Loving Radiance

@TheDao My point is that I'm interested how I can differentiate between compassion coming from blue, orange or yellow.

@TheDao Thank you, that cleared up alot. So then how does compassion for men look like at blue, orange and yellow? What are the differences? I mean they have to be distinct tastes amirite? You crack me up

Do you mean this video you posted being an indication that he's green? What exactly in the video is green? I am interested, how does compassion for men look like at blue, orange and yellow? What are the differences?

After bringing my stuff to the laundry room I sat down on the table for breakfast and had the thought that it would be not benificial for me to forget the laundry. Then there was a distinct recognition that this is a story. Doesn't make sense that there is a story.

@RendHeaven It's suffering through feeling your fluidity and holding on to ice rather than an aspect of time & conditioning. Oh wait, we mean the same thing. Ok then Being ice teaches alot about water.

Less identification to the body (or, there is more than the body) I read the newest posts from this thread: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/18958-let-us-see-your-face-?/ Is it conscious to post pics of the person behind the account? Of course. Would I post? I could. Yesterday I was hiking with friends. Perfect day for a hike, even from a judging perspective. Just flowing. Feels good. However interestingly, in the evening I went through the photos of me and there was a strange feel of being alien in this human body. Yes, I know this body, but the person is so radically different from the body. This beingness feels outerworldly. I think Leo mentioned in the JP video the delicate balance between deconstructing and integrating aspects of reality. You can go overboard with it (and yet it is Beauty and Love). Interestingly, the person can be rigid and have an agenda by focusing more on transcendence. Spiritual bypassing. Avoiding life. Seeking a shortcut.

Reminded me of this timestamped video & then at 50:47. It made many things clear about the person that wants to use Mu for its survival & dealing with its conditioning (57:00 - 1:02:35). Its somewhat related but it connects some points which were not seen before. My favorite quotes from your video @Mu_, "[...] because most likely the idea you have is not true." "There wasn't much to say about nothing."

What a beautiful release. I sometimes get visions, however I tend to like more the meditative state. Feels like resting & flowing as the eternal river.

Done. You are already perfect. You being here is being loved. Hold out your hand in front of you, palm to sky. Do you see the reflection of light in your hand? Your existence here is love. Other than that, the core belief of feeling unworthy is of the person. As for a start, begin by saying "I love myself."

Leo's comment under Deconstructing The Myth Of Science - Part 2: The mind constructs causation and any story is causation. During my last trip it was known that Infinity causes infinite variations of form till eternity. So, is it still a story being comprehensible enough for the mind to grasp? I mean, the mind tries to make sense of everything and it was direct feeling that Nothing/Formlessness causes everything/form. I never felt anything to be that true and now it is turned upside down. It's still true for me. So, is directly experiencing Infinity spitting out or manifesting infinite form not true?

@The0Self Mindfucking ?

@Carl-Richard The mind wants reality to be a description of things. I wanna check the creation of the mind. [using the mind to question the mind lol, as if that helps, who knows where that leads]

@Nahm But I know it too. What are you gonna do You cannot confuse me now. It's so weird, when there was thinking about your "it's still a story" answer there were two flashbacks to the feeling state of the Infinity trip. After all the mind seems to be a bit more open to confusion. Or just broken who knows.

@The0Self It is so radical ? Thank God for conceptual understanding, otherwise the identity would be long dead.

I never felt anything more absolute and true that this. However it now makes sense that everything is God because Infinity isn't finite. I didn't grasp what "infinite cannot know finite" meant. Edit: I now know what it means.

@Terell Kirby Out of experience I can say that this is too focused on the content for Leo. I know he now releases more videos on popular topics but I still suspect that is not something he wil dive into. Rather than looking at the content of America's constitutional amendment Leo is looking at what defines all government systems. I think he also mentioned the 2nd amendment in his libertarian video.

There is so much spiritual bypassing in this thread. I collect insights and don't embody them. Instead of creating my expanded identity with the insights I download I continue to be this character moving on autopilot. Love tells me to die, to be reborn anew. I am afraid of dying. Being ice is tangible, supposedly stable. Water is not. Water is potentiality, not yet crystallized. Just let go.

God's Love I don't know what to do. I am in limbo. Just like a year ago when I just didn't start doing anything for college. The days are passing by me. I'm afraid to die. I'm afraid of being great. It doesn't feel good. God tells me what I am and I resist. You think you are not great and perfect, but you are. You can deny it all you want, but it is within you. It is your nature. By going into the cold water, you feel resistance. But it subsides and then you flow. The jump into the dark cave is frightening. In the cave you see again. I have identified with a lazy side, so now I don't want to let go of it, even though it doesn't feel good. You are so wise. You already know what feels good. Start small. Take the first small step. Surrender yourself to love. It's a process. It's okay that you don't radiate 100% of your love right away. By letting go, you will be reborn. Let go and flow. You feel that you are the water. You are love. Love destroys you and gives birth to you again and again. You are so loved. You are my child. You are perfect. You are too good to believe in yourself. You are pure goodness. I will come back to you. Thank you.

What you are is perfection.

@The0Self Insane stuff Instead of getting another identity with which I thought I would feel better I just got no identity and thus insanity. There was acceptance that this body would live from now on in a in a asylum for insane bodies. Crazy reality. Makes totally sense which is in itself totally insane. Oh well.

I met the Creator almost 2 weeks ago. I wanted to be another person but thought that I wanted to let go of this person. Well there was no person. Just Insanity. Infinite warping of experience, no form. Even before that while watching Leo's 13 back-to-back awakenings video I realized Love of Existence. Too much love to contain in this human body.

@StarStruck Even with you being not needy it's a flake. Expect all gals to flake, especially those ones that seem to be most flattered by and attracted to you - keeps you sane. Plan your day as if they would flake & be flexible enough, if the date really happens. You can construct whatever story you like about why they flake, but it's just a story you use to comfort yourself and preserve your self-image. In the end you don't know. Be comfortable with not knowing why they flaked. Don't even give a shit about any reason. For you there is no reason. Either they flaked or not. Also have clear boundaries about the number of flakes from the same person. Doesn't matter if she's attractive or what. The need to minimize flakes in daygame is coming from a limited lens. Be fine with or without her flaking. Keep doing daygame and soon you won't care about flakes.

That is a good lesson for you now Getting a feeling of op's frame is important.