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@HopefulMan Hey man, sorry to hear that. I don't have much experience with serious trauma, but when I did Holotropic Breathwork many pent up emotions came up via crying, laughing, shaking, screaming, etc. I still plan to do more of it weekly, maybe you should try that as well. Also, I've been researching some other ways of trauma release, and I've found Trauma Release Exercises (TRE). It's couple somatic exercises with your body that causes shaking and trauma release, you could also do that, you can find instructions on YouTube.

@Joseph Maynor I have periods when I crave lots of alone time, weeks at a time. Then sometimes I crave socialization and I go out from time to time, with friends mostly. But I'd have much better socialization skills if I did it much more. Not at the moment, but in the near future I will. So, I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing if you plan ahead and if it's intentional. When you are working on other aspects of life, socialization might get deprioritized from time to time.

@PolyPeter I'm using Android, but still, drop it in my PM when it's approved.

That's when years of experience come in handy. That's why senior engineers are best users of those tools nowadays. But again, if all the new people vibe-code their way through first years of their careers, I don't know what good will come of that. We'll see. At the moment I see a need for deepening fundamental knowledge and caring about understanding the output of AI plus working on some projects without using LLM's (for solutons, I think it's okay to use for boilerplate even in study projects), just for deepening the knowledge.

@Infinite Tsukuyomi Nice. Why don't you just use honey instead of artificial sweeteners? Not sure if it's healthier though.

@Natasha Tori Maru Oh okay, makes more sense now. I do some of that on some sundays when I'm not too lazy, cutting and prepping ingredients and saving them in the fridge, and use them daily, I just cook the marinated meet and use pre-cut veggies, saves some time. This is the reason I don't go nuts with eating same thing day in day out lol. I just change combination of condoments on my chicken, rice and other things, makes a real difference. Also changing combinations gives me different taste variations, so that meat doesn't taste the same every day. Same. Just imagine the hustle and prepping that people go through when they have a need to eat something different / special each day. So much energy and thought process would go into eating. For me it it's a waste. But I have a friend who can't eat same thing daily and he spends half of his day in the kitchen lol, and always trying to come up with something different daily. Gourmet type of people. Kangaroo hamburger sounds interesting, sounds exotic 😀 Maybe I'll try it one day. The most exotic thing I've tasted outside my local cuisine was some snails in French.

@PolyPeter Yup I've seen it. Good stuff. But still, most of that will be senior positions though.

Just keep in mind, when they conquer us they won't remember that fondly, lol. @PolyPeter Yes same for me, definitelty. I'm starting more projects on my own and learning much more things much faster and easier than before AI. I'm just concerned a bit that I'll lose that pure programming skill over time. I try to do leetcode weekly to keep it sharp. And also dive deeper into technologies and languages itself. Like building an interpreter from scratch, or building a clone of sqlite, stuff like that, that forces you to understand things beyond surface level. I think that's important, especially now.

@Infinite Tsukuyomi Do you make sweet snacks yourself? Could you share some recepies you like? Sometimes I mix banana, raisins and a bit of honey. It does't taste like a candy but pretty sweet. Something like that.

@Natasha Tori Maru Doesn't the taste go wierd in couple days? I also tried meal prepping on sundays for mon-sat but after the middle the week, food lost a fresh taste, it wasn't as tasty as it's when you just prepare it. I switched to daily prepping in the evenings for the next day. It takes 30-35 mins.

Haha what 😆 I remember when I was a kid our local zoo brought a kangoroo and the whole population was rushing there to see it. I didn't know that you could actually it eat, lol. @Natasha Tori Maru What does it taste like?

@Leo Gura Real, but over-exaggerated. Dude got some botox or did some face plastic surgery.

Its been a relatively good day Things I did successfully I'm fixing my schedule, so I got up at 6:45 with 4 hours of sleep, and now its 22:00, preparing to get to sleep so tomorrow I naturally get up early, and must resist urge to nap again, and all is goof No addiction relapses Read 1.5 hours. I read multiple books at once, today I was reading Yeonmi Park's "In Order to Live" and Ralston's old book called "Reflections of Being". Very insightful. Ate 1900 calories with 160g protein Did leg exercises, but I have a knee pain on both of my knees probably because of a sitting pose on my office chair, for months I have one leg bent in a knee and put under the second leg, which is probably the reason of the pain. I'll skip leg exercises till I feel better. Ill focus more on upper body. Run for 12 minutes. Oh god, I'm out of shape, 6 months ago I was running 17-18km without break, now I'm dying at 2km. Such a shame. I've to build up my endurence again, slowly. Walked 6000 steps Cleaned house and orginized working environment Cooked and prepared food for tomorrow What I wanted to do and didn't do: Meditation and Kriya. I'm skipping days again out of pure laziness. I've to get used to doing these first thing in the morning. Haven't done career study, also laziness and procrastination on this front. Those to are very important to me so I'll have to put more effort or figure out why am I resisting this much. Main lessons for today: I have to do meditation and kriya first thing in the morning, at least in this stage when I'm trying to build a consistent habit. Super important. Take care of my knees, I've to fix my sitting posture and observe if pain goes away or not. Tomorrow: I'll wake up at 6:45 and do the practices first thing in the morning Then run for 20-30 minutes Then study for an hour Try to work without procrastination and have a productive day Good luck to me.

Master Debaters 😂 Leo's been watching South Park

@theleelajoker For sure. Too much "solo" can be masking fears of intimacy, connection and relationships in general, and missing growth opportunitues. Currently I'm 5 months post a breakup of a 4 year old relationship, and I'm trying to recalibrate my experience from "we" to "me", and trying to resolve some of the attachment issues and some of the problematic ways that I was behaving during those years. That's why I was emphasizing a solo work.

@vibv He's friends with Eckhart Tolle and was talking about no-self with an interviewer couple years ago. Maybe he's somewhere up in the Himalayas meditationg while the clone does Hollywood stuff.

Looks good for 64 year old dude to me https://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-15575871/What-face-Rosie-Huntington-Whiteley-looks-puffy-Vogue-Australia-event-prompting-wave-online-debate.html Same for this transformers girl here, I wonder how much shit they inject in their faces to look younger.

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0756683/ This movie amazed me lately. With literally zero action and with just couple people talking in the room, it got me captivated for the whole duration.

Nice. That's also what I'm working towards, still in infancy stages but still 🙈 What kept you going daily initially, when you didn't have much results to go with? You just did it over and over again until your senses got developed more and more? Some people told me that it was psychedelic experinces that gave them motivation to practice deeper.

@Natasha Tori Maru Do you practice Yoga? It's literally a practice of manipulating a sexual energy (supposedly), and if you already have high concentration ability with meditation, it would translate into Yoga breathwork nicely.

https://www.amazon.com/Grace-Grit-Spirituality-Healing-Killam/dp/1570627428 Oh you guys should check this out, it's a beautiful love story between two conscious individuals, it's Ken Wilber's couple years of journey with his wife who was suffering with cancer at the end and died unfortunately. It's tragic but a beautiful story of love. Podcasters should talk about shit like this, but I guess it wont generate much views.

@theleelajoker There wasn't even such thing as "dating" for most of human history. I was just listening to Yeonmi Park, North Korean defector, and when she was growing up, there wasn't a concept of "dating" there, even the word love was only preserved for their dictators. Who knows how the this dating thing morphed and got modernized as we have now in the west. Oh and in the past there wasn't video game and porn addiction and living 24/7 in the mom's basement eating cheetos thing 😆 So people socialized by default.

@Natasha Tori Maru For sure, it's so easy to fall into some kind of a dating advice "pill" mindset (via YT, insta, tiktok, you name it) without even recognizing what you're doing, self-deception 101. It's the same problem that we have with anything else, people don't think for themselves, they outsource the biggest decisions of their lives to some YouTube podcasters without even thinking twice, or researching alternative worldviews, because it's much more easy to subscribe to whatever dating advice sounds reasonable at some point in one's life, then to realize that you don't know shit and you have to field test everything, and I mean everything. I have made that mistake so many times, believing shit online and then in real life it was 180 degrees oposite of that. Not all advice is like that, but many are. It's so much healthier to promote ways of moving into secure attachment, but it doesn't sound sexy to young people, you know 😆 The reason I mentioned Ralston here is that it's interesting to me how conscious (much much more conscious then me) people handle intimate relationships. But maybe he's so detached that his experience won't be relateble from my point of view. As I said, development can't be faked and you have to go with whatever you've got in the moment, while working on improving your ways. right partner is a keyword here, because I don't see much couples thinking about dissolving barriers, most are defending their on barriers. Hell, even I wasn't doing that, when I knew better. It was hard, but at the same time it was growth opportunity, which I missed unfortunately. What I concluded from that experience was that first I need to figure out myself and life solo, at least to some degree, to be able to then show up as a dancer in a relationship who can more or less go with the flow of her femininity and dance with her. In that relationship I was like a noob dancer you know, who just doesn't understand when to move his feet, and fucks up the session, and if the other partner isn't a good dancer either, well, it just doesn't work out. I don't just mean figuring out metaphysics, I mean more personal stuff, needs, wants, boundries, reflecting on self-deceptions, loving myself to the point that I live an integrous life. Developing love for life. That can be done solo. Relationship can enrich all that and make it deeper, potentially. Yes it takes a more effort. Not effort per se, more initiative I'd say. In a relationship you're forced to look at your own shit like it or not. When single, you must have some kind of a practice / procedure of self-reflection to fascilitate that kind of "mirror".

@theleelajoker Yeah man I don't know, when it comes to Ralston I kinda hesitate to assume stuff. He's like an alien lol. Speaking for myself, that seems impossible. I hope I'm wrong and somehow there's a possibility out there that I could genuinely satisfy my own needs in that regard but I don't have a desire to pursue that exclusively. If it happens after lots of spiritual and purification work, it would be a nice benefit. I think something like that just comes after a very deep grasp of metaphysics. Can't say. I think this is the video I've heard it from. Maybe I misinterpreted it.

@theleelajoker 😆 I don't read much around this section, maybe I should more, just to add a bit more drama to my day lol. 😂😂 It's all your ladies fault that we're stuck to the same attachment patterns. There you go, now we fit in.