Loving Radiance

@B_HAZ If she still can hold a conversation, have a completion conversation with her of speaking about things that are still unresolved. Look at her and feel grateful for her being here. Make it so that in your mind she is already gone and feel the gratitude to experience her right now. Holy fuck, I gotta cry right now. Become conscious of her presence here. Feel thankfulness and joy that she is here with you. This moment will end. At some point you won't see her again in her brilliant light. So, breathe in every detail of her presence & energy. Become still and notice every small thing that you are grateful for. Feel like every moment is the last that you share with her. Feel that gratitude. Isn't it the most beautiful and precious gift that you could ever been given? Her being here right now? You love her so much. Tell her that and let her feel your love. Be conscious here right now. Every moment is infinity that you two spend together. Right now happening to you. Feel that gratitude. After her death, take yourself time and be gentle to yourself. Feel every emotion that comes up even if you judge some to be disrespectful and unloving towards her. You have infinite time to heal. There is no rush. What I suggest to you is two rituals Right before bed, recall her and feel her presence. Let her feel your undying love. Do shamanic breathing for 10 minutes. Then connect with the feeling of her presence and let her feel your love to her. Be open to her communicating anything to you.

Hey @Leo Gura, am I allowed to share my notes on your solipsism video in the summary thread?

In my experience, if you can entertain a thought without attaching to it, then go for it.

I wonder too. There had to be someone or several giving him a good reason.

@Leo Gura Is sharing my notes okay?

@Yoremo Just continue with meditation and trust that there will come a time where you will get interested in enlightenment. It's totally legit to do meditation for self-development. Just make sure to make the practice consistent and focus on what you want to experience, have, do and be. Everything else will develop naturally. Learn letting go of thoughts by returning to a point of focus during meditation. Then you'll notice immediately how you feel in response to a thought and you can choose to believe it. Only ever accept those thoughts that are aligned with your heart's desire, your passion. And lovingly let go of those that are not aligned. Visualization is great for your passion because you already feel it being the case right now. Also begin a journaling practice. Your introspection, emotional and intellectual intelligence and overall growth will skyrocket with journaling and meditation. Not feeling misable is feeling your already present goodness. What you want is already here. Ground yourself in your presence and you'll feel a knowing arising about how to go about moving from one emotion to another.

Right on ?

@softlyblossoming Thanks!

@Endangered-EGO In the feedback comments of the app I read that people have connection issues 1 to 5 times per 25 min session. Is that true in your experience?

When I look at the suffering in the news I feel motivation. Can you guess how we come to such different views? You are priviledged enough to be able to self-actualize and as a result up lift humanity. You are overlooking the combined change of millions of self-actualizing people. Just make sure that you do your part. Focus on yourself. Then take care of your needs. Focus on chasing women. The roof requires a foundation and walls. I for myself would like to just focus on spirituality but it's not integrous and is an avoidance strategy to not look at the dysfunctional areas of my life. Meditate and realize that the way you look at a thing can be changed in an instant. You can use a table as a working station or as fire wood. So, which perspective serves you more?

There are so much things that you can try and they won't work because you don't really understand yourself why and how you go off track. Are you capable of that insight? If not, start meditation and become conscious of your internal dynamics. You'll see yourself more clearly. Your focus on being consistent is good. Make a dreamboard and write consistent on it. Look at it every morning and visualize the present you to be this already. With time you'll notice when you get sidetracked. The thing is that consistent means to continue despite any failures and sidetracks. So keep the eye on the ball. I think this podcast is a good resource for you: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPNW_gerXa4Pc8S2qoUQc5e8Ir97RLuVW

@Khan 0 It's communication.

What I now see is that it's triggered from thought and recontextualizes all perception. It's still story. And it was arrived at by forceful energy of intellectually deconstructing the very basis what is thought of as real. It's in duality. I don't agree with the surrendering to it instead of resisting. Wait, did I ever surrender to the episodes? Yeah, and it was still twisted. It didn't feel good. Looking for reasons in the past for why it happens in order to undo and become normal again never occured to me.

@Khan 0 True, every sentence is a construct.

Existence is a pointer to the ineffable. It's experience, and not even because it's finite.

"A New Philosophy of Nature: On Ecological Disconnect, Climate Despair, and Moving Forward" has a mix of Green and Yellow.

Explanation of the stage blue side of flat earth and Qanon. It explains ideology and how a mind virus aka conspiracy works. It starts at 12:54.

I think that is the main thing for you. Can you schedule your work hours to another time? If that's not possible then ask around if other people have the same problem and then create a work group. Cause it seems as if you still are overwhelmed and panicking despite having the possibility to ask friends for stuff.

@itachi uchiha Of course it's possible. However these experiences greatly open up the mind to consider more modes of being.

The combination of cuteness and truth is perfect

This. The whole teaching of "no-self" is problematic in this regard. The mind can get so stuck on the notion of no-self that it becomes blind to the fact that all is the God Self. The correct teaching is not no-self, it is God Self. Even though, of course, God has no self. I feel that neo-Advaita and Buddhist style teachings can get people stuck in no-self. Thanks Leo. It feels like a kind of expanded state, but it's twisted animalistic/alien and not clear. In regards to what you wrote I can describe my experience of these DP/DR episodes: I get conscious of the story that the body is not separate from inanimate matter. The whole world including me as LR is seen through the lens of being not real. I believe that my mind constructs everything. I feel the identity being smaller as in close to ego-death. Then there is increased awareness of egoic movement and how thoughts arise which can be attached to. There is in general increased shakiness of the body. IME, I had no focus on being consciousness beyond the mind. There was no focus on no-mind as the mind was actively constructing stories to make sense of the world. Really good description, I experience that too. What do you mean with observing? Do you mean observing the dynamic of attaching to thought which creates panic (which's then also felt in the body)? That's interesting, during these episodes I feel as if being just a small gear in the machine. Thanks! This makes it super clear. It's for me the belief of being not separate from the material universe and feeling this state to be twisted af. The "split betweeen realms" is a good lens to look at DPDR. The stress sensitivity of mentally ill people is also something I notice. My mind happens to come into a twisted mushroom mode for a second when I would feel insecure, anxious or a sudden surprise. Good that I wrote down when it started. I'm so grateful that I still can see when I'm confused in a shroomy way. All in all, this is a well written and thought-out post. Thanks! I think your post is more geared towards what Leo wrote with the neo-Advaita & Buddhist no-mind approach and not towards the mental illness side of this thread amirite?

Thank you, this confirmed it again for me. I think it's good to just hang around in that grey space of spiritual awakening & mental illness and watch how its unfolding till something new arises. Then there is more clarity on how to continue, or not. I haven't done that much introspection to have clarity in that regard. What Mandy described with awareness being beyond the mind feels clear to me and yet it isn't in my direct experience. Well let's see.

@Preety_India @Gesundheit2 @mandyjw @Khan 0 @happyhappy Thanks to all of you.

@mandyjw That is something to ponder and look for in direct experience. Thanks! I wonder, who's so sneaky to hide behind the mask of no mask

Because they have no epistemic foundation to ground themselves in or do you mean something else?