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Conspiracy theories always have nuggets of truth as a hook. They are manipulative stories as they twist words and context. And they use emotions. Whether it's BS theories of 9-11, JFK, election fraud or you being a pedo. Watch how it works. . . 
There is evidence of you being a pedo. There was an administrator and moderator on a reputable forum that said so. And you yourself suggested that there should be an investigation into whether you are a pedo. . . Notice how this "evidence" is manipulated. Now imagine we can use this "evidence" on social media to convince millions of people that you are a pedo. All sorts of people come out of the woodwork adding allegations and "evidence". Of course it is all BS and would never stand up in a court of law because it is all heresay. Yet this will not count as "proof" for those "open-minded" to the theory that you are a pedo. There will be no convincing them. They will say the judges were corrupt and it wasn't a fair trial against you. They may say that you paid off the prosecuting attorneys. That is how conspiracy theories become more intricate.
Notice the assumption here. There is an assumption there are "many people that know a lot about elections". Who are these people? Sidney "The Kraken" Powell? The woman who believes the ghost of Hugo Chavez and Venezuelan communists stole the election? How about Trump's "lawyers" that didn't even know "MI" stands for Michigan (Not Minnesota). They actually filed a case claiming of election fraud in Michigan by using "evidence" from Minnesota, because they thought "MI" stood for Minnesota. Or how about senile Rudy Giuliani? The man who wanted to hold a press conference at the ritzy Four Seasons Hotel, yet due to incompetence ended up in a gravel parking lot of Four Seasons Landscaping next to a porn shop in a run-down part of town. And his star witness was a convicted sex predator and a woman under a restraining order that showed up drunk. These are the people that "know a lot more"?
Let's consider people that actually know a lot more elections.
Trump's cyber-security team. This was run by a Trump appointee that is a republican. Trump's own republican election security team concluded there was no widespread fraud.
The law firms representing Trump. Trump's own law firms decided that these were frivolous cases and abandoned Trump. Trump's own lawyers wouldn't even defend him! That is why he ended up with half-baked "lawyers" like Sydney Powell. 
Trump's justice department concluded there is no credible evidence of widespread fraud.
Trump appointed judges and conservative judges concluded there was no evidence of widespread fraud. They warned Trump's lawyers that if they continue to bring frivolous lawsuits they would be held in contempt of court. This is why legitimate law firms abandoned Trump and why Trump had to hire half-baked lawyers. And it is why Trump's team started making their accusations on social media and press conferences. They knew the allegations were not credible and they didn't want to be held in contempt of court. There are no legal consequences for spreading conspiracy theories through social media, yet there are legal consequences to repeatedly bring frivolous lawsuits to court. 
Republican election officials. All state election officials concluded that there was not widespread fraud, including Republican officials that voted for Trump. 
Multiple Recounts verified original counts.
Investigations into previous elections have determined that voting fraud is rare in the U.S. and nowhere near enough to overturn an election. 
Taken collectively, one now needs to enter into conspiracy theory territory to maintain "open-mindedness" that there was widespread fraud. One needs to create a story that there is a massive conspiracy, including Trump's own officials and republicans, that they are hiding widespread fraud. Why would Trump's own appointees and republican officials / judges hide election fraud against Trump from public view? One needs to create a conspiracy story. . . 
Being "open-minded" does not mean the object is binary. There are probabilities. There is a much greater probability that I drank coffee this morning than the chance that: the moon landing was fake, 9-11 was an inside job, the coronavirus is a hoax, there was widespread election fraud or that you are a pedophile. 
And the bar to clear is not fraud. There is a low level of fraud in every election. The bar to clear is that there was widespread fraud.
Should I be open-minded that the coronavirus is a hoax by the government? I'm open-minded that there is an extremely small chance of that being true. Perhaps one in a trillion chance. Yet I'm not going to entertain every theory that has an infinitesimal chance of being true. That would consume one's entire life and it's a waste of time. 

@dflores321
Not looking for a reply per se, but thought the probing nature of these questions might be helpful. Godspeed. (Aka very, very, very slow)
On an inspirational scale of 0-10, how would you rate the story you tell about yourself?
On a transparency scale of 0-10, how true is it? 
In terms of a percentage, how much of the story of “you” is actually a present interpreting of a past, future and or other people, which is used to create undesirable emotions in your experience now?
On a willingness to genuinely express scale of 0-10, how overwhelming and frustrating is this, in terms of having created enough suffering? 
On a momentum scale of 0-10, how related is the story you tell about yourself to the present experience of low energy, emotional pain, pessimistic future outlook? 
In terms of: ‘no’, ‘yes’, ‘I don’t know’, and ‘I really couldn’t careless about it’ - do you have an inner being?
On a resonance scale of 0-10, how much does your story about yourself resonate with truth?
On an actuality-check scale from ‘none’ to ‘too many to count’’...how many ‘material things, situations, pasts, identities, circumstances, and people’ need to change before you can feel some contentment with right now, as it is? 
On a momentum scale from 0-10, how related is letting thoughts about yourself which don’t resonate go (aka presence), with an optimistic future outlook?
On a ‘purification is understood’ scale of ‘still oblivious to it’ to ‘totally recognizing right now I bamboozled myself today’, how much lovingkindness, lightheartedness and joy is in your soul slowly but surely becoming real in your life? 
On a scale from ‘like to throw something at you’ to ‘this is making more sense by the day & it takes patience & self love’, how would you rate this line of questions? 

That is the 4th Psychedelic Trip of my life.
 
1st Trip - 1g Shrooms
2nd Trip - 2g Shrooms
3rd trip - 3g Shrooms
 
4th Trip - 5g Shrooms 
 
I took 5-gram Magic Mushrooms with Lemon Tek with Ginger Tea & Dark Chocolate at 11:30 pm by 09/01/2021 Saturday Alone in Silent Darkness.
 
And started Meditation. I was confident. There was No Fear. Fully conscious and aware and ready to confront my ego’s death.
 
I settled my intention to know my Ultimate Self Deeply & Completely. I was trying to be. I was declining all those things which were not me. Like sensations, sounds, breath, thoughts, etc.
 
My consciousness started to expand in 15 to 20 minutes. And as soon as shrooms hit me (According to me my wife, Electricity in my whole country went off at 11:50 pm.)
 
 I think visuals and entities started to manifest but I do not remember those because my main intention was not visuals but to know my real self.
 
During the Trip, I was offered 2 options and I had to choose 1 of them:
 
Infinite Visuals, Worlds, Universes, Colors, Entertainment, Fares, Entities, Tunnels, Infinite Possibilities. Infinite Joy.
 
Go Deeper to know my real self.
 
I chose the 2nd option Because I knew that I have my whole life to enjoy infinite possibilities.
 
But to do the ultimate thing in this life to know yourself which will lead me to Know God And Understanding God Will answer my all existential questions.
 
Now I was diving into the tunnel of my real self deeply like a rocket into the dark space and my ego was throwing a different kind of distractions toward me so I can not reach the source because ego knew that it will lead to Ego Death.
 
Ego was trying to give me wrong answers like You are these sensations, you are that, you are that and I was breaking all asteroids, distractions by denying and saying that I am not that, I am not that, I am the one who is trying to find myself.
 
Then I realized that seeking is the problem. I can not find myself till I am seeking. Who am I seeking? I am already as it is.
 
Then I became Nothingness, I became what I am, I became Love, I became creator, I became Expression of love. Then I started getting answers to all of my existential questions.
 
The answer to each existential question was leading to Pure Bliss and happiness and laughter.
 
I was in an un-describe-able blissful state getting answers to all of my questions. I know that I experienced many many other positive things as well but I do not remember them now clearly and completely.
 
I wanted to express my feelings, I wanted to write a lot of things I wanted to share my every insight.
 
I wanted to talk to someone. Everything was going amazingly.
 
I understood a lot of things and got answers to a lot of questions.
 
I understood that I just am, I am Transparent Love, I am Peace, everything else like (thoughts, sensations, Existence, etc is just expressions of my infinity, Love, Creativity).
 
There is transparent Nothingness which have not any properties than the 1st thing that nothingness becomes conscious of itself and recognize itself as pure bliss, peace, infinity, and love and then enjoy itself through the expression of its infinite creative love.
 
Jawad and its world is just 1 possibility from his infinite possibilities.
 
Nothingness became Consciousness and in that consciousness, nothingness expresses its infinite love which results in infinite creations, and then nothingness becomes a person like me so It can praise that infinite love, talk about it, enjoy it and spread love among others, help others, make others life easy, to listen to others, I am here to love. I am acceptance of someone’s Pray. This is how God Fulfill your prayers & wishes.
 
God made Everything around you to make your life better. Because he loves you. Everything is perfect.
 
Consciousness is evolving all the time. There is no Joy in selfishness, Joy is hidden in living for others.
 
Selfishness leads toward selfish desires which are the cause of all kinds of suffering.
 
Then I don’t know when my consciousness expanded at the level where I was able to manifest any version of my life at will. It was like I was writing my own destiny. It was like I am not just writing my infinite destinies but I was living those lives as well.
 
There were infinite versions of my life. And at that stage, I was living infinite versions of my life at the same time.
 
I experienced centuries, I experienced that I am Hearing prayers of everyone.
 
Then I was at a level where I knew that I have infinite power and I can create or manifest anything. In fact, At that stage, my thoughts were not just thoughts. My every thought was manifesting into reality. Whatever I was thinking was becoming a physical reality.
 
So When I realized that I have infinite Power and I was going through experiencing infinite possibilities at light speed. So I thought Let’s manifest a life where I have the best version of my life, so I stopped into nothingness and manifested the best life of my choice. There was not a process of manifestation. I just decided and there I was in that life. And in that life, Jawad had infinite powers of God and could see with the eyes or perspective of God.
 
And in that life that God’s Infinite power became a problem. The worst problem. I was totally awake to that truth that I am still alone, Nothingness and I am just Imagining everything.
 
I got a bit panicked said no no no I don’t want to be alone I want to be with others like I was before. I tried many times and I was able to manifest any kind of life but I was not forgetting the fact that I am God and everything else is just my Imagination. And that Infinite superpower became my curse and I went into Panic, Shock, I wanted to forget that I am God and wanted to live a human life but that became impossible for me.
 
Let me give you an example of how it felt like with the following example:
 
Right now where ever you are and whatever you are experiencing right now is seems totally vivid and real, physical to you and everything else like nothingness, God, Infinity, etc.. is just your thought, imagination, and concept. Now think about how it would feel like if it’s the opposite of that?
 
At that stage, my Infinity was the most vivid and physical thing and everything else was like my imagination. And I wanted the opposite of that, I wanted to get rid of my infinite powers but that was not possible because, in Reality, It is me and my real self. I can not get rid of my real self.     
 
My Thoughts were becoming reality. My (Ego’s) Fears, Insecurities, desires, craving, and aversion started to come to the surface. Negative thoughts started to appear.
 
That was not the right time for negative thoughts because it was the time when each thought was manifesting into reality. I started to suffer due to my own desires.
 
At that stage I got the answer to the following question:
 
Q: Why God would like to forget himself while living this life?
 
A: If you are a Jawad slave of your own, fears, desires, attachments, and insecurities then you can not Handel the fact that you are alone, you are the only one there is nothing else, there is nowhere to go.
 
You are nothing and everything else is just your thought. If you are a pour Ego who is attached to the world then you can not handle that fact and you can become mad.
 
So when we come to this world we need to free ourselves from our own attachments, fears, and desires and adopt the power of acceptance, gratitude, detachment then we can handle our own true Power of infinite Love.
 
Due to my own Fears, Attachments, Desires, I couldn’t handle my own true infinite Power and started to get panic.
 
So my every thought was manifesting into reality and I started to think negatively in a panic my negative thoughts started to manifest into reality which again pushing me into more panic.
 
Suddenly I started to live the life of a blind man. I saw that due to any side effect of shrooms I have lost my sight now I can not see anymore. My trip is finished, every member of my family is around me, I am crying, sad, Facing a lot of regrets that why I took this substance now I am blind. I experienced the pain of blind people. Then I lived that whole life without vision and with regret and pain. It triggered again a big attack of panic and that whole life again dissolved and I was back into infinity felt like I am trapped in an infinite void. 
 
Then Suddenly I started to live the life of a mad man. I saw that I am gone mad due to psychedelics, Now I am mad + Blind. I don’t know any language, I am in Panic, Crying, regretting, Then My whole family is around me, talking about me, They called the doctor and declared me psychologically ill and took me to Hospital of mad People and gave me electric shocks. Then I spent my whole life like this. Unconsciously I was saying no no no no What I have done. Shit Shit. I was saying I want my normal life back please God Please help me. And It triggered again a big attack of panic and that whole life again dissolved and I was back into infinity felt like I am trapped in an infinite void.
 
Then Suddenly I saw that I am physically dead, my whole family is around me, they are crying, sad, talking about me that Jawad was in these things all the time, We always told him not to get into these things but He never heard us. They arranged my funeral, they dropped me into the grave, etc 
 
Then again I was back in consciousness, It was dark, I was alone, I had nothing, not even my body I was really sad, I was crying, I was saying I should have not done this. What I have done, No, No No, Please Please Please. I wanted to come back to reality.
 
After a lot of struggle to go back to normal life, after a lot of psychological suffering, I tired and with ultimate sadness, I decided to surrender and accept the reality that I am dead.
 
And thought lets, go back to the death, to nothingness, to forgetfulness, to deep sleep.
 
And then I got dead, I went into a deep sleep and there was one more thing that was scarier than all above things there I realized that I can not sleep, I can not die, I can not lose my awareness, my consciousness because I am God. And God can not die, He never sleeps.
 
I realized that I have to accept the fact that now I have to remain alone as transparent consciousness forever.
 
That thought made me mad again and I started to live Madly again in Darkness. And I had the power to manifest the normal life again and I did it many times but even after getting the normal life back I was not losing the vision or perspective of God in which I was able to live the normal life but with my Infinite vision, I was able to see that I am still alone and I am just imagining all of this. And that was not making me calm and happy.
 
In the end, after trying for many centuries I thought let’s Imagine the normal same life again and start to live that imagination and just keep trying to forget and fade out your Infinite Vision and try to make your imagination as vivid as possible.
 
So 1st of all I manifested rays of light, then I manifested a few objects illumined with that light, then I manifested the feeling of changing my direction, my location, then I manifested the face of my wife appeared from that Light like God have come to me help me in face of my wife.
 
She smiled and said are you Ok? Are you fine? Do you want to come outside of the room? I said Yes, I am fine and would like to come outside.
 
I was trying to act normal and at that time My infinite nothingness vision was more vivid than this imaginative world. There I started to find a way to get out of nothingness to the world of imagination. The more I was focusing on the objects of the Imagination world the more the imagination world was coming into life and vivid.
 
I came out of the room there was nothing other than my wife so through my imagination I manifested outside of my room. She brought me into the Lounge and gave me a chair to sit.
 
Now my world of imagination was coming and going and I was really afraid of losing that imagination world again. So I was trying to focus as much as possible on my imagination of this physical world to keep it more vivid and real.
 
I asked my wife to keep talking to me so I can stay here. Then I realized that I have forgotten to manifest my Body so through the power of Imagination I manifested my Body and I was looking at my Body and other things like I have come back here after centuries.
 
Now with the passing of time, I started to feel that now this Imagination world getting more vivid and my real self which is infinite is fading out. My infinite powers started to fade out with time.
 
And then in the last phase of this trip, I was overwhelmed with Love. The answer to Each of the questions of my wife was “Love”.
 
I learned that Infinite Love is so powerful and deep that you can not handle it if you have fears, attachments, desires, insecurities, Negativities in your Ego’s Subcoonciousn mind.
 
That is why we 1st need to purify ourselves before the actual physical death.
 
If you have purified yourself from all kinds of impurities before the physical death then that infinite love will become your infinite heaven forever or if you don’t purify yourself from your deepest impurities before physical death then you will not be able to handle your own infinite power of love and your own impurities will become your forever torment.   
 
Now I am Sober but I know I am sure that I am alone and I can never die and right now I am living an imagination.
 
And now my goal is to work on my impurities, get rid of them and bring gratitude, acceptance, detachment in my life so my Ego Or I can accept my death peacefully and live in the ocean of love eternally.
 
When I totally came back from my trip, the Electricity in my country also came back. The public, Media & Government of my country is still wondering why Electricity was gone.

The groups of a political party heavily influence the party. The way they've both been going about their cause has been very questionable in 2020. All lives matter gets condemned for shielding racism and BLM gets condemned for racism towards whites. Thoughts?

Many problems with capitalism could simply be fixed by passing a few rock solid laws.
No ownership of stock without being employed by the company No corporate lobbying No corporate political contributions No buying of other big corporations by big corporations Salary caps for executives and management No arbitration clauses in contracts No criminal liability protections for executives No off-shore tax havens and corp tax loopholes All employees get representation on corporate board All employees get profit sharing Higher taxes on successful wealthy corporations Strict environmental regulations Severe fines for corporate fraud or mismanagement Simple laws like that, when rigorously enforced, would fix many problems.
These laws are not that difficult to make work. It's just almost impossible to pass them in Congress.

Loving myself to love you.
Free flowing in any area of life.
Embodying intuition, cutting through lies and focus on what I what without any bs.
Embodying sexuality, being free sharing. Shame free. Radiant. Irresistibly polarizing.
Flowing into friendships & relationships no matter the "ships" to sail. Tapping into the connection and being flowing.
"Full" understanding of this child's soul: what do I want; what do I desire? That is most precious. So innocent, so strong.
Being connected to you, seeing your being and being razor-sharp attentive in tapping into that state of being. Flowing.
Want to work in a mindblowingly competent neuroscience team and being challenged to the bones. Set me on fire to reveal the bedrock underneath. Slap me real hard for a wakeup call.
Thinking real good with journaling and what not.
Knowing real good that thinking is here to enable & not to limit. To build the best sandcastle possible.
 

Isn't it curious how a mind can lack curiosity of curiosity? Isn't it mysterious how the mind can suck they mystery out of mysterious?
Notice different mindsets:
1. Does this teacher's teachings deter from spiritual development?
2. How does this teacher's teachings deter from spiritual development?
3. Here is how this teacher's teachings deter from spiritual development.
Of these three framings, which has the highest level of curiosity, unknown and mystery? I would say #1 has the most and #3 has the least. #1 has the least assumptions and the most space for creation, exploration of mystery and discovery. We could ask "What are his teaching's?", "What is spiritual development?", "what is deterrence along a spiritual path?", "is deterrence the same for all seekers on a spiritual path?". There are lots of possibilities we can explore.
Notice in #2 how there is an underlying assumption that cuts off a lot of curiosity, unknown and mystery. It restricts the space. Here there is an assumption that the teacher's teaching do deter from spiritual development. It cuts off the path of curiosity/unknown/mystery IF the teacher's teachings deter. It is known, without mystery, that the teacher does indeed deter spiritual development. It is much more focused. There is nothing inherently wrong with this. If someone is taking a tour of a jungle, it can be helpful for the tour guide to guide people along a path. Yet there is still room for curiosity/unknown/mystery with framing #2. We don't know the mechanisms of how the teacher deters spiritual development. There are all sorts of explorations. What are different mechanisms of deterrence? Which are most effective? And on and on. 
Door #3 has the least amount of room for curiosity/unknown/mystery. Here it is known that the teacher's teachings do deter spiritual development and it is known how the teacher does it. The knower of this will now describe the mechanism. Here, there is no room for curiosity of exploring mystery, since there is only a sliver of mystery. There is only one thin slit of curiosity/mystery available. The receiver would need to be curious of the knower's mechanistic construct. This is the most grounded and focused of the three options. In some contexts this also has value and is practical. 
I find it curious that a mind would choose the least curious/mysterious option (#3) and utilize a known non-mysterious mechanism to describe how another mind is deterring from curiosity and mystery. To me, the OPs essay itself lacks curiosity/unknown/mystery. The OP seems to know exactly what is happening and sees no mystery in what it assumes is happening. There doesn't seem to be any curiosity. 

METACOGNITION IN PRACTICE// AN IDIOSYNCRATIC APPROACH?: This is something that I've been doing since very early childhood, as soon as I could pick up a book and read it. Probably I mentioned somewhere near the beginning of Confessionals that I taught myself how to read when I was 2-3. According to my parents, I did some combination of reading off product labels, plus I just picked up a book and started reading it coherently? haha.
Exposure. There was a practice of exposing myself to large amounts of unfamiliar material, read stuff you barely understand, that you lack the ability to contextualize, and simply let it marinate in mindspace (which is much more than acute awareness, but also this very much makes use of peripheral awareness).  The conscious mind is capable of catching up, so this is a sort of a "lean in" with your intentions approach, or shoot for the stars and let reality follow to the best of its ability. Peripheral awareness is the mind's eye version of watching or being able to watch something in your peripheral vision. I can feel information being absorbed (and also not absorbed) in an alinear fashion, which means that I'm not just acutely focusing one detail, which is what I'm consciously reading, line by line (I don't read that way natively). I'm also absorbing a lot of context information very quickly.
A THEORY OF LEARNING: Ok. For example, I do not subvocalize when I read generally, or I do not make a habit of it. It's not my natural way, but I have picked it up as a habit from being around people (aka. cultural osmosis). Same thing when I write. God. It slows you down SO much, and this is how we learn to read, someone reads to us aloud, or we learn to read to someone else or ourselves aloud. If you can figure out how to bypass this process entirely, IMO you can be MUCH faster and process information much more efficiently. Also, IMO, if you can stop subvocalizing in your native language, you are left with a certain kind of rawness or blankslatedness of consciousness (also cultivated through meditation practices), which allows you to process another language as if you were learning it as a native, like a 3-year-old child learning how to speak, or a 5-year-old learning how to write. So, it's direct conscious awareness to words. This brings learning more in line with both "the wholeness of the present" and full, direct sensory experience. Do you have memories of what exactly this means from very early childhood? There is a fluidness to reality there. This fluidness is essential for getting at the best of what the human mind has to offer. (Also worth noticing: you can subvocalize in a subverted way, which means that you have internalized and naturalized the process SO deeply that you're unconscious of it, which is the case with a lot of our socialization as humans. We are wired for naturalization; this really doesn't work to our advantage when suppression and half-digestion psychoemotional processing becomes the subconscious).
For example, with the archeological encyclopedia, particularly with the scientific aspects, there is SO much that I absolutely know very little about. I can tell that I am mostly absorbing the framework and some of the terminology rather than a lot of niggling details and facts. This is my defacto priority. Having this sort of framework is the best basis for making the best sense of it now and in the future, not absorbing a bunch of facts where the relationship between them is neither very clear or deep on a structural level. So next time I read a related subject, or if I was to reread the same book again, I would be able to put such details into context much better. My natural approach is very much this sort of top-down ordering process.
There is very much a sense of when you read, you have a sort of deliberate, conscious praxis (working philosophy) even if you do not have very explicit or rigid goals, because you have one regardless. The thing with "absolute openness" is that it tends to function more like a filter lens than a praxis, so it is like the means by which information (and all experience) flows freely, but you could just as easily let everything flow through and end up with nothing at the end. Which begs the question, why do it.
So say you want the maximum openness possible (like a massive funnel or a lens), while having a very clear praxis or framework in conjunction with that.

Reacting would be in kind, name calling, assuming, blaming, writing off, projecting, etc. Responding does not equate to reacting. That is one of the nuances I became aware of in what I shared in the last post. When I slowed down and was honest with my self that those behaviors didn’t feel good, it was readily seen and naturally concluded. 
Theories can be not believed also. Especially in cases where they don’t feel good. 
The suffering is in the misunderstanding, misinterpretation, and misidentification. Essentially, thoughts which don’t feel good, but are believed in spite of feeling.
The misunderstanding is due to believing assumptions in lieu of direct experience. You’ve not experienced God, so you believe God is separate from you, and like you, can choose to create dualities - suffering - or anything other than or ‘over’ infinite goodness. God never suffers. God does not know suffering. God is only knowing of infinite goodness, because that is all there is. Your suffering is released either by the recognition & relinquishing of presently held assumptions & beliefs, or the direct experience of God. These are actually the same, but as a course of action either would suffice. 
The misinterpretation persists only in reinstating & affirming it, in spite of how it feels. The trouble with assumptions and beliefs is one believes their belief is true. One then see’s no reason to inspect, because they are already ‘right’, in spite of how being ‘right’ feels. These assumptions are at the most fundamental level, and all experience is tainted as such. It is not easy to see, because it effects the whole of experience. There is never a shortage of how it feels though. Feeling is always decisive & clear. To remain believing the assumption, requires one to avoid feeling. To avoid feeling, is to avoid the goodness, the truth. 
The misidentification is derived only of thought attachment. The belief you are Redline, a person, a human, form, separate, physical, etc, and that there is a God which is separate of you. Meditation is great for detaching from thoughts & getting some ‘space’ for inspection of thoughts. Inspection is great for releasing beliefs & assumptions which don’t feel good, and realizing truth which feels amazing & inspiring. Writing about feelings clarifies misunderstandings, and understanding arises. Then there can be open mindedness. With open mindedness, a fresh approach can be undertaken to contemplate new perspectives, and ‘listen’ to feeling going forward, as not to create more assumptions & beiefs. 
Stuff you might contemplate or consider if & when...
God doesn’t make choices. There is nothing to choose from. God is unconditional.
God forgets God is God, by appearing as Redline. 
God does not experience suffering, or unconsciousness, because God is infinite consciousness.  
Death is an assumption, a belief. 

Fixing your inner game is crucial for success with women. You cannot attract women with your kind of toxic negative mindset.
You must reprogram your mind with positive talk, positive vision, success, and positive beliefs. Removing all negative beliefs and self-doubt. This is huge part of learning game.
You will only ever keep the quality of girl you believe you deserve.
It makes no difference that you are an incel, all that matters is your vision for who you will become in the future.
You should already see yourself as a player, not an incel.
The girl has no clue you were an incel in the past, nor does she care.
Incels and losers never cold approach hot girls. Only players do that. Only winners do that.
You need to spend the next 6 months, every day, drilling into your mind positive visions for yourself as a successful player. And any time a negative thought enters your mind, you notice it, you catch it, you stop it, and you replace it with a positive one of yourself being even more successful than you first imagined. You have to reframe every failure and every rejection as success.

@JayG84
No. ‘Your phone’ is absolutely infinite being. There is no such things as a screen, language, or words. This is literally infinite being, appearing as, thought to be, a “consistent physical reality”. The nature of infinity has nothing to do with numbers, math, or any thinking at all. Thinking is illusory. You can break your phone down to the thought “phone”, thoughtless perception, and the feeling or sensation of it ‘in your hand’. The thought ‘phone’ is a sound, a vibration, mistaken to be a ‘word’ & ‘meaning’ that was learned and is reapplied when the sound (‘word’) ‘phone’ is heard, via the illusion of self & memory. The thought ‘phone’ is pure magic, appearing from nowhere and disappearing into nothingness, just like ‘perception’ is a vibration, a ‘word’, learned & meaning reapplied, which in actuality appears from nowhere and disappears into nothingness as well. There is no such things as words or perception. Even the experience of the sensation of the touching of the phone is that of electricity, ‘electrons’, ‘fields’, vibration, and never actually a ‘skin’ touching a ‘plastic’. There is, in the most literal sense, nothing. And there is not. 

Take five minutes, five times a day just for you, to...
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Relax. Breathe. 
Recognize the fact that you don’t know what anyone else is thinking. This is freedom from some overthinking, which equals more relaxation, clarity, concentration and focus. 
Embrace the truth that there is no ‘right’ or ‘wrong’, just humans with preferences and opinions, none more or less valuable than yours. All parallel. All bs. Recognize any inner monologue of ‘rights & wrongs’, and judgment of yourself and or others, and recognize you want to feel better, and you want everyone else to feel great too. Just ‘in your inner world’, wish yourself well, and anyone & everyone else too. It’s powerful, and foundational to the change you desire. 
Understand that when you believe you do know what people think, it is a signal to you, that you are orienting away from feeling, and the mind is weaving a narrative to justify it. (“It’s because of what someone else is thinking”, “it’s because I might lose the erection”, etc). You can’t fall for the mind’s story. It will weave them forever. You might say, it believes it is protecting you, protecting you from getting hurt. It’s absolutely innocent, so no ‘beating up on yourself’. (That’d just be more narrative).
If you’re thirsty, you go to the fridge. If you want to feel better, you go to feeling. Think in simple terms like that about feeling. Recognize that what you want is to feel better in such situations. ‘Go to’ feeling, rediscover feeling - without narratives. 
After reflecting on those perspectives, take a deep belly breath, let any tension go letting your entire body relax viscerally, deeply, feel the relaxation. Let. Go. Completely. Weightlessness. To the bones relaxation. As if there were ten bodies within each other within you, and they all just let go completely for the first time ever, and feeling abounds as a result. 
Keep relaxing, even more deeply, and remain aware of: breathing, feeling, seeing, hearing. Pick one or two of those the first couple of days, then work you’re way to maintaining a relaxed body and awareness of all four. Then all four as one whole. Then feeling, body, breathing, seeing, hearing, all as one inseparable seamless whole. 
Slowing the reaction down like this, you’ll see much more of what’s going on. After a while, there won’t be the reaction. It will be clearly seen at a point, that the fear was of fear (a ‘thought loop’). 
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“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself”. JFK    
The misinterpretation of fear is that it is a feeling. It is not, it is of the mind. Of interpretation. 
When you take that time, that five minutes for yourself, be mindful that you are taking time for yourself. Feel good about caring about how you feel. 
I think after just a few days you’ll feel more relaxed, and your vantage point, or, self understanding will change and some insights and releases will arise. Writing about how you feel now, as in, while you’re writing, is powerful. It helps in remaining present, and aware of feeling... and understanding arises. 
I would set five reminders on your phone / calendar, and commit to the five minutes five times a day. If there is resistance, or reluctance, remind yourself it’s only five minutes. It will be worth it. Also be mindful it is a proactive approach, and that it is cumulative. Each five minutes adds up, a momentum builds. 
Believe in second chances for yourself. And third chances. And fourth chances even. Actually, just notice when you beat up on yourself, and do those steps (above). This way, if this happens again, even if you ‘blow it’...five minutes later, in the divine grace of inner peace and clarity, it will occur to you to just laugh at your silly self, and have some great sex.
And make a dreamboard. 

You should take a look into a full structured dating course, search for RSD stuff, it could be the program "Boss", or "Pimp", or "Ten Game", or "Daygame", or "Foundations". You can easily find those on Google.
A basic structure of game is:
1. Open: introduce yourself, establish a sexual frame from the beginning, make sure the girl feels safe and knows that you are not crazy or creepy.
2. Hook: talk, talk, talk until she starts to invest in the interaction (the hook point). Assume all the burden of the conversation, don't ask anything from the girl until she starts to get interested in you.
3. Vibe: flirt, make some jokes, touch her (high-five, hugs etc), lead the interaction, change venues with her, establish familiarity. Explore a full range of emotions, push-pull.
4. Close: when she is super invested, maybe kiss her but don't kiss too much or make something huge about it, make it seem as natural as a high-five. Now it is time to move her to a more private location. "Hey, let's get some drinks at my place, it's five minutes from here."
Logistics is super important here, most of your questions depend on logistics, both the girls and yours. It is way easier to take a girl home when it is 5 minutes away than it is if is 1h away. This is where your "pre-game" phase should be, plan shit out.
Also, the girls logistics is super important. Is she free? Does she have to work soon or is she with a friend? This is where you have to be creative and solve her problems, this will also make her like you more. The frame the girl should be in is: "there is zero reasons why i wouldn't go to this guy's house". Instead of showing her all the benefits she would get from going with you to your place, REMOVE all her objections (could be simply being judged by he peers or you, or she doesn't feel safe enough with you). Make it sound and look like a no-brainer adventure. 

@Loving Radiance
 
Awareness alone is curative.
Self-love.
 
The Way of Love
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13
 
“Know thy self”. 
Socrates

@Red-White-Light
Maybe try a lens of, or for noticing, the ‘speed’. Notice how quickly the ‘process’ occurs, of the thought arising...being believed...and being expressed: “this isn’t making sense to me”. Notice the arising. Notice the believing. Notice the expressing. Pause, rather than utilize (believe, say, express) the thought. Literally ‘play slow motion’. As that thought arises, slowly inspect the validity of it, long before expressing it. Enjoy ‘the space’ ‘around / in between the thought’ / ‘process’. Hold interest, curiosity about the space. Allow the space, or clear sky, to be primary, by not investing in thought. Put the ‘value of thought’ to the side for a minute. Let it be a distant second. Inspecting that arising thought... precisely where / what is the “me” which the thought is about. Point to the me. If the pointing is to the body, what is aware of the thought, “body”. 
You, awareness, will not ever come across or experience “someone who is enlightened”. What do those words point to. That there are not, separate selves. An enlightened person, aka, an enlightened self - does not exist. Keep in mind, the number of times something is said or heard, is not relative to wether or not that something is true. If one is looking to thought / thinking, for truth...and was missing this...one would ‘find it difficult’ to allow thought to come & go. There might be a misinterpretation of feeling, such that the experience is labeled ‘afraid to give up, or lose, control’. That would also be a thought which can ‘itself’, naturally come & go. Control is paradoxical, in that to experience the actuality of it requires the relinquishing of the contextualization of it (the thought about control, being a ‘thing’, which could be gained or lost). 
 
Now it’s just going to sound like Nahm is being arrogant, or semantic, or pedantic, etc. If that occurs the body will tense in a corresponding manor. If it does, do a body scan, notice where the tensing occurs, and let go, or relax that area and the entire body. Take deep slow big breathes from the stomach. Slowing down is critical to seeing more of what’s transpiring. Think of a train passing you at 100mph, vs 1 mph. The first experience is of a blur, the second experience, serial numbers could be read, much detail and insight of what’s transpiring can be noticed. .....
....it must be noticed, that only the thoughts  about - ‘if you were enlightened’ - and - ‘the job interview’ -and - ‘the costing you everything’...arose. It will initially sound like I’m pointing out something useless, or dumb, or obvious here...but notice, really notice...look around where you are right now....and notice that thought story about the future is only a thought. It is a story about you. It is self referential thinking. The thought might now arise, ‘no, that thought was about you Nahm’...slowly notice that is a thought, not a Nahm. Attached to the thought, there is the indirect implication, that there is a ‘me’...since there is a ‘Nahm’. Without said focus on the thoughts, the clouds...there remains the awareness, consciousness, clarity, focus, peace of mind, of our infinite being. When there is not focus on the thought story about myself, that which is actually happening is found to already have been, that which was wanted. That must be directly experienced, as the thought about it, like the interview, is not the actuality.
It’s a ‘thought about’ what is actually going to happen - almost. Not even, really. Not even close, actually. Not even remotely close at all. Actually, it’s not even related. A thought about ‘what will happen’ is 0% accurate. This is often referred to as ‘the knower’, the ‘one who knows’, or ‘who which knows’. That ‘who’ is a priori - yet to be inspected, because the arising, believing, and expressing of a thought, is a priori. 
Without believing & expressing said thoughts, there is what could be called confidence, but is actually not. Confidence is a word which seems to have meaning, because it’s thought to have an opposite, which is a thought believed & expressed too. If one tells the story about oneself / life / future, the story becomes the very lens of experience. With the story of me / future / life let go, awareness, consciousness, clarity, focus, peace of mind, our infinite being, never has a ‘call for confidence’, because there isn’t the believing of the me in the future and the discord in feeling with that thought (because it’s self referential / not actually about you at all). More simply said, without self defeating thoughts about what is not actually happening, that interview goes splendidly. The interviewer resonates intuitively with that peacefulness, calmness, clarity. That interviewer recognizes how unfortunately exceptionally rare that is, and is highly inclined to hire. That interviewer is also incredibly likely to be moved, and deeply intrigued by your way, your presence, and all the more likely to hire. 
 
‘You would lose your enlightenment’, is a misunderstanding. It’s is believing one’s own arising thought about oneself as the separate self which had enlightenment, while ‘enlightenment’ points precisely to that fact that there are not separate selves. This thought, believed, identified with, veils, in the same discord with feeling manor as in regard to the self defeating ‘future me’ thoughts about the interview. Without discord in feeling, reality literally experientially changes such that ‘you’ and ‘it’ are one. There is not, nor was there ever, a separate self in the first place. There was only the believing & expressing of the arising thoughts, that there were two. Adequately inspected, these thoughts, of that nature, simply no longer arise. Clear sky, clarity, is. 
Likewise, ‘increased awareness’ is a misnomer. This thought reinforces the thoughts that there is a separate self, which / who must do something, to raise their awareness, to ‘get back to’, awareness. Meanwhile, the actuality, is that awareness is aware of these thoughts, passing like speeding trains. 
Similarly, ‘realized fully’ is a misnomer. This thought also appears to awareness, ‘fully realized’, ‘partially realized’, etc, are each thoughts, awareness is aware of. The apparent ‘subject’, the ‘me’ or ‘you’ which these thoughts seem to be about, isn’t actual, isn’t “there”. 
 

No wheat, right? No legumes I guess. No soy products. High carb vs low carb?

See it on a dreamboard. It brings how you want life to unfold into focus, and it does.
There’s a belief to be let go. Most thoughts come & go unfettered, but that belief can be spotted in that is elicits a reaction when that topic, category, or thought arises. A feeling that is undesirable accompanies the belief. In non-reaction, & non-believing the thought, how one has identified with the belief is recognized. The feeling is recognized as the related only to the occurrence of the thought. The feeling is listened to, rather than the thought believed. 
Focusing on fearlessness is perpetuating the belief that that feeling, is fear, when it’s not. “Fear” is a label, a thought, not a feeling. Focusing on what you want on your board, seeing it in front of you brings the limited belief up and out. Let go of what you’re been unwilling to let go of. Experience what you have ruled out thus far. 
One can take a look around at one’s life and see the story ones been telling. One can tell the story of wanted, and one will see that all around as well. 

@Javfly33
Have a laugh, noticing that’s a thought. 
Feel the relief. 
 
 
I = the thought, “I”. 
Think = the thought, “think”. 
I’m = the thought, “I’m”. 
There is no separate individual self. There’s no I. Those thoughts arose. That’s it. There’s no ‘thinker’ ‘thinking’. 
I = a word which points to awareness. Not a separate thing. 
Pop “I” out and pop “unicorn” in, and you begin to see how funny this situation is. 
Thoughts about yourself don’t feel off because they’re true. Thoughts about yourself feel off because you’re (awareness) believing them, and they are not true about you. Ever. 
Thoughts about you and a past don’t feel off because they’re true. Thoughts about you and a past feel off because you’re (awareness) believing them, and they are not true. Ever. 
Thoughts about you and a future don’t feel off because they’re true. Thoughts about you and a future feel off because you’re (awareness) believing them, and they are not true. Ever. 
A subtle feeling of ‘on’ will arise just in reading the following. ‘Listen’ to that subtle feeling of intuition.... You want to create, something. Some ‘physical’ thing, some experience, some circumstance or situation...idk what, but, something preferred, desired, wanted in this life experience. “You” (awareness) are dreaming, and you have a dream. A unique dream. Creator-creation-creating is, and ‘you’ are not separate. You, are “it”.  Believing thoughts about “yourself”, feels off, crappy, and you kinda, don’t, kinda, get around to the creating. Which means the passion, the enthusiasm, the exuberance of creating - the greatest of experience there is in the entire universe - is being missed. The resonating revelation is - that’s what the thoughts are for. The experience....creating & co-creating...communicating & creating, together. You’re not separate from reality, you’re reality. So is (god damn it he’s going there) the marker, so is the dry erase board, so is everything you could possibly think up that you want. You write it on the board...reality becomes it. It is that simple. Thoughts arise “but how will I...”, “but what about my...”, “but I don’t know how to....”, “but I don’t know what to do....”, “but I’m so...”, “but I don’t know if...”      There’s no you!!! 
Love you. 

I heard in last Leo's video that knowing about business marketing and sales is  absolutely crucial to escape wage slavery.
Me being a slave currently in wage slavery, I got very frightened and instantly started surfing the web for resources Lol.
But it seems a very big world. I don't know where to start. Or who to follow or give authority to.
So that's why I'm asking...please share the best roadmap/resources you can! appreciate it a lot!!

Today, for the first time, I figured out what to do with the intense energy, that I'm feeling in my hands.
Wherever I move my hands above my body, I feel sort of an energetic field. Imagine a sheet of paper with a magnet on each side. When you move one magnet, the other magnet moves with it. That's kinda what's happening, when I move my hands above my body. That's as close as I can get with an analogy.
By forming my hands in different ways, I can shape the energetic field. I can either make it sharper and one pointed or broader and wider. I never really knew, what use I could make of that, other than a little bit of energetic stimulation.
After having done Kriya Yoga this morning, I was calmly sitting in Parvastha. After some time, I moved my hands towards Anahata (heart chakra) and played around, as I always do with my hands, not really knowing what I'm doing. Out of nowhere, I shaped my right hand in a certain way (see link) and pointed it towards Anahata. I moved the tips of my fingers in a circular motion and the chakra started spinning. I tested, which way of spinning felt better, and sticked with it.
Imagine a wheel full of mud, which starts to turn faster and faster, spattering the mud in every direction, while the wheel simultaneously cleans itself. That's what it felt like. It felt really good and cleansing.
Did you have similar experiences? Could you discover different ways of applications with your hands, from an energetical standpoint? 
 
https://media.gettyimages.com/photos/hand-sign-italian-picture-id103163303?s=170667a
 

Don't be so sure about that. There might be a lot of mercury in there and it goes straight into your veins and brain.
It really depends on how well your body is able to naturally detox it. Genetics determines how well people are able to detox mercury. Some people can detox 90% of mercury. Others only 10%. You'd want to check your genes for the MTHFR mutations.

Not if it hurts your brain.
You can't assume everyone is the same. It depends on your health condition.
I'm unsure. I have serious health problems due to poor natural detox functions due to genetics and other factors. So I am not a good typical example. If I take it I will doing some serious detoxing immediately afterward.
Usually I would not touch anything with heavy metals in it. But Covid is an exceptional case which needs to be taken seriously.

Hey, Everyone, I'm new around here and had a question regarding my current strategy. 
I left school last June and ever since have been building Online Businesses and have been doing fairly well for myself so far, and while I absolutely LOVE what I do and helping people with my products, I'm not sure it's truly my life purpose although I definitely believe entrepreneurship is. 
 I've heard Leo say about being strategic in life, so before I go through the Life Purpose course and start working on that I was thinking of continuing on my current path for the next few years, building my income up to a point that will provide me with everything I need financially and allow me freedom etc, and then begin to outsource the majority of my businesses to continue to grow them as hands-off as possible. 
I also plan to reinvest a lot of my earnings into Stocks, Real Estate and other businesses etc to properly secure my financial wellbeing and freedom, as I never want to have to work a 9-5 purely for survival reasons. 
I was thinking of putting everything into this until I'm around 23-25 (20 next week) and fully securing myself financially before fully diving into my life purpose. 
So, I was just wondering if this is the kind of thing everyone means by strategic planning and what you thought of this @Leo Gura as I know you had a business pre Actualized.org. 
Again and thanks everyone and I look forward to a great discussion!