EntheogenTruthSeeker

@Kalki Avatar I absolutely love everything you have written on this thread. Your wisdom is beyond I resonate deeply with your style of explanation.

Listen man, I’ve been 100% in your boat literally a month ago. I said FUCK THIS I’ve had enough, and literally did the basics of personal development, no spiritual or psychological development really. Take one thing that is in shambles in your life, forget the theory, the self help practices, and literally just devote 3 months to that one area. Find one habit you could make daily/every other day to make you consistently fix that issue. The most pressing issue in your life must be focused with a laser for at least 3 weeks, then you’ll gain traction and be happier. Self help has helped you more than you know, because you can’t see the preventive damage it’s done! Meanwhile you were meditating, a bunch of your high school/college friends were doing cocaine, pills, Xanax, etc. I’m sure you focusing on growing yourself has taken you away from disastrous situations. Also, take into fact life gets harder as you get older. So because you were happy before PD means not much. The bar was lower. You got into PD for an authentic reason, so stick with it for 10-20 year timeline, to get real results. 4 years is nothing, bro. In THIS society, we are so toxic, deluded, unhealthy physically/mentally, so much pressure, it’ll take most likely 10 years for you to really get the results you’re looking for. Then, you can pursue spirituality in a proper way. Follow your intuition. Do shit that is SO easy for you, you feel like you’re actually being lazy or cheating. Do that daily and you will gain crazy momentum. Be easy on yourself. Life is hard! Keep going man!

@BipolarGrowth@OneHandClap lmao I know right guys. As soon as ^ happened, I knew I was in some sketchy ass territory! Lol

Had a thought. That developed women, very attractive, healthy, etc. are not looking to settle for any man. They want a man who can be the full divine masculine? Are what girls looking for in relationships really just a divine nondual spiritual connection/emotionally stimulated at the end of the day? Like deep down? I know most attractive girls don’t give a fuck about nonduality, but it’s what they secretly want? I suppose there is a short term PUA/Masculine/attractive principles that get the girl, but the deepest success in relationships long term will come from the divine masculine spirituality? What are women really looking for?

@BipolarGrowth thanks brother. Love you. Thanks for the support❤️

well, after a serious two years of torture with my PTSD/OCD/Mania/rage/suicidal, I finally feel like I’m on the awakening path, for real this time. long story short my brother and I consumed the magic plant medicine, and within 15 minutes I figured out why the entire two months of my life have been hell. It’s so magical, truly. Seeing how precious and mysterious life is. Magical!! The stars, the infinite universe that has no beginning or end, and I’m the entirety of it! Everyone and everything I know is IT! Basically, I asked out the first girl I’ve asked out in like 1 year, I feel confident, have two jobs now, and am living on my own more now. I can not thank you Leo for your art. I would be dead or in jail without it. I was such a fuck up addict before all this Actualized 6 years ago. Took like 195mg adderall in one day before. Like, I needed this shit more than ever. If you guys follow this stuff with consistency and discipline and curiosity, you WILL achieve healing of some kind. And it will be the most precious thing, seeing your illusory self become god in the flesh. I mean who have thought? But I’m so grounded and clear of my mental illness right now, it’s awesome! love y’all!

@Nos7algiK this was one of the most well-articulated posts I’ve ever read here! So much wisdom and nuance, it’s insane. “But, eventually the essence of yourself will line up with someone else who has done their work as well. Then a beautiful relationship will bloom out of that.“ ^ love that. What’s your relationship life been like? If you don’t mind me asking

@Vincent S you guys are too nice here. Love you too<3

@Breakingthewall listening to Terrance McKenna and Alan watts right now. I am a divine soul. Hell yeah!

Please if anyone could shed some light on this. I’m really suffering. So, went from standard American diet, gradually to Raw Vegan and was feeling good with balance of vegetables/fruit/legumes/healthy fat. However, as time has gone on consistently raw, I’m getting so angry, agitated, ungrounded, irritable, etc. I understand detox can be some of this, but this is too uncomfortable to even function. It feels like there are thousands of needles all over my back. Adrenals are going crazy. Wtf!! I ate some meat/healthy standard meal and feel better. But still intense! I feel like edibles are only thing to calm me down right now. Any clues?:)

@Flowerfaeiry thank you, I’ve decided to stop right now. Felt a lot better at first, but I always end up manic and ungrounded eventually. It’s frustrating when all these health gurus claim hope for mental issues, physical healing, etc. and it always just ends up backfiring for me. Life is so fucking hard.

Low conscious as fuck. Super unhealthy for adrenal glands and contributes to short term gratification wiring in the brain. Makes sleep horrible, even if not noticeable. I hate coffee now. Just microdose mushrooms! And/or add a bunch of grapes/fruit/detox, you’ll feel better without it. The more conscious you become, the less you’ll want to be forced with motivation/energy. Being speedy is antithetical to consciousness work, for the most part. <3

After reading “Cleanse to Heal” and following the heavy metal detox cleanse in the book by Medical Medium, I am 100% fatigued and exhausted after just drinking lemon juice in the AM and can’t even get to juice or make the other part of the protocol. Everything make so much sense. My mom is extremely unhealthy, toxic, ocd, etc. her heavy metals in the womb definitely got passed down and explains my OCD, fatigue, ADD from a very young age. I realized that these metals basically control everything I do in my day because, I have no freedom when I’m at the Will of low energy levels and toxic brain disorders from these metals. Then when I detox, my life derails it’s self even more because it’s sooo intense Now the toxins accumulated are too much to handle I can’t stop thinking of ways to escape reality. No health professional is going to do the work for me. I don’t feel comfortable doing the Cutler way of chelating as I’m in a place where I won’t be a perfectionist with it, and I’m not going to risk suicide because of the toxins/Chelation damaging my brain and organs further. Who’s had success with heavy metal cleanses and how they did it exactly?

@Average Investor thanks man! You’re the best?

@Average Investor where do recommend to learn about gut health and liver? Any resources you like?

Have you found psychedelics are more portent after detox?

@Michael569 fire post bro. Downloaded all 3 your books??

I’ve been crying so much these past three weeks, and every time I do, I suffer more, but I feel psychedelic levels of love and insights simultaneously. It literally feels like I’m on the peak of a trip: Massive release of suffering, Feeling an explosion of love, intellectually understanding the entire big picture/point of life & where I am in the present moment/how I got there & where my life is headed. I am almost predicting the future in some cases because my level of understanding is becoming so aligned with love and truth, it makes me visionary. After 6 years of Actualized, I’m really starting to love suffering and appreciating the lows, plateau, and highs as one unique and amazing harmonious system. I’m feeling at a rate that has been never before, akin to childhood level of rawness and sensitivity. I love it. Lol @ me thinking this path was about being “happy” and joyful all the time once I reached level enlightenment. I mean I know that is the case, but i see myself being unconditionally happy by suffering so much and having such an impeccable understanding of love/mechanics of reality, that I always surrender to the infinite love and design of this beautiful chance to be alive. like if I didn’t suffer tooth and nail my entire life, would I have ever had the courage and the determination to learn the mysteries of the universe that people think are impossible to answer? If I didn’t suffer and want to die most of my adolescence till now, would I even appreciate a spiritual awakening or would I just be like “bro it’s not that deep”, or use it as some form of spiritual ego to now be better than everyone else and form a guru complex to exploit people? I’m glad I suffered so much because it has made me more humble and pure. I can’t tell a lie for more than a week tops, and if it lasts that long, I break down crying. I crave 100% honesty. This makes me able to really embody any awakening I’ve had recently and allow me to show more love to those around me and for myself. So, send your favorite videos on Suffering. I love all of you on this forum, deeply. Everyone who has responded to my shit, especially the last year and last month, I would not be here without the nuanced advice of so many compassionate people. This community gives me hope and keeps me going, during my hardest times. And I desire to give others that same feeling of warmth.

@Vincent S hey, honestly it just blows my mind how nice people are here. Like “thank you for sharing” touched my heart so much man. It feels so good to be in a community like this that deeply uplifts people. I’m super glad you relate and had your awakening into suffering as well. It’s a tough one because it’s a very physical awakening that is 100% felt and leaves you changed on a cellular level each time. The greatest type of awakening IMO. As I have had a lot of pain and trauma. like I know how you mean how it feels so good to UNDERSTAND the meaning and mechanics/divinity behind the suffering, or else it’s just actual torture without knowing why you’re going through it or that relief is possible. Thanks so much for the video!:) That video is going to be put off for another day for me, because it is just a heavy subject as I have been strapped down to beds for days on end and been in facilities/around people like that (although not as severe). it breaks my heart seeing the beginning because some of that suffering seems unnecessary, cause how humans are so unhealthy and are environment is so toxic that these people may have been born with metals passed on from their mom, drug addicts, unhealthy moms, etc. it’s honestly cruel how people can have kids so willy nilly without detoxing first. Just IMO. I’m still healing and integrating from an experience last night, so I’ll update you when I watch it<3 I was at the $uicide Boys concert last night and the singer talked about wanting to kill himself, depression, being three year sober, etc. and once they played their last song after that, I exploded crying in front of all my brothers friends and people around us. It was one of the most memorable, mystical, loving, unifying, healing, enjoyable, and transformative experiences of my life. The music playing, everyone in one place enjoying something they love with no hate in their hearts.. concerts are just so beautiful. It’s like a glimpse into an Actualized society for a couple hours. it’s more than just entertainment to me. It’s deeply spiritual. Then, Leo’s motivational speech started with “I’m talking to you as a drug addict” and I’m just in awe how the universe is looking out for me.

@Leo Gura @Nahm @Flowerfaeiry thanks for the support and advice y’all. yeah I’ve realized there was no point to me approaching girls because I wouldn’t even be able to bring them back to, what, my parents? Lmfao Inner value = outer value/success. <3

After a moment of clarity on modafinil, I realized that all this self help and spiritual shit (at this point) after 6 years, is becoming/has been an escape from competition/survival/rejection. It’s also mental masturbation and distraction from doing the real shit that makes people attracted to me at face value/first interaction/get noticed. I’m just going to reinvent my appearance, style, health for the next two years and take a pause on more “deep” PD. I am in this limbo stage of being too orange for green communities, but too green for orange communities. This all stems from a horrible foundation of orange. (Glad I fully passed my foundation of stage red/blue this year as y’all have seen w Jesus BS?) my spiritual shit don’t matter, when I look like a fucking bum. imagine I just played the social game and dressed like a Fuck boy with insane style but have the values of self help and spirituality. that’s what I did my first year of self help, and I’ve never had more attention from girls in my entire life. Ever since I got too serious about spirituality I just po pooed “playing ego games” “fitting in”, but honestly some of these spiritual ideas have severely hurt my development-ego, hasn’t served me at all. 1. buy 3 new outfits 2. get some jewelry, simple thin chain necklace, maybe light earrings 3. consistent haircuts 4. Master am impeccable hygiene/self-care routine. Much love! no matter how woke I get, I’ll never be “above” society or the rules, expectations, how success practically works, etc.

@Gregory1 @Ima Freeman yo you guys came in so fucking clutch with this information! I couldn’t find shit on the web. thank you so much, you guys gave me hope!:))

Yes, after many manic episodes I have not cared about people’s opinions, much more softer on myself, and am able to surrender to mystical experiences with no effort if I can focus. There’s no resistance. Im much more loving than I used to be, less judgmental. gave me insane visions and I see many interconnections and predict shit in society some people can’t see. All of this is possible without life-destroying mania. Like, I’m 23 male with no money in my back account, living at home, no momentum, etc. Getting my diet fruit and vegetable based has been #1 for sleep/no mania. What is your behavior like during mania? Has it severely disrupted your life?

Man, those things are the rarest, one of a kind, beautiful, inspiring, motivating, and calming pieces of art I’ve ever witnessed in my life. Leo, you ever going to record your awakenings again or is it too much for YT audience/trolls? Put them on the blog?:D

@Leo Gura Yeah, you’re getting pretty popular right now to the point where the trolls will take this too far and try to cancel your or some shit. Sad this is the world we live in:/ bunch of apes