Loving Radiance

No, that is a story you project on people here on the forum. Can you see that it isn't actually the case? People are just writing words onto a white page. What is written is not what's True. The idea you get from texts about enlightenment and texts & talks of enlightened folks is not True.

to an extent yes. I don't beat up on myself when I'm insecure. If I do I'm not too harsh and not for a long time. It's more like: "c'mon not again, why can't I feel more confident". I can't help desiring that insecure boy to interfere less with my life. I do like his sensitivity and appreciation of music and stuff like that, but when I'm around other people I feel like I'm going to be shamed if I don't repress myself a bit. For instance if I feel like dancing I instantly think someone is going to criticize me and I will look less masculine lol. Probably cultural conditioning and irrational beliefs around masculinity. You are masculine in just dancing for your own sake. In expressing that boy energy you recognize that you are already confident. By caring for your inner child you get drawn to being confident; there's no pretending or should-ing yourself to be confident. It happens at its own pace. When you feel in that childlike curiosity about them you can tap into the want to introduce yourself. Imagine being in kindergarten and introducing yourself to a new kid you want to play with.

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@Farnaby Can you feel, embrace and love the insecure boy?

@Strangeloop

Very beautiful. Yes, visions can occur from spiritual practices. I cannot tell you what this means. In the end it means nothing because there is no inherent meaning in all of existence. You are constructing meaning and putting it onto the world. What does it mean to you? Have you felt that you were separate from the visions? If you felt to be one with the vision, what did it reveal to you? Energy moving around in the body is happening. There are definitely processes going on in you. Perhaps have a look at kundalini energy. It can be energy shifting in your body. Perhaps it was a small heart attack In a buddhist meditation retreat the leading monk said that burning sensations are karma in the body which get released. This is a bit unclear. Something that happened to me that could come close to this was in high dose psilocybin trips. Visual and auditory representations of words were flowing into each other. They rimed like in a poem. If heard or seen from an ordinary state of consciousness, they would appear to not rime at all. Being in that expanded consciousness the sense of the rime was constructed or laid upon every word that appeared out of nothing. Does the vision happen to you or do you actively imagine these things? It is common to vision things. After the buddhist meditation retreat there was also the sensation at the 3rd eye. It is energy. If you are after going after enlightenment then embrace these energetic shifts and go on because they are not what enlightenment is. These visions just happen. You can embrace them. If you want to have more visions you can stay on your path of meditation. I suggest you to try out shamanic breathing. Maybe after the first few sessions there are visions showing up. Telepathy is not something that I ever considered, however you can see this that way. This knowing or telepathy is a feature of consciousness. Intuition can be said to be connected to telepathy.

I do think that it goes both ways though, to question and escape society at the meta-level perspective as presented in the video, should also eventually lead us to escape society at the physical level as well. It is practical as in the quote above. For myself this was an episode that gave more clarity in my LP and how I want to impact the world. In fact, the episode allowed me to envision a future which is so inspiring and at the same time so idealistic that I will most likely fail in trying even though it would take multiple lifetimes to create that vision.

Insight of the day I avoid to integrate my feminine by avoiding to feel the goodness, inspiration and love in my heart. By distracting me from feeling myself I don't feel anymore and am disconnected from the pain of separation in me. By looking away and immersing myself in stories I don't feel sadness which always seems to be there behind the veil. It is imagines that it is existential because it is always there. It is fear of being whole. Identity is attached to broken ways of being. So many times now after the 2nd insanity trip on July 3rd there are these felt perspective shifts happening. During radical honesty training at the weekend there were so many situations of seeing humanity and feeling God perspective. Alien/cosmic consciousness in human body. God spinning this reality out, like a projector spinning out the forms onto a screen. The shifts happened after thoughts about the situations in the workshop. Avoidance didn't quite stop at that time and also didn't stop now. I keep forgetting the insights. Now after the radical honesty workshop I feel more self-accepting & carefree. I love to behave a bit childish, playful, funny, like a kitten or child. I love it and I express that without resistance. I do what feels good in that moment. Doesn't matter if people see that as me being not a man. The lion comes when he comes at the right time. Till then the child can play. Still, there is discomfort in doing things that I don't see in my current identity and I feel that I get drawn to the things laying in the discomfort. Funny how counterintuitive it is: in being less resistant to be the kitten I realize that I get drawn to the lion. The kitten doesn't have to pretent to be a lion. It is just happening and it is all happens at the right time. Things are got by letting go of them and doing what's right in this moment. There is the child coming out when I say no to all shoulds and should nots. There is total freedom in living life and in expressing myself. People can judge how they want, but I am here present for myself. The seed of God is the guidance system. Intuition. Goodness. Love for the creation/child.

@Gonzalo Please create a thread under meditation (https://www.actualized.org/forum/forum/4-meditation-consciousness-enlightenment-spirituality/). This thread's purpose is to link to psychedelic trip threads you posted. If you would open your own topic, you would get more specific answers.

It seems like you haven't got the message. That's ok. Oh, you seem to get it. You can realize that everything you believed to be solid and true is a fabrication. Maybe you can still realize is that this knowledge can be felt in the body as a energetic shift. He says in the video that complete independence is not the goal.

Haha, ok. Well, Resource-based economy is a great concept. What they do seems to me like playing small which is also very likely due to the lacking resources. Oh well. Thanks for answering.

If you grew up in the social matrix, it is still in your perspective. It takes time to decondition yourself from the social matrix & human bias and that makes it hard to question. The statement you got in quotes describes another kind of lazy. It's like using the statement "This kind of ice cream is free of milk and added flavors." and then saying that ice cream is unhealthy because of the sugar content. Both are true in a sense but they aren't said in the same context. Then don't participate in that thing.

How do they want to integrate the Venus project in already existing cities? What would be needed? In general, at which time (e.g. 2070) do they predict will countries begin to use the Venus project (when looking at the current life conditions and values of existing nations)? When will the first countries implement the idea? When can the Venus project be implemented world wide because of global unification of countries.

@Strangeloop And you want to change that? Do you feel the desire to talk freely with people about anything because you are just feeling like it and because the words just flow out of you? If so, do you know some free apps, sites or resources that allow you to talk to people?

Also great for shamanic breathing. The Osho quotes are also hitting home in that expanded state of consciousness.

@actualizing25 Yes, I don't know you in that regard. A general cautionary warning is always good. It can be the case that you have an avoidant personality and that you use spirituality to avoid life instead of going into it. But if not, then go ahead

@Vision https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hartz_concept If you have a closer look (not just wikipedia), you can see that people with that support are limited to get the bare essential products and services. @actualizing25 Be very careful. This approach can lead you to avoid life.

IME, it is listening to intuition and letting the knowing guide your everyday life. Intuition is felt by listening to the silence. There's something arising from that. Every time when you feel resistant against intuition and you feel not good in being resistant you can tap into self-compassion and forgive yourself.

Definitely experienced this. What kept me going was a sense that I will be better the longer I stay in the game. Self-love is very important too, you are at this place in time because you have had limited experiences. You cannot be anywhere else. You are doing good right now even if it seems that doing that is not enough.

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@StarStruck Thanks for posting this topic. That's an opportunity for you to learn, heal and grow alot. Consider, "I just enjoyed my misery by not responding and giving any explanation. That is truthless." Yes, imagine for a moment that you enjoy your own misery. You enjoy it because you believe your own story. You believe that she enjoys your misery from "not responding and giving any explanation". You are right that this view is without truth. It's creating your personal hell. Hell is not true. It would grow you by telling her that you hurt the girl and how you did it. Are you able to see that you swing from the one side of the pendulum (dissociation) to the other one (expression without regard for the world)? Those are a lot of assumptions. It is the exact opposite, I'm a person who doesn't lash out. She knew that and that is why she treated me like trash. It is in human nature to lash out. I was always a person who would swallow it and this time, I just couldn't bare it. Yes, it felt great to have her on the phone crying, and then I told her off and I said I don't want anything to do with it. It is part of character building. This happening changed me so I won't be the same and don't do the same. Lashing out was just a new learning experience. Something I don't have experience with. ^-- Look what you wrote. That is the little voice in your head that you fight against. The way you interpret her actions validates your cute voice of insecurity. No wonder why you reacted this hard. You react against your little voice. You push it away and don't embrace it. @mememe Welcome to the forum

Btw, IJB063 was banned by you.

@electroBeam Rejection is not personal. It happens so many times till you learn the lesson. And then it will cease to exist. Keep putting your desire out there. I see good advise here already.

Introspection = deep feeling, seeing Contemplating = deep thinking, creating During contemplative journaling I introspect and feel a topic. I listen to silence what comes up from direct experience that crystalizes into a thought. What is then written is close to truth. It was first felt and derived from that into a thought structure. Now there are thoughts being connected to each other. Every thought arises from that introspection. By feeling into yourself and truly listening, you see yourself. It's basically what I did here in this description of journaling. I checked in how it feels and derived that into a thought being woven into a sentence.

Btw, thanks for speaking about your grant conspiracy theory in your last video. I had a breakdown and cried in the train. Now I got to reevaluate life with all the fragments. I always dreamed too small. That episode was a banger of inspiration. Thanks for that