EntheogenTruthSeeker

@Serotoninluv thank you for the lovely compliments. I guess I may have a gift. We’ll have to see after more psychedelics and sobriety. I’m not sure wether I want to be a shaman. Plus, with my manic, insomnia and religious/spiritual preoccupation hospitalizations, I don’t think I can even be one. Suggestions?

Nice work brother. The spiritual path will guide your way. You’re here. A good place.

@Leo Gura wow that was an amazing analogy. I’ll check out your question video you just released. Thanks a lot for the timely response. You reply more often and accurately than my real life guru haha

@Leo Gura it seems like in hindsight I was just saying words that I knew about non duality, but it was really just channeling. I couldn’t tell you why I am god or why I universal consciousness, it just was and was the truth. I always think I fake these type of experiences and just parrot Leo shit while I’m high or sober and think that it’s enlightenment. Despite the doubt, I know it was my best alone experience of my life for sure. How do I tell the difference if it’s a real non dual experience?

@Leo Gura lithium my mania medication, and thc pen after watching a 20 min Jim Carrey movie talking about not being the self and being the universal consciousness and I. Dude that shit scared my dad so bad. He thinks I’m mentally ill and I question it sometimes after this stuff. I really got fucked up from this enlightenment obsession, but I’m finally letting go of it and just embracing that I’ll get there for sure sometime..I can’t meditate for two months in my room again- I just have to let these experiences embody my actions now. What do you think about psychedelics and mania and psychosis? I really want to do them because your videos inspire me so much but I am on this medication for my religious insomnia awakenings and eventual delusions.

@Leo Gura does that mean I nailed a positive enlightenment channeling or I am delusional?

@seeking_brilliance would you take it down if you were I? It worries me about work, friends, etc. Most people around me hate when I talk about enlightenment and it does little for me to talk about it, yet it seems important to share. A battle within. Not sure how Leo always posts these things - a lot easier to post it’s your full time living and doesn’t impact you negative really. Ugh. Advice?

@Serotoninluv I did write all of it. I was just channeling it as it was happening, thanks!! The first line was Jim Carrey’s quote which sent me into that state.

@Nash Good info. It's like a third eye perspective on the world and yourself. Weed is a huge ego killing drug for me

Real quick, having intense mystical experiences everyday with weed that feels like I am tripping on shrooms. Never though this path could be so good. Anyone ever done lithium and magic mushroom interaction?

@Visionary Thank you a lot, Visionary. Means a lot

@Visionary thank you - I will try to stay sober, it's just really hard after coming out of the hospital and adjusting. Spiritual enlightenment is hard as fuck when your brain chemistry does not agree with you

@Recursoinominado haha thank you - it has been interesting lately. I am advancing at depths with it awakening my kundalni i think. I vommited after my first deep trip all the way through the entirety of my being lol and ever since then i feel bliss all the time

@Leo Gura Thank you, Leo. I realized I killed any concept of God or myself, realized I am just talking to myself and it's imaginary, i am a walking miracle, life is a dream, etc. Legit awakenings?

@Girzo lol i took lsd and shrooms before and shrooms was much better. Yeah, lsd made me a bit manic. It has way too much energy. I'm gonna stay away from psyches for a while thanks a lot man

@Girzo I'm bipolar sometimes with intense mania after spiritual like experiences. It's complicated - the lithium helps a ton with my calmness

Hey, so my awakenings are turning out to be in hospitals every time and there are days when I dont sleep for two or three days to insights and I am clueless. Medication makes me a robot zombie. Psychedelics have treated me very well, but I'm scared I won't sleep HELP please

@erik8lrl thank you so much, man. This journey is a mind fuck

Everytime I smoke marjuana or do psychedelics i have states where I am the universe, ego is resisting the truth, I am in heaven, etc. But it seems so insnane and when im drugged off medication from doc and I come back from the high, it seems like insanity. No clue what to do.

So, I woke up with INTENSE energy in my brain and restlessness - racing thoughts Ran, took a nap and almost fainted in my dream and then woke up in complete access concentration. Yet when I took a walk and everything was HD I was contemplating what is God or what is Truth and I get nowhere. Also, I get kind of attached to the bliss of no thinking and dont want to do thinking contemplation. Is there a way to reach absolute by just no thought and not doing self-inquiry? It takes away the peace and feels like I am just thinking more Now that I crashed from the peace, great suffering came and I just don't know how to discover that PERMAMENT joy in between the two states of joy and depression. Help, please

@cetus56 thank you. I like that a lot. Thanks for the love:)

#1 lesson from tonight. Inner guru is real and guidance is a universe and spiritual entity I am apart of that is within me. I AM THE UNIVERSE WITHIN ME - and it is ALWAYS guiding me. So, my worst addictions and fears are the reciprocals of the greatest joys and truth God wants me to discover No matter what I can excuse my progress on my brain or body, MY SOUL knows DEEPLY what I am doing and remembers and grows, regardless. •Girls and Socialization is #1 priority (force myself - out of my comfort zone) •Psychedelic Therapist Research - then Teacher - realization in high vibration state walking home and at Bars •Go out once a week and hang with friends my age/go to a coffee shop & go to bars Friday and Saturday until at LEAST 12:30am Solo

When they happen, they happen spontaneously - there is NO struggle. I guess my desire for Truth is very large so when they hit me I have no resistance. I welcome it. Like on LSD, I was propelled into not conceiving of opposites, no resistance, and no suffering effortlessly. Why?

Hey, been blessed to have been following leo for about three years. Best thing ever happened to me. So, I immediately became fascinated with Enlightenment after his Mushroom breakthrough. After that, I began meditating for hours at a day, eventually doing my own isolation retreat, and doing 247 mindfulness. I awoke my kundalini and could sit for 4+ hours in bliss, lol, so I am quite prepared. Now, my current practice is only 30 minutes of witnessing and focus practice. - So, I took two tabs on a 12-16 hour fast and within 30 min, it hit me like a brick that I was already enlightened and that I was just coming home. I could not stop laughing. Best walk of my entire life. Was laughing so hard at how amazing of a tool this is and how people have no clue. Anyways, contemplation power is X4-5 and totally in the moment. Felt like I saw the world for what is actually was the first time, ever, almost like a kid. Saw that these workers outside aren't working on a task, they ARE apart of the big picture, and they are either contributing to degration/resistance of evolution or helping it, basically. I saw through the entire rat race of society. In that instance I was floored on how I could go back to my two wage slave jobs the next day, but nonetheless, NOW it is inevitable I quit those jobs for my ultimate life purpose (still transitioning). Then, I am talking to my roommate, and he is of a different race and I immediately saw how racism was a complete joke - not even possible on this dose/for me at least. Saw that every leader must take this, if not, disaster may ensue - because without big picture, self-bias will kick in. Ecstatically realized that I want to make psychedelics my life purpose - doctor, therapist, advocate, etc. Then, it got to a point where I was completely out of concept land - a non dual experience where it just felt like I couldn't conceive of opposites. Also, everything seemed inevitable. Like psychedelics awakening man-kind/legalization, me completing my life purpose, and some other things. Resistance is what seems like things aren't God's inevitable plan. Soon, I started filming a passionate video about myself and basically doing a trip report on video. I was explaining on how obvious my life purpose was and was perplexed on how someone could avoid the experience of ego-dissolution on this substance - how they could resist it or not experience it on two tabs just blew my mind. And, I realized that all/70% addiction was seeking this awakening experience. Everything else was a cycle of suffering with weed, alcohol, and other drugs, aside from medicinal uses. Best experience of my life. Was very sad in this state to see that people are too scared to look into the own depths of their mind and are scared of these substances - if you're scared, you're putting off the inevitable things you'll have to work through in your life at some point anyway, it just seemed insane how people are missing out on this incredible joy for hits of coffee and weed. The major realization on this video was a mystical vision where Humanity would awaken through these substances - in this technology age, no one is going to go to the east and go to monasteries. If they do, it will most likely be catalyzed by psychedelics. The greatest human invention, truly. Because if you can change your mind, you can change anything in the material world you want, really. There was no ifs, ands, buts, or maybes that this will happen. Like Leo said, a time in future will people will awaken stupidly as if robots with a psychedelic path in a matter of years. Most importantly, I could NOT conceive of suffering. In this state, all suffering was was resistance. Resistance to what is, psychedelics, evolution, your sober state, etc. It was awesome - but still really hard to see how I resist in daily life, but nonetheless helped 7% more. I had a big urge to share the video I filmed because I feel like most people I know have NO clue that these substances can be used seriously for enlightenment and I wanted to document a live enlightenment experience, felt so authentic, however, losing my job was just not an option - and it would not have panned out well in general. 3 hours later, I crash HARD from that enlightenment experience/all that shakti, and am kinda depressed and feel icky from the acid. Definitely not an enjoyable drug after peak. It lasts too long, anxiety, and just feel uncomfortable and restless in my body/hard to write a bit. So, I may try AL-LAD, or 4-aco-dmt (but have heard bad things with 4-aco-dmt). So, even though this experience faded away, I knew I would never ever be the same. I kept on texting my best-friend several days after waking up, I will never be the same. I can't un-see what I saw. I must actualize my dreams and become enlightened. I also realized that I had been having mini awakenings and kundalini experiences that were similar to what I experienced in this trip the whole time, I just doubted them so much. Weed gave me a lot of pseudo mystical experiences - but was really hard to remember them (distraction substance compared to this stuff). Next couple days my brain felt totally rewired, more intelligent, way more energized, and conscious. Until couple days after, I began to sleep mid day and feel exhausted because of all of the rewiring and Central Nervous System taking in that extraordinarily high level of consciousness it was not used to - was definitely a good shock to my system. Best experience of my entire life in like three hours, LOL. -- Action: -become apart of psychedelic groups -A Career where I can do prison studies with psychedelics, 5-meo -A Career where I can take psychedelics myself -Tread the psychedelic path for enlightenment and therapy - I am so inspired by this path, yet at times it feels icky (maybe because of stigma/guilt) -study leo psychedelic booklist -study spiral dynamic book and forum -psychedelics, politics, enlightenment/philosophy -Life vision statement/vision-board -Get good at sitting with apathy, boredom, not feeling passionate, not feeling spiritual or feeling connected to God (obviously a green state chasing ideal) -Embody Orange because even though I had this intense mystical experience, I can't share it without losing my job and it's really sad lol. -Close friends MUST desire the Truth in some aspect Questions: I want a psychedelic that can take people quickly to God and I believe 5meo could help prisoners, and deeply unconscious people. Because I saw that even LSD wont do that, because no one I have talked to had even relatively the same experience I had, because no one cares about the Truth - I want something that can show it to people despite their intellectual ignorance? Is that kundalini awakening I felt after the trip for next week possible to feel all the time? Like that joy and excitement and STUPID easy ability to negate negative thoughts and do positive thinking/meditation? How do I make a career of out of Psychedelics without getting fired from my jobs as I start the business up and post stuff? And even with a medical degree, if I was truthful about the main objective of my degree, I would be dismissed immediately. Really tricky.

https://digitalcommons.buffalostate.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1034&context=exposition Seeing all the stories and irresponsible usage, even though some of the stories are fictional, it really puts into perspective why these substances got banned. You introduce mass production of ego-shattering mechanisms to a materialistic society, it would completely be lost and derail itself, at least at first. Great research. Very unbiased, yet eye-opening what actually happened.