Loving Radiance

If you grew up in the social matrix, it is still in your perspective. It takes time to decondition yourself from the social matrix & human bias and that makes it hard to question. The statement you got in quotes describes another kind of lazy. It's like using the statement "This kind of ice cream is free of milk and added flavors." and then saying that ice cream is unhealthy because of the sugar content. Both are true in a sense but they aren't said in the same context. Then don't participate in that thing.

How do they want to integrate the Venus project in already existing cities? What would be needed? In general, at which time (e.g. 2070) do they predict will countries begin to use the Venus project (when looking at the current life conditions and values of existing nations)? When will the first countries implement the idea? When can the Venus project be implemented world wide because of global unification of countries.

@Strangeloop And you want to change that? Do you feel the desire to talk freely with people about anything because you are just feeling like it and because the words just flow out of you? If so, do you know some free apps, sites or resources that allow you to talk to people?

Also great for shamanic breathing. The Osho quotes are also hitting home in that expanded state of consciousness.

@actualizing25 Yes, I don't know you in that regard. A general cautionary warning is always good. It can be the case that you have an avoidant personality and that you use spirituality to avoid life instead of going into it. But if not, then go ahead

@Vision https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hartz_concept If you have a closer look (not just wikipedia), you can see that people with that support are limited to get the bare essential products and services. @actualizing25 Be very careful. This approach can lead you to avoid life.

IME, it is listening to intuition and letting the knowing guide your everyday life. Intuition is felt by listening to the silence. There's something arising from that. Every time when you feel resistant against intuition and you feel not good in being resistant you can tap into self-compassion and forgive yourself.

Definitely experienced this. What kept me going was a sense that I will be better the longer I stay in the game. Self-love is very important too, you are at this place in time because you have had limited experiences. You cannot be anywhere else. You are doing good right now even if it seems that doing that is not enough.

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@StarStruck Thanks for posting this topic. That's an opportunity for you to learn, heal and grow alot. Consider, "I just enjoyed my misery by not responding and giving any explanation. That is truthless." Yes, imagine for a moment that you enjoy your own misery. You enjoy it because you believe your own story. You believe that she enjoys your misery from "not responding and giving any explanation". You are right that this view is without truth. It's creating your personal hell. Hell is not true. It would grow you by telling her that you hurt the girl and how you did it. Are you able to see that you swing from the one side of the pendulum (dissociation) to the other one (expression without regard for the world)? Those are a lot of assumptions. It is the exact opposite, I'm a person who doesn't lash out. She knew that and that is why she treated me like trash. It is in human nature to lash out. I was always a person who would swallow it and this time, I just couldn't bare it. Yes, it felt great to have her on the phone crying, and then I told her off and I said I don't want anything to do with it. It is part of character building. This happening changed me so I won't be the same and don't do the same. Lashing out was just a new learning experience. Something I don't have experience with. ^-- Look what you wrote. That is the little voice in your head that you fight against. The way you interpret her actions validates your cute voice of insecurity. No wonder why you reacted this hard. You react against your little voice. You push it away and don't embrace it. @mememe Welcome to the forum

Btw, IJB063 was banned by you.

@electroBeam Rejection is not personal. It happens so many times till you learn the lesson. And then it will cease to exist. Keep putting your desire out there. I see good advise here already.

Introspection = deep feeling, seeing Contemplating = deep thinking, creating During contemplative journaling I introspect and feel a topic. I listen to silence what comes up from direct experience that crystalizes into a thought. What is then written is close to truth. It was first felt and derived from that into a thought structure. Now there are thoughts being connected to each other. Every thought arises from that introspection. By feeling into yourself and truly listening, you see yourself. It's basically what I did here in this description of journaling. I checked in how it feels and derived that into a thought being woven into a sentence.

Btw, thanks for speaking about your grant conspiracy theory in your last video. I had a breakdown and cried in the train. Now I got to reevaluate life with all the fragments. I always dreamed too small. That episode was a banger of inspiration. Thanks for that

How does it feel when you get it out though, freeing I bet? Well at first sure feels good, but then I face judgement of other people which can be viewed as an effect of my honesty. Or one thing I noticed is that I tend to judge myself on what I've said or how I've said it. So, how is difficulty in talking impacting you? I mean, what does it spark in you that you post this thread in this subforum? Does it come from an emotion or thought process?

@sda Here is a quote from The Road Less Traveled by the psychiatrist M. Scott Peck which deals with physical abuse in an attempt to teach discipline. It is classic stage blue dogma that beatings are good because they are ingrained in the culture which is heavily influenced by Islam in your case.

Asking the real questions here

Before going to bed, actively remember 3 - 5 things you experienced today that you are grateful for, no matter if they are big or small. Make it a game to discover these things every evening. You will be amazed. Ex.: The job you got. The people you have as friends. The vibe at a gathering. Birds singing in the park. Seeing the reflection of daylight in a leaf. The bright colors of flowers. The calming sound of leaves in the wind. The food you eat. Being able to taste the bitter smell of cacao. That you are able to hear at all. Music The ability to to introspect and get clarity. Human condition & existence. Internet, eletricity... Living in heaven.

Fantastic work Ismael 336. Hopefully you can still edit it.

I understand you. Accept yourself at that stage of life where you are at right now. Love yourself. Give yourself the love you need. Everything else builds on that. It's also a much more enjoyable way of life.

@RendHeaven Well, what can I say, this topic is a juicy one.

On depressive periods and current state Between February and end of June there was a period of me believing thoughts about myself and feeling stuck. It was very intense from April to June. It wasn't self-acceptance and self-love. I wasn't present with myself and I also didn't listen to myself. I meditated and journaled randomly maybe a few times in that period. During shamanic breathing I felt my bottled up emotions and they expressed themselves. In that time I also started a diary to process the emotions, to speak with intuition - I recognized that I just would turn to it as a coping mechanism when feeling especially down to soothe myself. I avoided feeling myself by distracting me with the forum, movies, games and books - I couldn't deal with myself and it was a self-fulfilling prophecy that I would stay stuck. These avoidance and distraction behaviors continued and to deal with the misery I went more deeply into them although I recognized that they were the cause. There was no real felt & emodied sense of a way towards authenticity. I also spoke with others to inspire them for their highest desire - it felt like playing a character who looks like a banger of inspiration on the surface and at the same time being a train wreck underneath that, value signaling. Doing all this to avoid feeling a void. In that time I recognized clearly that I picked up from society that life is about presenting an image of a positive character of me - having just a straight growth curve. I also could grasp now clearly how much of spiritual and intellectual bypassing I did. Before that I felt that already but was more avoidant of feeling that. There are still remnants of that habit. I am grateful how deep I went in that depressive period, otherwise I wouldn't have got the message of self-love and self-acceptance, to feel that on an embodied level especially in those situation when I'm judgmental and avoidant of myself and others. In a recent cacao ceremony I found myself again. Finding myself being like a child neglected and avoided. There was a rediscovery of inquiry into how I feel: Meditation and contemplative journaling combined with emotional journaling are keeping me being honest and present with myself. Before that cacao ceremony I also was in a 6 week online course about authentic relating. A bit after that I also started getting coached regarding repressed desire and anger. Just speaking about things concerning me and exploring with the coach what is up with me to grasp the root of the repression. There was no solving attitude. There was just curiosity to express honestly and to explore. Self-compassion and being with myself are now healing me. It feels good to wash myself from myself. It is healing to accept where I am on the journey and I could cry out of gratitude feeling my unconditional presence that I withheld from myself for so long. There's more all-embracing compassion for everything arising. There is acceptance for being not accepting of uncomfortability and inauthenticity provoking situations like feeling slight social anxiety. There’s now more feeling good in an imperfect body and during somewhat stressful life situations.

Thanks!

@Nos7algiK Wow where is that from?

@BipolarGrowth Goddamnit. Right on point. Totally useless for the human. And so freeing. On another note, deconstruction means that you see through constructs and you can use the constructs. To be functional is to transcend and include the tools in your toolbox.