I think that not necessarily the "stigma" (as much as it can be considered stigma to go into burnout from exploitation) of the first job precludes this, indeed it could even demonstrate your motivation. In any case try to put money aside and prepare an external situation of independence (such as a vegetable garden and a side hussle. It is probably very difficult because at amazon they are not renowned for leaving too much free time, I think it's a bargaining strategy, being all that the worker has will do everything not to lose the position.
Crying is good, but don't overlook the fact that this could change your life in a meaningful way, I can't immagine how the shock hurted to you, but this change could become a good thing in the long run!