Loving Radiance

@Khan 0 True, every sentence is a construct.

Existence is a pointer to the ineffable. It's experience, and not even because it's finite.

"A New Philosophy of Nature: On Ecological Disconnect, Climate Despair, and Moving Forward" has a mix of Green and Yellow.

Explanation of the stage blue side of flat earth and Qanon. It explains ideology and how a mind virus aka conspiracy works. It starts at 12:54.

I think that is the main thing for you. Can you schedule your work hours to another time? If that's not possible then ask around if other people have the same problem and then create a work group. Cause it seems as if you still are overwhelmed and panicking despite having the possibility to ask friends for stuff.

@itachi uchiha Of course it's possible. However these experiences greatly open up the mind to consider more modes of being.

The combination of cuteness and truth is perfect

This. The whole teaching of "no-self" is problematic in this regard. The mind can get so stuck on the notion of no-self that it becomes blind to the fact that all is the God Self. The correct teaching is not no-self, it is God Self. Even though, of course, God has no self. I feel that neo-Advaita and Buddhist style teachings can get people stuck in no-self. Thanks Leo. It feels like a kind of expanded state, but it's twisted animalistic/alien and not clear. In regards to what you wrote I can describe my experience of these DP/DR episodes: I get conscious of the story that the body is not separate from inanimate matter. The whole world including me as LR is seen through the lens of being not real. I believe that my mind constructs everything. I feel the identity being smaller as in close to ego-death. Then there is increased awareness of egoic movement and how thoughts arise which can be attached to. There is in general increased shakiness of the body. IME, I had no focus on being consciousness beyond the mind. There was no focus on no-mind as the mind was actively constructing stories to make sense of the world. Really good description, I experience that too. What do you mean with observing? Do you mean observing the dynamic of attaching to thought which creates panic (which's then also felt in the body)? That's interesting, during these episodes I feel as if being just a small gear in the machine. Thanks! This makes it super clear. It's for me the belief of being not separate from the material universe and feeling this state to be twisted af. The "split betweeen realms" is a good lens to look at DPDR. The stress sensitivity of mentally ill people is also something I notice. My mind happens to come into a twisted mushroom mode for a second when I would feel insecure, anxious or a sudden surprise. Good that I wrote down when it started. I'm so grateful that I still can see when I'm confused in a shroomy way. All in all, this is a well written and thought-out post. Thanks! I think your post is more geared towards what Leo wrote with the neo-Advaita & Buddhist no-mind approach and not towards the mental illness side of this thread amirite?

Thank you, this confirmed it again for me. I think it's good to just hang around in that grey space of spiritual awakening & mental illness and watch how its unfolding till something new arises. Then there is more clarity on how to continue, or not. I haven't done that much introspection to have clarity in that regard. What Mandy described with awareness being beyond the mind feels clear to me and yet it isn't in my direct experience. Well let's see.

@Preety_India @Gesundheit2 @mandyjw @Khan 0 @happyhappy Thanks to all of you.

@mandyjw That is something to ponder and look for in direct experience. Thanks! I wonder, who's so sneaky to hide behind the mask of no mask

Because they have no epistemic foundation to ground themselves in or do you mean something else?

Holy shit, feel like loosing my mind again after watching it for an hour.

Could you elaborate a little more on this? Looking at it from the Absolute-relative lens, thoughts and bias are finite. Oneness is infinite. It's like, "But Leo, why couldn't reality exclude bias?" "Because it would be evil and not Good." @Roy Please close this topic.

I listened to Leo's recent video The Avoidance Of Truth - Why You Fear Truth. He said that there's a cost with avoiding truth and denying reality. Whenever I become conscious of my body being the same as this table etc I feel like loosing my mind. This happened alot in the past 3 months when in contemplation and trance. It is very much the same state like on mushrooms, of seeing no difference between anything. There's a recognition that if I would lean more into that then I would be again insane like in my trips. I want to be sure that my body is functional/surviving, and I imagine that there is no difference between functional/surviving and unfunctional/not-surviving in that state. What is the cost of me believing to be sane? Perhaps recognizing the duality of sane & insane? But at what cost?

Without bias it wouldn't be Oneness.

I'm in tears. Thanks @Nahm @Juliano Zn Talking about synchronicities Me too. Could have never come at a better time.

Thank you so much I never could quite give it a name. It clears up alot for me.

(good work )

@Illusory Self Use the emotional release tools every morning. It helps tremendously to get the emotional energies flowing. https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLLKmB51wF7NlDZgRnxUlt7BF60VQtciuH

@Yoremo You bet. Just stay with that highened state of consciousness after breathing. Become still and meditate for some minutes.

Great find!

It begins at 33:39

@SonataAllegro thanks

@Scholar Thank you for your reflection on this thread. Especially the coming back to your own experience feels good to read. Nice introspection work.