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I know it’s talked a lot from Leo how addiction is cured by psychedelics. I just wanted to back his statements with my experience for anyone else struggling and wasting time with traditional ways. I’ve had the craziest pot addiction for years that’s been ruining my life, the longest streak I ever went was just a couple days but I’d still want it again. In most of my depression phases it’s the first thing I’d do when I wake up, go to sleep after a few hours and do it again. Countless journal entries about why it’s bad and how to quit etc etc. I was down in the dumps this week when a friend presented me shrooms, I was like wow I need that I’ve been dying to try actual psychedelics besides smoking weed all the time. I wanted to just meditate on it and embrace all my insights on the world. I know it seems like I’m speaking too soon because I’m only on day 4 or 5, but omg, I almost don’t even get it. I can’t describe how it made me quit but I’m totally not interested at all, whenever I used to quit I’d smell it and be like ohhh wow that’s nice. Now if I smell it I don’t really mind but I’d rather not. I had no idea I was going to drop weed, I have 0 interest in going back. All I ate was 3 little caps!!! I’m so over weed. I still appreciate it of course but wow what a relief, my life feels completely different now. There is no doubt in my mind that psychedelics totally take a shit on addiction. I will write more when I understand how it works better but if anyone is stuck hopefully this can help you. My trip wasn’t even that crazy or anything, it felt a lot like the first time I felt non duality off of weed though. God I am getting 5meo asap also fwiw I doubt I’ll ever drink again either and I did that probably weekly

THC gets stored in your fat. But yeah I've been smoking everyday and a lot for 5 years, and as I've been cutting back recently weed has felt really dangerous because like a fool I'll still smoke similar dosages without realizing it. When I actually do realize I'm basically overdosing I just forget because that's what potheads do, then I'll blame it on something else and do it again. It's actually been a vicious cycle and this thread is helping me a lot to realize that. Panic attacks, suicidal contemplation, ocd, the whole 9, really bad and hospital material. I got very similar visions to you anytime I saw something threatening survival it would be like the weed wanted me to do it. Then after a nice night of sleep everything is normal as fuck. I guess this is what its like entering psychosis? I'm sorry for what you went through but it's real interesting to hear about its power. I'm gonna experiment with this right now and try taking 1 hit instead of like 50 and see if I get a normal feel good high or if I still get paranoid. One time years ago I did too much blow and came down real hard, took one hit of weed and was completely fine- so it can take you out of paranoia too. I'm really curious how weed affects the brain now as you do more and more with a lower tolerance. I don't really get how that can just trigger psychosis. But with high tolerance I can smoke non-stop all day and barley get high. Seems like it should be common sense but what's actually going on with receptors I wonder

I think everything there is, already happened, and is happening at the same time. I think it has to. I don't think there is any other way. I used to think I was talking to "God" as a child (laying in bed and in my head), I didn't believe in any religion, but I had this weird faith that someone was listening. I'd sit there and genuinely wish for something to happen, good things, bad things, they all always come true years later after I've forgotten about it. I'd assume every reincarnation you just pick whichever soul you'd like to experience, or you are a soul and you're just picking an avatar, because you wanna experience what that vessel did. Kind of like a game, who do I feel like playing today? Evil doesn't exist until you start the game so anything goes, almost like its just what you're in the mood for after playing the game over and over again there is always something new. But it already happened, you're just picking a time slot somewhere in the world of infinity and that's it. I really don't think reality is what people think, how it's constantly new and stuff added on at "random" or whatever. It only makes sense that it already happened and you just forget the future because you chose the soul only for 1 small unconditional/unbiased experience. I feel alive right now as i'm typing this, i'm watching it, you'll read it as I post it. But it wouldn't shock me if I play your vessel reading this 100 years from now, but it's happening at the same time. I don't know how this wouldn't be possible.

I find some of my deepest insights in comparing dreams to real life. I've been obsessed because I can't really prove how reality is any different. If you smoke weed for a while, then quit, your dreams become more vivid, this helps. When you are lacking sleep, as long as you sleep on your back you'll most likely enter sleep paralysis which is scary as fuck, but you can learn so much from that too. I feel like we just sleep to maintain this current dream (reality). Where if we didn't sleep, we start hallucinating and breaking down reality to see what it really is. I think its amazing how you can dream of someone and in the dream you know their body language, how they laugh, how they talk and their voice even if you never heard them say those words before. Obviously with non-duality everything is connected. It's been making me wonder, is there consciousness in the other people when we are dreaming??? Why wouldn't there be if there is in real life? Dreams give me the ultimate mind fucks. Then I just came across this post on reddit extremely related: https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/ewl0hj/what_is_your_scariest_paranormal_experience/fg2z1mm?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x insane! I too have had plenty of dreams with Leo in them, always really crazy. Had a lot of dreams of people who are passed away too. I had a couple that felt like I 100% time traveled, like watching a Jimi Hendrix live show that just felt so fucking real, even after waking. Dreams weeks and months long when i'm only sleeping for an hour, somehow still finding a way to get months of details in 1 hour. Time really doesn't exist. The other night I had a dream where I was killing myself and coming back to life as the same person/avatar but different properties/circumstances. When you realize you're dreaming everything up, its all bliss in the dream, you don't want it to end, I highly doubt "reality" is any different at all.

This is all SOOO unreal, I don't know why everything is coming together so fast all of a sudden even though life felt like forever. I think its about to end soon, I think i'm about to wake up. it's like normal sleep when the dream can't be maintained anymore you just wake up. Usually cause it gets too good and you start realizing you're in a dream so you don't want it to end or because you're about to die and you just wake up before it actually happens. Being asleep for a few hours never equals the amount of hours the actual dream is, time is that fake and that much of an illusion This whole time I've known you for years could of been dreamt up and lived through in one night's sleep, that's what scares me the most. I can't tell you how profound the last sentence i wrote is, it's all really just the blink of an eye, i'm also you, and you're also me