Loving Radiance

Haha, I quit video games and twitch to eliminate distractions. I can confirm this.

@Serotoninluv Beautiful, thank you.

@pluto Agreed, same situation here.

I experienced this many times; I usually feel sadness because I am not understood and deep understanding love because I see why they think in that way. In the end you can just move on because self-bias keeps you ignorant.

Assuming you are have little work experience and no money. A stable group of friends with regular activity, a healthy relationship with your family and a strong work ethic are essential, but if not the case you must handle these as soon as possible, right after you begin to earn money. Searching a decent paying job, earning money, setting foundational mindsets for mental clarity, learning how to invest, start investing for more financial freedom (this early because for fruition one has to saw the seeds early) and continuing it along the way, buying and doing the LP course, strategizing what skill sets are needed to achieve my LP, educating myself via internet learning platforms and communities, starting business or getting employed with my learned skills, working on skills, changing/enlarging the field of activity in my business/job according to my new skills, searching mentors in my field along the way, ... Mental clarity and spirituality can be done along your path.

@Lento You intuitively know the said things to be true, but you can see yourself not adopting it because it threatens your survival as the identity you have identified with. You will resist adopting it because it means changing and killing (or letting go or un-valuing) of your self-image.

@Conscious life I do contemplation using the journal.

Every morning I write in my journal as I can see myself putting it lower on my priorities as the day progresses. Once or twice every month I forget it altogether. Every day has a new topic which adresses my ignorance, self-deception and human problems/worries. I keeps me excited because every topic offers new aspects to explore. It's fun to see yourself thinking and uncovering thought pattern that make no sense and have no basis. With every day there are new perspectives to explore which add to my understanding that my perspective is just another one in the infinite seeming library of perspectives. Seeing yourself clinging to your beliefs and values helps you to understand yourself and other ppl. By examining your inner working you examine the world.

Beauty is Good as it is Universe and Truth. Beauty knows no evil. See Beauty in the moment. See evil as an expression of Beauty. Beauty is Love - see What is Love Part 2. Beauty is beyond survival. It is Reality. Start with daily gratitude practice, move on to being grateful for every moment and enjoy it. Edit: To live in constant Beauty is to recognize every moment, to be constantly consciously aware.

What aspects of turquoise do you see here? Heart don't fake my head, we're a little bit older Now I feel it all the time Burnt out fires we made filled our heads with smoke There's clouds left in my mind I collected pieces of the puzzle that you tried to hide They don't see what I see when they see you but I do, I do I get you, I can see you Call on me, I will be there They see you drifting away But I get you, I get you Love that face you make, tilt your head, look up These stars made for our eyes All around, up above and beneath us Take my hand, walk through the night And you make me wanna be better than I ever been before Tell me a secret, I'll keep it forever, I'm beggin' for more I see the shadow behind you but baby it follows us all And it's okay 'cause I I get you, I can see you Call on me, I will be there They see you drifting away But I get you, I get you

@Matt8800 How was the journey for you afterwards? @Pacific Sage Seems like that could work. I will try it out, thank you. @mandyjw Every day the world is changed anew. Experience and sensations are fresh. Do you mean changes in spiritual connection with the world?

Description of the process: During vipassana meditation the third eye will eventually begin to exert a pulsating pressure. When intensely focussing on that sensation and descending into it, all of perception seems to be fully encompassed by this force. Then two pressure points seem to appear which are located over the oral cavity. They feel strong and filled with enormous energy which are now enabled be seen for awareness. Sometimes it feels like a stuffy nose but with pressure on the whole forehead with the two points at its peak pressure. Then usually the mind interprets the pressure as blood veins. The veins seem to explode at any second just by descending into the sensation. The imagery and imagined sensation of exploding veins and resulting inner bleeding seem to be life threatening. The knowing that I could die from going further is overwhelming. Then concentration is willfully ceased, and the usual scanning of the body continues. Am I afraid to lose my identity? Could it be a threshold guardian or a calling – from hero’s journey lens it makes sense. Speaking of lenses, I wear glasses since a decade; It could be a cause. I do not wear them during meditation. Anyhow, this searching for a root cause could also be a distraction. Your 2 cents?

@inFlow What an insight. Thank you. Reminds me of when I got to a playground and sat myself on one of these.

@inFlow So, ignoring third eye and crown chakra for now and going for the chakras below?

@mandyjw My tongue is on the top of my mouth. My jaw is slightly open and relaxed; my mouth is closed.

It is useful to study lower consciousness to recognize higher consciousness. You can still cling to, identify with and be attached to lower consciousness material. If you are not conscious, you can be sucked in. At a certain point you discover your own selfishness because you studied it on others. Then you will have the insight that you are them, vive versa. It is like hide and seek, where you are simultaneously hiding and seeking yourself. It gives me a good feeling when I see that I am not different from others, that there are still parts of humanness which I want to deny.

The Witness brought me to Rupert Spira. Although at first, I thought that nonduality was bs, I had the feeling that there was more to it.

@Nahm Thanks for the map. I hope I can let it go someday.

Since Leo published the video about his 13 Back-to-Back Awakenings, I seem to have developed a capability to cry and then laugh at will. I don't know if I am emotionally unstable, distracting myself from consciousness work or just on the path towards awakening. This occurs when I become conscious and see the beauty of reality with all my senses. I sense the beauty of the moment and seem to be grateful for this experience. I sense the process to cry when I imagine the unimaginable extend of Love (note that I have a very vivid imagination because of my upbringing). I cry when seeing goodness and selflessness in human form. I cry when I see heaven on earth, especially when something extraordinary enters my awareness or when I observe mundane manifestation in detail and adore its beauty. I cry when being conscious of my unfulfilled needs. I cry when imagining the unimaginable potential of existence. Crying seems to be the way of dealing with pure beautiful and imperfect (from human perspective) human existence. I begin to laugh when I see the process/dynamic of crying and it seeming meaninglessness. It occurs meaningless because when I am aware of the imagination of Love, I see no reason to whine but to laugh. Although, I cry again when seeing that laughing is meaningless. After some random time, I seize control and go on with daily life. As you can see, I willfully initiate and end the experience (do I fool myself here?). Maybe I cry because I see the difference (distinction) between me and Love. I see Love to be separated from me and when I imagine Love being me, I cry. Maybe I feel undeserving of being purely Loving and Selfless (contrary to I 'seem to be grateful'). Maybe I am fully aware of human boundaries and am not able to comprehend Love. Maybe I am aware of my selfishness. Maybe I am seeing how much work has to be done and feel threatened in my existence. Now having it written down, I am not sure if these sentences contain any real description of the experience. I leave it up to you to make sense of it. What is your perspective?