Loving Radiance

*Criticism from above.

@lmfao In addition to my comment right under this paragraph you can also try out vipassana meditation: one technique is to feel oneself at the crown chakra and look down on the body to be fully present and aware of all sensations & feelings.

Value signaling seems to be common these days. Tricky mind. What can one do to deprogram people living in their social media bubbles? Thank you for the work you do my man ? Couldn't have said better. Thank you. Nice, cutting the bs again, but how do you really expect unconscious behavior to change through that? When you open the box of calling the other names you also open for the other the box to focus on you calling them names instead of addressing your point. You want them to expose themselves by addressing your point instead of giving them the easy opportunity to deflect and focus of something trivial you said on a whim. I know the frustration - being compassionate is hard especially in the discussion itself. Do you see that he could simply restate his point and stay sure in his identity while deflecting you calling him names? Do you see how easy it is to dismiss you just because you opened the box? He now has the chance to play victim for other members in order to prove his point and uphold his pov. How does green recognize that it is dysfunctional to destroy the structure one is standing on? Direct experience lol? That could be fatal.

Nah, you can blame both. In this instance it is good to focus on oneself rather than others. You can't change others cause as you describe they already have a bunch of problems themselves. You'd burn yourself out. You define your own reactions to others, you define how you want to respond. That is the only thing @Daffcio can change.

@Forestluv Thank you for the links! Today I remembered that breathwork allows a smooth flow into resting in awareness.

I once tripped on 10g of truffles (=1g dry shrooms) after taking them out of the freezer. I had a fantastic zoom call with people beforehand and then biked to a secluded beach on the local lake. I laid myself under the tree and waited for the comeup. ... "Well, this world is beautiful, but I still feel sober. Oh, well it's getting cold now, I better go back." And that is how this trip failed. Another one: I bought my new bike and felt the comeup of 12g truffles. "Oh no, the salesman sees me getting weird. I cannot do anything, I am unable to read the manual or to organize all the new stuff into my backpack. Can I even pay?" Looking back it is interesting how I was able to function, manage paying and register the instructions. Driving again to my isolated beach, I laid myself on the same spot as last time. "Uff, what a journey. I am so glad to have found this part of the beach. I just wanna drift away..." The leaves rustle in the wind. The waves wash ashore. Families are driving by just above me. The world is good. A shiver overcomes me. "Ugh, this wind. This is getting cold. Nooo, I just wanna lay here, I am already in the peak... But the cold makes this not pleasant at all. What do I do now?" I somehow manage to open the lock and bike home. The cars driving towards me get threatening close. "Wow, I cannot really feel the cars coming towards me. Interesting for sure." (just later I realized how dumb it was to bike around on the road in this state of mind) Getting back home I just was relieved. Laying myself on the couch to drift away for another time I felt strong pain in my spine. "I have to care my spine. It is so precious. What were you thinking dude?"

"Dude, how can I help you? You seen unable to cope with reality." "There is no you and there is no I, god damnit. Reality is one and you f'ckers are too ignorant to see that." "No matter how blind you think I am, I don't think it is good for you to be any longer in this apparently triggering environment. Let me guide you to a safe space to cool down." "You still don't get it! You and I are the same and there is noone to go to another place because I am always here." "Alright then..."

So, once I sat on my dark desk at night. The light of the street shines in and illuminates a plastic bag laying on the table in front of me. Magic. Pure beauty. The light of the stars and the shine of the setting sun on the clouds are in the bag. The child is mesmerized.

@Michael569 It is also ok when I post a link to a free movie when you post a link to a free paper?

Very insightful thread. @Forestluv @Carl-Richard @Scholar Keep up the good work.

@Valach What may be good for you is being chill with girls. Hanging out with them on a regular basis. Feel into your body what feels right when being with them. Hear into your body when you feel you overstep boundaries. Be non-serious with them, joke with them, laugh about yourself. If you want to talk deep about something, talk deep with them and you feel right away if they are up for it. Enjoy their being. Enjoy sharing your grounded presence with them. Enjoy sharing your authentic self with them, and if they don't like it that's ok because there are so many people out there with whom you can connect on a deep level. Regarding sex, just enjoy their presence. Have a genuine intent of enjoying this moment with them. Be fun and be open to anything crazy that can happen. Sex doesn't have to happen, but you also don't mind if it happens. You are chill about that. You respect others boundaries and are open for them opening up. You love to make them feel safe. You love to make them emotional, to bring them on an emotional rollercoaster with you. You have fun. You enjoy this moment. You don't have a destination or end goal, you just want to have fun and enjoy the time with them. Sex is one stop on the road you are traveling. I know it is hard to be not needy about sex, if you crave it. Focus on a fun, chill and non-judgemental vibe. You want to hang out with them, just assume they want too. Assume they want you, and they can always show their boundaries if the case would be true that they don't want you. You know you want them - let your vibe let them know that they have a sexual being in front of them. Move on if you feel they aren't fun to be with anymore. You are chill. Counterintuitively, you are soft and you let go of any character you think you should play. You let go of any judgements of them or you. You just flow.

@Mada_ According to official sources there are no preservatives needed due to the nature of mRNA. https://covidvaccine.mo.gov/facts/ https://www.technologyreview.com/2020/12/09/1013538/what-are-the-ingredients-of-pfizers-covid-19-vaccine/ https://fullfact.org/health/coronavirus-vaccine-mercury-brain-damage/

@levani Unjustice from the one you want to forgive of course.

The world of form is truly remarkable.

If I remember correctly in the forgiveness video Leo mentioned responding rather than reacting on a side note. Something like, "What would it be like if you consciously respond with compassion to the unjustice done to you instead of reacting to it."

SLEEP by Max Richter

Please cut the honey talk and shake me to the core. I need that. Background: Coming back from a NY temple retreat (western SD green tantra) I took a step in embodying my desire, by owning it. Before that I repressed desire through repressing any expression of anger or rage (thus creating a peaceful spiritual character) which was caused by frustration. In childhood my mother expressed her anger in hitting furniture most often because of exhaustion through emotionally demanding workdays. I did not accept and wasn't understanding of that. I wanted to not be that. People always said I am calm & patient. Go figure. Whenever a desire came up I got frustrated, angry and cried. Not knowing what to do with that desire. God forbid any expression, that would be disastrous. I was hard: Playing what I imagined to be a somewhat mature character when in fact it was insecurity with an enormeous pent-up load of anger. Now being somewhat soft and allowing I just go for what I desire (still learning how to do that slow & consciously). I just want to express desire now (feels like an entitled child that has control issues). Painful insights about LR's personality hit me left & right (love these beatings), I have an inspiration or my curiosity is sparked, and I just want to express it through sharing: I feel entitled to speak over others and am hurt when it is stopped. I feel that this expression of desire & of what I value (Fi - Introverted Feeling) is most important to do. I am impatient with others or pretend to be patient to be loved. I feel caged in when someone limits me in any way of expressing what I desire to share. I do things, then others tell me I did it for nothing (me wanting to express something) and I get angry at them - I want to punish them for the things I have done out of my own making. I use every comment about me as feeling important (as being on a pedastle while others are at the bottom even when the comment could be seen as devaluing me). In my mind I am preoccupied with fantasies about my brilliance. I center conversations about me even when the topic is not about me (sneaky). Pretentious mf. I am envious of others and believe others envy me. My emotions are fully felt and the behavior is somehow uncontrolled. I feel others and use my sensing of their divinity (in any shape or form) to make them be strong and to adore me in how glorious I am in my angelic expression to empower them. Someone at the retreat was intuitively ultra receptive and had a narcassistic relationship in the past and knew the energy of me which confirmed my observation. She got angry in the time of us sharing a space together and I enjoyed it. That's it for now. Expose my bs.

@WhatAWondefulWorld I could tell my perspective what an insight is, but it is a map. You create your own map which is entirely true to you. You can also look at other maps and make combination of them to create your own map. Insight is having clear view of the nature of anything in your experience relative to your state of consciousness and resulting perspective. It is found through reflection, introspection and letting it rest for intelligence to do its thing. Get insights by reflecting at the end of every day what this day teached you about you, the world and anything in your experience. through contemplation via journaling and actively using turnarounds to reveal perspectives you cling to which is naturally accompanied with insights in which ways you are rigid and not fluid. Consistency is key; do it every day for an hour. setting an intention on what you want to know - be it the root cause of you wanting to destroy things, staying quiet when you want to talk or anything that doesn't feel good inside of you. Think about that thing and then drop it. Go for a walk or go jogging. Be mindful about the physical activity. Enjoy the scenery. Repeatedly bring your mind back from thinking about that thing to enjoying this activity and environment you are in.

Thanks @Keyhole Thank you. 434 Love-Joy-Hope state of being.

@Lyubov Yeah, it was the strongest one of the kinds offered. The facilitator (experienced with psychedelics in both breath & depth) commented how goddess is not for everyone. Thanks for the warning call. Gotta look more into that.

@Ingit Gotta show the world these outrageous clothes Intentionally own the stuff you present to the world. Talking to these funny people, "You don't like me based on my clothes? Pff, you better are out of my life cause I don't want to interact with those kind of people in my life who judge me for my outward appearance and won't apprechiate me for how I express myself." @Breakingthewall Is shining light on the identity structure something that you would consider as part on transcending?

Oh, Mandy's answer is actually good. I already wrote the following paragraphs, maybe you or someone else can derive something from that. Her responce is maybe better advice for you - you decide what's good for you. Rather than focusing on the behavioral dynamics of me repressing desire I dug into my past to why I did that. Every time I felt a desire I repressed it and it didn't felt good. Now it feels good to express desire no matter if the desired outcome is achived or not. God wants you to live your highest potential and designed you to feel. Why do you feel anxiety? What is the root cause of you believing that and it transforming into a bodily reflex? Maybe releasing (like I did) or experience with intentional conscious exposure (I do that with my hygiene compulsion in combination with letting go) is good for you. Releasing: You pinpoint the root emotion. You express it through being physically active. For me it was anger/rage and I punched (making a fist with my hands) a meditation cushion as fast as possible while putting force behind it and keeping my hands at least at head level if not higher.

Lol, it was a sex-positive environment maybe they would allow that. Gotta bring a syringe next time and ask. @Verg0 Thank you for sharing your experience.

@Natasha There is sympathy. When the feeling has been felt before it can be constructed how they feel with the context they provide. @cetus It is truly devine. A blessing. @VeganAwake I am not there. However what feels good is to see these dynamics unfolding. I am free, I am love and I claim to be that. I claim to be the radiating sun, to be intuition.