Loving Radiance

Yeah, letting go of these images is like letting go of thoughts. Seems like it's never ending. However, with all things practiced on a consistent basis this too will get easier and fluid. It takes a lot of rewirering for these ingrained habits. When you drop a thought do you rest as awareness? For myself there is just nothing till another thought arises. Now imagine dropping an image which is attached to sensation. Let go of the image and rest as awareness. Just notice. Feel sensation without adding anything to it. It is a continuous process to arrive at the raw sensation. It takes time to rewire. Diligence & patience. Focus on sensation and come back to it whenever any image is laid onto it. This was recognized on a vipassana retreat: All these stories coming up and dreams of highly distracting matters (especially having orgies & seeing demon faces lol) are the same as putting any layer on sensation. For a long time it was like awareness was a metal line that went to every body part. It was imagined that a chain lays itself on the parts where awareness currently is to notice sensation. It was assumed that this was awareness and it was normal. Then with more experience about appearing stories and imaginations of all kind this was realized and seen. There was no struggle as you describe it in your op, just a knowing that it's still not what's actual. There was a focus on sensation and letting go of anything else attached to it.

@AdroseAkise Read the thread:

Right now I do affirmations for abundance and my experienced quality of daily life has risen since 2 weeks. Maybe it works for you too. Let's see. This mindset is good. Do you remember the video Life Unfolds In Chapters & Phases? Experimenting with everything is the best thing to do when you are starting.

Take care of yourself <3 You guys work 4 jobs each or total to make ends meet? Do you have free time? Could a close friend of yours or her grandparents take care of her while you guys can have a nice evening? I mean even if it would work all out, it would take some time to come into mood after all these months (?) of being in serious work mode. If you can clear an evening for you two, you don't have to pressure yourself to do anything, just let things happen & unfold. And relax.

No, it's just not visible to the viewer. The creators still see it in YouTube Studio and can make adjustments on their side.

If sexual intimacy would be great, would there be something else that lacks in your relationship? Have you addressed your feeling of lacking sexual intimacy with your partner?

@Nahm ? @roopepa So, if I get you right, the unhealthy thing is that it's still a map?

@Rasheed Well yeah, it seems to be the main thing with all the other exercises. Please tag me @ when you give a report on the eye sight even if there's no change.

Maps & lenses are for survival to navigate the terrain. On a relative level of course hehe. Feel free to bust anything. ...of duality you mean?

@bloomer Go to meetup.com & Facebook and search for events for socially anxious people. Congrats! How do you feel about having gone out and socialized? You project on them that they see you as an errand boy. What happened in reality is that they asked a person who wasn't busy to watch their table. You think the thought of being an errand boy. As Nahm said, that thought doesn't feel good. What about picking a thought that feels better like "People trust me to watch over their stuff"? All the other things you said will autocorrect by being consistently social. Remember that no matter what you project on people, all people are approachable. When you make a socially uncalibrated mistake you will learn from it. Come to people from a state of "I give you _____". For changing your self-image (from victim/looser to creator/winner) you can use visualization and affirmations including affirmations that you listen to while you sleep. The more time you spend with being & feeling that version you want to be the more you will feel & act like it. It becomes automatic. It works like magic. Commit to that for at least 3 months and then look back to where you have been.

Correct me if I'm not getting you. You say that all understanding is equal in depth & wisdom, that there is no more advanced and less advanced, and no wise and foolish? That there is no hierarchy inherent in relative human reality?

Can you love the past version that makes you feel guilty? Can you see that you didn't know better? It's like judging a child for not knowing. Loving your past version means that you can decide right now that you will do better. It is being grateful for your past, that it happened. The gratitude might seem cruel with the context of abuse that happened, but can you feel grateful for the experience? Can you see that you are more mature & responsible because of it? Perhaps you can't see or feel that right now. If that's the case, then it's okay, this process takes time and cannot be rushed. The only thing you could then do is to become increasingly conscious of present emotions and how they lead you to actions in your life and how they make you believe things about yourself.

Assuming there are separate humans called prophets: Note that what prophets spoke was recontextualized to the people's understanding at that time. And I also feel that you assumed that prophets see themselves as that - consider that people put that label on them. Also consider that how you interpret their words is that there is someone chosen. Being chosen and not being chosen at the same time. The mind just so happens to project its individuality onto prophets and sides with the side of the chosen one. AND of course zen-devilry (not deconstructing epistemics) is also possible. So, what's the danger you speak of here? From this perspective there is noone deluding themselves because delusion needs the social matrix as authority what the ground is and what not. What could be imagined is bringing your body in danger. And even danger to the body is deconstructed. There also could be the danger of surrendering to non-existence which would be the death of existence. What do you mean? Btw, great trip report. It's mind blowing. I now feel more & more that LSD is better for me personally than psilocybin just from reading these reports.

Having now felt that realization, do you care for her? What is the most loving thing you can do for her and the kids?

@Rasheed Remember, I never had any results with this as I never committed to it. Better ask people on reddit. Maybe watch a video or twice about palming in particular and the specifics might get mentioned. From my layman pov: Just take as much time as you need till the eyes & surrounding tissue are filled with warmth and feel relaxed.

@Rasheed Do you want to try out Bates method for myopia? I never stuck with it, so your report would be amazing to read. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cZN3ESTzOI

@Adodd So, if I read your op, you don't want advice on what to in this situation right? Then I also suggest what people before me wrote: Before you do any action, first process the hate by doing the forgiveness exercise.

You did nothing wrong mate. You just didn't have the lens to see your life through. If you feel called you can continue all this AND begin to develop your secure monetary foundation. Yes! I feel this way very much. Im very seriously doing the life purpose course and trying to not to let money be too important. But at the same time I cant help but feel a bit like I SHOULD be worried about finances so parts of the course telling me not to focus on money are leaving me unsure of how to feel about it. Your LP can bring money but it's not the sole focus. The focus is what aligns with your values and what you can give to the world that is unique to you and your inspiration. It's okay to take steps to accomplish full focus on your LP. It's okay when the steps look like working at your local supermarket to secure steady income for the moment.

You can make yourself get trapped in any stage. Traps: Orange likes for example to turn secularism into a second religion. The paradigm of secular materialism can be quite imprisoning when the culture is at the same level and one cannot see & envision beyond that. There is also more isolation from nature (cause it's just resources to be used) and less human-centered interaction which is then opened up at green. So, all this judgement is fine, but did you actually change the way you lived your life in that year? Did you focus on winning, getting to the top and primarily wanted to be materially rich (having good looking clothes, car, house, lifestyle)? Was your focus on practical hands-on self-help to make yourself productive and out-compete others? Did you want to get recognition for your success? The thing is that Green emerges best when you exhaust Orange like you having burnout after the one year and turning to parts of life that are feeling good to your heart. A good way to ask yourself is: Do I avoid some part of life like being productive & opportunistic by going into Green when I know I should have the foundation of material security settled? It can also be a trap to disregard Orange when you want to dive deep into Green. 1. Search for a healthy role model 2. Study their work, thinking, system of values and life princples 3. Emulate how they think, model them and satisfy those needs what they are trying to satisfy 4. Make sure you watch out for possible limitations and toxic tendencies You can do all that. What the limitation would be is to search for satisfaction or purpose in having a nicer house instead of making it just a nicer living environment. But don't worry much about limitations. Just be aware of excesses in your life. Well you now recognize that you don't want to have any serious worries about gas money. Perhaps you just need the gas money

20:27 is nice

@ALLIS Is it different to reiki?

I share it every time when I meet someone who is open minded to these kinda topics. Which is rare.

Does one also get a penalty when one shares links to shadow libraries?

Instead of grasping for higher stages go integrate the ones you innocently made a shadow of. A solid foundation for any structure makes more sense than just building up higher and higher. But maybe you have to learn the lesson yourself. Maybe you have to try reaching for the sky without grounding and then realize that the highest tree needs deep roots. It can require letting go of one's pride or precious self-image to go work on the foundation and invite self-acceptance of one's true position in life.