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@Preety_India wow thank you for your response. The list you gave is great, screenshoted it for sure ,thank you. I am actually working on some of the stuff you mentioned. I had a bad history of wild thoughts that destroyed my masculinity. I developed a repressing mechanism for myself which did this to me, but it is time for change. Thank you

Also I feel threatened around overmasculine dudes

@Preety_India do you mean repress? Lately I have been dealing with my social anxiety problems. But throughout out my childhood and teen years, I have not been very expressive, or courageous. I easily become shy, and I don't want to make any problems. I can't easily stand my ground. Which made me not willing to express my ideas. I repressed my sexuality in the name of religion and don't have a lot of charisma. I am not that comfortable around people and have problems in expressing myself

I tend to repress my masculinity. I discovered that I have this problem. I started to try to release this repression while I am meditating. It also causes a blockage to my energy, I can feel it in my throat. During tripping ،I see my masculine energy exploding Any tips?

We need a Hitler version of leo ??. Gas chambers for devils ??

Dosage : I honestly don't know. I have tripped on acid previously and it was way more intense. I may say it is like 60 ug since I didn't see any patterns and since it was not like that one on 130 ug where I felt like real existential pressure. I am on SSRIs so this may also explain why it was weak. my acid is advertised as 200 ug but I don't believe this shit, it was way much weaker. settings and intentions : alone in my room. I was mainly on doing psychotherapy. I have social anxiety and OCD and they caused a lot of suffering to me. they inhibited every aspect of my life including spiritualist spiritual Insights : *when I was reaching the peak , I was meditating and looking inward. it was a strange feeling . I was expecting my identity to expand or dissolve because this is what I feel when I go deep with spiritual feelings but that didn't happen. what happened is I went into this very calm and peaceful moment, and then I realized that I am what have been seeking all this long. I was very surprised by this realization although I am really into non-duality and hear a lot of you are GOD. I said ahhhhhaaaa now I see it, I hid my self from my self to rediscover my self, what a joy. I started saying I am GOD in Arabic , I am Allah again and again which is something I don't really do, this was my first time. this is enlightenment , I am really god . then I contemplated how fool are blue religious people. how deluded they are, how blind they are. I also contemplated Mohammad, and How he fooled all these red people into religion while he knew the truth that he is GOD. I started to become mad about the truth that I discovered, and I felt like all my problem's were solved instantly , there was no problems any more, I was totally surrendering everything. I was making sure that I must never forget this truth, that I am GOD. I kept reassuring myself that this not acid stuff , this is real !!!! * a real insight is a change of reality and perspective that is as real as seeing your own hand !! this is the level that I must seek. * I felt like my body contained galaxies and stars and planets, * I started imaging very religious symbols form other religions like blue avatars from Hinduism and strange christian symbols. also rays that contained animals , unicorns , rainbows and they were rapidly unraveling their content which was essentially everything psychotherapuetic insights : these were even more important to me than the spiritual insights * I keep doing this, commentating negatively on my behaviors and feelings and this causes me to become anxious and depressed. this is it , this is the core of all my problems. I need to stop doing that. I felt that deeply and challenged those thoughts and let them go * I stored a lot of my negative feelings in my abdomen and head. I must start working on releasing them * I really love people. I care about them. I am not an introvert. surprisingly , I have been discovering lately that the true me is more extroverted than introverted *work slowly on your goals. step by step. not jumps and falls. * the pain you feel during your trips ( headaches and abdominal pain) is just really how you live your life daily. pain and misery * I became really conscious of how blue and underdeveloped my society is and how way more developed western societies are. I became conscious of how sexually repressed we are as Muslims which is something I didn't really see previously

Last night in my bed , I started contemplating nothingness. How am I nothingness? How is all of this nothingness? I asked . And slowly I was absorbed into this state. I started really to vanish and become nothingness!!. What!!. I was vanishing slowly and I reached the threshold where I am about to breakthrough. I was pushing and accepting but I couldn't. I couldn't take a breath. I was suffocating , at least that is how it felt. I couldn't push more. What really amazes me is that I have not done a lot of yoga or meditation. But how am I offered this chance to enlighten ??? I have been struggling with mental illnesses lately and taking medication. Is that related somehow ?

Cannot we get a mega thread for clips like those. It will be one of top things in this fourm if done.

Highly spiritual clip from the movie , the fountain. It super charges my motivation for the spiritual journey everytime. Note: wait for the end, it is the most amazing part.

I stumbled upon this mini-series by vice : people talk about night room retreats, but what about those. You don't see anything inside and you also lose sensation of your body.

I just want to make it clear. What we want here is not examples ,like videos and quotes like those found on the mega-thread. I want just a plain list of names of those individuals.

I know there is a mega-thread for each stage of spiral dynamics, but still I think it is a good idea to have a list ,just a plain list of examples of the healthiest people of every stage on the spiral to be really able appreciate the core of each stage. thank you

Deathstranding looks good too.

Like what? I don't think I am getting you here ?