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I noticed I don't have a good study plan, so when I'm about to start, I don't know it beforehand what I'm gonna be working on. I've noticed that creates an additional resistance layer. I'll spend some time today creating a plan so that on every study block I know what I'm gonna focus on exactly.

For the past few years, I’ve been struggling to stay consistent with myself — with the promises I make to myself, with integrity, and with discipline. I’ve examined this many times and identified some fundamental issues that I’m working to fix. This journal will serve as public accountability while I build the foundation for the next phase of my life. I’ve just turned 30, and I now realize how little time I have and how easy it is to waste most of it. I need to take much more action than I did in my 20s. Currently, I’m struggling with addiction, I’m overweight, I do the bare minimum at my job as a software developer, I don’t exercise much, and I deal with some anxiety. I know how to fix all of it — and more. I know what to do to make my life unrecognizably better (at least to try my best), and inaction only makes me resent myself more. I know what to do. I just have to do it. This thread will help me stay accountable. I’ll be posting every Saturday with a report on the previous week. This is how it will go. Phase 1: 3 Months I’ve been overconsuming pornography and engaging in compulsive masturbation. Since I’m single and somewhat isolated, I need to control this habit. I will abstain from both to reset my dopamine reward cycle. I’ve been slacking off at work, so I need to refocus and concentrate more. I currently work in 45-minute blocks, then rest for a few minutes, repeating this 2–3 times a day. I want to increase this to at least 6 blocks. Work inconsistency has caused me to sleep very late or work late into the night. As I fix my work habits, my sleep habits should improve as well. My goal is to sleep at least 7 hours, from 12:00 a.m. to 7:00 a.m. I’ve gained a lot of weight. I’m currently around 105 kg and eat a lot of junk food. The plan is to build muscle and lose fat simultaneously until I reach 72–75 kg. Eat 1,800–2,000 calories with at least 160 g of protein Weight train at least 3 times per week Jog for 30 minutes at least 3 times per week Cut out junk food at least 90% of the time I work as a software developer, and the industry is changing rapidly. I need to keep up. I will invest at least 1–2 hours per day in studying, building side projects, or diving deeper into AI. Read books for at least 1 hour per day. Summary of Phase 1 No porn or masturbation No social media Limited YouTube/Reddit for recreation 6–8 daily 45-minute work blocks 1–2 hours of study 1 hour of reading Fixing sleep routine Weight loss: 1,800–2,000 calories 3x weightlifting, 3x cardio weekly Cut out junk food Phase 2: 3 Months On top of the foundation built in Phase 1: Add spiritual practices: Mindfulness meditation (breath-focused) and Kriya Yoga pranayama Add therapeutic practices such as shamanic breathwork, TRE (Trauma Release Exercises), and self-therapy journaling to work through unresolved trauma and issues from the past few years Continue weight loss and exercise — likely reaching target weight by the end of Phase 2 Continue reading and studying Allow masturbation at most once per week after the first 90 days, since more than that negatively affects my life Phases 3 and 4 I can’t say much about these yet. I imagine strengthening spiritual practices, making them more focused and prioritized, socializing more, and possibly starting to date — though dating may be too distracting at the moment, and I don't want it honestly since I've recently got out of a LTR. Phases 4+ Getting involved with psychedelics More socializing More dating experience Starting to work on additional income streams aside from my job Working on creative projects Traveling Meeting new people Exciting things — but first, the foundation. That’s the plan. I won’t plan further than this because planning is a trap for me. Planning gives me a false sense of accomplishment, but it isn’t real progress. Real accomplishment comes from daily execution — day in and day out. It’s that simple. I’ll update every Saturday. 52 updates total. Let’s see how far I go. See you next week.

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Hey, I'm working as a software developer (mostly web) for 8-9 years now, and for the last couple years, the industry is being reshaped in front of my eyes due to AI. At the moment, it's like, if you don't use some sort of AI agent in your workflow, you're getting behind, and you feel that each month. Managers push us to use AI more and more, and expect productivity gains due to it, and for the last 2-3 months, AI agents have improved to such a degree that me and most developers around me don't actually type code manually, the process has morphed into talking with an agent, or multiple agents at once, and basically orchestrating them, reviewing code, making sure they do the job correctly, and if an agent isn't able to do something, then we switch back to an old school way and do things manually. These agents affected the industry so much that many of us have anxiety over losing our jobs in the long term. That's why now I'm switching more and more into roles and projects that require more architectural and big-picture thinking skills. If not at the current job, I try to advance those skills with my own toy projects in my free time. So, I was wondering if any of you guys experience similar changes due to AI in your induestries. Would be interesting to hear your thoughts.

@integral What practices led to that permanent state? Do you still have it?

[3/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses => oh man, the whole day was filled with triggers, but didn't act on them 18m meditation => felt aggitated in the end and stopped 6m pranayamas => starting slow, have to make sure the technique is correct first 1.5h reading Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study => I had lots of work to do and haven't found time for studying Okay, now the 4th day, it's been going fine so far.

I loved Mirrors Edge, the first one though, haven't played the second one. This was like a soundtrack for some part of my childhood I played it so much lol. Is sequel also good?

"Humans are gradually becoming less involved in the loop of recursive self-improvement. It's not fully automated, it may be end of this year, but not later than next year" - Elon Musk Bullshit hype continues? Or there is something happening that we're not aware of. Probably not.

You saw the aliens?

@cistanche_enjoyer How would you define a "real" friendship? For me, it depends. Sometimes when I just want to socialize and have fun, I don't seek out friends with whom I'd have philosophical discussions. When I want to talk about something deeper or share my own stuggles or hardships, there are 1-2 friends that I'd go to. Is the second one more real than the first one? I don't know.

But you have to start somewhere, right? People have different degrees of interest in truth seeking, and when you explicate to yourself that truth seeking is something you want to do, the motivations might not be pure initially, but the more you do it, year after year, it gets more clear if you do it right. I think nobody starts this journey with 100% pure intention, it gets developed over time. Along the way you discover all the shit you hide from yourself, even your egotistical motivations behind truth seeking, and that's part of the path, isn't it?

@Leo Gura Did you do more trips than Martin Ball? It's also interesting if he experienced some health side-effects since he has done lots of that stuff.

The hardest desicions was forced upon me that I had to just accept the reality of them and move on. One of those was when I was forced to provide for my family financially in my early 20s due to my father's unsuccessful business and huge depth, but it grew and matured me a lot earlier in life. Another one was unexpected death of my father, which happened just the time I was accepting him fully, forgiving him and was developing a more loving father-son relationship. He was pretty young, 54 years old, I was in my late 20s. I was forced to accept the fact that it was over, Another one was a breakup, as for many of you. It was one of the bitter emotions that I had felt in my life. It was awful. It was a choice that I was hesitating making but the other side put a nail on the coffin, and forced my decision. I'm sure I'll be having lots like these in the future to come, and I'm greateful for the old hard experiences that taught me very valuable lessons.

Lol. Come on.

[2/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses 20m meditation 10m pranayamas 1h reading 30m run Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study Okay, still going okay, again study was skipped because I postponed it till late evening and then I was too lazy and sleepy / tired to do it. I'll try to do it in the morning before work, let's see how it goes.

Take your time, it's a lifelong journey. Yes Arlond is one of the healthier examples of masculinity for sure. I also like that book. You can check David Deida's work for a healthy masculine perspective, also has some spiritual component in it. Also do your research and share with us what you find 😉 Maybe there are some books that's not as popular as Deida's but better.

@Leo Gura It's not that AI does software for you, it's that you use AI to assist you in building software more rapidly than you could solo. And that causes distress in many developers because before agentic coding assistence you had a feeling that you owned what you wrote because it was all generated by you, it was all done through struggle and hard-earned experience. Now even if 30% (it's much more then that) of the code is assisted by LLM model, you end up feeling emotionally detached from the work you do, and it's different in nature from the way you worked before. Maybe it just needs getting used to. There aren't any serious software thats made with AI, but all the software today is being made with AI's assistence. Even if you ask ChatGPT to help you with fixing error, thats AI assistence, it doesnt mean that AI does the software.

That 10x thing is a clickbait, but it is a fact that computer programming field is being changed pretty rapidly that affect daily job of developers so much that it causes existential questioning and meaning crisis, and it will continue to do so going forwards. No other field is being changed this much due to LLMs and agents. This was the easiest to affect due to the nature of a job and its relation to what an LLM does. I'm not saying it will cause insane productivity gains or it will replace anyone. I'm trying to see what's actually happening.

Good catch. Being distracted is also one of the reason that I didn't achieve what I realistically could in the past few years. Cheap dopamine addictions, emotional irregularity, yo-yo habits, perfectionism, focusing on too many things at once / wrong things, procrastinating and not planning my days properly, wasting my time in unresourceful relationships, etc, all contributed. Just make sure to not try to get focused on 10 things at once all of a sudden, just identify the core issues you have, commit and focus on them deliberately each day until you feel it's locked in, and then move on to the other ones. Good luck 💪

Ralston realizing Absolute Love before GTA VI I wonder if that's included in his recent deeper realizations. He doesn't mention it in any of the other books.

"I was a 10x engineer. Now I'm useless" => https://x.com/atmoio/status/2030289138126107074?s=46&t=efdKEjqLRXtLo5-P5HnZFQ I relate to this.

Thanks, just ordered it. Can't wait to read it.

@Starlight321 Theory is good, but focus more on practice. Train in various ways: physical, mental, emotional. Take up more responsibility in life, set goals and lead yourself into actually accomplishing them over and over again. Learn from your mistakes. Take charge of your life, also help out others if you can (your family for example). Learn a difficult skill that requires patience and discipline. Study history. Study how people handled hardships all throught the history. Study and work on emboding the following principles: responsibility, competence, strength, discipline, courage, leadership, integrity, emotional control. There are so many ways of practicing each of these, get creative. Have you been doing all these?

@CARDOZZO Jesus, my ears. Why is he shouting all the time? Is that perceived as more effective communication, or what? He's mocking Eckhart Tolle. This feels off. Haven't watched the whole thing. Does he actually talk about Truth and Awakening? What does he mean by awakening?

Small point regarding the humor post: I've always had a good sense of humor, especially since I've worked on my social anxiety after 20+ years old, and later when I watched that How To Be Funny video, I've realized that I was doing exactly that but somehow intuitively, and I also noticed that I liked doing that not only because I was getting positive feedback from outside, but also because it was fun. It felt really good. Just that. When you are able to be humorous in a social gathering, but intuitively, not in a cringy needy way, it feels very refreshing and pleasant. That one trait makes the experience so much better and fun, also social interactions much easier and resourceful even.