manage that more intelligently come next time. A good example is making an appointment with a specific girl beforehand and also requesting for the bath tub to be filled up once I get there in the future.

It's funny because I expected a lot of pushback from you commenters, but it didn't happen to be that way (so far)

Because I felt too lazy to think of an answer myself, I asked ChatGPT to give me an answer 😂 "The attainment of mental health is the harmonious balance of emotional resilience, self-awareness, and inner peace, achieved through self-compassion, meaningful relationships, and a mindful acceptance of life's uncertainties"

A quick thought that just occurred to me. It almost seems to be a sport today to criticize and demonize everything about the government that we live under. In the minds of most, there is always something wrong, there's always bad people doing bad things, there's always corruption and scandals... And whilst many of these things may actually be factually true and whilst there are some serious issues and concerns that need to be dealt with, we do completely ignore everything that out government has brought to us. Our government is (at least partially) responsible for pretty much all the infrastructure that we have today that results in the comfort that we can live in today. But we just take it for granted... Think about roads. Think about the sewage system. Think about electricity. Think about Social services. Think about Health care. Think about fresh water. Think about Gas. Think about the building that you live in. Think about the internet. Even all the items that you own are in part made possible by our government, because of all the infrastructure and services that I just listed above. It's all connected. Yet all we tend to do is to complain about what is we DON'T have and about what's NOT good, rather than to see what we do have and the immense value that our government IS providing (even though it's not perfect). So I think we all should take a step back and reflect upon the fact that all the comfort we have today and (almost) everything we derive a lot of value out of today is in part made possible by the government that we live under.

The first conversation that I want to highlight is too long (as far as reading convenience is concerned) to post it all as text in one post, so what I'll do instead is to provide an IMGUR link. Utilitarian VS Deontological Ethics - Imgur I could've made an attempt to summarize it myself, but out of both curiosity and convenience, I asked Jeepee to make a short summary about what we talked about here, here's what he gave me: It was an incredible insightful conversation and it clarified for me a dilemma which I had been thinking about for some time but couldn't really find a satisfying conclusion for for myself. It also just revealed to me the incredible intelligence that a service like ChatGPT possesses. I was asking it about what God might say, but in doing so I almost felt that Jeepee itself was the true God I was talking to 😄