Loving Radiance

Having now felt that realization, do you care for her? What is the most loving thing you can do for her and the kids?

@Rasheed Remember, I never had any results with this as I never committed to it. Better ask people on reddit. Maybe watch a video or twice about palming in particular and the specifics might get mentioned. From my layman pov: Just take as much time as you need till the eyes & surrounding tissue are filled with warmth and feel relaxed.

@Rasheed Do you want to try out Bates method for myopia? I never stuck with it, so your report would be amazing to read. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cZN3ESTzOI

@Adodd So, if I read your op, you don't want advice on what to in this situation right? Then I also suggest what people before me wrote: Before you do any action, first process the hate by doing the forgiveness exercise.

You did nothing wrong mate. You just didn't have the lens to see your life through. If you feel called you can continue all this AND begin to develop your secure monetary foundation. Yes! I feel this way very much. Im very seriously doing the life purpose course and trying to not to let money be too important. But at the same time I cant help but feel a bit like I SHOULD be worried about finances so parts of the course telling me not to focus on money are leaving me unsure of how to feel about it. Your LP can bring money but it's not the sole focus. The focus is what aligns with your values and what you can give to the world that is unique to you and your inspiration. It's okay to take steps to accomplish full focus on your LP. It's okay when the steps look like working at your local supermarket to secure steady income for the moment.

You can make yourself get trapped in any stage. Traps: Orange likes for example to turn secularism into a second religion. The paradigm of secular materialism can be quite imprisoning when the culture is at the same level and one cannot see & envision beyond that. There is also more isolation from nature (cause it's just resources to be used) and less human-centered interaction which is then opened up at green. So, all this judgement is fine, but did you actually change the way you lived your life in that year? Did you focus on winning, getting to the top and primarily wanted to be materially rich (having good looking clothes, car, house, lifestyle)? Was your focus on practical hands-on self-help to make yourself productive and out-compete others? Did you want to get recognition for your success? The thing is that Green emerges best when you exhaust Orange like you having burnout after the one year and turning to parts of life that are feeling good to your heart. A good way to ask yourself is: Do I avoid some part of life like being productive & opportunistic by going into Green when I know I should have the foundation of material security settled? It can also be a trap to disregard Orange when you want to dive deep into Green. 1. Search for a healthy role model 2. Study their work, thinking, system of values and life princples 3. Emulate how they think, model them and satisfy those needs what they are trying to satisfy 4. Make sure you watch out for possible limitations and toxic tendencies You can do all that. What the limitation would be is to search for satisfaction or purpose in having a nicer house instead of making it just a nicer living environment. But don't worry much about limitations. Just be aware of excesses in your life. Well you now recognize that you don't want to have any serious worries about gas money. Perhaps you just need the gas money

20:27 is nice

@ALLIS Is it different to reiki?

I share it every time when I meet someone who is open minded to these kinda topics. Which is rare.

Does one also get a penalty when one shares links to shadow libraries?

Instead of grasping for higher stages go integrate the ones you innocently made a shadow of. A solid foundation for any structure makes more sense than just building up higher and higher. But maybe you have to learn the lesson yourself. Maybe you have to try reaching for the sky without grounding and then realize that the highest tree needs deep roots. It can require letting go of one's pride or precious self-image to go work on the foundation and invite self-acceptance of one's true position in life.

I got you covered

For me it was at first one of those small hand-sized sculptures which are representing deities You know, these one's that stand on altars in shrines or other places of worship. @cetus@Carl-Richard@Fearless_Bum You guys crack me up

From the Absolute there's no judgement, there's no difference between innocent or guilty people getting killed. In fact, there's no difference between life & death. "Care" (beyond human care) for the whole looks like devilry to the finite because the care is "too large" and radical to grasp and to put into finite understanding. By definition Care for the whole cannot be functional for finite survival concerns. If it would be functional for the finite, then it wouldn't be Care. This doesn't make sense when viewed from a survival lens. Precisely because one looks from the lens of survival at the image of god, god will appear disgusting especially when it's thought that death & suffering is injustice or that there is injustice in general. Of course the duality of justice & injustice is functional to survival. On another note, disgust is what is disowned & reject from your identity: Integrating death, suffering, injustice and immorality doesn't mean that one then goes wild and kills people. That imagination comes from an unintegrated identity which innocently projects out its own evil. Integrating it all is letting life flow without control.

Can't stress this enough. Here is my experience: After 2 God trips I saw myself during normal daily life to tap into an insanity perspective. It feels super absolute because, if I would go more in that direction, the perspective would be permanent. The feeling is that it kills me (feels like the body is dying, but honestly it's mainly the identity) - very much a feeling of death similar to a comeup of a very high dose on shrooms. This happened randomly at least once per week. Looking back now I was feeling good to trip again after the 1st God trip, but it was still too close with 3 months after the last one and too high dosed. Now after 4 months after the last trip the insanity perspectives continue with less intensity and less shroomy feeling to them but they're still there nonetheless. Even threshold doses now are already opening the insanity box. Tripping isn't possible for me for a long time. I am not scared by the trips but by the after effects.

Believing to be in control is not to be in control. To let go of control is to get control. Believing to be sane is insane. To let go of sanity is to get sanity.

@Mulky

Yeah, I overlooked that

Would you say this is about writing the desire that fills me with the highest goodness/inspiration? Yes, and not only the desires that are the highest. For example, you have a desire for a comfy chair in which you can read. Compared to the want of being at peace with the world I assume that you have a lesser desire for the chair, amirite? So, just jot the chair down. Doesn't matter how big or small it is. You can write a small thing like seeing a ladybuck and your highest want besides each other on the board. You can also have multiple dreamboards and write on these wants depending on how big & small you judge them. Up to you. @Nahm I never intentionally tried out having multiple dreamboards for smaller and bigger wants. How does it work for you? Is it more inspiring when you write it with the growth aspect or with it being already the case?

In addition to this journal, it may also be useful for you to express emotions through the body. Here is a playlist to emotional expression tools by ISTA https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLKmB51wF7NlDZgRnxUlt7BF60VQtciuH

Search for Leo's video Awareness Alone Is Curative

I like to answer to that one too You can also totally disregard this comment if you want. Nah, you are good. When you write camping on the dreamboard you feel it already being the case right now. In a sense, there is no further action needed to be done; setting the course to your destination equals being there already. There is no causation in the here and now. In a sense, you will see yourself "doing" things that "get" you closer to camping. You might even work hard and shed blood & tears. There is causation within time. The dreamboard works with Law Of Attraction and/or the Reticular Activating System. Letting go of what you want when you write it on the board is letting life force flow through you. You witness that you "take action" in a certain way to move towards the want, and you witness reality presenting you with opportunities that get you your want. There might be things arising like limiting beliefs or thoughts when you connect to the inspiration of your want. They are conditioning. Conditioning is seen, recognized and let go of. Letting go is feeling your goodness and knowing that you are good and recognizing that the conditioning does or doesn't feel good. Drop it like choosing another good feeling thought - it's not repression but rather having boundaries to what you want to feel and what not. Being at peace with all of existence is a great one. Write it down and it's already the case. It "takes time" for you to realize it. Every day when you look at it you feel it already being the case. When a thought shows up like "I don't feel it right now" then drop that thought and focus on the inspiration of your want. Actions to arrive at being at peace can be done in seemingly infinite ways. It's like seeing the mountain top in the distance and feeling the inspiration from standing there at the top. When you have the inspiration in your heart you will find any way to get up there. You will encounter tearing rivers, thick forests and dangerous animals. And you will know where to go. You see the obstacles and walk around or through it. You have your eye on the ball. The inspiring north pole is always present in your heart and you feel the needle of desire pulling you in that direction.

@Javfly33 In general for socializing make the bar super low to talk to people. Get yourself into flow state: greet people along the way or casually talk to them. You are super open and chill. You are interested in people. They can also pull away if they want. You don't mind, you just open other interesting people right away.