Loving Radiance

Without bias it wouldn't be Oneness.

I'm in tears. Thanks @Nahm @Juliano Zn Talking about synchronicities Me too. Could have never come at a better time.

Thank you so much I never could quite give it a name. It clears up alot for me.

(good work )

@Illusory Self Use the emotional release tools every morning. It helps tremendously to get the emotional energies flowing. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLKmB51wF7NlDZgRnxUlt7BF60VQtciuH

@Yoremo You bet. Just stay with that highened state of consciousness after breathing. Become still and meditate for some minutes.

Great find!

It begins at 33:39

@SonataAllegro thanks

@Scholar Thank you for your reflection on this thread. Especially the coming back to your own experience feels good to read. Nice introspection work.

@mememe Thanks for the suggestions Why that is particular?

Hm yeah, oneness seems not attractive to me atm. For now I'm fine with that cost and tbh even relieved.

Without reading what you wrote before I think it's not healthy. With your experience in mind I'd say that I shouldn't not go further even though I imagine that for me there would be no "me" to believe that I can read people's minds. I imagine it would be just without control and seeing no difference between a fork and a salat. Super interesting how the mind imagines that.

@mememe It is a fundamental assumption that this duality is real. Edit: Be it functional/unfunctional or sane/insane. That is the question, what does it cost me to believe this duality to be real?

@mememe There's nothing in particular about a table. I meant not only a table but all of "physical reality".

Secure with avoidant tendencies. Most of my avoidant tendencies stem from living as a teenager in a big city without any real friends.

This thread is amazing. Thank you all for contributing.

⮩ Man Of No Ego - Web Of Life (432hz album) with quotes from Alan Watts ⮩ This is the 2nd one: Man Of No Ego - Blinkers Removed (432hz album) 3rd one: Man Of No Ego - Lightworks (432hz album) with quotes from Ramana Maharshi I can recommend all of them

Avoiding myself - not feeling myself & reflecting on my past posts Today's video is something that has been with me for a long time. Coming now to some excerpts from Adyashanti's book The End Of Your World. I found that chapter five - Coming Completely Out of Hiding was the most relevant. Curiously, I listened to this chapter alot over the course of this year because it resonated so much with me. Even though I listened to it many times, I still played video games, did workshops, watched videos, series & movies of any kind to avoid myself. I did all that and there was a knowing that did it to not feel myself. And I chose to continue to avoid myself in that depressive state. I somewhat more noticeably started to move out of this state and it still continues on to today. The post "On depressive periods" was written in one of the lucid moments where I saw myself. After that I forgot and went back into being more unconscious. Of course growth isn't a straight line. Most of the time when I did shamanic breathing there was the realization that I don't feel myself. And I still went back to unconsciousness. I feel I even avoided shamanic breathing and any kind of spiritual practice and self-reflection because I didn't want to look at myself. All that continued after the "On depressive periods" post and I just became more aware of it. I like to imagine that there is sudden change in behavior. There is a movement now towards being true to myself, feeling my goodness and to make it a meditation. Well, well... here are the exerpts from The End Of Your World (or go to the reading sample): Reflecting on my past posts https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/ What I described here is exactly what I fall into when cuddling with someone or being in a cuddle puddle. There are also energetic releases when I am in that trance like state. I described my inner child here. I hold myself like a parent its child when I feel myself. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/?do=findComment&comment=956636 This is nicely fitting to feeling and holding myself. It is the homeostatic ways of behavior which can be frustrating when I feel they don't resonate and they keep appearing. Make feeling and holding yourself a meditation - always come back when attention wanders off. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/#comment-777500 Rather than being a person that protects itself with an armor of distance, arrogance & avoidance or a person that protects itself with wearing vulnerability as an armor, be no person and just let life force flow through you. Don't be the person called no person. Just be, let go of any person you think you should be and allow life to flow through your already transparent being. There will be tendencies to stay a certain way. And you will fail repeatedly because ice wants to not be fluid. But perhaps it's better at first to wear less that normal and then to move to wearing nothing and being vulnerable. Then it's letting go of being someone who wears nothing and is vulnerable. Being transparent and flow. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/?page=2#comment-905286 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/#comment-828873 He saw me. He saw how I was in my head. This realization is now more embodied and I still continue my journey in tantra workshops and retreats to chase this. I want to be in my body and flowing. Ritual cacao brings me there and it's nice to remind myself again & again what it is that I want to be, and I don't want to be reliant on it. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/?do=findComment&comment=874782 Since early November at a community retreat, this is now more fluid as I can now express certain aspects of my wants without needing an outcome. It's scary that expression is already the point and anything after that is cream on top. In other aspects of my wants I still feel like attaching to them personally or I feel to uncomfortable. Reading this manual is not going to work when one is in a depression or victim state. It requires a certain level of consciousness to use this. Give yourself up again & again till you are left in your brilliance and all embracing love. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/#comment-854322 There is no letting go to be a person. Suffering points to being a person. I'm so sneaky. It is a tricky thing. The identity wants to catch and repurpose letting go to be a person. It's so easy to believe to be a person who's no person. Thinking to be separate from a supposed identity is already a sneaky way. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/55767-introspection-exploring-the-feeling-dimension/?do=findComment&comment=856129 Love hides behind what I fear. The highest love is behind my greatest fear. I remember getting lucid in a dream because a man chased me. I turned around and he ran through me. I got into a ghostlike state and felt this kind of love which a creator has for his creation.

@Ash55 Are you looking for people like these? https://enneagramegypt.com/ There's also a facebook group called Spiral Dynamics Integral Live (https://www.facebook.com/groups/553824532098882) and a guy who regularly in the zoom meetings also lives in Egypt.

Of course.

A drop in a cloud. Drop merging with ocean.

Nice trip report I really like the twist of giving up and being love. I needed to hear this Do you want answers from us to these questions?

That is true AND one gotta be careful to not fuck up their mind e.g. by tripping nonstop.