King Merk

There you are doing it again. Looking for the answer “out there”. You’ve got to fix yourself. No one else will do it for you. The answers are within you You got this?

I love many things about Leo…. Too many things. He’s literally become my Buddha and for that he must die (metaphorically of course).

Have you considered trying to deepen your relationship with yourself? It seems to me like you’re trying to find that love & comfort “out there” with someone else… Which there’s nothing wrong with that per sey but if you don’t have a deep and intimate relationship with yourself then how can you have a healthy relationship with another.

Hair transplant surgery seems to be a viable option if you’re willing to spend some money. I started losing my hair at about 20 so I feel you.

In Leo’s newest video on heavy metal detoxes he recommends using a high quality water filter. I know reverse osmosis filter aren’t cheap but definitely worth it. What’s the best bang for your buck water filters y’all have come across?

Sorry to hear that man. There’s risk involved with anything you do in life. Damned if you do and damned if you don’t

@Voodoo Child any update on the situation? I’m in a similar relationship with a woman that is great at times but has become toxic. I suspect she has BPD as well (she has also told me she suspects the same)

I used to be a hardcore stoner. Smoked weed all day every day. I’d go to class stoned. I’d go to the gym stoned. I go to family get together a stoned. All day, every day high. I develop an entire ideology around being a stoner and my entire social circle was stoner friends. I tried to quit many times but failed constantly. I did this for years. It wasn’t until I moved to a new part of the country and left my social group that I was able to quit smoke. Ironically, I didn’t even really have to “try” to quit smoking weed. As I developed new habits in a new area my urge to smoke naturally went away. Weed is legal where I live too so it’s pretty accessible. I smoke 1 time per month at most but I went 8 months without smoking not long ago. Quitting smoking has improved my life GREATLY. I eat better foods (less binge eating). I am more ambitious. I breathe better. I also have less social anxiety. One drawback is I’m angry more often without smoking. The weed put my into a dull/hypnotic state where my agression was diminished. I used to do a lot of various drugs for recreation but now I just do psychedelics. I don’t even really do caffeine now days. Psychedelics are by far the best tools for consciousness gainz. Fuck all the other drugs.

I let go of my physique when I started valuing how I locomote through space aka when I started really studying movement vs just starting exercise/muscle hypertrophy

Caffeine makes me feel so “on edge”. Even smaller we amounted like 100mg. The only way I’ve drank caffeine and it felt good in my body is through tea.

I like Yang’s whole “we need to get out of this bionopoly/bipartisan political system” approach. Seems like that would be helpful for the democracy. As an American, it’s disturbing to see how divided we are. If this continues then our downfall is imminent.

I feel like thinking about stage coral when you’re anything but turquoise is mental masturbation. Your assumptions won’t get you anywhere. Go do some spiritual work.

Great musical artist but he was far from awake

Yea this video was eye opening. In my observations Democrats tend to be more conscious but obviously that’s just a general trend and shouldn’t be taken as an absolute truth. Rip to other Washingtonians. Never expected tax inequality to be higher here than any other state in America

I took two tabs of LSD yesterday around noon. My intentions for the trip went as follows… 1. How can I be more loving? 2. Where am I biased? 3. How can I approach my relationship with my gf in as loving a way as possible. I began the trip in the bath while meditating. I was in there for roughly an hour, contemplating these questions. When the trip started to get heavy I then moved to the bed. I laid in bed for probably an hour going deep into my life. I felt as if I was auditing my life. I was running through my history with a fine tooth comb, looking for self bias. I found many. While I was in bed, I was playing with my physical positioning too. I was doing some GOATA groundwork and it felt fantastic. I felt very in tune with my body and the spinal engine. At around 2pm I wondered into the living room. I had a yoga mat in their felt called to it. I was pulled into a meditative pose where my shins were on the ground and I was folded over the top of my body, laying forehead into the ground with my arms extended backwards. I could hear a buzzing. A universal "hum" of sorts. I honed in on this hum and completely lost myself. I can't explain in words what happened next. I went into this infinite loop. I had 4 words playing in my head over and over and over again… "All difference is imaginary" These four words LITERALLY deconstructed my entire reality. I lied there, crying on the ground. Crying the name of my girlfriend. Crying the name of my dog. Crying the name of all those I cared about. I cried out loud "WHO THE FUCK IS LEO!!!" And then it hit me… I chuckled. I am Leo God Dammit. I had this intense physical discomfort disappear in a flash and I merged again with the all. Lost in the eternal hum of the universe. I would come to back to "reality" and then dissolve again into infinity. It was a strange back and forth. A loop like sensation that I can only describe as beautifully horrifying. I didn’t know what to do. There was nothing to do. Nothing to be. Nowhere to go. I had the urge to grab my phone and tell my friends about what I was experiencing but then I stopped. What's the point? I'd be telling myself I thought. What's the point of any of this? I'll never be able to go back to "normal" life. Not after experiencing this. I saw the image of the ouroboros, a snake eating it's own tail and I read the words. IT NEVER ENDS. And that was it. It never ended. But it did. After oscillating back and forth between the infinite and the finite for what seemed like an eternity, I was back into my normal life. I was back on solid ground. I looked at my dog and said to him, "you're my favorite imaginary". I sat there for hours, playing back those four words from earlier that ripped my world apart. "All difference is imaginary" I could still grasp what they were saying and repeated to myself out loud, What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck. WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPNED. The rest of my trip was spend sitting in meditation. Reflecting and spiraling. I looked out into the trees from my window and could see all of the universe. I saw how they spun in this beautiful dance playing out in my mind. I saw them spiral up infinitely and spiral down infinitely. I'd see fractal zooming videos before but this was my first time experiencing it first hand with my own eyes. Like all of reality was stored inside every other piece of reality. How in the fuck does Leo explain this stuff so articulately? It's maddening. It's so foreign. It's the most foreign thing I've ever experienced but it's right in front of my eyes at all time. I'm still chewing on this experience. Still breaking down what in the hell happened there. I can't see it any more though. The spirals, the fractal zooming, the infinite nature of everything. I read these words "all difference is imaginary" but it feels like I'm looking at an empty shell. What exactly were these words pointing to? The Truth slipped through my hands like an eel. This isn't my first time having an "awakening" experience like this but it's certainly the most clear. It's like every time I come into these deep psychedelic journies I get "better" at dissolving into nothingness. Hard to explain lol. But there's certainly more to be explored here. It wasn't all God/Infinite stuff though. I also got plenty of personal/practical downloads from the trip. I really need to work on three key areas of my life… 1. Emotional Mastery 2. Financial Freedom 3. Nonviolent Communication Anyways, until next time. Thanks for reading and safe travels.

Obviously psychedelics are just a tool. They aren't the "end all, be all" method. There is no one method. However I can say from personal experience that psychedelics have been BY FAR the single greatest catalyst in my life to spiritual growth. It sounds like that's not the case for you and I empathize. We're all unique and must use whatever tools work best for us.... so who are you to tell me what tools I "should" be using of my path Best regards.

We’re looking for some sort of psychologist or other professional trained in treating this. Do you guys have any resources? Maybe an online source? We’ve done mushrooms together a couple time and while helpful, they didn’t “cure” her depression. This shit is tearing me apart and I’m afraid of what happens if we don’t get this addressed soon. How do I accept her as she is instead of trying to fix her? How do I accept depresssion and suicidal thoughts from the woman I love most? Ive tried loving her the best I can. I just don’t know what to do any more.

In Leo’s newest video on 5-MeO-MALT he references vaping it. What type of pipe/device do y’all use to vape and do you use any particular technique? For whatever reason plugging doesn’t work for me so I’m always vaping but I feel like my pipe/technique could be better.

@Leo Gura something like this? Any particular techniques with how you light it? Do you use a lighter, torch, distance of flame etc?

Love it man. Way to be open to it & learning more about yourself. Metal has been incredibly valuable in my life too. It really helped me embody stage red at a deeper level and work through some of my repressed anger. Beautiful music.

If you’re in the US then move to the west coast. Very green area. That’s what I did… Also large cities tend to be pretty green.

Yay for being normal.

I often heard this term “cessation” used in the spiritual community. Especially by @Being Frank Yang & sometimes Leo. What is this word pointing towards?

@EugeneTheSage thanks for sharing man. I can’t comment on the competency of that guy as I don’t understand Russian. However I have built a career around this stuff and two of my biggest mentors are Paul Chek & Naudi Aguilar. They’re definitely both worth checking out. Paul is extremely holistic and Naudi’s (of functional patterns) is one of the greatest movers on earth. With the gut stuff that’s super common & something I’m still dealing with too. I do know on carnivore all my issue go away but it’s quite hard to sustain. I’m not a fan of juice fasting. Doing a complete water fast is more beneficial in my experience but listen to your body & what it tells you. It sounds like you’re off to a great start, especially for a 20 year old. Feel free to reach out to me if you’re ever seeking advice about your health/fitness.

Hey everyone, I’m wishing to simply have a deeper understanding of what people go through in regards to their health/fitness. So, for those who feel like sharing… What sort of health/fitness goals do you have? What do you think you should be doing to obtain these goals? What‘a holding you back from achieving these goals? What has your health journey been life so far? Etc. Share whatever you feel like sharing. I would love to hear about it(: