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@TruthSeeker Thanks man rly appreciate it I guess in situations like these you just have to burn the boats , life is just too short to spend with toxic people , time to man up and do the right thing ! Peace.

Hi guys , im really struggling with the people around me. This includes all of my friends , family , teachers etc . I cant stay around these people anymore , they are all stuck in the past or in the future they have about 0,5% counsciousness everything else is just robotic BS . People i used to spend tons of time with now i cant stand spending an hour without getting drained of eneregy , you have absolutely no idea how annoying this is getting for me . The only way i can relate to others these days is if i go down on their level of counsciousness and have the same mindless conversations and laugh at their dumb jokes and if i dont then they start to give me that "look" like im some F'd up lunatic . Everyone around me is an energy vampire basically even the people closest to me and all they do is just suck the life out of me , and this leads to me getting depressed , feeling alone in the world , feeling like a victim and then i go back to my old habits of smoking cigarettes , weed drinking , basically anything to escape the emptyness left when all of my life energy is drained to bits . This is really getting in the way of my personal development and life in general and now the only option i see is to minimize if not cut out all contact with the people from my past so i dont go back into their sad little monkey world , and at this point i dont mind doing it im not afraid of living my life alone im getting pretty used to it But if anyone has a better idea or any advice in general i would much appreciate it

@Pinocchio Good point , i guess i was actually reffering to the counscious and unconscious , The whole Angel/Demon concept was rly misleading as @Ayla said there is no good or bad , but thinknig makes it so

@twosees Look dude all of it is mental ! It's just your thoughts , you get tons of them during the day , and you cant do anything about it BUT !! , you can choose which thoughts to entertain and which to let go , all your problems came from entertaining the wrong thoughts (so do mine) , whatever you think you become its really quite simple BUT not easy at all. Meditation , Meditation, Meditation.. it helps so much to just observe the BS going on in your head without judging or entertaining it , and that awareness you get out of it spills into your day to day life. Hope i made sense and helped a little dude , good luck on your journey and stay awesome ! cya l8r *Bro hug back at ya*

Damn, i can tottaly relate dude I know its tough , i got into self development/ spirituallity probbably about 1,2 years ago (btw im your age , finishing highschool ) and man , before that i just used to do all the stupid sh*t all of my friends did , i used to scroll facebook like a retard all day long , smoke weed, drink , watch porn all the time (which btw made my already existing anxiety worse) , and i never really questioned this behavior until recently when i started bringing some counsciousness to the table , so yea dude long story short , it does rub off on you and it takes time for your body and mind to get used to your new way of life , and DONT i repeat DONT beat yourself up when you fall of the wagon , becouse trust me you will eventually slip into your old way of doing things BUT THATS OK! Personal development really is an on going process and at first it will be tough to get over your PAST which is one of the biggest reasons for our struggles , but then once you really forget about it and start investing more and more of your time into the present momment , making things better here and now , the possibilites are endless.

Hi everyone , just joined the forum though i would kick it off with an intresting topic So im at a point in my spiritual journey where there is constant conflict between my egoic mind and the counsciousness underneath , and it takes alot of willpower to stay away from that voice inside my head always leading me back to my old ways of being (negative habits , negative thoughts , negative feelings etc.) , im really having trouble letting go of the self image i had for myself or the person i thought i was . Funny thing is that i've developed a certain amount of awareness to recognise the Ego's funny buisness but i cant detach from it completly. I literlly feel like there is an angel and a devil sitting on both my shoulders , one trying to trick me into sin and degradation and the other trying to free me and show me the light of counsciousness its really quite amusing to say the least Would love to hear some opinions or experiences on this topic , Is your ego your friend or your worst enemy ? Feel free to share guys peace