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As he said, the ending suffering book was initially part of this new book, but he seperated it because it was getting too much, and made it into a separate book. He's been working on that for 10 years.

Yea, somebody should email Bryan's posts to Brandon so they are aware

[4/30] ✅ I relapsed again, but I realized it's not a good idea to fight this thing the way I do it. I'll change a strategy, since I have a very high sex drive, I just can't completely cut that out of my life, I'll remove any external stimulation (videos, photos, etc), I'll just make a practice out of it, couple times a month to get to know my own body and feelings better. The addiction part comes from external stimulation, so I'll track that, that's unhealthy for me, not the release part. Sleep: 11:00 => 06:30 (oh man, I feel such a releif that this routine if finally locked in, struggled so much because of it) What I did: 20m meditation 6m pranayamas 45m reading Push workout 45m Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study => Still, I had lots of work to do, and was too tired in the evening, and was working in the morning too. So, a summary: I'm working with meditative practices in baby steps, I should not judge the progress for at least 6 months, I just gotta show up every day and follow the practice instruction as best as I can. So far so good. Weight loss and exercise are locked in, I'm tracking progress with a coach and I won't derail here anymore, in 6 months I'll achieve my weight loss goal and then I'll switch to maintenance calories, and continue exercising (with more intensity) I read daily, I have tens of books to read so that's crucial. This habit is locked in. Sleep schedule is fixed and locked in. I'll be working on a healthy sexuality habits, that is the main focus now, I want to stop doing it compulsively and out of an addiction, and switch to a more healthy version, because complete abstinense didn't work (at least now, I'll try again in 1-2 months when the healthier habit is in place) I need to put more focus into allocating time for study / personal projects. Work eats up all time and energy from the day, so it will be wise to do this in the morning. But morning is for practices / working out, I have to squeeze that as well somehow. Okay, now the most important thing is to not relapse anymore, and just continue my habits as best as I can.

For the past few years, I’ve been struggling to stay consistent with myself — with the promises I make to myself, with integrity, and with discipline. I’ve examined this many times and identified some fundamental issues that I’m working to fix. This journal will serve as public accountability while I build the foundation for the next phase of my life. I’ve just turned 30, and I now realize how little time I have and how easy it is to waste most of it. I need to take much more action than I did in my 20s. Currently, I’m struggling with addiction, I’m overweight, I do the bare minimum at my job as a software developer, I don’t exercise much, and I deal with some anxiety. I know how to fix all of it — and more. I know what to do to make my life unrecognizably better (at least to try my best), and inaction only makes me resent myself more. I know what to do. I just have to do it. This thread will help me stay accountable. I’ll be posting every Saturday with a report on the previous week. This is how it will go. Phase 1: 3 Months I’ve been overconsuming pornography and engaging in compulsive masturbation. Since I’m single and somewhat isolated, I need to control this habit. I will abstain from both to reset my dopamine reward cycle. I’ve been slacking off at work, so I need to refocus and concentrate more. I currently work in 45-minute blocks, then rest for a few minutes, repeating this 2–3 times a day. I want to increase this to at least 6 blocks. Work inconsistency has caused me to sleep very late or work late into the night. As I fix my work habits, my sleep habits should improve as well. My goal is to sleep at least 7 hours, from 12:00 a.m. to 7:00 a.m. I’ve gained a lot of weight. I’m currently around 105 kg and eat a lot of junk food. The plan is to build muscle and lose fat simultaneously until I reach 72–75 kg. Eat 1,800–2,000 calories with at least 160 g of protein Weight train at least 3 times per week Jog for 30 minutes at least 3 times per week Cut out junk food at least 90% of the time I work as a software developer, and the industry is changing rapidly. I need to keep up. I will invest at least 1–2 hours per day in studying, building side projects, or diving deeper into AI. Read books for at least 1 hour per day. Summary of Phase 1 No porn or masturbation No social media Limited YouTube/Reddit for recreation 6–8 daily 45-minute work blocks 1–2 hours of study 1 hour of reading Fixing sleep routine Weight loss: 1,800–2,000 calories 3x weightlifting, 3x cardio weekly Cut out junk food Phase 2: 3 Months On top of the foundation built in Phase 1: Add spiritual practices: Mindfulness meditation (breath-focused) and Kriya Yoga pranayama Add therapeutic practices such as shamanic breathwork, TRE (Trauma Release Exercises), and self-therapy journaling to work through unresolved trauma and issues from the past few years Continue weight loss and exercise — likely reaching target weight by the end of Phase 2 Continue reading and studying Allow masturbation at most once per week after the first 90 days, since more than that negatively affects my life Phases 3 and 4 I can’t say much about these yet. I imagine strengthening spiritual practices, making them more focused and prioritized, socializing more, and possibly starting to date — though dating may be too distracting at the moment, and I don't want it honestly since I've recently got out of a LTR. Phases 4+ Getting involved with psychedelics More socializing More dating experience Starting to work on additional income streams aside from my job Working on creative projects Traveling Meeting new people Exciting things — but first, the foundation. That’s the plan. I won’t plan further than this because planning is a trap for me. Planning gives me a false sense of accomplishment, but it isn’t real progress. Real accomplishment comes from daily execution — day in and day out. It’s that simple. I’ll update every Saturday. 52 updates total. Let’s see how far I go. See you next week.

Can't wait to read this, he's such a gem. I hope he lives a long time to come, he looks very good for 76 years old.

@glassfire Okay, got it. When I first heared of lucid dreaming and started reality checks, I got lucid very easily. I think the excitement part plays a big role, it also goes with you when you sleep. Once it became mechanical, it stopped working. Yeah I've had those, and woke up with frustration that I was so stupid not to realize that it was actually a dream, when the content of the dream was about lucid dreaming.

@integral Thanks, I'll look into this more. So I guess the key thing here is doing sports/gym with awareness right? I go to gym but most of the times I just follow the motions without body awareness, but from time to time if I direct my awareness to the muscle group I'm working at, exercise actually feels to be more effective.

He said couple years ago that the age of self-driving cars being everywhere was just around the corner. Well, when was the last time you saw a self-driving car on the streets. I don't believe anything he says.

How could these induce a lucid dream? Did this actually work for you?

Leo is on fire lately 😅 Hard to keep up with all the blog posts. I went into Soft White Underbelly channel rabbit-hole, watched tens of interviews, it's really a goldmine. Good stuff. Just finished this one. Jesus, it's really eye opening the shit some people go through in their childhood into their adulthood. What I like about these inteviews is on the one hand you get first hand perspective on some crazy stories, and also it makes you reflect on your life more. This helps me look outside my bubble a bit.

@VioletFlame Hey, your story is very inspiring, thanks for sharing 💙🙏🏻 I'll ask you couple things, since you have a massive experience in dealing with trauma. I wasn't so explicitly traumatized in the childhood, but I sense that I have some behavioral tendencies for example towards some addictions, or for isolation, for emotional avoidance, not expressing myself fully, etc. Some of those might be rooted in some experiences that I had, but I can't fully connect the dots. In your experience, after all those practices you list above, did you also connect some dots that you weren't aware of, or were all your trauma and hardships linked to that major experience of abuse you had from your brother? This year I started working on some theraputic practices. Going to therapy didn't work, it was a waste of time for me, I did couple holotropic breathwork sessions and I plan to continue weekly and now I'm learning TRE (Trauma Release Exercises), also I'm gaining some momentum in my meditation and yogic practice. I'll dive deeper and deeper as months go by, hopefully some things will pop up and I'll understand reasonings behind my own structures better. Lastly, how do you think, if you didn't experience the abuse you describe, how would your life unfold? What would you do differently? In what ways would you be different than you are now? Btw you sing really well, just watched your TikToks. It's great that you've found your creative outlet after the things you went through. Good luck with your studies 🙌

Depends on the app.

I noticed I don't have a good study plan, so when I'm about to start, I don't know it beforehand what I'm gonna be working on. I've noticed that creates an additional resistance layer. I'll spend some time today creating a plan so that on every study block I know what I'm gonna focus on exactly.

https://www.reddit.com/r/singularity/comments/1rr247v/being_a_developer_in_2026/

Hey, I'm working as a software developer (mostly web) for 8-9 years now, and for the last couple years, the industry is being reshaped in front of my eyes due to AI. At the moment, it's like, if you don't use some sort of AI agent in your workflow, you're getting behind, and you feel that each month. Managers push us to use AI more and more, and expect productivity gains due to it, and for the last 2-3 months, AI agents have improved to such a degree that me and most developers around me don't actually type code manually, the process has morphed into talking with an agent, or multiple agents at once, and basically orchestrating them, reviewing code, making sure they do the job correctly, and if an agent isn't able to do something, then we switch back to an old school way and do things manually. These agents affected the industry so much that many of us have anxiety over losing our jobs in the long term. That's why now I'm switching more and more into roles and projects that require more architectural and big-picture thinking skills. If not at the current job, I try to advance those skills with my own toy projects in my free time. So, I was wondering if any of you guys experience similar changes due to AI in your induestries. Would be interesting to hear your thoughts.

@integral What practices led to that permanent state? Do you still have it?

[3/30] ✅ What I did: No relapses => oh man, the whole day was filled with triggers, but didn't act on them 18m meditation => felt aggitated in the end and stopped 6m pranayamas => starting slow, have to make sure the technique is correct first 1.5h reading Caloric deficit What I didn't do: Study => I had lots of work to do and haven't found time for studying Okay, now the 4th day, it's been going fine so far.

I loved Mirrors Edge, the first one though, haven't played the second one. This was like a soundtrack for some part of my childhood I played it so much lol. Is sequel also good?

"Humans are gradually becoming less involved in the loop of recursive self-improvement. It's not fully automated, it may be end of this year, but not later than next year" - Elon Musk Bullshit hype continues? Or there is something happening that we're not aware of. Probably not.

You saw the aliens?

@cistanche_enjoyer How would you define a "real" friendship? For me, it depends. Sometimes when I just want to socialize and have fun, I don't seek out friends with whom I'd have philosophical discussions. When I want to talk about something deeper or share my own stuggles or hardships, there are 1-2 friends that I'd go to. Is the second one more real than the first one? I don't know.

But you have to start somewhere, right? People have different degrees of interest in truth seeking, and when you explicate to yourself that truth seeking is something you want to do, the motivations might not be pure initially, but the more you do it, year after year, it gets more clear if you do it right. I think nobody starts this journey with 100% pure intention, it gets developed over time. Along the way you discover all the shit you hide from yourself, even your egotistical motivations behind truth seeking, and that's part of the path, isn't it?

@Leo Gura Did you do more trips than Martin Ball? It's also interesting if he experienced some health side-effects since he has done lots of that stuff.

The hardest desicions was forced upon me that I had to just accept the reality of them and move on. One of those was when I was forced to provide for my family financially in my early 20s due to my father's unsuccessful business and huge depth, but it grew and matured me a lot earlier in life. Another one was unexpected death of my father, which happened just the time I was accepting him fully, forgiving him and was developing a more loving father-son relationship. He was pretty young, 54 years old, I was in my late 20s. I was forced to accept the fact that it was over, Another one was a breakup, as for many of you. It was one of the bitter emotions that I had felt in my life. It was awful. It was a choice that I was hesitating making but the other side put a nail on the coffin, and forced my decision. I'm sure I'll be having lots like these in the future to come, and I'm greateful for the old hard experiences that taught me very valuable lessons.

Lol. Come on.